Seeing this situation, Zhang Xiaoya could only whisper: "You go quickly, Zhan Dong's mother has been stimulated once today, and she can't be stimulated again, Lailai, although Zhan Dong's death was not directly caused by you, but he died because he saved you, and Zhan Dong's mother must not be able to let go of this." ”

Just as Zhang Xiaoya finished saying this, the relatives of the Zhan family surrounded me together, I felt very familiar with those relatives, and I should have seen them once or twice in my impression, but I couldn't shout what their names were, they all surrounded me with a fierce and vicious look, and someone pointed at me and said: "Zhan Dong was killed by you, and you still have the face to come here?"

Someone else said: "If it weren't for you being shameless and looking for him in the middle of the night, would something like this happen to him now?!"

Someone else dragged me to Zhan Dong's portrait, pointed at Zhan Dong's smiling face and said: "Look at it, you give me a closer look, if it weren't for you, Zhan Dong would still be alive and well, if it weren't for you! His future is bright, and you can bear him in front of him! We don't care about your water-based Yang Hua's derailment, but why do you still want to harm him? What is there about him that can't stand you?"

The person who was saying this to me suddenly pulled my hair with her hand, and she said excitedly: "You dare to dress up like this to see him, do you wish he died? Ah? Do you still have a conscience? Do you think today is a very festive event?"

When her topic moved to my makeup, a bunch of people found out that I was wearing bright lipstick today, and the clothes I was wearing were also bright red, their expressions were even more excited than before, and some people even wanted to stretch out their hands to hit me, but Zhang Xiaoya and Zhang Ze rushed up, desperately protected me, and then dragged me towards the outside of the mourning hall.

I was like a robot, she dragged me two steps, I took two steps, and finally she wasted a lot of effort to pull me out of the mourning hall, when she saw Lin Rongshen's car parked not far away, she didn't think about it and dragged me forward, directly pulled the car door and stuffed me in.

Lin Rongshen saw me and Zhang Xiaoya looking embarrassed, and asked with a smile: "What's the matter? ”

Zhang Xiaoya wiped the rain from her face, gasped and said, "Really! These people are crazy one by one, damn it, and they beat people." ”

When Zhang Xiaoya wiped her face, she found that her chin was scratched by her fingernails, there were blood stains, she glanced at the blood on her fingers, twisted her brows, and turned her head to look again, seeing me sitting there in a daze, like a puppet, she didn't react at all, she was a little anxious and asked: "Lailai, is there something wrong with you?"

Seeing that I didn't answer, she shook me again, and just wanted to say something, Zhang Ze also rushed over from the heavy rain, and Zhang Xiaoya immediately opened the car door to facilitate him to come in.

After Zhang Ze braved the heavy rain and sat in the car, Zhang Xiaoya saw the torn clothes on his body and screamed loudly: "What are you doing?! Are the relatives of the Zhan family crazy!"

Zhang Ze wiped the rain on his face, and said with a nonchalant expression: "Okay, people are also human nature, after all, on a day like today, it is normal for them to be angry, don't talk about it." ”

Zhang Xiaoya was still a little unconvinced and said: "Why can't you say? The person who killed Zhan Dong was not Lailai, but Zhan Dong's wife Li Ting, okay? Will they do the key points, although Lailai should not go to Zhan Dong's house for the night, but who would know that her wife is mentally ill? So crazy? If Zhan Dong does not die, the person who died is Lailai, so should we also settle this account with Zhan Dong today? And isn't Lailai's child gone? Why should it be counted on her head?"

Zhang Ze kept signaling Zhang Xiaoya with his eyes to stop talking, but Zhang Xiaoya didn't pay attention to it at all, but the more she talked, the more energetic she became, she threw all her anger on Lin Rongshen, she said: "Lailai is your wife! Even if she is wrong, you shouldn't be indifferent to her, don't you know what happened just now? You just let her in alone, what if there is a three long and two short?" Yes, you can make excuses for your cold-bloodedness because of what happened before, but as long as your marriage to her exists, you, as a husband, have the obligation to help her, instead of leaving her to fend for herself!"

Zhang Xiaoya was completely furious, she said this sentence with all her might, after her words fell, there was silence in the car, no one spoke, no one moved, only the sound of the rain hitting the lathe, and a faint miserable cry.

At this moment, I, who had been sitting on the sidelines and had not moved, covered my ears with my hands, and then cried out without warning.

Zhang Xiaoya and Zhang Ze were both startled by my sudden cry, because this was the first sound I made after Zhan Dong's death, and it was also the first time I had a reaction after Zhan Dong had died for so long, and it was such a violent reaction.

None of them moved, and no one came up to comfort them, just sat on the sidelines and watched me cry uncontrollably, I don't know how long I cried, crying until I couldn't make a sound anymore, crying until I was exhausted, crying until I couldn't even breathe, the sky was spinning in front of me, and a string in my mind suddenly broke at that moment, and I fell unconscious in the back seat.

Surrounded by the exclamations of Zhang Xiaoya and Zhang Ze.

I thought, I really need to take a break, I haven't slept well for more than ten days, I haven't eaten anything, every minute and every second of living in this world is a kind of torture for me, this torture is like a knife on my neck, I move a little, this knife cuts the knife on my neck, the knife makes me feel suffocated, as if I can die in the next second, but on the contrary, I still survive.

When I woke up again, I was already lying on my bed, and Sister Tan was sitting on the edge of my hospital bed looking at me, and when she saw me open my eyes, she immediately leaned down and whispered to ask me if I felt better. ”

I was just about to get out of bed, but after two moves, I realized that I had fluids on my arm.

Sister Tan immediately held me down and said to me, "Don't move, you're still on the infusion." ”

I looked at Sister Tan, and I didn't know what I should say, my voice seemed to be stuck with a thorn, which was very painful.

Sister Tan stuffed a pillow behind me, she sighed and said, "Lailai, you just had a miscarriage that was supposed to be the stage of raising your body, you made a fuss like this, and your body was all burned by you, you child, why don't you make people worry?"

When I saw Sister Tan, I felt a little more at ease, and it took a lot of strength to say a word, I said, "You...... How did you get here?"

Sister Tan said: "Zhang Xiaoya went to find me, if she hadn't told me about you, I wouldn't have known that such a big thing had happened recently." ”

I didn't want to talk about it, but turned my face to the side.

Sister Tan saw me put on a gesture of refusal, she looked at my haggard and pale face, her voice was a lot lower, she said: "I have also experienced such a thing as you, naturally understand how you feel now, and you must be very painful to know this matter, this kind of pain can not be replaced by anything, suffered for you, borne for you, but Lailai, Sister Tan also once felt that there was no hope in life like you, and also thought about what she was doing in this world?" Anything, anyone, in those dark times, I was as extreme as a hedgehog. ”

Her warm hand gently held me, and she said, "But Lailai, do you know? When a person dies, he may not be dead, maybe he has just successfully completed his task in this world? In this world, who knows the things of life and death, I always feel that when a person dies, he may not really die, he just went to another time and space to live a better life, and now you, aren't you also traveling your own mission?" Your world is not only Zhan Dong, his death has nothing to do with you, you should cheer up, after all, you still have your mother, your husband Lin Rongshen, you still have us, don't you?"

I replied tiredly: "Sister Tan, I understand every word you say, I really understand, but I may not be able to do it, and I don't want to live like this, but I can't overcome myself." ”

I frowned and said with a painful expression: "Do you know? As soon as I close my eyes, my mind is full of pictures of Zhan Dong's death, and the appearance of Zhan Dong finally explaining the aftermath to me, he was killed by me, if I don't go to him, if I had frozen outside all night that day and didn't leave with him, he would still be alive and well today." ”

To this day, I can't accept this fact, I put my head in my hands and say hysterically, "I killed him, I am a murderer, you know?"

Sister Tan said, "Why do you bother to drill the horns of the bull yourself?" Sister Tan suddenly straightened my body and made my face face her, she said, "You tell me, do you love Zhan Dong or Lin Rongshen?"

I didn't expect it to be this time, and she was still asking me this question.

I was a little broken and said, "Sister Tan, don't ask me this question, I don't want to answer." ”

Sister Tan insisted on asking: "If you were asked to choose between Lin Rongshen and Zhan Dong that day, who would you choose to die?"

Such a cruel question, an impossible question, made my scalp feel a sharp pain again.

Sister Tan wanted to avoid me again, she forcibly grabbed my shoulder and said, "You can't escape, you have to answer me." ”

I had nowhere to run, Sister Tan was so aggressive, I cried quietly and said, "I will choose to let me die." ”

Sister Tan said, "If two of the three of you must die, who will you choose to die with you?"

I covered my head a little and couldn't bear it, and said hoarsely, "Don't ask me this question again, okay?"

Sister Tan said, "You have to answer me." ”

I said, "I don't want anyone to let them die." ”

Sister Tan said: "No, Lailai, you have to make a choice. ”