Die, let yourself explode and destroy.

I'm still worried that I'm not going to be able to finish the kill, and I'm still afraid that I'll be in the middle of the slash and not the slash will not be done. It's still the usual means of the characters, and it's still just fake.

Yuan Changwen felt uncomfortable and seemed to want to vomit, and the whole person was on the verge of exploding. It seems that with just a slight jump, you can jump off the cliff yourself, and you can completely let go and let the character fall.

Whether I've slain or not, it makes no difference to that awareness. What's the difference between this fear and worry and the fear that I'm not making enough money? It's still just a stage play for the characters, and I always think I'm real.

Slashing is also not real, there is no truth here.

So explode, shatter, destroy, it's all indifferent. No matter how painful the character is, it is only a character, and it is only the presentation of picture elements.

How many more times do these words have to be said, countless times but emotions still hold on to the distortion in my mind, what's the use? When did the distortion of "must be killed" enter my mind?

I'm going to kill because I hate falsehood, I hate the feeling of pretending to be the truth when it's not real, and then letting it run wild in my head. At this moment, I am slashing because the elements of the picture have been presented.

Obviously, none of this has anything to do with me, and the character has no control over anything at all, all is just the presentation of the picture elements. What can the role control, and what can the role influence?

What reason do I have to think that the character of Yuan Changwen will inevitably be killed? I can't kill it in my life, so don't I allow such a picture element to be presented?

This kind of non-allowment is a fart!

It's like whether I know it or not, I'm always out of the moment. Then, whether I killed it or not, that awareness was still intact there. The only difference is whether the character knows, or whether the picture element presents something like "the character knows that he is fake".

This kind of worry makes people's hearts tight, just like worrying about money and fearing the future, the content is not important at all. The false means are to make me sleep, to make me firmly grasp the character.

No matter what I'm doing at the moment, fear can come in and pull me at random. Starting a business, fear can enter. Studying, working, falling in love, getting married, having children, raising children, even going out for a walk will be invaded by fear.

I don't resist any fears, the characters are dead, and those so-called fears and worries are just residual stress reactions. Like a frog with its head cut off, it will still struggle and still jump, but it will not be long.

Falsehood is always a silent change of concept, and whether I can kill it or not, I can't be sure at all. No matter how confident I am, or how good I feel, I still can't change the answer that is just a guess.

The problem is that this worry and fear should not be resisted. When I pay attention to the content of fear, I am already resisting that fear. Right, worry, fear, happiness, and happiness are not real in themselves, so why should I care about anything?

The character's strong emotions made me grasp the idea that "I have to succeed", as if it would be a miserable thing if I didn't succeed. As for me, there is no need to discuss at the level of content, because no one knows what the future holds.

However, the characters themselves are not real, so there is no need to continue to dwell. Those fears, those characters' related attributes, can all be discarded.

When I explore the content of fear, I have already ignored the falsity of fear itself. No matter how much I explore the content of fear and refute it to the point where it is useless, fear remains. The content can be changed at any time, or even at all, and the same content can still have a terrifying effect.

After all, it's very likely to happen, right?

Fear itself is not real, the character of Yuan Changwen is not real, this thinking is not real, the killing is not real, and it is over. No then, no other rhetoric.

If the judgment is not true, then simply discard. Maybe it's not so easy to let go, but there's no reason to keep grabbing. Maybe the strong emotions still want me to keep holding on, but it's just a procrastination, a squeeze that keeps driving me crazy.

On one side, I have already judged that it is unreal and want to throw it away, and on the other side, emotions are rolling and want me to continue to hold on. The two kept colliding and squeezing, and then I would go crazy and explode. Does reason work? Maybe it works, I don't know, maybe someone can really throw it away after coming to the conclusion that it's "unreal" like a math problem.

Emotions are fooling me, whether it's happy or sad, whether it's scared or refreshing, it's all fooling. Since you can fool me, right, with the power of emotions, I can also fool you with the power of emotions. Madness is my weapon, and that unreasonable anger is my weapon.

Yuan Changwen thought about it carefully, did he have been pulled by the killing and had to be killed? However, he really did not complete the killing, and there was no reason to stop the killing.

The key point is, did you kill for the sake of killing? didn't move forward, just indiscriminately killed some things that had already been killed. I can't see those distortions, but for the sake of the character's peace of mind, I kill some innocuous self-definitions.

Then, the character will tag the slash as a character attribute.

"Look, I'm a slasher. ”

Shit.

Hurry up and explode to destroy it all, I don't want to think about it, it's the only thing I can do with it, the least effective of all. In other words, fear has made it impossible for me to give up thinking at all, and has molded life into a monster full of malice.

I have to be on guard at all times to avoid harm.

There is no need to think, when the distortion in the mind disappears, the downstream will naturally appear.

So, explode and go crazy and sweep up all this shit. What is there to grasp, what is still to cherish, what is there to worry about, what is to be feared, and what is there to chase.

I'm not done yet, and the words and deeds of the plump characters are just a hindrance. The word untrue should be engraved at the beginning of all the words, so that I don't need to care about the specifics at all.

Yuan Changwen felt that he didn't understand the situation at all, what he was doing, how to move forward, why he was turned away when he was not hindered...... Perhaps, you should not think about it at all, but just explode and then burn it all.

However, he never exploded, no madness, no anger burned, and reason always prevailed. If it had been, perhaps I would have been proud, after all, no matter how uncomfortable I was, I didn't abandon my reason.

Now, I am disgusted with myself.

Physical suicide?