My brother is like this, with regret, with indignation, with disappointment, completely disappeared from my life, I tried to find him, but after all, I found nothing, slowly, I also gave up looking for him, because I know very well in my heart that as long as Xiaoyue and Luan Yu are still in this school, my brother and I will not be able to live here in peace, we are destined to hurt each other, now, I can only pray silently in my heart, hoping that he can live well outside.

Having lost this only precious family affection, my emotions seemed to be drained, and the whole person was left with an empty shell, no thoughts, no pain.

I don't know how I got back to school, I only know that at school, there is Luan Yu waiting for me, a storm is about to sweep in, but I have always been timid, at this moment, I am not so afraid, but there is a sense of relief of sacrificing my life to die, maybe, for me who is so ruined now, I can't feel more miserable if I am ravaged a few times, because I am miserable enough.

When I returned to the dormitory, I didn't care about everything, I fell asleep, let go of all kinds of emotions, people became indifferent, and I fell asleep quickly, and it didn't take long for me to fall asleep, but when I was sleeping the deepest, my roommate woke me up and said that someone was looking for me below.

It's time to come, but it's not the right time to come, and it feels bad to be suddenly pulled from a dream to reality, especially to a terrifying reality.

I thought I was really free and easy, not afraid, but at this time, I would still be afraid, I would be afraid, I was a little afraid to go downstairs, I didn't know how Luan Yu would beat me and bully me, I didn't know if my weak body could withstand it, but could I escape? What could I do? The only brother who gave his life to help me was angry with me, and I didn't have to carry all the pain and torture in the future?

Thinking like this, I still mustered up the courage to get dressed and walked out of the dormitory silently.

Walking downstairs, I tried to search for Luan Yu's shadow with an uneasy heart, but, to my great surprise, the figure I found was not Luan Yu's, but actually Xiaoyue. Suddenly, I felt a light in my eyes, as if I saw a lamp of hope in the extreme darkness, the light was soft and beautiful, and my heart immediately let go, accompanied by a burst of relief.

It's just that when Xiaoyue saw me, she didn't have any expression, she directly said indifferently, 'Come with me' and turned around and left.

I hurriedly followed her to the small river next to the dormitory.

This river is the moat of the university campus, young couples love to come to this place to talk about love, the river is paved with pebbles, willow trees along the river, Xiaoyue and I are standing under a willow tree, looking at the river, feeling the cold breeze, breathing stimulating and fresh air.

How many days and nights, I have fantasized that I held Xiaoyue's hand and swayed by the river, and when I was tired, I sat on the bench by the river and talked about the world, today, the dream seems to have come true, I finally really stood by the river with her, and I can always recall the quiet and beautiful picture in the future.

But I also know that although this picture is beautiful, but the mood of the person concerned is not like that at all, I know that Xiaoyue is not here to talk to me, she is here to ask for guilt, looking at her indifferent expression, I immediately pulled myself back to reality, without waiting for her to speak, I directly and consciously confessed: "I'm sorry, my brother didn't come here from me, he has gone back now, and it won't disturb your life!"

Xiao Yue didn't reply to my words immediately, she just hooked the wind-blown hair to the back of her ears with her fingers, her eyes kept staring at the river, and after a long time, she said calmly: "Well, it's nothing, I've made it all clear to Luan Yu, he understands!"

Hearing this, my only beautiful heart fell into a trough again, I didn't expect that I hurt my brother ruthlessly, but in exchange for her and Luan Yu's mutual understanding, I lost everything for her, and she didn't seem to see my sacrifice at all, in her eyes, I was so small, small and not as good as the willow leaf floating on the river, she would rather keep staring at the willow leaf than look at me more.

I felt a sour feeling and wanted to speak, but I didn't know what to say.

Xiao Yue didn't wait for me to speak, and continued to look at herself: "By the way, I know everything about you and Luan Yu, don't worry, he has promised me that he will not trouble you again in the future, but I also promised him that after this time, I will not contact you again!"

For me, this should be a great thing, I can finally live without worrying about it, and I can continue to study hard in school, but I really can't be happy at all, I am very lost, very melancholy, my thin body is trembling slightly in the cold wind.

I wrapped my coat, then turned around, stared at Xiao Yue, and asked seriously, "Does it mean that we will be complete strangers in the future?"

Xiaoyue still didn't turn her head to look at me, her gaze was still on the river, she only moved her lips lightly, and said one word: Hmm.

This word is sharper than a needle, deeply stabbing my heart, although, we are not acquaintances, I pretended to be strangers to her, but she did say such a decisive word, I still can't accept it, I seem to feel more and more, Xiaoyue has occupied all the positions in my heart, she, is my enlightenment of love.

I can't forget her, but I have to respect her, or rather, I should be like my brother, a little self-aware, don't be delusional, toads will never eat swan meat.

Thinking of this, I could only look at Xiao Yue sadly, and said with difficulty: "Don't worry, I know how to do it!"

There was another silence, time seemed to freeze at this moment, she just stared at the river blankly, and I, staring blankly at her delicate side face.

After a long time, Xiao Yue suddenly muttered: "The fish is swimming in the river, it didn't eat the bait it it wanted to eat, it swam away!" After speaking, she turned around and left.

was so resolute that I didn't even say goodbye, I could only stare at the back of her leaving, and grieve alone.

When she completely disappeared from my sight, I walked to the position where she had just stood, trying to feel her state of mind just now, I inhaled hard, smelling her remaining girlish fragrance, even if I could catch a little bit of the smell, I felt relieved.

After a long, long time, I have been standing here, looking at the river, but I have stood for so long, and I have not seen a fish, I don't understand, what Xiao Yue said at the end meant, perhaps, I will never have a chance to understand, I only know, from now on, I have nothing to do with Xiao Yue.

In the next few days, the trajectory of my life returned to normal, and although I didn't believe that Luan Yu would let me go so easily, he did keep his promise and didn't trouble me again. The days are really peaceful, only occasionally I hear some chattering in the class, about me, they just use cowardice, pitiful, cowardice to describe it, and to my brother, many people will praise and blow, after all, my brother's terrifying power is indeed extraordinary.

Of course, I can not care about these things, but what follows naturally tugs at my heart.

At the beginning of the new year, the class held a small New Year's Day party, the college held a relatively large party, the school was unprecedentedly lively, everyone was immersed in a joyful atmosphere, and I was obviously not interested in any of this.

However, when I knew that Xiaoyue's School of Finance also held a New Year's Day party, I would still care, especially when I learned that Xiaoyue also participated in the show, I couldn't stop myself, I thought, as long as I can look at her silently, it's okay!

I wrapped myself in a thin coat and waited in the cold wind for more than an hour, watching more than a dozen boring shows, before finally waiting for Xiaoyue's appearance.

As soon as Xiaoyue appeared on the stage, I was immediately dumbfounded, she was so beautiful under the flashing lights, her white dress like a wedding dress completely lined off her graceful figure, the neckline of the dress was relatively low, and her breasts were bulging like flowers, which was extremely tempting.

And what makes me even more unstable is that today's Xiaoyue, makeup, the first time I saw her makeup, she didn't wear makeup when she was a bride in the village before. Tonight, on the stage, she is more and more feminine and bewitching with exquisite makeup, and I can't take my eyes off her at all, I am completely stunned, and my soul is almost sucked away.

Not only me, but all the male dicks in the audience were like taking ecstasy, staring at the stage motionless with their eyes open and their mouths open.

Xiaoyue is dressed so grandly, in fact, the show is to sing a song, a love song, a solo singing, and no accompanying dance.

She is so charming and quiet on the stage, she is very engaged when she sings, her eyes are red, I have never heard this song before, but I can feel that this song is very sad, the listener is inexplicably sad, but she is naturally attracted to it, singing to the affectionate place, I suddenly have an illusion, I feel that this is what Xiaoyue sang to me, because the resonance is too strong, completely deep into my bones and soul.

If I have enough self-confidence and I have enough capital, I will really rush to the stage desperately, confess to her, and tell her loudly that I like her, but in reality, I can only hide in the corner and silently fantasize, and even my illusions will be shattered, because, with the end of her last note, with the thunderous applause from the audience, Princess Charming under this light ushered in her real Prince Charming.

I saw that Luan Yu, who was dressed in handsome clothes, jumped on the stage with a large bouquet of roses in his hand, and under the gaze of countless eyes from the audience, he knelt down on one knee very elegantly and handed the flowers to Xiaoyue.

This picture is so romantic and beautiful, anyone who sees it has to sigh, what a perfect pair made in heaven.

Everyone in the audience couldn't help but stand up, applaud warmly, cheer to their heart's content, cheer for them, and give them blessings, and I, just like that, drowned in the warm cheers.

Maybe, I should really bless her, I wish her to find happiness that truly belongs to her, maybe only Luan Yu can give her enough security and happiness, I was not at ease with Luan Yu before, but today I see that he dares to boldly confess in public, what else do I have to worry about, no matter what kind of person Luan Yu is, at least, he loves Xiaoyue, just rush this, I should also let go completely, let go of Xiaoyue from the bottom of my heart, and bless them.

I didn't dare to look at the next picture anymore and didn't want to face it directly.

So, I shrunk my cold, shivering body, dragged my numb legs, and quietly left here.

I didn't go back to the dormitory, but went to the river of the school, to the place where Xiaoyue and I had the last chat, where I had my fantasies and my bleak memories, I sat alone on the bench by the river, staring at the river reflecting the moonlight.

The surroundings are very quiet, I can hear my own breathing, and only at this time can I see my heart clearly, and I can empty all to think about some questions! In this evening suitable for thinking, I pondered that sentence for a long, long time.

Finally, I seemed to get through, and the implication of Xiaoyue's words to me was to tell me not to want to chase her, but to take the initiative to give up on her. That's right, that's what it means, thinking of this, I suddenly laughed, I don't know when tears appeared in my eyes, with tears, I laughed, laughed desperately, very tragic, and very clear, everything should be over, it's really completely over, if it doesn't belong to you, don't read it, don't read it at all, let go is liberation.

It's late at night, the door of the dormitory is about to close, and I'm gradually relieved, this time, I really made up my mind, say goodbye to the unrequited love in the past, say goodbye to the ignorant love, say goodbye to Xiaoyue, say goodbye to Luan Yu, about them, it's time to pass. Speaking of which, Luan Yu is also a very good person, for Xiaoyue, he can really let go of his hatred for me, and he can really stop looking for me, so I should also let go of my mustard for him and face the future calmly.

One last look at the river, I got up and went back to the dormitory, at this time, I didn't know how naïve I was, I didn't know at all, the true face behind the calm was the storm you couldn't resist.

As soon as I returned to the downstairs of the dormitory, I felt something strange, this building was obviously much noisier than usual today, especially when I walked to my floor, I actually saw that the dormitory where I lived was full of people, and when they saw me, they immediately cast strange glances.

With an inexplicable mood, I broke through the layers of crowds and came to the door of the dormitory, where I saw that my small dormitory was also full of people, including the student union and the security department, they all seemed to be waiting for me!