Why hasn't the character died yet?!

Yuan Changwen seemed to be very calm and dark in the depths of the lake, but his heart was like falling into magma, constantly tumbling and burning, and he couldn't calm down for a long time.

What's going on? How long has this anger and discomfort not appeared? I thought I was coming to an end, but several times I experienced the incomparable lightness and the wonderful feeling of being one with man.

Why aren't the characters dead yet?

What else is worth holding on to, desperately holding onto?

Character damn it, then go die!

I don't understand, what should be said has been said, what should have been thought about has been thought out, what else is there to say?

The character is false, non-existent, just a distorted product. Why is the character of Yuan Changwen still alive, why are there still ties to worry about, and why do you always treat certain things as real?

I don't want to talk about the killing anymore, there's nothing to talk about, it's over. But why hasn't the character died, why haven't I finished yet? Is there something I'm ignoring?

It's funny, as an amoralistic bastard, I've slashed family, love, friendship, career, and so on to introduce myself. What else can be ignored? What else can be ignored?

Yuan Changwen did not calm down because of this, but was burned by the eruptions of magma again and again in his heart. It's not the freshness of the waves crashing against the rocks, it's the scorching magma that wants to swallow the heart and the whole person.

Then devour it, whether this discomfort leads me to death, or to the truth, it is an explanation. The character of Yuan Changwen is not worthy of controlling the ship of life, so let everything that should happen happen, and let me see what kind of excitement this false world can bring me.

If it's going to go crazy, then go crazy. If it will break the whole life, then break it. If it makes friends and family sad, then let it happen.

What can I change?

It's funny, why should I think about other people? Can I be sure that these other people are real? Or is it just a deal, why should I say it so sensationally?

There is no one else at all, and all the other people are just virtual data in my head. Don't deceive me with anyone else, because I can't see anyone else at all. What I can see is always virtual data in my head.

In other words, the virtual data that makes up the characters has always deceived me.

It's not a question of right or wrong, it's not a question of how to get along with your parents, it's a question of whether it's true or not. As long as it is false, it should not be kept. Even if this falsehood is accepted by the whole world, even if this falsehood is recognized by everyone, it still cannot change the fact that it is a falsehood.

A large number of people is not a source of strength. Authority figures can't protect against falsehood.

What is not a guess? and what is the guess that can be confirmed with certainty?

Since you don't know, you should have an attitude of not knowing. What is a role, countless unverified affirmations in my head, and then easily manipulate my behavior, why keep the role?

I really can't figure out why I still listen to the character, why do I care about what the character cares about?

Who would jump into this fire pit? Or rather, who would want to stay in the lava and not come out?

If magma can scorch everything, then burn it, and it doesn't matter to me anyway. And the only truth of "I exist" is that no one can harm. In this case, burn out the unreal, and the rest is real.

Who told me that the path is bright, merciful, full of harmony and compassion?

It's nothing more than being a good person in the world of duality.

Of course, this is the meaning of life, and this is what society wants. If everyone were like me, pursuing truth, jumping into magma without hesitation, and then exuding negativity, would the empire still be able to step out of its home planet and get to where it is now?

The path to truth means that life is meaningless at all, and that all pursuits are just false assumptions. In this case, the character is not allowed to appear, and fear is here to glue the character's mask and prevent the whole character from collapsing.

In this well-planned dream, the most afraid of the character suddenly waking up. If you want to play in a dream, you can't treat the dream as a dream, otherwise, who will work hard to be positive?

Who will watch a movie without dramatic conflict?

I'm going around in circles, didn't I think of these words before? Right, I'm just going in circles, not moving forward.

But where is the road ahead? I really don't see anything to kill, and I don't see anything to kill. The characters should be discarded, and everything that comes with them is unreal, so it's over.

What else is there to say?

What am I holding back?

Is it family?

No family member is qualified to be presumptuous in my head. But, in fact, they did have a presumptuous mind in my head. I would want to convince them, I would fantasize about myself talking in front of my family, I would fantasize that if I hadn't left the empire, I would have brought them good family happiness.

Again, how do I know what's good? The choice made according to the self-definition in my head is a distortion. The only thing that can be agreed upon is that the family is thinking with the same twisted mind. In this way, what I think is good, my family will also think it is good.

However, those distortions are nothing more than tricks that the characters develop in order to survive, such as showing off. Explained as filial piety, for the sake of showing off to my family, I have to take care of their role, and I have to make them hold their heads up in front of friends or other relatives.

"Ouch, your son is so capable" or something like that, am I just working hard for this shit?

Also, about the show-off of the role of Yuan Changwen itself, who doesn't like others to praise themselves? I don't care at all whether my family is doing well, I just care if others will say, "Oh, you're so filial, come to see your parents again" and so on.

Even if these are not, why should I care about my family? Why should I let my family influence me? Is it just because everyone is like this? Is it just because "the family should care for each other", "the family respects the old and loves the young", and so on?

Since it's a setting, how can something so fake be so firmly in my head?

It seems that a person who doesn't care about his family will be spurned by society and drowned in everyone's saliva. So, come on, what else can't happen?

I always thought that this can't happen, that can't happen, and I was afraid that it would destroy my life. It's funny, the twist in my head plays with me like this, and it's so easy for me to carry unnecessary garbage forward.

This kind of life is not bad to end.