Xiao Du followed Cheng Shuo for two weeks to 11 cities to promote the new album "Dawn", doing signing and other activities, even Xiao Du was tired, let alone Cheng Shuo. Finally returned to T City, and received a call from Shi Yu before the car drove to the apartment, Xiao Du hung up the phone and turned his head, and said in a soft voice: "Brother Shuo, Brother Yu said that there will be a temporary announcement for filming tomorrow, but you don't need to get up too early, you can sleep a little longer." Cheng Shuo closed his eyes and nodded, he was so tired that he didn't even want to speak, training was also very hard in the United States, but it was just physical exhaustion, at the beginning he was full of unwillingness, physical exhaustion became a kind of venting for him, and later, he got used to that kind of life, and slowly it seemed that it was not important to come back, as long as there were things to do every day, they were full so that he didn't have the energy to think about it. Now that he is really back, this tiredness is not only physical, but also mental, he has not dealt with the media so frequently and intensively for a long time, the industry has never been kind, not everyone is looking forward to his return, let alone everyone is optimistic about his return.

The next day, everyone in the studio was preparing in an orderly manner, after taking a set of photos, Cheng Shuo went to change clothes, and the next group of modeling props was more, and the staff told him that he could rest for a while.

In the end, he is young, his body is good, and after more than ten hours of sleep, Cheng Shuo's state has fully recovered. He changed his clothes and prepared to go to the lounge, but before he could pass through the labyrinth of mobile hangers, he was stumped by a name.

Two young staff members came in at the door of the clothing room, and the one holding the clothes said as they entered the door: "I heard that I was filming in the studio upstairs, is it true?"

Another girl put down the props in her hand and replied: "I just heard that she is here, it seems to be a promotional photo of an advertising endorsement." ”

The girl who packed up her clothes was full of excitement, "Really! I like her, can I sneak up and see if you can do it later?"

"I'd like to go and see it, they all say she's beautiful without makeup, a natural beauty." ”

"How can you be without makeup when you make a film, if you want to see a natural beauty, you can wait for her to finish work and pretend to take a look on the road downstairs haha. The two of them laughed and laughed, not noticing that there was anyone else in the dressing room.

Cheng Shuo just took photos for the magazine, and quickly ended the day's work. Shi Yu didn't follow, he asked Xiao Du to go back first, saying that he still had something to do, Xiao Du hesitated, seeing that he was so insistent, he had to leave first.

In the evening, when I finished my work for the day, when I came out after changing my clothes, the assistant Lulu was talking to the staff at the door, and when she came out, she said goodbye to the other party and greeted her, "Sister Qiao went back to the company first, I just answered the phone and said that there was something, let us go back first, I have called Aunt Fang to ask her to cook more delicious food, I am hungry!"

He nodded and said, "You had a half-working meal at noon." ”

Lulu immediately protested, "But I haven't been idle all afternoon, okay, you just stand there and take pictures, but my leg is about to break!" After speaking, he put on a pitiful appearance, grabbed his arm and said, "Don't you support me if I eat too much?"

"Aunt Fang is in charge of the food, as long as she has no opinion, I don't mind how fat you look." ”

The two of them talked and laughed all the way to the door, it was not early, there was almost no one around, Lulu looked left and right for a long time and then said: "Hey, I told Xiao Zhang about this door, he who is known as a living map will not be lost, I'll call and ask." ”

Lulu was talking to herself, she didn't need to answer in a heelous way, she finished the phone, turned around and said, "He's at the other door, this is coming, you stand here and don't move, I'll go over there and take a look, how do I remember I'm talking about this door." ”

Before she could speak, Lulu ran away.

She raised her wrist to look at the time but found that she was not wearing a watch, lowered her head and took out her mobile phone from her bag, and then a "stream" from behind her made her feel like a lightning strike, and the whole person froze, this voice, she will never forget.

It seems that after a long time, her hand is still on the action of taking out the mobile phone, after half a ring, she subconsciously took a step back when she heard the footsteps, this action made him stop too, she slowly raised her head, and there was standing under the steps, not Cheng Shuo, who else could be.

Maybe it's just after filming, Cheng Shuo's style can take a set of cover photos on the street. After so long, she almost didn't dare to recognize him, in the MV of Bian Che before, in order to conform to the character image, he was always dressed casually, and he was like him in front of him, he was the new all-round idol singer Cheng Shuo should look like, surrounded by light, and every move was the focus of attention.

She stood there looking at him, familiar and unfamiliar with each other, so long has passed, many things have long changed, obviously they are close at hand, but it seems that the distance between them is not three years, but the past and present lives. None of them are students of the conservatory anymore, nor are they simple-minded big children, they all have their own light and status at the moment, and they are envied and looked up to, but the initial hope and future are blurred. She thought, probably like a world away, that's what it feels like.

Cheng Shuo looked at her and didn't speak, he had the courage to come over, but he didn't know what to say except for a "slam".

There's so much to say, but where to start, or maybe something is too old to be talked about.

None of the two people facing each other in this way spoke, and the faces in their memories did not change, but only their faces did not change, and the rest all changed, changed beyond recognition, changed to the point that they did not dare to approach, and changed to the point that they did not even have the courage to reach out and touch.

Just as the two of them were standing like this, a business car drove up, and Lulu poked her head out of the window and called her: "Get in the car, I'm really hungry!"

As if he had been rescued, he got into the car without looking back, and the car disappeared from the dust, and soon disappeared around the corner of the street.

In the twilight, only Cheng Shuo's long back still stood there motionless.

At night, he soaked in the bathtub, three years, many things have changed, he is already a fashion idol all-round artist, he standing there is enough to make fans scream crazy, so he makes her feel strange, and the big boy next door in his memory has gradually faded away.

When he first debuted, he often went back to the apartment directly after giving notices, and sometimes he changed clothes in the car before he had time to remove his makeup. Once she came out of the elevator and saw him standing at the door with one hand grabbing his hair, and the other hand putting the necklace bracelet into her bag, she stood behind him and looked at him for a while, she really couldn't figure out what he was doing, and she wondered for a long time before asking, "What are you doing here?"

This question startled him, and then he saw that it was her, "Why are you here? Didn't you say you were almost there an hour ago?"

She raised the bag she was carrying and replied, "Didn't you say that you haven't eaten yet, I went to buy some on the way here, why didn't you stand at the door and not go in?"

His hand was still in his backpack, "I, I'm looking for the key." ”

She didn't ask any more questions, whatever it was, as long as he said it, she believed it.

This little episode has been a long, long time before she knows, just because she once said that she likes the clean and simplest appearance of boys, so every time he sees him, he tries to take off the jewelry on his body, and his hair is restored to the most ordinary appearance, just for a sentence that she doesn't remember to say.

Yueyue saw that he was so busy tossing herself every time, and she couldn't help but ask, "You look handsome, okay? Why are you so troublesome every time? Maybe she doesn't hate it at all." But he happily replied to her: "I can't help it when I work, but usually, I want to give her an ordinary boyfriend." ”

Nothing has changed, nothing can go back, no matter how good everything she once had, but now, she still has nothing left, alone.

Yan Zhuanxin stretched out her hand to wipe the fog off the mirror, she didn't like to look in the mirror since she was a child, at this moment, she looked at the person in the mirror, this person is so strange, she is Yan Zhuanxin, and now she is a popular flower in the entertainment industry, she is Yan Zhuanxin, she used to be a top student of T sound, she is Yan Zhuanxin, whether it was or is, there are many people who envy her.

She suddenly felt sad, she never thought that she would live the life she is now, she never got what she wanted, she didn't want to cherish what she had, if he didn't appear, she could never think about why she came here, but she came back without saying hello, just like when he appeared in his life without saying hello, giving her the best memory, and then cruelly shattering all her expectations.

She was pushed here by fate, it was Director Zhao Jin who gave her a chance, it was Xiao Xia who gave her a safe haven, she hid behind the role and let herself secretly breathe, she couldn't think, she didn't know where to go next, so she followed the arch of everyone and walked here step by step.

She thought about standing in the brightest place, having everything he had ever wanted to have, so that he could see himself, and she wanted him to know that she had the ability to stand side by side with him.

And then what?

Do you want him to come back to him?

Or do you want him to regret leaving him?

The mirror slowly fogged again, Yan Zhuan Xin couldn't see her face in the mirror clearly, she closed her eyes and sank into the water.

When Lulu woke up the next morning, she saw the dark green in her eyes and knew that she hadn't slept well. Her sleep has not been good, when she was a child, because she was frightened, so she slept very lightly, and woke up with a little movement, and then because of her heavy heart, she often couldn't fall asleep for a long time, even when she was taking the exam, it was never at any time, as long as she woke up, she couldn't sleep again.

In the years when I was in college, I was not used to changing places at first, but later I lived a calm life and was accompanied by Qu Fei, and my sleep became better day by day. Later, Cheng Shuo appeared in her life, her daily life was full and busy, and her sleep turned out to be normal.

Such days only lasted until the accident, the car accident took away not only her love and academic turns, but also her hard-won sleep, she began to have frequent nightmares, every time she woke up in a cold sweat, even later in the Ran family did not get any better.

When filming "Trajectory", the crew basically finished work on time, at that time, she was full of worries, she couldn't sleep well, and she also read the script when there was no drama at night, but the more she watched Xiao Xia's story, the more she remembered her own things, and often the sky turned white to fall asleep for a while.

After Xiao Xia finished, she returned to school to spend the last time before graduation, and she was with Qu Fei every day and lived a life where the two depended on each other when she first entered the school, and she was unexpectedly able to sleep peacefully.

After his debut, because of filming, his sleep has been irregular, and he can fall asleep quickly when he is extremely tired, but usually he should film again after squinting for a while, and when he can rest when he is not working, he can't sleep again.

At one point, she needed medication to force herself to sleep.

Qiao Lin knew that she didn't sleep well, so she specially instructed the renovation workers to use double thickened glass in her room, and the curtains were also thickened and insulated, and when she didn't go out to work, Aunt Fang would boil milk for her to drink every day, and even the habit of taking a bath before going to bed was also developed to promote sleep.

In the past few years, she has been chaotic when she was filming, and she came back to recuperate when she was resting, and she got used to the good and bad ones. Since she met him again, she always unconsciously remembered the past, especially when she was not filming, she couldn't fall asleep over and over again, and even her brain was out of control.

Lulu helped Aunt Fang bring her an early breakfast, and told her that Jolene would pick them up later to shoot the cover of the magazine, "I haven't been idle since the completion of "Providence", yesterday was an endorsement photoshoot, today is a magazine photoshoot, Aunt Fang, you go to visit the class, the lunch box is really hard to eat." ”

He put down the cup, "Don't let Aunt Fang run around, if you don't like it, just order takeout, I'll reimburse you." ”

Lulu leaned on the table, "People are afraid that you won't eat well, you lose a lot of weight every time you film, I don't believe you ask Aunt Fang!"

Aunt Fang is a native of T City, the children are abroad, her wife died of illness a few years ago, she is reluctant to live abroad, she is alone and lonely, so she comes out to find something to do, and she is not to support the family, she just wants to have a companion, she and Qiao Lin's aunt are neighbors, gentle and careful, at that time Qiao Lin was looking for a suitable person to take care of Yan Zhuanxin, Qiao's mother said that her sister's family has a very good neighbor, so she introduced it. Aunt Fang doesn't know what celebrities are, she just treats Yan Zhuanxin and Lulu as her own children, hearing Lulu say this, Aunt Fang laughed, "Zhuan is too thin, anyway, they've been at home lately, I'll make more delicious food for both of you to make up." ”

She lowered her head and drank the soup, listening to the conversation between Aunt Fang and Lulu, her heart warmed, since her debut, she has been in contact with very few people, and she doesn't like to go out when she is not working, so she spends the most time with Aunt Fang and Lulu. Aunt Fang has a gentle personality and never talks much, and after getting along in the past few years, she is really like the parents of the two of them, Aunt Fang also learned to make soup and various health recipes in order to take care of Yan Zhuanxin, as long as they are at home, they will change their ways to eat.

It wasn't until she was about to go out that Lulu was still discussing the recipe for the evening with Aunt Fang, and it wasn't until Aunt Fang promised that she would be super sumptuous and wait for them to come back, and Lulu was satisfied to follow her out the door.

In the studio, the photographer was shooting the cover photo of the latest issue of a fashion magazine, and because the photographer wanted to change the set, the three of them went to the lounge.

The studio had just been opened, and there was a corridor from the costume room to the lounge, and on one side was an all-glass open living room.

The girl sitting sideways in the floor-to-ceiling glass, that side face, like a stream, if it weren't for her being by her side, Jolene would almost recognize the wrong person. Lulu looked at Jolene's line of sight with a puzzled face, and after a moment's pause, she turned around to see Zhuan standing beside her, blinked vigorously and turned back to look.

In the end, she finally noticed the surprise of the two, and turned her face to look sideways, even though she never looked at her photos very much and didn't like to look in the mirror, but that side face still touched her. Once upon a time, she had a photo she liked very much, she and him were facing each other sideways, and the self in the photo was like this with long black hair, a white dress, smiling at the person opposite, this picture made her almost think that she was in a dream.

Jolene reached out to pull her, and she couldn't see any ups and downs on her face: "Let's go, go and rest for a while, it may be a little late today." She withdrew her gaze and bowed her head slightly and continued on with Jolene, but Lulu didn't follow them.

After changing the set, the staff came to call her to go back to the studio to continue shooting, Qiao Lin stood in the corner, her face couldn't see any emotion, and after a while, Lulu came in from the door and walked over and whispered in her ear: "Pang Yu, Su Hua's." ”

Jolene nodded almost imperceptibly, and after Lulu finished speaking, she returned to the opposite side of the company to continue filming with her, and Jolene stood there with her arms crossed, her eyes were on the body, because of the styling, the hair was pulled up, and the costume was more stable. The side face she saw just now still appeared in her mind, it was too similar to the first time she saw Zhuan in person, but she never smiled like she had just done as if she had been carefully calculated, let alone chatting with strangers so happily, it was such a smile that made her instantly distinguish, and her heart sank.

Along the way, she has suffered losses and learned lessons, time and ups and downs have created what Jolene is now, she knows very well that here, there will be no coincidence for no reason, for the sake of Zhuan, for herself, she can't be careful.

The day's filming didn't end until late, and Jolene went back to dinner with Lulu and Aunt Fang to prepare a sumptuous dinner.

As soon as Lulu entered the door and changed her shoes, she didn't even change her clothes and ran directly to the kitchen, and she couldn't stop admiring: "It's so fragrant, it's so fragrant, Aunt Fang, how many things I love to eat, I'll be fat!"

Jolene and Luan Xin couldn't help but laugh, Lulu was always like this, she was the one who was hungry and needed to replenish her strength and nutrition, and she was the one who was afraid that she would grow fat and grow meat.

Aunt Fang was still in the kitchen, only a voice came out, "Go wash your hands first and then eat, there is cut fruit on the table, eat a little first when you are hungry." ”

Lulu obediently went to wash her hands, and went upstairs to change her clothes, Jolene took off her coat to pour water, and after a while, everyone sat around the table and began to eat.

After filming for a whole day, Zhu Lianxin was indeed hungry, Aunt Fang made all the dishes she loved to eat, and kept saying, "Zhu Lian is too thin, hurry up and make up for it while she is not filming, eat more and eat more." She rarely spoke when she ate, and she almost ate all the time, and Aunt Fang felt a lot more relieved when she saw it.

After dinner, Lulu touched her round belly and praised Aunt Fang's good craftsmanship and began to be depressed again, "It's over, I will definitely be fat, I have eaten so much, and those who keep in shape don't eat at night!" She turned her face and asked Qiao Lin, "Sister Qiao, do models really don't eat much to lose weight? and work out desperately to be thinner, I heard them say so scary, isn't it true?"

Aunt Fang's cooking has always been delicious and to Jolene's appetite, every time she comes to eat, she eats a lot more than usual, she is drinking soup, she doesn't even raise her head, and says, "I haven't brought a model, but I don't know if it's true or not." ”

"Oh, forget it, after listening to them, I feel that it's no fun to lose weight so desperately, anyway, I don't care, only if I'm fat can I have the strength to take good care of Zhuan! Fortunately, we are born with a physique that can't eat fat, otherwise she loses weight, and I won't be able to eat delicious things." ”

The people at the table couldn't help but laugh when they saw her cute appearance, she was a well-deserved pistachio.

Qiao Lin glanced at Yan Lianxin, every time she finished filming, she would lose weight, this physique really doesn't need to be deliberately lost weight, many times she feels that the word natural beauty is simply used to describe Yan Lianxin, from facial features to body shape, she has never let herself worry about it, it should be said that she herself has never paid much attention to it, she was born.

She remembered the events of the afternoon, that girl was fatter than Zhuan, and if she looked closely, she didn't look like Zhuan, just an illusion for a moment. She took the spoon and continued to drink the sweet soup, and she didn't mention the little episode in the afternoon, and Lulu didn't say it, and she didn't remember it at all. It's just that Su Hua is the person, can she do meaningless things? That's not her style.

"By the way, this year's 'White Camellia Theater Festival' has come with an invitation, you have a number in your heart, and I will arrange it again when it is near. ”

Maybe he was tired, but he just nodded and didn't speak. She has never liked to participate in various activities, and she generally does not participate unless necessary, as for advertising endorsements and other things, she is fully up to her agent Jolene to decide, and from the day she signed a contract with Jolene, she chose the greatest trust. She doesn't have many friends inside and outside the circle, and there are only a handful of people who can make friends, and when she is not working, she is a typical otaku, and she can pass the time all day with a book. She herself doesn't know and doesn't like makeup, she wears casual clothes without makeup outside of work, how comfortable she is. Such a person is called an outlier in the circle, and it is no wonder that the media can't film scandals and private life.

In fact, her receptivity and adaptability are quite good, even if she doesn't like or even dislike people and things, she can stay calm, she has debuted for so long, and she has seen a lot of anecdotes and gossip, among which the most unbearable thing for her is that those male artists who are dressed more delicately than female stars, and their words and deeds are extraordinarily contrived and have no one in their eyes, and they can't talk about how disgusted they are, but they will feel a little uncomfortable, especially the strong and pungent perfume smell will always make her sneeze constantly, and when it is serious, she will have a headache, so she tries to bypass it as much as possible every time.

Participating in activities generally has to try on clothes and styling in advance, especially makeup, she personally prefers a clean face, so every time she puts on makeup, it is very tiring, and it is a torture when she applies makeup continuously. These things are all communicated and arranged by Jolene, she just needs to sit there and be at the mercy of others, in the spirit of dedication and understanding, even if she is reluctant, she has never complained half a sentence.

In the past, when she rehearsed and performed, she didn't feel anything about how to practice and repeat it, everything is a matter of course, people are like this, what they like, no matter how troublesome they are, they don't feel annoyed, on the other hand, they don't have much interest in things, and they will feel troublesome and boring in the eyes of others.

In this circle, everyone is anxious when they encounter a lot of activities with tight time and artists, and when they meet popular or non-popular stars who keep making various requirements, the scene is even more messy. She is used to being quiet, and she doesn't often participate in this kind of activity, as long as it's convenient, she will generally talk very well to give up time, and she doesn't care about the open and secret battles at all, fighting for who has a higher status and who has a bigger name, in her opinion, this is a completely meaningless thing.

She was popular when she just finished filming "Three Worlds Fireworks", once she went to an event a little early, and she was not in a hurry if she was rich enough, Lulu was happy that Jolene invited the famous stylist Ami in the circle to give her a look for this event, and Ami, who has always been picky, agreed in one bite.

The place to put on makeup for the artists is not large, and naturally there is no separate dressing room and lounge, so she sat on the sofa and sent messages to Qu Fei. At that time, the artist Huang Yu, who became popular overnight with a play, also came to participate in this event, and the assistant alone followed several, and after entering the door, he pretended not to see it after seeing it, and sat directly on the chair without even taking off his sunglasses. Her assistant commanded that she asked to style Topaz first and put forward a lot of requirements, and the stylist arranged for Topaz was another person, knowing that Topaz occupied the position that Ami wanted to shape Tun Xin and didn't dare to speak, Ami was about to speak when she saw this, but Tun Xin took the initiative to be polite, she just didn't want the staff to be embarrassed by her. Who knew that not only Huang Yu took it for granted, but even the assistant was arrogant, Lulu was angry and rolled her eyes for a long time, all of which was seen by Ami.

When she attended the event, Jolene and Ami were chatting backstage, "Arlene, you really don't have to pick and choose, and there are really not many popular and good-tempered artists like her now." In fact, Qiao Lin didn't know what happened before, but replied with a smile: "Sister Mi, you never praise people, this really flatters me and Zhuan Zhuan." Ami raised his head and said: "A unique talent deserves my unique evaluation, I have been doing this business for more than ten years, no one has ever seen it, there are many popular people, they climb up quickly, and they are miserable when they fall." "How could Jolene not know that she has seen a lot over the years.

That little turmoil didn't make Huang Zhuan remember Topaz as a person, and then Topaz didn't have any works, and a scandal broke out, and it didn't take long for him to disappear. Later, when she went to the announcement, Lulu kept staring at a person, and it took a long time to remember that it was the assistant of Topaz who helped the abuse, and it happened that she had done something wrong, and Lulu wanted to teach her a small lesson in the question, but after being known by Zhuanxin, she just let her go with a few words of understatement. Originally, Lulu didn't really want to embarrass her, but she just remembered that she was a little angry with her attitude towards Zhuan, and she had become accustomed to Zhuan's low-key and indifferent attitude in the past two years. In this world, there are too many things that there is no need to take to heart, let alone remember.

After filming "Providence", she has been in a hurry, which has almost become a compulsory course for Zhu Zhuan Xin every time she finishes filming, and she can finally take a break, she doesn't sleep well, and her biological clock is still in the state when she was working, and she woke up very early. The weather is getting colder and colder, she lay on the bed for a while before getting up, after washing up, she went downstairs to see that Lulu's room was closed and knew that she was still making up for sleep, the house was very quiet, Aunt Fang should have gone to the market, she poured herself a glass of water, went to the kitchen to get breakfast, Aunt Fang carefully left a note, telling her where to put it early.

After eating breakfast alone, Zhu Zhuan Xin thought about it and didn't have anything to do, so she went upstairs to prepare to read the script, and there were already a lot of scripts on the table in the small hall upstairs that had not been read, and she had just sat down for a while when she received a call from Qu Fei.

After graduating from college, because the two of them had their own things to do, they mostly relied on phone contact, but they didn't feel any sense of distance. She picked up the phone and asked directly, "Why is it so early?"

There was a faint sound of music on the phone, and Qu Fei's voice came, "There is a class, I received an email from Ding Yang yesterday, I came out in the morning to buy it early, and I went back to school to take a look, and it was really a big propaganda poster." Qu Fei knew that he wouldn't ask, so he continued: "He is going back to China to hold a concert, and he has invited young teachers and outstanding students from his alma mater to participate in the performance, and I have already replied that he will definitely return, what about you?"

He was silent for a moment and asked the time before saying, "I maybe, I can't go, I just received an invitation to 'White Camellia' yesterday." ”

Qu Fei didn't seem surprised, and his tone was the same as always, "He sent a sheet of music, which he wrote for the harp and the violin, but it's a pity." ”

She was silent, and Qu Fei naturally changed the topic and continued to chat, as if that was not the main thing she was talking about.

Qu Fei on the phone was talking about the recent events, she listened on the other end of the phone, and responded from time to time, thinking about Ding Yang, who had not seen him for many years, and didn't know how he was now, but it seemed that his music career was developing well.

Hung up the phone, looked at the mobile phone with a black screen, and Qu Fei's sentence of 'It's a pity' still echoed in her ears. It's a pity, including how many times you can't go back to the past and how many times you don't dare to look back.

Her life has left regrets and apologies, she has made a choice to leave school and leave the world she once lived in, do you regret it? She didn't even dare to think about it, for fear that if she couldn't control it, she would be out of breath in pain.

She stood on the road with no end in sight, no matter how tired she was, she didn't dare to stop, she could only walk all the way forward, she was too tired to slow down, every time, she had to use her best not to look back, she must not look back, she was too afraid to see the footprints and forks in the past, she knew that once she turned back, she would no longer have the courage to move forward.

She threw the script aside in her hand, curled up her legs and hugged it, the weather was really getting colder, her hands and feet were cold, she just wanted to fall asleep deeply, she couldn't think about anything.