157. Are you going to give up our feelings
My mother-in-law paused, and then persuaded me bitterly: "Don't be angry with Xiaodong, you see that he has been guarding you day and night for the past few days, you have an accident, and he has also lost weight with you, I can't wait to suffer any crime for you, don't be angry with him, ah!"
"No......," I replied softly, a little apprehensive that I didn't know how to deal with it.
Actually, I didn't get angry with Lu Xudong, but I have been indifferent to him for the past few days, probably because even my mother-in-law saw that something was wrong.
Although I also want to believe that nothing happened to Lu Xudong and Guo Yuqing, after all, the matter has not been said yet, and I have a thorn in my heart, and there is really no way to really be calm and not care.
My mother-in-law didn't seem to hear my argument, and said to me seriously: "I gave birth to a son, I know, Xiaodong definitely didn't deliberately let us not be able to contact us that night, I guess there was an accident, you don't know what kind of panic he was when he arrived at the hospital that day, I have been his mother for thirty years, and I saw him for the first time...... Cersper, Mom was always worried before, afraid that you were deceiving your elders, but when I saw Xiaodong like that that day, I knew that you must be serious! It doesn't matter if you don't have children for the time being, anyway, you are still young, you husband and wife should be good, don't hurt your feelings because of a little thing, you know?"
I really wanted to say what if something big happened? What if something irreparable wrong happened to Xudong and Guo Yuqing all the way?
But I couldn't help it, and I tried my best to make a smile at my mother-in-law, and answered in a low voice: "I know!"
Lu Xudong, who went out to help me with hot porridge, came back soon, my mother-in-law didn't say anything, just told me to rest well, and then left, there is still a Lu Yanxi at home waiting for her to take care of, there are Lu Xudong and Aunt Li in the hospital, she is actually not at ease so she came to see.
It is said that Jiang Junxiu has not appeared these days, thinking about Lu Xudong who is guarding me day and night, I think that compared with Lu Yanxi, at least I am lucky.
I was fed by Lu Xudong and drank most of the bowl of porridge, and after eating the pill that replenished the blood, I said to him slowly: "Let's chat!"
Lu Xudong had just finished feeding me water and was about to put the water cup back on the cabinet next to him, when he heard this, his body stiffened slightly.
But he quickly whispered, "Okay." After putting the cup away, he smiled at me quickly and asked me calmly, "What do you want to talk about?"
He wanted to deliberately play dumb, but I didn't want to beat around the bush and asked bluntly, "Can you tell me what happened that night?"
Lu Xudong's face changed slightly, and then he took my hand, "Nervous......"
"I don't want to hear anything more about wishing I could believe you or anything like that!" I am not as weak as I was two days ago, but today I am not as tired as I was talking because I have less potions, and my neck is not so uncomfortable, and I am not as tired as before, and I have more confidence.
I looked at Lu Xudong with a calm expression, and said very seriously word by word: "You should understand, I just want to know the truth of the matter, I am an adult, and I have the ability to distinguish the true from the false." ”
Lu Xudong was silent for a while, as if he was thinking about it, and then he spoke unhurriedly: "I don't really have much memory of what happened later that night, I only know that I was a little dizzy after drinking the glass of wine that Xiaoqing helped me, I thought I had drunk too much, and I thought it was a little strange...... Later, I felt that someone helped me to take the elevator, and I entered a room......"
My eyelids jumped slightly, this is what Guo Yuqing called trying and fighting? She is really a great ability!
"Cersei, although I don't have much of an impression of what happened later, I swear, I really haven't done anything to be sorry for you, I think I must have fallen asleep at that time!" Lu Xudong held my hand, and his tone was a little anxious.
I pursed my lips and carefully recognized his expression, then avoided his pleading eyes and asked him very indifferently: "Then what happened later? When you woke up the next morning, did you find Yu Qing lying next to you?"
Lu Xudong took a deep breath, and the hand holding me tightened slightly, "Nervous......"
His words stopped confirming my suspicion, and I glanced at him a little blankly, and I couldn't say what I was feeling in my heart, but I only numbly continued to say all the things I had speculated about in my heart for the past few days: "Then she explained to you that she didn't know what was going on, did she? She must have said that she saw that you seemed to be drunk, so she opened a room and sent you to rest, but I didn't expect to be ...... by you when you got drunk after sending you back to the room."
"Cersper!" Lu Xudong suddenly stopped my narration in a very stern voice, he reached out and touched my face, forcing me to face him with my face, and then slowed down his tone and said: "Listen to me, I didn't touch her! Yes, I did lie with Xiaoqing when I woke up, and I was even disheveled, but I knew that nothing had happened to me and her...... Cersei, I've been drunk, and that kind of thing, even if you get drunk, you can't be unaware, you should know that, don't you?"
At times like these, I can still hear what he's hinting at me.
He was referring to our first time, when he was drunk, but he still knew how to stop in time at the critical moment......
Thinking of this, I seem to feel a lot better, but I immediately thought again, Lu Xudong wasn't drunk this time, he was drugged, wasn't he? Even if I haven't seen a pig run away, I've eaten pork, what kind of so-called aphrodisiacs are there in TV movies, what if Guo Yuqing is under that kind of medicine?
Probably looking at me in disbelief, Lu Xudong paused slightly, and continued: "That glass of wine made me unconscious, and it is precisely because I lost consciousness that I can be so sure, Cersei, you said that you are an adult who can tell the truth from the false, I am also an adult, I know best what I did after losing consciousness, and even if I didn't know what really happened, I would find out when I was sober, right?"
It sounds plausible, but how can I be sure it's true? How can I be sure that he will deliberately lie to me when he wakes up?
I looked at Lu Xudong with some hesitation, my head was messy: "But why didn't you tell the truth that morning? and tried to lie to me, you don't know where Yu Qing is...... I really want to believe you, but how can I believe it? She went to great lengths to get you into bed, how could nothing have happened? Besides, you've been apologizing to me since then, haven't you?"
"Cersei, I didn't think about deceiving you, I turned on the phone that morning and wanted to call you to explain, but it turned out that my mother answered the phone and said that something was wrong, and I saw my sister's message when I hung up the phone, and I came directly to the hospital at that time...... The reason why I didn't tell you the truth was because the way you looked at the time really scared me...... You don't know how weak you were at that time, I was afraid of hurting you even if I spoke a little louder, how could I make you sad and angry in that situation? I am afraid that you will push me away before you have time to think deeply, and I am afraid that you will be disillusioned because of that, I really don't want to risk any possible loss of you!"
He paused, staring at me with a deep apology in his eyes, "My guilt and apologies for you are all because I didn't believe your words before, it was my self-righteousness that gave Xiaoqing a chance, and it was because of my defenselessness that you couldn't find me when you needed me the most...... It's not what you think it is, it's something that has failed you, you know?"
I don't understand, at least I can't understand it, Guo Yuqing is trying so hard, is it to blacken herself?
It was impossible for her to think that after doing such a thing, Lu Xudong would question her, how could she still spit out the fat that came to her mouth? Even if she really messed up because of my pregnancy, she wouldn't have done such a negative IQ thing!
But Lu Xudong's next sentence quickly stopped my thoughts, he said: "I'm not Xiaoqing, I can't understand what she's thinking, but Cersei, even if I really have something to do with her because of this, are you going to give up our relationship?"
Yes, even if he was designed by Guo Yuqing and really rolled the sheets with her, should I not forgive him and break off with him?
I looked at him blankly, and then shook my head slowly.
Lu Xudong's face was happy, and his nervous expression immediately relaxed, but when he heard me say "I don't know", he immediately changed back.
He looked at me a little lonely, and his sloppy beard made him look more and more pitiful.
My heart suddenly softened, and I thought about it seriously, if there was anything to blame, at most it was to blame him for trusting Guo Yuqing too much, but even so, I couldn't accept that he really had any substantive relationship with Guo Yuqing, even if it wasn't his original intention, I couldn't accept it!
I didn't know how to continue the topic, so I had to change my story and ask Lu Xudong to find my phone and give it to me. I haven't touched my phone since I entered the hospital, I was weak before, I fell asleep every day, and then I was a little more energetic, and because there was no exhaust, I wanted to roll on the bed, and I couldn't think of my phone at all.
After I got the phone, I immediately opened WeChat, and the first thing I did was to go to see Guo Yuqing's circle of friends, but the message she sent that night was no longer visible, and she didn't post anything in the past few days.
Thinking about it, I still regret that I didn't take a screenshot at the time, otherwise I really have to take the screenshot and ask Guo Yuqing, how did she have the face to say something like "it was just an accident"!
I haven't touched my phone for a few days, and only Ye Shengyin sent me a message on WeChat, asking me why I disappeared. There are no missed calls in the call records, and the last few records are basically calls made by Aunt Li that night, 120, Lu Xudong and the phone from the Lu family's old house, and the incoming call is only one from Lu Xudong, as he said, the next morning when I entered the hospital.
I can't tell what I feel in my heart, but I just turned to the text message box very casually, looked at the extra spam advertising messages, and then turned my eyes to Lu Xudong, and asked a little worriedly: "You didn't tell my mother, did you?"
Lu Xudong was stunned for a moment before he said, "No, I'm afraid she's worried, so I want to wait for you to recover......
I let out an "oh" and quietly breathed a sigh of relief, I was really afraid that my mother would find out, but she wouldn't even look at me.
"Cersser......" Lu Xudong looked at me again and again, obviously not understanding why I didn't continue the topic just now.
I can't always compare it to him, if it were me, because of my excessive trust, someone designed to roll the sheets with someone, would he be able to ignore it, would he be able to forgive me immediately?
But on second thought, maybe Guo Yuqing's purpose is to answer me? Do I really want to do what she wants?
stayed up to the hospital with such contradictions, and Guo Yuqing never appeared again.
Lu Xudong took more than a week off to take care of me, and after I was discharged from the hospital, he was basically busy and crazy, so he could only hand me over to Aunt Li to take care of me.
My mother came to the house with my sister-in-law to see me after knowing that I had an accident, and my sister-in-law unexpectedly asked my mother to stay and help. That's when I realized that she had quit her job at the beauty shop and had been helping out at the convenience store, and the convenience store business was indeed much better than expected.
It is said that they listened to Lu Xudong's suggestion and changed the small shop to a 24-hour business system, at first my mother and my sister-in-law took shifts by themselves, and then they specially recruited a younger brother to work the night shift. Before leaving, my sister-in-law said, "If my mother is not reluctant, I would like to recruit another day shifter, so that if there is something at home during the day, there is no need to temporarily close the store." ”
She said this to explain that they couldn't stay for a long time, after all, in order to come to see me, the family shop was closed directly.
After they left, I sighed to Ye Sheng on WeChat: "Why do you suddenly feel like my sister-in-law is a different person!"
Ye Shengyin said that this is normal, "Anyway, Lu Xudong also helped them point out a clear way, she has directly changed from a part-time worker to a small proprietress at this time, her income is higher than before, and she is not tired before, even if she doesn't treat you as a sister-in-law, she has to be better to you in front of your husband, right? Besides, she knows that there are people at home to take care of you, and you won't really let your mother stay, she just says a few good words, and she doesn't suffer any losses!"
She spoke so reasonably, I was speechless for a moment, and most of the little flame in my heart was extinguished at once.
But I still feel quite comforted, anyway, I don't expect my sister-in-law to be more sincere to me, she doesn't give me a little cold posture, I am grateful enough.
"By the way, that little slut still hasn't moved?" Ye Shengyin was not interested in my sister-in-law's affairs, but always remembered Guo Yuqing's affairs.
On the day I was discharged from the hospital, I told Ye Shengyin about my escape, she immediately asked for leave and came directly to see me at home without saying a word, and then I also told her all the bad things Guo Yuqing did, she said at the time: "I'm afraid that little slut still has a trick waiting for you!"