At that time, I was covered in thorns, and even my mother couldn't subdue me, but when I arrived in front of Lin Rongshen, I behaved like a cat.

At that time, I felt that even the air was sweet, as long as Lin Rongshen gave a kiss, a smile, and a touch, I would be happy for a long time, so long that even the future of fear became worth looking forward to.

The beast of adolescence is too powerful to devour the will of man, and the unspeakable secrets of youth, ignorance and recklessness, have never been discovered by adults.

I sighed, dusting off the complicated medical books, revealing the beautiful handwriting, staring at the notes carefully, trying to break them down word by word, only to find that I couldn't read them before, and I still do.

I've always thought that Lin Rongshen was a monster, because I couldn't understand something like this all my life, but it was easy for him, and people with developed minds were really scary.

I closed the headache book, did not stay in this room, left here lightly, went to my mother's room for her to find an eyebrow pencil and went downstairs to give it to her, while waiting for lunch to be served, our mother and daughter chatted a few words from time to time, talking about the problem of my newly adopted child, my mother did not object to my adoption of the child, and was very much in favor, and said that although it was not biological, but raised and raised, about the last time, I also asked me not to care about my mother-in-law's fault, after all, she also cares about chaos。

After talking about the child, she asked if Lin Rongshen had come to me again since I was transferred to the hospital.

For fear of her distraction, I naturally wouldn't tell her what had happened recently, so I told her that we hadn't seen each other since the last time.

Of course, my mother was relieved, but she just told me to live a good life with Zhan Dong, and then stopped mentioning Lin Rongshen.

I stayed with my mom until dinner, and when it was time to leave, my mom handed me some of my favorite pickles, and said they were specially dried so I remembered to seal them.

I carried it in my hand, and when I was about to change my shoes, I suddenly remembered something, I straightened up and turned my head to look at my mother, and my mother saw my expression and knew that I must have something to say, so she took the initiative to ask me, "Is there anything else?"

I said, "Mom, what if...... I want to get a divorce?"

As soon as these words came out, I was ready for my mother to be furious, but to my surprise, she didn't, but calmly looked at my words, and asked me: "Okay, you tell me, what are you going to do after the divorce?"

I said, "Work." ”

"And then. ”

Such a simple question, I was asked.

My mother clasped her hands and sneered: "Charlais, it is impossible for people to work for a lifetime, I believe that even after you and Zhan Dong divorce, you are not in the mood to fall in love and get married again, do you want to live alone for the rest of your life?"

I said, "Isn't it okay to live a lifetime alone?"

She said: "Of course, but I ask you, do you know how to handle my funeral on the day I died? Do you know how to get the light bulb at home when the water and electricity are broken? One day you encounter a huge storm in your life, you are caught off guard, you are panicked, you are very tired, what should you do? There is no one behind you, no matter how big or small, you have to rely on yourself, when your friends are walking with their husbands and sons to their relatives during the Chinese New Year, do you know what you are doing? You are nestled in your own home, no one accompanies you to eat Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, no one talks to you, and no one even eats the Chinese New Year's Eve dinner you cooked. You know what people are most afraid of when they are old, and they are most afraid of loneliness, and now you are still young and don't feel it, and when you reach my age, you will understand how terrible loneliness is. ”

Her words paused, and her voice became a little hoarse and sad for a long time, and she said, "Anyway, I can't accompany you for the rest of my life." ”

After that, she shoved me and pushed me out of the room, and as soon as she closed the door, she shut me out.

The cold wind outside swept over, making me shiver, and suddenly I realized that marriage is not something you use to obtain happiness, but to prevent yourself from being lonely and lonely.

Loneliness and loneliness seem to be more terrible than pain.

I went out alone and didn't go home until about eleven o'clock, just opened the door, only to find Zhan Dong sitting on the sofa smoking, he saw me coming back, so he immediately snuffed out the cigarette in his hand, stood up from the sofa, and said with a smile: "You're back." ”

I said, "You haven't slept yet?"

He laughed and said, "Not yet." ”

I put down my key and let out an oh sound.

Zhan Dong quickly walked to the window and opened the curtains, he knew that I hated the smell of smoke, so he didn't smoke it often, he asked me, "Have you eaten?"

I changed my shoes and clothes and said, "I ate at my mother's." ”

Zhan Dong said: "Mom's health has been going recently. ”

I said, "That's good." ”

Zhan Dong didn't know what to say, and after a sigh, he also fell silent.

We have always had nothing to say to each other.

I asked, "What about you?"

Zhan Dong just wanted to say that he would eat it, but when I saw the cold instant noodles on the coffee table, I asked, "Didn't you eat dinner?"

Only then did he nod and said, "The company has been busy lately, so I haven't eaten yet." ”

I sighed and said, "I'll make it for you, how can I eat instant noodles?" and picked up the apron hanging on the door and went to the kitchen to cook noodles for Zhan Dong, Zhan Dong didn't follow up, just stood outside the door and looked at the busy kitchen and said, "Lailai." ”

I washed the vegetables and didn't look back at him, but I agreed.

Zhan Dong's voice collided with the sound of the water so it was a little weak, but he could still hear it clearly, he said: "I got off work at six o'clock and sat in the living room until eleven o'clock, do you know how I feel?"

I said, "How do you feel?"

Zhan Dong said with a crying and laughing face: "The house is really deserted, it's too unaccustomed." ”

I said, "Aren't you alone when I'm not at home?"

Zhan Dong said: "How can it be the same, if we get divorced, I will always be alone in this room, and I don't even want to find someone to talk to." ”

I didn't answer him anything, I continued the movements of my hands, and when the noodles were ready, Zhan Dong sat at the table and devoured them, I looked at the man and whispered, "Zhan Dong, let's start again." ”

He paused as he chewed his noodles and raised his face to look at me.

I smiled and said, "Actually, I'm quite afraid of being alone, and I'll probably never fall in love with anyone again in this life, and it's actually good to be able to find someone familiar to live with for a lifetime." ”

Zhan Dong smiled, and he said, "Okay, can you accept the child?"

I said, "Can you accept my past?"

He said, "I can." ”

I shrugged my shoulders and said, "I can't have children anymore, so I don't have a choice in this situation, right?"

Zhan Dong raised his hand and gently shook my hand on the table, but as soon as he grabbed it, he immediately let go, he smiled at me, and then continued to eat the bowl of noodles I made for him, and went to work the next morning, cleaning the house.

The two of us were back to what we were before.

The first turmoil in my marriage was spent by us unharmed, and since then, my daily task is to deal with Dede, send him to school every day, he still doesn't like me as always, but fortunately, children always have a fear of adults, even if he doesn't like it, he doesn't dare to make too many moves.

But having a child is also good, at least Zhan Dong and I have become no longer speechless, the two often discuss the problem of children before going to bed at night, both of them are first-time parents, so there is a lot to communicate together.

At first, my mother-in-law was a little worried that I would not be right because of prejudices, and we would have to take this problem to our side, but she was stubborn for a long time and refused to let go, and finally Zhan Dong persuaded her for almost a week before she agreed to send it back, but her mother-in-law was still not at ease, and came to the house from time to time to check whether I had been abused, and found that although I was not particularly close to me, it was quite harmonious, so I didn't say anything.

After about a week, it was about my efforts that finally made me feel a little better, although he still didn't like to be close to me, but occasionally when he received candy from the teacher at school, he would sneak one into my hand when I led him across the street on the way home, and he didn't say that it was given to me, but just said with a disgusted face: "It's really unpalatable." ”

I was so happy that I didn't know what to do when I received the candy he gave me for the first time, so I called Zhan Dong as soon as possible and told him the news, of course he was happier than me, and said on the phone that he was going to leave work early today and take me and Deg to have a good meal out to celebrate.

Of course, I didn't discourage him, so I smiled and agreed.

After he got off work, I also took me to the hotel he booked, and after the three of us met, we ordered a lot of dishes together, during which we had to be buried in eating desserts, Zhan Dong and I were in a good mood, so we also chatted about some things while eating.

While we were eating quite happily, a strange woman appeared at our table, and she shouted like a ghost, "Zhan Dong." ”

Zhan Dong and I put down the tableware in our hands at the same time and looked up, but before we could see the person clearly, the person sitting next to me suddenly waved his hands happily and shouted: "Mom!"

Zhan Dong's face changed instantly, he first glanced at me, and when he saw me sitting there as usual, he frowned and asked the woman who suddenly appeared, "What are you doing here?"

The pale-faced woman looked at Zhan Dong with resentment in her eyes, and she said, "I miss the child and you." ”