Chapter 787: The First Step 187
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Depend on!
That's it, I should have known it a long time ago.
Wife and children are already the character attributes of Yuan Changwen's character, which is the self-definition of Yuan Changwen's character. It is not a contradiction between Yuan Changwen and his wife and children at all, but a contradiction between the various character attributes of Yuan Changwen's character.
My mom is too, my colleagues are too, my friends are too, and all the connections with the world are like this. I couldn't connect with the so-called outside world, I could only interact with the virtual data in my head.
It's been mentioned before, but never felt ridiculous like this. There is no outside at all, all of them are things inside the character of Yuan Changwen.
Whoever it is, it's just virtual data that exists in my head. It's not about what to be filial or not, or whether to be responsible. Rather, it's the question of whether or not to discard some of the character's attributes.
"I am a filial son", this is the self-definition of Yuan Changwen's role, and it is also the role attribute of Yuan Changwen's character. So, it looks like I'm thinking about the absurdity of filial piety, and it looks like I'm talking about filial piety as nothing more than a transaction or something.
In fact, it is simply not necessary to kill the character attribute of "I am a filial son". If killed, the character will no longer have this character attribute, which is equivalent to one less piece of the elemental that has been piling up on the character.
So, it's not an outside, a social wave, a moral bondage, a family or anything like that. It's all about erasing some character attributes, making the character of Yuan Changwen smaller, and letting the elements that make up the character be killed.
Because the character of Yuan Changwen is false, and its constituent elements are also false. Why do you have to hold on to it? These are very important things for the characters, and they form a solid and upward imperial society from the perspective of the whole world.
However, unreal is unreal, and the so-called role of Yuan Changwen is just a fixed scene that has always appeared in the field of vision. What is the difference from other scenes, and why is the role of Yuan Changwen more important than others?
There's a lot of dummy data about other people in my head, and I'm always going to think that this dummy data is what other people really are. Even when you are face-to-face with others, you are still only interacting with the virtual data in your head.
I knew the meaning of the other person's words and the meaning of the other person's behavior, but it seems that I really feel it now, and all of this is just the self-amusement of the virtual data in my head.
I always thought that there was a real person there, and I kept talking and interacting with that real person. The virtual data in my head is not only my judgment of others, but also the elements of the whole character.
"What kind of person am I" is the various self-definition of the character and the attributes of the role. That "how" can be just an adjective of filial piety, sincerity, hard work, etc., or it can be a clause.
For example, I am a person who "believes that women should be more knowledgeable".
I am a person who "thinks that both partners in a relationship should be treated equally, and that you should try to refrain from any temper tantrum".
This clause can be very long, that is, it contains views and insights about the world.
I am a person who "believes that the empire's economy is booming, and that these industries will become sunrise industries, and we must invest immediately in the window period, and we will definitely double our value at that time."
In this way, it is not about abandoning the outside world at all, nor is it about killing any family members or anything like that. Everything is committing suicide, and it is killing everything that the character of Yuan Changwen believes.
And what Yuan Changwen's character can see is only what he believes or doesn't believe.
No matter what happens outside, such as a car accident, it is difficult for the character to see that it is just "a car accident", but a distortion of various thoughts and a high wall of thinking. All kinds of analyses, all kinds of opinions, all kinds of feelings, have come out.
These self-definitions will become character attributes, and then constitute the real existence of Yuan Changwen's character. When I believe in these distortions, I am affirming the authenticity of Yuan Changwen's character.
Strictly speaking, I'm one of these twists!
It's really a sad result, the role of Yuan Changwen, which I have always thought was my own role, is just a distortion. And these distortions are almost entirely based on fear, so I'm just a mass of fear.
Those desires, those pursuits, are nothing but the product of fear driven away. Even if it's courage, it's just a drag show of fear. If I'm not afraid of life at all, what courage do I need? How can I think that courage is something to be praised?
I believe in these distortions, and I have an incredible grip on them, and this feeling of holding on to them and not letting go is attachment.
These are not me, they are just the attributes of the character. That awareness is me, the only truth.
I can't let go of attachments, it's just going to become another attachment. Directly kill the character, then it will naturally bring about the so-called detachment.
Just like there is no need for me to guess what the characteristics of a righteous and courageous person will be, and there is no need to imitate those characteristics to show that I am a righteous and courageous person. When I go to act bravely, when I do righteous and courageous, then my behavior will naturally be in line with it.
Even if it doesn't, it doesn't matter. Because my goal is to act bravely, not to imitate the person who is brave and courageous. Therefore, it is pointless to discuss the standards of behavior after the killing.
I need to kill, I need to erase the character of Yuan Changwen, everything else is just a trick of fear, it's just a delaying tactic.
In fact, I was only aware of all these images, and the rest was the product of distortions in my mind. For example, liking, hating, disgusting, etc., are all interactions formed by the distortion of the character's brain.
Then, I became aware of the character's emotions.
If it's just the state of the thing, then it's relaxing, like the experience I've had before. It's not ecstasy, bliss, or anything like that, it's just a sense of ease and a touch of satisfaction. This state is much more comfortable than the achievements and show-offs that I have had.
Seemingly, that's what I'm meant to be.
However, I don't know if this will be the case after the killing, and I don't want to know. Because I didn't know anything, the feeling of not knowing became more and more obvious, and that thinking became more and more simulated to that awareness.
There is nothing outside, which means that I can never conflict with the outside, and I can only conflict with the distortion in the character's mind.
What if someone hits me?
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