I frowned and said, "I didn't torture myself anymore, I was just a little uncomfortable, that's why I ......"

Lin Rongshen sneered and said: "Charlai, how many times have you woken up crying in your dreams, shouting whose name, and who you are thinking, do you think I won't know?

I said a little weakly, "I'm just not feeling well and have a cold, it's really not like you said." ”

Lin Rongshen said: "Why are you uncomfortable, don't you know in your heart?"

I said, "I'm just a common cold." ”

Lin Rongshen sneered and said, "Then it seems that you can't cure this cold for the rest of your life." ”

After he finished speaking, he got up from the side of the bed and left the door, his back a little indifferent.

Soon the doctor came in and examined my body, and the doctor told me to stabilize my emotions recently, don't think too much, my body itself is weak, if I have fetal gas because of cranky thoughts, the child in the belly will be very dangerous.

I sat there a little annoyed, and I couldn't speak.

The doctor then told me some words, but I didn't listen, because I knew where I was, and in the end, it was all heart disease, and I could not break through the forbidden land in my heart.

I am a murderer, I am the murderer who killed Zhan Dong, I am the murderer who killed everyone in the Zhan family, I have a headache, I grabbed my hair with my hand, and I didn't care about the existence of the doctor at all.

The doctor looked at me for a long time, and then he leaned down and asked me softly, "Mrs. Lin, what's wrong with you?"

I shook my head and said bitterly, "I don't know, I have a headache." ”

The doctor directly pulled my hand off my head, then opened my eyelids, and examined the rest of my body, he then called the nurse to comfort me, and after the nurse surrounded me, the doctor got up and walked towards the door, and Lin Rongshen happened to be standing outside the door talking to someone on the phone, but when he saw the doctor come out, he hung up the phone and turned to look at the doctor.

The doctor obviously had something to say to him, so when Lin Rongshen put away the phone, the doctor took the stethoscope off his neck, and said, "Rongshen, the situation is a little bad." ”

Lin Rongshen glanced at me in the room from the door, and when he saw me covering my head on the bed with a somewhat hideous expression, he withdrew his gaze and said to his fellow senior brother, "Let's talk in another place." ”

After speaking, he walked forward, and the doctor Du Yunsheng also followed Lin Rongshen, and arrived at the quiet corridor, Lin Rongshen sat on the bench, Lin Rongshen's fellow disciple took out a cigarette from his pocket and handed it to him, Lin Rongshen is a non-smoker, so when he saw the cigarette, he originally wanted to refuse, but when the words came to his mouth, he swallowed it again, and stretched out his hand to take the cigarette.

After Du Yunsheng lit it for him, he also lit one himself and asked him how he had been doing in the past few years.

Lin Rongshen looked at the long smoke emitting blue smoke from his fingertips, and said, "That's the situation. ”

Du Yunsheng was with him at Chongzhou University before, but because Lin Rongshen finally changed, they also parted ways, but the relationship between the two was not bad, and they occasionally had contact.

Du Yunsheng smiled and said, "To be honest, I didn't expect you to be in business now. ”

Lin Rongshen flicked the cigarette ash on his fingertips, and said helplessly to Du Yunsheng: "After all, there are still many things that need to be compromised in reality. ”

Du Yunsheng said regretfully: "I think you were a legend of Chongzhou back then, and the teachers regarded you as their pride, but you gave up this industry like this, to be honest, I feel pity." ”

Lin Rongshen was still not used to smoking, so he put out the cigarette in his hand.

He said, "Tell me, what's going on." ”

Du Yunsheng is a well-known expert in neurology, and Lin Rongshen probably had a little guess about my situation in his heart, so he asked Du Yunsheng to come over.

Du Yunsheng said: "The situation is a bit bad, your wife looks very sick." ”

Lin Rongshen said: "I know this, is there a way to alleviate it?"

Du Yunsheng said: "Now that she is pregnant, it is not easy to take medicine at all, so I am at a loss during this time, at least after the child is born, I will see her situation." ”

Lin Rongshen said: "I suspect she has prenatal depression. ”

Du Yunsheng said: "This point is there, it was hidden before, and now it may be stimulated, so the hidden prenatal depression has also become obvious, prenatal depression is not big, it is not small, it is so big that it will kill people and self-harm, and even give up on themselves, and it will be as small as losing appetite, emaciation, and mood ups and downs." ”

Lin Rongshen said: "I know. ”

Du Yunsheng asked: "Now I can only dredge my heart, your wife's heart is not light." ”

Lin Rongshen sighed a little tiredly and said, "I'm a little helpless about this. ”

This is the first time that Lin Rongshen has admitted that he has things that he can't do, which makes Du Yunsheng inevitably look at him a few more times, he said: "Isn't it? There are also things you can't do? Pregnant women's hearts are actually very simple, prenatal depression, most of them are worried about whether they will fall out of favor after the child is born, etc., the most important thing is that you go to accompany and dredge more, it should be fine." ”

Lin Rongshen was silent and didn't answer Du Yunsheng, just looked ahead and pondered.

Because he knew better than anyone else that Charlale's heart knot was not here.

He chatted with Du Yunsheng for a while, and after chatting about the same, they dispersed, and Lin Rongshen came back to the ward, and at this time I also calmed down and was leaning on the bed in a daze.

Lin Rongshen stood at the door and looked at me for a long time, he slowly walked in and said, "It seems that he has calmed down." ”

I heard his voice and raised my face to look at him, I was in a bit of a bad mood at this time, I didn't want to speak, even if it was Lin Rongshen, I didn't want to.

Lin Rongshen sat on the edge of my bed, didn't speak, just observed me silently, observed for a long time, Lin Rongshen said, "You're still thinking about those things, aren't you?" ”

I said, "I killed everyone in the Zhan family." I wrinkled my brows and said: "Zhan Dong's aunt is right, if he hadn't killed Zhan Dong, Zhan Dong's mother would not have died, Zhan Dong's wife would not have been shot, and he would not have become homeless, you don't know how pitiful and terrible Zhan Dong's mother's body is in the morgue, I have never seen such a person, his whole body is purple and black, braving the cold air, even if he is dead, he maintains a painful expression on his face." ”

I shook my head vigorously and said, "It's all because, you don't know, I dream every day that Zhan Dong is standing opposite me and crying, at first he was just crying alone, and then his mother and his wife are asking for my life." ”

Speaking of this, I was so excited that I grabbed Lin Rongshen's hand tightly and said, "Do you know? I was very helpless in my dreams, I was scared, I was scared to sleep, I was afraid to hear those cries, so many dead people stood in front of me, what was that feeling?"

I said very excitedly, but Lin Rongshen looked at me very calmly the whole time, I thought he would empathize with me and know my fear, but he didn't, he just said: "Why do you want to take this kind of thing on yourself." ”

I said, "Isn't it my fault?"

Lin Rongshen said: "Why is it your fault?"

I said, "If I hadn't killed Zhan Dong, Zhan Dong's mother wouldn't have died, his wife wouldn't have died, and he wouldn't have ......."

"Enough!" Before I could fully say anything, Lin Rongshen directly interrupted with a roar.

I have never seen him like this, his face is full of anger and impatience, in fact, he is a very gentle man, no matter what he speaks, he is always whispering, even if he is angry, at most he will speak coldly and sarcastically, this is the first time that he will express his anger so grandly and unabashedly.

I looked at him in a stiff position, stupidly at him.

He said: "Charelle, you remember, Zhan Dong's death has nothing to do with you, and his mother's death has nothing to do with you, you know? I hate your character very much, I shouldn't have let you touch such a thing from the beginning, I know that this time, when you come back, you will definitely start to doubt yourself again, and you will stuff yourself into that hole again, you can't stuff it, and you have to stubbornly climb in, people don't die because you think he will die because of you, why don't you want to, if Zhan Dong hadn't made mistakes with his ex-girlfriend before, if his ex-girlfriend wasn't mentally ill, if you were homeless that night, Zhan Dong had a little bit of human experience, if he didn't have any thoughts about you, do you think he would still take you inIf he hadn't taken you in, I'm sure you wouldn't have asked him to take you to his residence, why did all this happen? Because a man like Zhan Dong will always regret his loss, he vacillates between his current wife and you, and after he and his current wife got married, he cheated mentally, it is normal for her wife to be unbearable, and it is normal for her to go crazy, because no woman can stand her husband, and she still misses another woman, if it weren't for his own problems, do you think this kind of thing would happen?"

I couldn't say it, I just kicked Lin Rongshen with my eyes open.

He continued: "A thing is made up of many factors, just like an airplane, it has to be made up of many parts to start flying, do you think that a sudden decision by you alone will make it irreparably extreme? No, you overestimate yourself too much, you don't have such a skill, such a thing will happen, everyone is responsible, I have, Zhan Dong has, Zhan Dong's wife has, Zhan Dong's mother also has it, from the beginning to the end, everyone has contributed to it, that's why such things happen, why do you always have to take it on yourself? Isn't it fun? It makes people feel comfortable and exciting? So you will become very happy? Charare, don't you think you are stupid like this?"