Zhan Dong's death was an unexpected event in my life, and during that time, I was struggling to live every day, I didn't want to eat, I didn't want to talk, I didn't want to look at the lights, I didn't want to go out.

I didn't think about anything, and my whole life seemed to be wasted at that moment.

Lin Rongshen came back very late every day, and when he came back, he would always push open the room to look at me, but after a glance, he closed the door again and went to the study to deal with business.

The way the two of us get along is getting along more and more indifferently, so indifferent that there is no normal communication, he knows that I won't want to talk to him, and he won't want to see him, and he naturally doesn't even want to see me, my appearance will only make him sneer, make him fall into the well, and make him hate.

One night, Zhang Xiaoya came to my house to see me, when Lin Rongshen happened to come back from work and sit at the dining table for dinner, and the nanny was cleaning up in the house.

After Zhang Xiaoya walked in, she didn't see me, and there was no bowl on the table, so she asked Lin Rongshen: "She hasn't come out yet?"

Lin Rongshen flipped through the newspaper and didn't look at Zhang Xiaoya, but said very indifferently: "In the room." ”

Zhang Xiaoya asked a little worriedly: "What can I do if it goes on like this?" ”

Lin Rongshen didn't reply to him, but slowly took a sip of water from the water cup on the table.

Zhang Xiaoya was a little unconvinced and asked, "Are you just going to let her go on like this?"

Lin Rongshen listened, sneered and said, "What can I do, she has to be cheap herself." ”

Zhang Xiaoya said: "But you are her husband, do you just let her go on like this?"

Lin Rongshen looked at Zhang Xiaoya with cold eyes, and said: "I ran away from home in the middle of the night, lived in my ex-husband's house for a whole week, the child was miscarried at my ex-husband's house, and after my ex-husband died, I still wanted to die and live for him, do you think I still have the obligation to take care of her? Or can she still listen to what I say?"

Zhang Xiaoya was speechless by Lin Rongshen's sarcastic words, and she could only argue for me very weakly: "This is human nature, a dead person, can't others even cry a little? She is not a machine, and the child has a miscarriage is not what she wants, if you hadn't quarreled with him that day, would she have left in the middle of the night and run away? Now everything is to blame on her?"

Lin Rongshen sneered and said, "It's okay to blame me, it was I who shouldn't have left her that night, so she went to her ex-husband's house in a fit of anger." ”

After Lin Rongshen finished speaking, he continued to look down at the newspaper.

Zhang Xiaoya was very angry, but she was helpless, after all, this is my family, and she has no right to manage too much.

Zhang Xiaoya was so indifferent to Lin Rongshen, she could only push away and walked towards the room where I was, when she saw me curled up on the bed stupidly, tears instantly rolled in her eyes, she quickly walked towards me, sat on the edge of the bed and looked at my thin appearance, she asked me in a hoarse voice: "Lailai, can you wake up? People can't come back to life after death, it's useless for you to torture yourself like this, can you think about yourself, your family, and Lin Rongshen?" You are her wife, but because of Zhan Dong, you have become the person you are now, what do you make him think?

I curled up on the bed and didn't react, Zhang Xiaoya was very disappointed, even angry, she said, "Are you listening to me?"

Zhang Xiaoya wanted to see a trace of emotional change from my face, but no, I just stared at a certain point in the ground very numbly, Zhang Xiaoya was so angry that she opened her mouth and scolded me: "You just do it, it's better to make this marriage go away, see if Zhan Dong will come back from the dead, and if your children will come back." Charlais, if a person has been stopped because of a person's death, then why is she still alive? Why not die with that person? It's better to die, so as not to be an eyesore here, if you don't have the courage to die, then you don't look like you're going to die, you're not torturing you, you're torturing us, you know?"

After Zhang Xiaoya finished speaking, she still didn't wait for a response, she angrily threw the things in her hand on the bed, and left without looking back.

It took me a long time to look down and find that what she threw on the bed was a box of small biscuits that I liked to eat, and I never felt tired of this kind of biscuits, from snack to adulthood.

In the past, when I was unhappy, Zhang Xiaoya would always use her own pocket money to buy food for me, and then coax me to be happy.

I think it's really convincing to have a friend like her, but now I really can't cheer up, I have lost all hope in life, although I don't love Zhan Dong, it doesn't mean that he has no weight in my heart, these five years have already made us friends outside of relatives.

I thought that we would disappear into the sea of people because of our respective families, but I never thought that one day, he would completely disappear from this world and never see each other again.

It's really a very sad and powerless thing, what can I do? I want to get myself back to before, but I can't help it, I can't do it.

As I stared at the box of cookies, the closed door was opened again, and I didn't look up, but I knew who was coming in.

Lin Rongshen held a dinner prepared by the nanny in his hand, looked at me who was curled up on the bed and asked, "What's the matter, it seems that your best friends are angry with you, Chararei, do you want to continue?"

I didn't want to answer him, I wouldn't answer him, and I kept huddled quietly in the corner.

Lin Rongshen didn't expect me to answer in the slightest, but came to the bed and sat down with the dinner in his hand, he looked at me, whose skin was bloodless and his expression was as empty as if he had no soul, and his expression was full of puzzlement: "His death, is it really worth your sadness? He smiled a little sarcastically and said, "It seems that he has a lot of weight in your mind." ”

He raised his hand to brush the long hair that fell over my shoulders, and he muttered to himself, "You know what? I was suddenly glad that he was dead and disappeared from this world, do you know why? I didn't expect you to have such a deep bond with him in the missing five years, and I thought, if you could, you would want to die with him, right?"

When he said these words, my first reaction was to knock off the hand he put in my ear, but in the next second, my chin was clamped by Lin Rongshen, and he used a very strong force, and I felt that the bones in my chin seemed to be pinched and collapsed by him.

But I didn't snort, I didn't exhale pain, but looked at him coldly, and he looked at me coldly, and the two of us looked at each other, and there was a faint hatred in each other's eyes, but the hatred in his eyes was more obvious.

Lin Rongshen stared at my eyes, he frowned and asked, "Why do you look at me like this? You will suffer such retribution, do you think that I contributed to it?"

He snorted and said, "I didn't let you run to your ex-husband's house in the middle of the night, and you lived happily at your ex-husband's house, and you were caught by the other party's wife, Zhan Dong's death should be legally classified as love killing, right?"

Every word he said was equivalent to pouring salt on my wounds, and my emotions rose little by little in every word he said, little by little, and those arrogances made me breathe very quickly.

Lin Rongshen saw that I was excited to look like this, and he smiled more and more happily, he said: "I thought that his death had taken away your seven emotions and six desires, it turns out that you will still be angry, but if you are angry, I will not be allowed to insult him at all, right?"

He saw that I was very angry, and my body trembled a little, so he let go of my jaw and threw me on the bed, I had not eaten for many days, and he shook me lightly, and the person fell directly on the bed, and the posture was really embarrassing.

Lin Rongshen threw the tray with dinner in his hand on the bedside table, stood up straight and put away the yin and yang smile at the corner of his mouth, he said: "The day after tomorrow is his funeral, whether you want to go to the funeral or not, you choose for yourself, but the premise, you must give me this meal, otherwise don't give this room half a step." ”

After he said this, he didn't look at me again, turned around and pushed the door open.

I slowly got out of bed with the sound of the door slamming shut, and even this simple action took a lot of effort, I really hadn't eaten in a long time, and my strength had long since been exhausted by those hoarseness.

After sitting down, I looked at the food on the bedside table, how could I not go to his funeral, the last journey, this is the last journey, if he hadn't pounced on me that day, the person who died now should be myself, right?

I never thought that he would protect me without hesitation that day, I really never thought of it, but I couldn't pay him back at all, I could only send him off on his last day.

And Lin Rongshen is a person like me, I naturally know that what he said will definitely be done, if I don't eat this meal, the day after tomorrow, it is very likely that I will be locked in his room for a whole day.

There was no doubt about it, and I couldn't afford to gamble, so even if I didn't have much appetite, I picked up the food on the bedside table and forced myself to eat it one bite at a time.

The next morning, the nanny came to my room, when she saw that the food on the bedside table had been eaten by me, she was very surprised and ran to Lin Rongshen, but Lin Rongshen did not go to work today, and there was no surprise when she heard the nanny's words, but stood on the balcony and said with a mocking smile: "This meal, no matter how difficult it is to swallow, he will eat it." ”

The servant found that Lin Rongshen was not happy, but his expression was a little cold, so he smiled embarrassedly and said, "Madame has eaten it, it's always good, I haven't eaten for many days, how can my body bear it." ”

Lin Rongshen didn't seem to want to talk about this issue, turned to look at the servant and said, "If nothing else, she should go out today." When he had said this, he turned and left for his study.