If it's okay, I rarely go to the company, this time I went back with Qiao Lin and happened to meet Zou Yuan, who had just finished filming a short film, and the two who were nicknamed the "Ice and Snow Sisters" of Xinyuan Media actually had little intersection, their image positioning is different, and they are not people who love to be lively, so they can be said to be completely unconnected in private.

Zou Yuan took the initiative to nod to say hello to Zhu Lianxin, Qiao Lin was a little surprised but silent, Zou Yuan was lukewarm to anyone on weekdays, and would actually take the initiative to say hello. She also nodded her head and said hello back, she remembered what happened before, if it wasn't for the last time she was passing by when she went back to the company and heard the cry coming from the office of Zou Yuan's agent Sister Ma, maybe they would never have had anything to do with each other.

In the focus of entertainment, she has never cared about entertainment news and artist trends, and if it weren't for Lulu's love of gossip, she wouldn't even know a few of her own news.

Last time, she and Lulu went back to the company to wait for Jolene, and as soon as she went upstairs, she saw the two new little girls whispering, where there are people, there is gossip, not to mention that in this circle, there is a lot of gossip every day, and she doesn't care at all. She was passing by Zou Yuan's agent's office when she went to Qiao Lin's office, and there was a faint cry from the closed door. She couldn't quite remember who each office belonged to, so she glanced at the sign at the door and walked straight to Jolene's office.

She sat on the sofa and flipped through the magazines on the coffee table, Lulu covered the door and went out, ran back after a while, closed the door and ran to her side and asked in a mysterious whisper, "Shui Lian, guess what's going on over there?"

She was not interested in gossip at all, but she still answered Lulu, so Lulu immediately told her what she had just inquired about, which was nothing more than those fabricated and distorted gossip, in which no one could escape becoming the talk of the public after dinner. Lulu sighed and said: "I used to hear Zou Yuan's assistant say that she had autism before going to drama school, and she didn't talk to anyone, and she didn't adapt to the customs of the circle when she debuted later, but she just liked acting, so she had no choice but to force herself to change for this career, learn to communicate with strangers, and learn to participate in the collective activities of the crew and the company" Lulu glanced at the door, lowered her voice and continued: " I heard her assistant say that she refused the cooperation arrangement because of the sponsor's ill intentions, and she didn't give face at all, and her former agent had a big temper, and then she didn't know how to change to Sister Ma. Lulu sighed and returned to her normal tone, "Actually, she can understand it now, obviously she didn't do anything, thinking that she could be upright and not afraid of shadows, but she still made such a big negative, and those people spoke really ugly, it was unbearable, if I was wronged, I would be very wronged." ”

"What is the attitude of the company's side?" It is rare for Lianxin to respond to Lulu in terms of gossip, she didn't react at once, and was stunned for a moment before saying: "I don't know yet, it is said outside that Zou Yuan has been crying for a long time, and Sister Ma can't persuade her." ”

He closed the magazine in his hand and put it back on the coffee table, got up and walked to the door before turning his head and saying to Lulu, "You wait here for Sister Qiao, I'll be back in a while." Without waiting for her to speak, he closed the door and went out.

There was no one in the hallway, probably to avoid it, and they all hid far away.

Zou Yuan sat on the sofa holding the cushion and was still sobbing, the paper pump next to him had gone down for more than half of it, and the agent Sister Ma leaned against the table, and couldn't help but be stunned when she saw it, and then smiled: "Oh, Zhuoxin, it's really rare to see you in the company, this is-"

She glanced at Zou Yuan and then turned her head and said to Sister Ma, "Sister Ma, do I want to say a few words to Zou Yuan?"

With the friendship between Wei Zhuan Xin and Zou Yuan, Sister Ma really couldn't think of anything she had to say to Zou Yuan, not to mention that at such a time, Zou Yuan's state was very poor, so she naturally wanted to refuse. But when she saw the black and white eyes, she nodded in agreement.

She smiled lightly and said, "Thank you, Sister Ma, I want to talk to her alone." ”

Sister Ma sighed, looked at Zou Yuan, turned around and went out.

She walked over and sat next to Zou Yuan, she didn't know how long she had been crying, her eyes were already swollen, and her nose was a little red.

She took out two pieces of paper and handed them to Zou Yuan, "Crying can make people vent temporarily, but it can't solve any problems, the more uncomfortable you are, the happier the person who hurts you, and only those who care about you will feel distressed." ”

Zou Yuan tilted his head and didn't speak.

He didn't care, he took his eyes off Zou Yuan and continued: "Everyone in this world has to pay first for what they want to get, and there has never been an exception. You've been given the opportunity to make your dreams come true, the selfless love of your fans, and the right to do what you want, so you should live with the disaster that comes true when that dream comes true. There is never absolute fairness in this world, only relative compensation. If you get something that others can't get, you have to pay what others don't need to give, which is relative fairness. ”

Zou Yuan twisted his head, his voice buzzing because of crying, "It's easy to say, even if you want to make amends, why can some people cover the sky with one hand? No one dares to expose what they have done? I have already kept to myself and only worked, why do they always hold on to me and refuse to let go? I just want to act well, why is it so difficult?"

"There's nothing easy to do in this world. ”

Zou Yuanhu turned his head to look at her and said: "As soon as you debut, you will be escorted by Zhao Jin, and everything will be smooth sailing, how can you understand my difficulties! I debuted earlier than you, and I have filmed more scenes than you, how many roles can the audience remember? I am not afraid of hard work or ugly, as long as the role requires me, I am willing to try anything, I just want to be an actor, why is it so difficult!" From being snubbed and wronged when I was just filming, to being asked by reporters at the press conference to being speechless and not even having anyone willing to speak for me, and these never-ending damn reports made my family start to question my choice!" Before he finished speaking, Zou Yuan couldn't help but start sobbing again.

People often only see the light surrounding the dazzling, but they can't see the sadness behind the glitz, and the envy is not necessarily the most wanted, and the one who doesn't care about it may not be what they want. ”

Zou Yuan sniffed hard, and after a while, he asked in a very nasal voice, "Have you ever encountered it?"

Halfway through her words, she still understood what she meant, and smiled a little helplessly: "How can it not be, some people are born with no good people, and what they like most is to make things out of nothing and spread rumors, and do business all day long with unreasonable troubles and attacks and abuses" Zou Yuan leaned over his legs to get the paper, nodded vigorously, and reached out and handed her the whole box of paper," When I first debuted, I went to make a cameo, and when I went back after filming, I didn't even have a place to sit, and the so-called number of people could say something ugly in front of me. Once I went to the bathroom, I was going out and heard the people in the two groups talking about me, the story can be used as a script, listen to their energy, I don't bother to go out, just sit on the toilet and listen to them finish, I have to admire, women's imagination and gossip ability is really limitless, I want to clap my hands at the end of the story, praise the story is really wonderful. ”

Zou Yuan tilted his head and asked her, "Why aren't you angry?"

She also turned her head to look at her: "Everything I care about has been lost, and there is nothing to be angry about left." She turned her face sideways, "When you get the opportunity and light that others want crazy but never get, you should tolerate the framing and attack behind their jealousy." If you are personally attacked, then congratulations, because you really let them not find a gap to attack, so they can only return to their primitive instinct and carry out personal attacks, since this is the ability, what is worth paying attention to. ”

Zou Yuan stared at her for a long time before saying, "You are not standing in the outside world at all. ”

She smiled and said nothing.

After that chat, Zhu Zhuan Xin and Zou Yuan returned to their respective worlds, as if they had never had that conversation, and they never met again, as if nothing had happened, and even how Zou Yuan's turmoil was resolved later did not know.

Jolene had a stack of photos and letterhead in her office, and she took off her coat and found a comfortable position to sit down and start signing, "I'll go to a meeting, Lulu will come over in a moment, you guys will wait for me here." ”

She didn't look up with a "hmm" sound, she didn't sign often, she signed very slowly every time, and her hands were sore, but fortunately there weren't many of them this time.

When Jolene returned to the office after the meeting, she had already signed everything, and she didn't know what Lulu said, which made her laugh.

She looks good when she smiles, which is very different from the way she doesn't talk on weekdays, but she doesn't like to laugh.

As soon as she saw Qiao Lin come in, Lulu leaned sideways and said, "Sister Qiao, she said she wanted to eat fish, shall we go to the old restaurant on North Street?"

Jolene put down her notebook, "You want to eat it, right?"

Lulu covered her face, "Don't break it down! Zhuan is too thin, I need to supplement my nutrition, Aunt Fang is not at home today." ”

Jolene reached for her coat, looked at Lulu and said, "That's not going yet, it's time for a traffic jam in a while." ”

Lulu jumped up and shouted, "Long live Sister Qiao!"

When the group of three people was waiting for the elevator, they met Zhou Ru, an artist from the same company, and she saw that the trio of agents and artist assistants had no order at all, and a trace of incomprehension and disdain flashed in the corners of her eyes. After saying hello, Zhou Ru actually stepped forward and said with a smile: "Zhuanxin, I heard that 'White Camellia' has two nominations from you, I really want to congratulate." Everyone knows that nominations do not necessarily win awards, Zhou Ru's advance congratulations and excessive enthusiasm made Zhu Zhuan Xin a little unaccustomed, but he responded out of politeness, but fortunately the elevator came, and they separated.

After eating, Jolene went to pick up the car, and said that she wanted to breathe and stood on the side of the road with Lulu waiting for her. The neon lights in T City at night are beautiful, and a young couple walks by, and the boy stops not far from them, takes the girl's hand, and then leans over to tie her loose shoelaces.

She looked at the back of the two holding hands and leaving, and felt a tightness in her chest. In this way, it is one thing for the commonly used scenes in TV series to appear in real life, and it is another thing to appear on oneself.

A long, long time ago, after the lights went out in the bedroom, Qu Fei lay on the bed and said that in the past, watching TV series and reading novels in many episodes felt ridiculous and unrealistic, but one day at a certain opportunity, you will find that these things may be true, and when they do happen, you will not feel ridiculous at all.

Jolene's car is a faint floral scent, refreshing but not greasy, which makes people very comfortable. Lulu sat in the passenger seat and chatted with her, sitting alone in the back and not hearing anything, staring out the window at the rapidly receding streetlights and trees.

The greenery of T City is very good, the trees next to the streets are lush, and it is also such a roadside, and it is also such a sidewalk, and he has made his debut wearing a hat and sunglasses to hold her hand, stopping and leaning over to help her tie her loose shoelaces.

How could she have imagined at that time that one day he would leave her.

The next morning, because I didn't sleep well, I woke up in the morning and felt a little dizzy, but I didn't feel sleepy after lying down for a long time, so I just got up.

Aunt Fang saw her go downstairs and asked, "Are you hungry?" When I came back in the morning, I bought fresh coconut buns and milk, and there were hot porridge and side dishes in the pot, what do you want to eat?"

She didn't have much energy and replied, "Drink some porridge." ”

Aunt Fang went to the kitchen to serve porridge, she poured a glass of water and drank it while reaching out to pull a chair and sit down, remembering that the door of Lulu's room was still closed just now, she asked, "Lulu hasn't gotten up yet?"

Aunt Fang took a white porcelain bowl and put half a bowl of fine porridge on the table, and then turned around to get the side dishes, "No, she always has to sleep until she wakes up naturally when you rest." ”

Even if she is extremely tired, she may not have Lulu's sleep quality, her life is simple, she doesn't have so many worries, and she can naturally sleep well.

She picked up the spoon, "It's okay to let her sleep today." ”

Aunt Fang sat down across the dining table, Jolene invited her over just to take care of the food and daily life, and after a long time together, Aunt Fang also regarded her and Lulu as her own children, except for not asking about work matters, and taking care of life in an orderly manner.

"Didn't sleep last night, right? The dark circles under your eyes are all coming out, your skin is white, and the dark blue under your eyes is even more obvious. You, if only you could have half of Lulu's sleep, I heard people say that Chinese medicine can regulate sleep, when are you taking a long vacation to see Chinese medicine to recuperate, work is so tiring, and then always not enough rest can be good, this body bones can't get fat, girls are too thin and not good. ”

She had porridge in her mouth and could only nod, she was often absent from work, and she didn't spend as much time with Aunt Fang as Lulu, but she was very grateful for such careful care.

Aunt Fang knew that she had never talked much, so she asked again, "What do you want to eat at noon?" ”

She swallowed the porridge: "It's all good, just do it." ”

"Nacheng, I'll buy some fresh vegetables in a while, and then buy some pork ribs and come back to make a soup for you to drink. ”

She nodded and didn't say anything when she heard the phone ringing, she got up to get the phone, and saw that the screen showed that the caller was Ran Ning, and she didn't answer the phone with a hint of a smile.

"Are you working?"

"Today's rest, why did you call at this time?"

"I just came back from a walk, and my mother made steamed fish for dinner today, and I said that you and my sister love to eat this, and when you return to China, let your mother make it for you again." ”

Ran Ning's tone was very calm, it seemed that she had always been so calm, and the heart on the other end of the phone sank for a moment, but she still said: "Okay, it seems that Uncle Ran and Aunt Su are used to life in the UK." ”

"Well, it's good to have them with me. Last week we went to one of the biggest churches in the area and listened to them worship and sing hymns, unfortunately I couldn't understand what was being sung, but it was really nice. If you have time, come over too, just take a break. ”

He nodded subconsciously, only then did he realize that Ran Ning couldn't see it, and said, "Okay, there are more things near the end of the year, and I'll tell Sister Qiao when I'm not busy." ”

The two of them talked for a while, Ran Ning said that he wanted to take a shower and go to bed early, so he hung up the phone, collected the line and sat there in a daze.

In a blink of an eye, Ran Rong had been gone for so long, but whether it was for the Ran family or for Zhu Lianxin, she had never gone far, and even stayed by their side. Originally, she thought that after Ran Rong left, this name would become a taboo, and she was afraid that no one would be able to talk about that angelic Ran Rong again, but everything turned out that she was too worried, and the three members of the Ran family never shy away from talking about the person they loved the most, and after a long time, even she herself got used to it.

At the beginning of the year, Ran Ning put down her work and decided to go to the UK to study, Ran's father and Ran's mother also followed her, saying that they were going to accompany her, but in fact, Ran Ning accompanied the two of them, and now she is the only daughter of the Ran family, and she is unwilling to accept any form of separation, no matter how short.

It's been almost a year in the blink of an eye, since she was a child, she and Ran Ning have never been separated for so long, she really misses her.

She didn't know when Lulu got up, she was reading the script upstairs, Lulu came to deliver fruit, saying that Aunt Fang had just bought it to give her natural vitamins, she put down the script and got up to move.

Some time ago, I have been filming "Providence" in other places, and after the finale, I returned to T City and rushed to catch up with the announcement, and finally I could take a break, I naturally stayed in the room reading books and reading scripts, Lulu was watching TV and surfing the Internet in addition to eating non-stop, Aunt Fang made their favorite dishes on weekdays at noon, and began to make dumplings again in the afternoon, Lulu happily followed to make noodles, but she made herself covered in flour.

She smiled and asked her to clean up and sign up to help Aunt Fang make dumplings, but in the end, both of them were kicked out of the kitchen and obediently stayed in the living room to drink soup and watch TV.

Lulu habitually watches entertainment news, and every time she says that she wants to understand her work, she rarely watches TV, and she doesn't care what she watches.

She lowered her head to peel the grapefruit, and heard those two words coming from the TV.

""Our Love in the Starry Sky" has been filmed more than halfway through the filming, and finally the media visit class has been officially opened, and our reporter went to the filming location, which coincided with Cheng Shuo's return to the crew to shoot his last few scenes in the play. Speaking of which, when the drama first started, the crew was silent about Cheng Shuo's joining, and Cheng Shuo, who had faded out of the public eye for nearly two years, made a strong comeback, and the sales and reputation of the new album "Dawn" released not long ago were quite good, and the title song of the same name topped the popular music charts on the first day is not the male number one, but his cooperation with the heroine Zheng Tong has once again attracted everyone's attention, please see the report sent back by our reporter's detective class. ”

The camera cut to the scene of the reporter interviewing Cheng Shuo and Zheng Tong, the reporter first politely said a few words about the sales of "Dawn" and then asked a few questions about the new play, and finally asked about the scandal between the two rumored by the outside world.

Zheng Tong smiled as always and said nothing, Cheng Shuo jokingly replied and said that the two were good friends, Zheng Tong also smiled and said that they were good friends before and now, the reporter grabbed her words and continued to ask: "What about in the future? Will there be new developments?"

Zheng Tong in the picture seemed to feel that he had said the wrong thing, and Cheng Shuo naturally took over the conversation and said: "In the future, the longer the friend, the better." ”

She lowered her head and was engrossed in peeling the grapefruit in her hand, and she didn't even hear Lulu muttering a word in a low voice, and the host on the TV was still talking about the origin of the two people one by one.

Cheng Shuo and Zheng Tong got acquainted because they filmed "Full of Stars" together that year, and the two played a couple in the play, and there were many rival scenes. Before entering the group, the two people who didn't know each other at all, let alone understand each other, were really unfamiliar with each other, and they didn't even have any tacit understanding, and they cultivated tacit understanding at the request of the director, and after a long time, they gradually became familiar with each other, and they became friends outside the play.

"Full of Stars" is Zheng Tong's first play, she was still in school at the time, she had just become an adult, and she was still in the group to film accompanied by her mother, Zheng's mother liked Cheng Shuo very much, and later after filming, Zheng Tong and her mother also said that when Zheng Tong and her mother were on the show, they were very relieved and liked Cheng Shuo when they saw that they were playing against their daughter.

"Full of Stars" made the unknown Zheng Tong popular, and also made Cheng Shuo's popularity to a higher level, for the topic that fans were looking forward to the two being together outside the play, Zheng Tong's unilateral information has always been infinitely possible, and when it was inconvenient for him to say it, he mentioned that his mother liked Cheng Shuo very much.

In terms of Cheng Shuo, whenever a reporter mentions this topic, he will always play Tai Chi and talk about interesting things with Zheng's mother, saying that he and Zheng Tong are very good friends, and watching each other's growth in acting skills is a very unforgettable memory. After all, "Full of Stars" is also Cheng Shuo's first acting and the leading actor, even if he has debuted at that time and knows more about this circle, he is actually a newcomer in this field that he is not good at, and the two of them can be regarded as sympathetic to each other, but Cheng Shuo's super popularity accumulated because of the competition at that time is not only liked by fans but also liked by many staff, and Zheng Tong is a completely unknown newcomer.

Zheng Tong, who became popular overnight because of "Full of Stars", has never forgotten Cheng Shuo among the people who helped him after his debut. The first time I filmed, many things were not the same as what I learned in school, at the beginning, all my energy was on acting, and after adapting to it in the later stage, there were actually some other doubts and anxieties, it was Cheng Shuo who saw her uneasiness, and then enlightened her, which made Zheng Tong very grateful.

Finally put down the half-peeled yuzu and stood up, hesitated and went to the bathroom. She closed the door and looked at herself in the mirror, feeling so strange.

Jolene said that she has changed a lot compared to when she first debuted, and she is more suitable for the way of living in this circle, she knows how to face questions she doesn't want to answer, and she knows how to deal with people she doesn't like, which is her shell to protect herself.

She can enlighten a Zou Yuan who has nothing to do with herself, she can silently help newcomers out of the siege, she has done a lot of things that she can't find a reason for, is it adaptation? Or subtle infiltration? She doesn't know.

But no matter when, in the eyes of Ran Ning and Qu Fei, she has never changed, she is still familiar with her before, but now she wants to know, what is she like in his heart?

In this world, the more you care, the more cautious and calculating, and the more you hold on, the easier it is to desperately escape.

She had already experienced this truth when she was less than ten years old, time passed, and happiness finally came, she did not suffer from gains and losses like others, she used enough time to let herself give her heart steadily, and then did not hesitate and reserve, so that the separation was not only her heart, but all of her.

"Sister Qiao is calling. Lulu's voice came from outside the door.

"It's coming. He looked at himself in the mirror, took a deep breath, and washed his hands before going out.

The next time he met with He Hui was in the studio, taking a set of promotional photos for "Providence". This time the work was made on a temporary appointment to accommodate He's time, she had always been easy to talk to, and she was resting and had nothing else to do, so she answered Jolene's call.

After filming "Providence", He Hao has been working, and even this filming work is a stitch, the traffic conditions on the road are not good, and he waited for more than two hours before he hurried in. It's not that Hehui has a big name, how easy it is to bully, everyone has a time when they can't be busy, she doesn't like to care about these things doesn't mean that everyone is like this, if this matter is known to people with ill intentions, it will be another big name turmoil when it is exposed.

It was already midnight after the promotional photo shoot ended, He Hao invited all the staff to go to supper, everyone finished packing up their things and took a step forward, and she was still removing her makeup in the dressing room, she didn't feel tired, but she was already sleepy.

He Ye knocked on the door and came in, and when she saw it in the mirror, he asked, "Why didn't you go with them?"

He Hao laughed when he heard her ask, and he was very handsome, "Wait for you, but looking at you like this, eighty percent won't go." ”

She was a little tired, and she really didn't plan to go, but she was a little embarrassed to be told by him.

He Hao leaned against the door frame and said with a clear look: "I have been filming with you for so long, except for the time when I finished filming, you never participated in this kind of dinner. Today is my late arrival and delayed everyone's time, if you don't want to go, I'll send you home, just have Brother Peng over there. ”

She wanted to open her mouth to refuse, but He Hao had already spoken first: "The army has already left, even if there is a media, it will not still be guarded, besides, let me make up for the mistake of making you wait for two hours in vain today, and don't take a detour, send you back and I will go to Brother Peng's side." ”

He had a long list of reasons that he couldn't refuse, so he could only nod and agree. Her face was white and clean after removing her makeup, especially when she lowered her eyes, she looked like a high school student, and He Ye couldn't help but feel cute.

Jolene wasn't there, only Lulu was with her, and Hechen drove herself, chatting all the way and the day was coming soon, she didn't even think about how he knew his address.

The next day, when I got up in the morning and went downstairs, I saw Lulu holding her iPad looking for a song, and every time I listened to the prelude for a few seconds, I would change the song. She started drinking milk from drinking water early to sitting down, and Lulu changed at least a dozen songs, and there were words in her mouth, "No...... No...... It's not ......"

She asked, "What are you looking for?"

"He's song, when I saw him yesterday, I suddenly remembered a song I used to like, but I can't remember the name, I'm looking for it. ”

"Why didn't you ask him yesterday?"

"Then what's so embarrassing!' Brother Hexi, I like one of your songs, but I can't remember what it's called, can you tell me?' ”

Seeing Lulu's appearance, she couldn't help but laugh and began to eat her breakfast.

Two minutes later, "Found it! This is it!" "Yes", it's a song from earlier. Lulu started playing, came over and got a carton of milk and a piece of cake, sat back on the couch and started reading the entertainment news.

"Time freezes when you leave, the smile can't hide the sorrow in your heart, those must-have between your eyebrows and eyes, engraved in my heart become an eternal wound, I still remember the promise, I am persistent and unwilling to let go, I am willing to pay for you, I am willing to sacrifice for you, it is providential to gather and disperse, how much time do we have to hug each other......"

He Hao's voice came, and it was such a sad song that I couldn't love.

"When did you wear a wedding dress, why don't I know?"

When Lulu was thinking about hearing the headline, Lulu had already clicked on the news headline, "I know it's this kind of gimmick, the music video you shot for Bian Che, just these few screenshots, really earn clicks." I want to watch the video!"

Hearing Lulu say this, she remembered that she hadn't even seen the music video of "Missed Love", and Bian Che gave her the album when it was released, and she did listen to it, but then she was busy filming and work and never watched the full version of the music video.

"I spend all the time with you when he is not with you, cry with you, laugh with you, walk into church with you in your wedding dress, and then put your hand in his hand, and I can only turn away and watch you happy in a corner you don't know. ”

This is Bian Che's narration at the beginning of "Missed Love", and she remembered it when she first listened to it, she remembered the sentence that Bian Che said on the day of filming, "I never noticed the love around me that may give her more happiness", in the eyes of outsiders, after weighing the pros and cons, you may feel that the love that can be obtained by turning your head can make her happier in the story, but you are not her, how can you know what she thinks.

There are many kinds of happiness, and it is not a kind of happiness to have a person who is worthy of your love and can make you cry for him and laugh for him.

She shook her head, trying to shake these thoughts out of her head, and now she is just an emotional loser, who is qualified to debate what happiness is.

Happiness, she no longer knows what it feels like.

"Zhuan, I actually missed the first time you wore a wedding dress, it is really beautiful, but the style is a little simpler, when you get married, you must have the most beautiful wedding dress to deserve it!" Lulu was watching the music video for "Missing Love", her eyes were glued to the screen, her mouth was talking, and she didn't notice what she was doing.

Married? She already felt that it was too far away, so far away that she didn't need to put it on the agenda, or even think about it.