Sister Tan didn't answer when she saw that I was dead, so she took the initiative to ask me, "Zhan Dong?"

I sat there and didn't move, and asked again, "Lin Rongshen?"

This time I finally had a reaction, my body was a little out of my control, I didn't know why I had such a reaction, Sister Tan seemed to understand something, she smiled slightly and said: "Lailai, people's hearts are very eccentric and selfish, even if Zhan Dong loses his life for you, but the person you want to take away is not him, but Lin Rongshen, do you know why?" Loving someone is not to let him leave himself, loving someone is not to hope that the other party is good, but to selfishly hope that everything about the other party, you can participate, even if it is death, you also selfishly hope that you can take him away, instead of letting him live alone in this world that you can't touch at all, love is occupancy, love is selfishness, and Zhan Dong, you don't love him, so you want him to live in this world well, you won't worry about whether he will be lonely, whether he will miss him, whether he will fall in love with other women。 ”

When Sister Tan said this, she took the hand covering my ears from her face, her voice became much softer, and she said, "Since what you have lost has been lost, do you still want to let the things you cherish the most drain from your hands?" Lailai, there is no regret medicine to eat when many things are lost in this world, so we can only try to cherish it as much as possible, Zhan Dong is gone, but your life will go on, there are still many people who need you in this world, you are like this every day, and the torture is not actually you, but all the people around you who love you, do you know? Your mother has been feeling unwell recently, and we dare not tell her about you, if we let her know, it will definitely be a big blow. ”

She said: "Do you remember what Zhan Dong asked you for when he died? Didn't you promise well at that time? Do you want to regret it? Have you forgotten the responsibility you shoulder? Now Zhan Dong's wife is in prison because of this incident, and the murder of her husband in China is a capital crime, and basically the chance of surviving is very small, even if she uses mental illness as an excuse for protection, it may not be able to make her come out alive in this life, what should happen to the child? What about Zhan Dong's old mother? Don't you care? Could it be that the result of Zhan Dong's death is to make you more and more decadent day by day? Let his relatives fend for themselves? If so, Sister Tan has to tell the truth, Lailai, you are indeed sorry for Zhan Dong. ”

Sister Tan's words struck me in the heart, yes, Zhan Dong still has a child, and an old mother, that day in the mourning hall, Zhan Dong's mother seemed to have fainted, how is it now? Have you come to your senses, where did the child go?

After Sister Tan reminded me like this, I remembered what I was going to do, so I immediately got out of bed and walked out of the door, Sister Tan didn't understand what was going on now, so she immediately grabbed me from behind and asked, "Where are you going?"

I said, "I'm going to see Zhan Dong and his mother." ”

Sister Tan said: "The old man is now living in the hospital, you should recuperate yourself first." ”

I said, "There's still a child, what if the child doesn't have a mother? ”

Sister Tan said: "The child is taken care of by Zhan Dong's relatives, and they won't let you see him. ”

Sister Tan pulled me towards the bed, and then sat me down again, she said: "Lailai, you are an understanding person, Sister Tan told you so much today, as for how much you listened, I don't know, now I only remind you one point, don't magnify your sadness, no one in this world owes you, so don't use your own difficulties to infect the people who love you around you, your mother is still waiting for you to go back to see her, if you don't go back this Wednesday, these things, then we really can't hide it." ”

Sister Tan said this, she didn't talk any more nonsense, but took a piece of information from the bag and gave it to me, she said: "This is your mother's recent re-examination report, I heard that the lungs are a little infected, if the disease relapses, the emperor will not be able to save her, do you want to stay in this ethereal sadness, or do you want your relatives to live better, you think it out yourself, I will not force you." ”

Sister Tan saw that I didn't take it, she put it in front of me, and the person turned around and left with her bag, and when she walked to the door, she saw the person standing at the door, she said with a light smile: " I think, just now you should have heard my and her words clearly, there is no doubt who she loves, there is no doubt about it, there is no need to doubt it at all, and people's grief is also a very powerless thing, at this time, if I want to change to you, you can't control your emotions, as a husband, I think what you should do is not to look on coldly, but to help her get out of this haze, if you can't do it, then let her go, let her fend for herself, isn't it? Why do you want to maintain this marriage with her?"

Seeing that Lin Rongshen didn't react, Sister Tan continued to smile and said: "Lin Rongshen, there is really a big difference between you before marriage and you after marriage, so I have to wonder if you love her or torture her." ”

After Sister Tan said this, she didn't break anything, she crossed directly in front of Lin Rongshen and walked towards the gate, and after she left, the nanny ran out of the kitchen and went to the door to close the door.

She glanced at Lin Rongshen, who was standing at our door, as if she was afraid of disturbing something, and quietly went back to the kitchen.

It took me a lot of strength to lift my arm to get the things left by Sister Tan on the bed, I took out my mother's re-examination results and looked at them again and again for a long time, although I couldn't understand it, but it was clearly written that I had a lung infection, and I needed to stay in the hospital for observation.

I watched for a long time, but I didn't know how to react.

Lin Rongshen, who was standing at the door, finally walked in, he closed the door gently, and then arrived at the bedside, gently pulled out the test results from my hand, he looked at it for a long time, and said: "The white blood cells are high, there is inflammation, obviously because of the cold caused by the lung infection, if it continues, the chance of her disease recurrence is 40%, I advise you to take her to the hospital as soon as possible, don't say I didn't remind you." ”

He didn't react when he saw me lowering his head, Lin Rongshen slowly sat on the edge of my bed, he didn't move, he just looked at me like that, the emotions in his eyes were very complicated and difficult to understand, and he always seemed to look at me like this recently.

He looked at me for a long, long time, so long that I thought he would be in a stalemate with me, but in the end, he suddenly stretched out his hand and hugged my body into his arms, and his lower lip rested on my forehead, and he said, "Do you know? I hate you with such sorrow, Zhan Dong's death seems to take your soul with you." ”

He frowned and whispered, "Aren't you supposed to belong to me?" Why did you lose your soul for another man? Why did his death make you so sad, why did you seem to give up the whole world for him, he ...... Is it really that important to you?"

Lin Rongshen at this moment, it seems that he is not so strange, he finally hugged me, for so long, from marriage to quarrel for so long, he seems to have finally loosened a little indifferent.

Shouldn't he continue to fall into the well? Shouldn't he continue to use words to step on my sore hole? Isn't he......

Why is he at this moment, I feel strange and familiar.

Lin Rongshen raised my face, and saw that my face was full of tears, his brows furrowed deeper and deeper, he looked at the bottomless sadness in my eyes, and asked, "If it was me who died, would you also be like this for grief?"

He asked softly, "Will it?"

I said, "It's not you. ”

He looked at me with a slight tilt of his face, and looked at me in bewilderment.

I said, "You're finally willing to hold me." As soon as this sentence came out, Lin Rongshen's face suddenly shook, he seemed to suddenly react to something, the hand holding my body was a little loose, but I felt that he seemed to have the intention of letting go of me, but in the next second, he restrained the emotions on his face, hugged me tightly again, and his fingertips were full of pity to wipe the tears on his face for me, he smiled lightly and said: "It turns out that I haven't hugged you for so long." ”

He looked me in the eye and said, "Do you love me?"

I said, "I don't know. ”

This sentence suddenly knocked the temperature in Lin Rongshen's eyes back to freezing, and he said, "You put me and Zhan Dong in the same position?"

I said, "What about you?"

My eyes were fixed on him.

He didn't answer me.

I cried and said: "Lin Rongshen, I feel your hatred, I have felt it since the day I got married, don't deceive me anymore, I know why you are so cold to me during this time, you just can't let go of the previous things and want to torture me, I know everything, you don't have to say that I know." ”

Lin Rongshen suddenly let go of my body, and I just fell to the side gently, Lin Rongshen stood up from the side of the bed, he turned his back to me, and a sneer overflowed from the corner of his mouth, he said: "Charlais, I just hate you very much for you to fight for your mother and me, as for you saying that I can't forget, this is a non-existent thing, why can't I forget? It's not me who kills people for money, it should be your mother and daughter who can't forget." ”

I slowly got up from the bed, sat there and said in a hoarse voice, "yes, as you said, I can't forget, and I suddenly realized that our marriage seemed to be a wrong beginning." ”

Lin Rongshen turned to look at me and asked, "So what." ”

I said, "If you want to ...... Divorce I agree. ”

Lin Rongshen asked expressionlessly, "What if I don't agree." ”

I didn't answer.

Lin Rongshen smiled and said: "Charlailai, I don't have the habit of getting married for the second time, if you want to divorce, you can mention it to me, I will seriously consider it, but I may not agree." ”