Chapter 252: Moving Forward
Ayang city center, Tears of the Sea Western Restaurant.
"You are bleeding a lot today, you brought me to such a good place!" Zhang Lin poked a steak with a fork, put it in his mouth and chewed it carefully: "I always thought that without Zhang Zongliang, you would be worse off day by day!"
"Don't be sarcastic about me, I spent almost a quarter of my savings to treat you to this meal!" I looked at the two pieces of beef that I bought for more than 500 yuan on the table, and some small snacks and coffee, and felt that it was not worth it, but Zhang Lin was a very literary girl, and she had always liked this kind of place.
"I heard that you broke up with Gao Lei, and you also broke up with Leng Lei. Zhang Lin asked absent-mindedly while eating.
"Well, something is wrong!" I sighed faintly, noncommittally.
"I told you at the beginning, Gao Lei is not suitable for you, you don't listen to me, how about it, how deep your love is, how distressed you are now!"
"It's distressing but not good, instead of being with me, it's better to find a good home, if Gao Lei is happy, I bless her from the bottom of my heart!"
"Hypocrisy!"
After "......" was mercilessly refuted by Zhang Lin, my face suddenly turned red.
"What about you and Leng Lei, and why?"
"Don't ask, the man's business, I can't tell it clearly in a sentence or two!" Regarding the story between me and Lei Lei, I really don't want to mention it to others.
"If you don't say it, I know, Leng Lei must have done something particularly sorry for you, otherwise with your character, you will definitely stick to him like a dog skin plaster!" Zhang Lin smiled lightly: "But I heard that the reason why the two of you broke up was because you betrayed Leng Xin, so Leng Lei turned his face with you!"
“...... Do you believe it?" I laughed when I heard Zhang Lin's statement.
These words were said by Leng Lei himself at the wine table...... But with what I know about you, I definitely don't believe it, you take Leng Lei as the kind of brother who digs out your heart and lungs, I know this, but those people outside who don't know you will evaluate you as what kind of person you are, have you thought about it?"
"What do they think, what does it have to do with me, anyway, I'm just a nobody!" I have been used to cold eyes since I was a child, and I have always been dismissive of other people's statements, but when I heard Lei Lei personally evaluate me like this to others, I still have a pain in my heart.
"Nobody...... Do you know, since the time you fought with Dai Zheng in the Skyworth Internet café, I can almost always hear your name in that year, Leng Lei, you are always challenging some people who others don't even dare to think about, at that time, everyone thought that you and Lei Lei would soon rise in society, but I really didn't expect that in the end, you and him would be such an ending, Lei Lei is popular, but you are down. ”
"Am I down?" Zhang Lin's big truth, I felt very uncomfortable, but my self-esteem was troublesome, so I still asked rhetorically.
"Aren't you down? Han Fei, you've been fooling around in this society for two years, what else do you have besides the more than 1,000 yuan in your pocket? Do you know what kind of life Leng Lei is living now? Even Zhang Shijia next to him has become Brother Jia, what about you?" Zhang Lin shook his head slightly: "You have paid so much for Leng Lei, but you haven't even mixed up with a dog next to him, isn't it ridiculous?"
"Lao Qi is not a dog!" I frowned and interrupted Zhang Lin's words, and thought for a moment: " From some points of view, it is inevitable that he will mix, although the two of us do not deal with each other, but I have to say, I admire him, because he has a ferocity that is no less than Lei Lei, and the kind that Lei Lei does not have, loyalty to his brother, the seventh is in times of crisis, and he will never leave Lei Lei, and he is also the only one who can stab people recklessly after Lei Lei says a word, and he is likely to become the second Hu Wei after Lei Lei has been grinding for a few years, but unfortunately, the two of us are not friends. ”
"It's a pity that he followed the wrong person, you are so good to Leng Lei, he can turn against you in an instant, who can guarantee that he will not abandon Zhang Shijia when he encounters other things......"
When I mentioned Lei Lei and them, I felt inexplicably uncomfortable, so I waved my hand to interrupt the topic: "Forget it, don't mention them, what about you, how are you doing?"
Zhang Lin grinned at me, very happy: "I don't see it, you still care about me very much!"
"We're friends after all!"
"Are we really friends?" Zhang Lin's expression changed a little when he heard me say this: "Han Fei, if I ask you a word, you must answer me seriously!"
"Just ask!"
"When you took me back to Beijing, did you know that I liked you?"
"Hmm. I was silent for a long time and nodded.
"Since you know that I like you, then why do you want to make up a lie and trick me into going to Beijing with you? Since you don't like me, wouldn't it be good to kick me away, you know what the consequences of going to Beijing are, but you still took me without hesitation, why, for Gao Lei?"
"......" In the face of Zhang Lin's questioning, I lowered my head and said nothing.
"When I first went to Beijing, you weren't around, I didn't know anyone except Leng Lei, the first night Zhang Zongliang asked me to go to work, I was frightened, I said I wouldn't go, Leng Lei beat me, and then, Zhang Zongliang put me to sleep, until now, I still have nightmares when I sleep every night, you know?"
"What?" I was stunned when I heard Zhang Lin's words: "Why are you only telling me these things now!"
"Even if I told you at the beginning, what can you do? Can you turn your face with your sibling Leng Lei, or fight with your eldest brother Zhang Zongliang? Forget it...... At that time, you only had Gao Lei in your eyes, a worthless girl like me, what was it in your eyes!"
"I'm sorry!"
"If being sorry can soothe the pain in a person's heart, then there will be no unpleasant things happening in this world!" Zhang Lin kept using the fork in his hand to tie the steak on the plate: "Let me ask you, if the time goes back to a year ago, back to the days before you took me to Beijing, would you still choose to take me to Beijing?"
"No!" I replied as I looked at Zhang Lin's haggard appearance and licked my lips.
"Han Fei, you have changed!" Zhang Lin looked at me with disappointment in his eyes: "I know that even if you are given a hundred more chances, you will choose to take me away, because my status in your heart is not comparable to Gao Lei at all, I liked you at the beginning, just because you are simple, you are smarter than Leng Lei, but you will never be smart, if it was half a year ago, you would not hesitate to admit it, instead of choosing to perfunctory me with lies." ”
"People will change, I will change, you will change, all people will change, if everyone does not grow, how can Lei Lei and I get to where we are today? When everyone is moving forward, whether we want to or not, we will be swept into this whirlpool, but some people enjoy the excitement of the storm, and some people are injured in the storm!" I sighed: "I just want to make your heart feel better." ”
Do you know that when I found out that you took me to Beijing was a well-designed scam, I didn't feel very sad, because as long as I can be with you, no matter how much I suffer and how many grievances I suffer, because I love you...... But when I saw Gao Lei's eyes looking at me, I was really desperate, and then I realized that I was a stepping stone on the road of your love, no! I don't even count as a stepping stone, I am especially a flower you gave to Gao Lei, you used me to please Gao Lei, but when I withered, I would be discarded by you like garbage!"
"I admit that I took you to Beijing with a bad purpose, but I really don't know, Zhang Zongliang will let you come out, before we go, he swore to us that after all the girls went, as long as they sat on the stage, when I found out that I was also deceived by him, I couldn't save anything, I said this, not to explain anything to you, but to let you know that I will feel guilty for the rest of my life for what happened to you!"
"I didn't come to you today to find out how guilty you are. Zhang Lin stretched out his hand and flicked the messy head curtain, raised his head and looked at me resolutely: "I want you to compensate me!"
"Okay, you say, as long as I can do it, I promise you!" I didn't even think about it, so I accepted Zhang Lin's words.
"That's what you said!"
"Nine words!"
"......" Zhang Lin listened to my words, stared at my eyes for more than ten seconds, and said heavily: "I want you to be my boyfriend!"
'Brush!'
Hearing Zhang Lin's words, I was instantly stunned.
'Smack!'
Seeing my appearance, Zhang Lin nodded, and tears instantly fell down her eyelashes: "Han Fei, you think I'm dirty, you think I'm climbing you, right?"
"I didn't, I just ......"
"Nothing just, you just need to tell me, whether you agree or not!" Zhang Lin stubbornly interrupted me: " In fact, after leaving Zhang Zongliang, I haven't been out of the house for half a year, I don't want to contact others, because I always feel that others only need to look at me, they know that I used to be a young lady, I don't do anything at home every day, but I have to take a shower three times, but even so, I have been asking my friends about your news, I have been paying attention to your circle, even you went to the detention center to squat and detain me, I know, when you were released, I cleaned up beautifully, and wanted to go to the detention center to pick you up, but I was afraid of disturbing the relationship between you and Gao Lei, so the moment I was ready to step out of the house, I still held back, but just a few days ago, I heard from a friend that you had a stiff falling out with Leng Lei, and Gao Lei also broke upI can't take it anymore...... Han Fei, I came to you, I didn't really want to ask you for something, I was just afraid, you were alone, too lonely!"
"Zhang Lin, I have always known your feelings for me, everything I have done for me, in my heart, I will be grateful to you for the rest of my life, but I am too tired, I don't want to have emotional relations with anyone, I have nothing to worry about, it's good!"
"Once, you could push me into the bottomless abyss for Gao Lei, even now, Gao Lei betrayed you and played you like a clown, I still can't take her place in your heart, right?"