Yuan Changwen's expression was slightly painful, but compared to the mania in his heart, this expression was extremely relaxed. No one knew that under this seemingly relaxed expression, there were surging waves.

What else is there to be nostalgic for in this world?

In other words, what else do I care about Yuan Changwen?

It's just a character, and I've been pulling me for more than 20 years, and I really don't understand why I'm so stupid!

It never occurred to me that these were nothing more than a character. Now, I know that "Yuan Changwen is not me", and I want me to identify with "Yuan Changwen is me" again, unless my brain is hit by a car.

If you see it and see it clearly, you will never have an illusion again.

used to be self, but I never thought that one day, I would be able to turn on the theater watching mode, and regard Yuan Changwen, who has always been regarded as the real one, as a stage role.

And when you really see these as characters, you can't see them as real anymore.

I want to continue to do something for this role, work hard to make the character stand at the top, and be anxious to get attention for the role...... None of this is possible.

Yuan Changwen is already dead, well, even if he is not dead, it will be soon.

Death, my best friend, forgive me for only starting to embrace you now.

What else is there to see, what else is there to pursue, and what is worth chasing with a lifetime?

I always feel that there is something in the distance and you need to run hard to reach your goal.

Can I not run?

All kinds of goals are boiling in my mind, and all kinds of so-called meaning of life are passing in front of my eyes, which is very good!

"To be a man, to be like this, to be like that. ”

"Only in this way is the perfect life. ”

"Missing something is a lifetime of regret. ”

"Don't give up anything, that's the essence of life. ”

Feel free to add to these contents, who cares?

It is enough to be reasonable, but how can it be unreasonable? Any theory can be justified by itself, even if there are some loopholes. Just like the universe in front of us, there are still all kinds of loopholes, but we don't think there's anything wrong with it.

If you want a sentence that makes sense, it's too simple, how can it not make sense?

What is not justified in this false world of dreams?

Fear of death, rebellion against what happens, that's how I've lived for more than 20 years. As long as one thing happens, the vast majority of people are very unhappy.

Even if I can regulate my emotions, my heart is still full of expectations. However, these things have already happened, so why do you continue to deceive yourself?

Isn't it a deception to be optimistic?

Because of the existence of Yuan Changwen as a person, he must have expectations, which is also part of the self-definition.

I really can't find any reason to continue to keep Yuan Changwen, and I can't figure out why my former self didn't kill the self-definition as soon as possible, but worked hard to strengthen the self-woven definition in order to become a better person.

Can't you see that these are all fakes?

I don't believe that with such an obvious fact, could it be that I was an idiot or mentally retarded?!

Anyway, he is also a student at the level of a scholar, the second prize of the National Chemistry Competition, and he never stays up late to make up for classes and is still admitted to the top of his book. In fact, he is also the fastest promoted new employee in the company, and he is also the youngest team leader-level figure.

How can you be an idiot and an idiot?

The so-called Yuan Changwen is a character, a character composed of a bunch of memories, and a piece of shit controlled by "self"!

Zhen Nima is funny, the former self really can't see that his essence is "selfless", he is a background, that is the awareness.

I can't see it, hehe, congratulations on unlocking the new title, open your eyes blind.

"You looked, but you didn't see it. ”

Yuan Changwen doesn't remember who said this, but how appropriate it is at this moment, he used to be like this. And now, is it still like this?

Looking at the past self beeping now, will it be the same in the future?

It is very likely that because you have not yet awakened, there is no such thing as a hindrance to your awakening. The reason why I didn't wake up was because I didn't see the block. Once you see that block, the so-called block will disappear automatically.

Blocking that kind of thing doesn't exist if it's not real in itself. As long as it sees it, it has nowhere to hide. As long as you think honestly, it will surely die.

My essence is "selflessness", no one binds me to prevent me from seeing the truth, and no demon sits there and deliberately deceives me.

It was I who deceived myself, it was I who made up all kinds of false definitions out of nothingness, and then firmly grasped and agreed with them, so those false definitions constituted Yuan Changwen, and became the truth without doubt.

Everything is a credit to oneself and a kind of self-imprisonment. Countless self-woven definitions are intertwined like vines on the surface of "selflessness".

Yuan Changwen suddenly felt like a dead heart, looking at the courtyard in front of him and the patients who were walking, an inexplicable sense of falsehood and isolation emerged.

Are these people real? Are these plants real? Do I really sit on a bench? Am I really a human being?

How could anyone ask such idiotic questions? What idiot would think about them?

Everyone is an adult, has responsibilities and careers, and is very busy, so don't make such time-wasting jokes, okay?

Yuan Changwen remembered that he once discussed with a person who propagandized the Bible, and finally used this sentence to send him away. At that time, I had time to pray and might as well think about the project plan.

And now, Yuan Changwen doesn't want to pray, who do you want to pray? God?

I am God, that awareness is everything, what else to pray for?

Before they had time to believe in sects, those beliefs were identified as shit. Finding a faith is nothing more than giving yourself peace of mind. And what Yuan Changwen wants is not to be at ease, follow fear to illuminate his heart and then kill.

This is a war, a war with the goal of suicide.

If you tell a psychologist, you will be judged to be depressed or depressed.

But fortunately, I am in a mental hospital, and no one comes to interfere with me, so I can rest assured that I can kill my self-definition.

Yuan Changwen, why aren't you dead yet?

Forget it, I'd better embrace death. Look, my life has passed a little again, and the passage that I can't make up for in this life is just slipping away in my fingers.

I breathed again and it was awesome. I've never cared so much about my breathing, as if I didn't even breathe. 24 hours a day, do you perceive that you are breathing for an hour?

Savor every breath, once less is forever missing, and what could be more to embrace than death? Even the most valuable thing in the world is tasteless compared to death.

Slowly inhale air into your nose, slowly expand your lungs, and breathe out after a short pause. As a result, he was one step closer to death.

Anyone who thinks about these things is considered crazy. But, is it a lie to approach death step by step?

If it is not a lie, why is it rejected by everyone? It is necessary to whitewash and divert attention, this kind of blind eye is the so-called life? This kind of naturalness is the so-called maturity?

Yuan Changwen didn't even want to say the words of ridicule, you can dissipate by yourself.