Of course, Su Guangnan could see that Sun Jing had a heart at that time, and he didn't put his sincerity on him.

But he gambled and used his indomitable progress in the business field on his feelings, always feeling that things were man-made, and in the end, he could reverse any disadvantage if he held a beauty. Su Guangnan is reluctant to let go of this girl who has moved him the most in the past 20 years, he believes that his sincerity can warm a heart that is not in him, and Sun Jing will be moved sooner or later.

If he could have foreseen what would happen next, Su Guangnan might not have chosen this marriage at all, lest he fall in love and kill others, hurt himself, and end up with an irreversible and bleak ending.

But at that time, Su Guangnan just wanted to try how bitter the twisted melon was.

Relying on the material foundation that others can't reach, as well as a sincere enthusiasm, it is logical that Su Guangnan can catch up with Sun Jing. At that time, Sun Jing may not have loved Su Guangnan very much, but this person seems to be "very suitable", "good to her", and even the power of the Su Group can help her make Sun's drum go further, these bonus factors accumulated, and Su Guangnan became Sun Jing's choice in desperation, so he hastily entered the marriage hall.

At that time, Sun Jing was a little tempted, and now she can't delve into it.

However, in the years when she was newly married Yan'er, she and Su Guangnan did have a good life, and after marriage, Sun Jing did everything that Mrs. Su should do well, whether it was to help Su Guangnan manage the performance affairs within the group, or to participate in the group's cocktail party, they were all handled with ease, and outsiders would sincerely congratulate Su Guangnan and his wife, Su Guangnan and his wife were really fairy couples.

What poured into Sun Jing was one of the few tenderness of Old Man Su, and it was the most stable day in Su Guangnan. In the second year after marriage, they had their own children, looking at the touching wife and cute little son by the pillow, Su Guangnan once felt that life could continue to be so happy.

If things go smoothly like this, there's nothing bad about that. It's just that things in the world are always inescapable of the eight words of mistakes and creation, and the so-called good fate can't stand the toss at all, not to mention that Su Guangnan and Sun Jing are not deeply fated in the first place, and from beginning to end, Su Guangnan is just Su Guangnan alone.

After a few more years like this, Old Man Ji gave a heroic post to the descendants of the Peking Opera family, because the old lovers of the Jingyao Opera Troupe, Sun Jing and Feng Sunan, finally had a chance to meet again. Su Guangnan knew that the famous actor Feng Sunan, who was shining on the stage, was the person Sun Jing couldn't let go.

Although Sun Jing and Feng Sunan already have their own families, they also know how to keep a proper distance at work, without any posture of reviving old feelings. However, Peking Opera actors always inevitably sing rival scenes on stage, and the tenderness and sweetness between their eyebrows are the same as in the past, and the love in the excerpts is tactfully sung.

Su Guangnan couldn't tell the difference between how much of these feelings were drama and how much was true, and all he saw was the unwillingness of the passage of time.

It was only at this time that Su Guangnan discovered that his excessive possessiveness for Sun Jing was due to uneasiness. Sun Jing's many performances over the years are a qualified wife and an excellent mother, she is as good as possible to this family, even the most picky people can't find out what she is not.

But Sun Jing never let Su Guangnan confirm that he was really loved.

But if you have the seed of jealousy in your heart, how can you not mind?

For a long time after that, there was a secret thunder between Su Guangnan and Sun Jing. Su Guangnan began to try his best to prevent Sun Jing from communicating with Feng Sunan, from the very beginning of using the power of the Su Group to put pressure on the Jingyao Grand Theater family, and later he almost couldn't stand his wife's performance on stage, and his daily relationship became yin and yang.

And when what Su Guangnan was doing behind his back was exposed, quarrels were inevitable. Sun Jing seems to be weak and gentle, but in fact, she is quite arrogant and fiery in her heart, and she can't bear to be interfered with like this, especially when it comes to her dreams and the inheritance of the Peking Opera family, she is even more unlikely to give any concessions.

The more resolute Sun Jing's attitude was, the more Su Guangnan felt that she had a ghost in her heart, the former tenderness and sweetness had turned into evil words, possessiveness and unwillingness became a sharp sword, stabbing uncontrollably into the softest corners of the hearts of the two people, and those cracks could not be eliminated, but they were hurting others and hurting themselves.

To put it bluntly, no one is uncomfortable.

And the contradiction between Su Guangnan and Sun Jing was pushed to the peak after Feng Sunan's accident.

During that time, Sun Jing was particularly depressed, and even Su Yiyang, who was still young, felt the low pressure at home, and the little child tried his best to make the relationship between his parents harmonious again. He can only study hard to please his parents, and take every opportunity to increase the chances of the family of three getting together, but unfortunately such naïve overtures have little effect, and everyone can see that this is only a superficial warmth, and it will not help the whole development of the situation.

And just when Sun Jing and Su Guangnan quarreled the most, Sun Jing took Feng Sunan's only son to live at home for a while, which completely angered Su Guangnan and pierced the last layer of window paper. Su Guangnan was furious about this, in this deeply entangled and ambiguous relationship, Feng Sunan was a thorn in his heart, and he couldn't bear it when Sun Jing's attitude was not clear, not to mention taking care of the children of the old people in a grand manner at this moment.

Sun Jing didn't give any explanation for her husband's anger, she just left a sentence lightly, "This child's son of the deceased, Feng Sunan's residence has been burned down by a fire, you can't watch his child be displaced", and then took Feng Tan home with a tough attitude.

The truth is such a truth, but Su Guangnan can't accept it.

After this node, the relationship between him and Sun Jing deteriorated completely, and there was no possibility of maneuvering.

.......

Speaking of this, Su Guangnan picked up his wine glass and took a sip slowly.

"In fact, at that time, Qinqing's emotional state was very poor, I didn't know that she had a family history of depression, and I didn't give her a little comfort and understanding, but forced her to do everything. Now that I think about it, if I had a different attitude at that time, maybe these things would not have been the same...... But at that time, to put it bluntly, I complained about her. ”

All the coldness and resistance come from not loving enough, for someone who really cares, how can he be so ruthless that he doesn't think about his emotions and do all the things that make him sad?

At least at those times back then, Su Guangnan really thought so.

"That's probably when my mom started to get colder, and I was divorcing her around the time before she committed suicide...... There's no cheating, it's not that I don't love anymore, I'm just really fed up. Over the years, I have been working hard, no matter how much I pay, that kind of asymmetry has never changed, and people will be tired. ”

Su Guangnan sighed lowly, and there was indescribable melancholy between his words.

"I couldn't figure out what she was messing with me at the time, and after so many years, it was not an exaggeration for me to say to her that the stars should not give the moon, even if it was a piece of ice, it should be covered by me. But in the end, when she was gone, I realized that in fact, as long as she was good, it was enough, even if she didn't love me and wasn't by my side, it didn't matter..... Forget it, there's no point in talking about this now, I'm just, really unwilling. ”

Resentment is real, unwillingness is real, and reluctance to let go is all true.

No one is a saint, how can they let go?

.......

At a deeper level, Su Guangnan doesn't need to say more, Su Yiyang understands everything.

He leaned lazily back on the sofa, a casual smile on the corner of his lips, and opened his mouth casually.

"That's why you haven't told me about the events of the past? I said Dad, it's really enough, whether it's as a fan of the authorities or as a bystander, there is nothing wrong with it, so I have to resent it for so many years for no reason? I can't find out what is right and wrong in emotional matters, so what is there to hide?"

"What kind of attitude is this, boy, my relationship with my mother, it's my turn to judge here, and I don't look at what my identity is?" Su Guangnan snorted coldly and said unceremoniously, "As for whether I did it right or not, let alone something that can be judged, the reason why I told it today is because I wanted to say it, and if I didn't say it before, it was just that I felt that the time had not come, and there was no need to be so clear." What do I mean by hiding these things from my will?"

"Okay, just keep your mouth, I can't help it...... In fact, these things have been said, and it's not that I can't understand it, I can't keep those unbearable hurdles, I can explain a few words, what difficulties I really encounter, I know the truth behind it can also help. What's the matter, it's good to have a good face with your own flesh and blood, do you have to hold a shelf?"

Regarding his own stinky boy's knowingly questioned, Su Guangnan didn't bother to give any expression.

He raised his eyebrows and glanced at Su Yiyang, and silently told him with his eyes that he was too lazy to talk nonsense with him: "These things are useful? ”

"Dad, I'm no longer the kid who had a temper in his heart and would only do things that made both of them angry, I can handle a lot of things independently now, even if I don't have the Su Group, I have enough ability to do what I want to do - I know better than anyone else about this, right?"

"So what?" Su Guangnan raised his eyebrows and glanced at Su Yiyang meaninglessly.

"So, Dad, people grow up. Su Yiyang's voice paused slightly, and his words were mixed with a faint chuckle, but he was indescribably determined, "You don't have to carry many things yourself, you can trust me in the future, and even rely on me...... I mean, I can help. ”