A few years later, you have also experienced some lives, and there are also some stories that you can only chew alone in sleepless nights, and your youth has faded, and you gradually understand the worries of life and the horrors of death. You finally understand and calmly accept that he is just a mere mortal, and that he is not fundamentally different from the others. However, I can't tell why, you still have some attachment, like a kind of superstition, the temple is destroyed, and the god is still a god......

Xi Mengqi was destined to be extraordinary from birth, just like the world has always been unfair. She was born in a small commune in a small county in the mountains of the southern part of NX Province, and before she was born, she had two older sisters and an older brother, and she was born less than two years later, and she added a younger brother.

Fate will always ruthlessly trample on the more humble people, just like Xi Mengqi's father originally taught in a township primary school, but he lost his job because of violating the birth policy. The children who are waiting to be fed need to be raised by their fathers, so the family is even more destitute, struggling to exchange food for food on the barren land to erase the sorrow of the children and the family.

Fortunately, the country's nine-year compulsory education policy has given hope to the young Xi Mengqi. After the eldest sister finished her third year of junior high school at the age of sixteen, she was not admitted to high school and got married. The fate of the second sister is very different from that of the eldest sister, but she worked hard to step out of the mountain and worked as a front desk in a hotel in the provincial capital. My brother even dropped out of school after finishing elementary school and ran out of the house and went out alone.

Only Xi Mengqi stubbornly struggled with life, went to school during the day, and fed the lean sheep at home at night and the chickens that did not lay eggs because of no nutrition, and began to read hard in the dim moonlight, holding the baby-like textbook in his hand. On weekends, they have to secretly drive the sheep to the mountains far away from home, because grazing is prohibited on the mountains because of the policy of returning farmland to forests.

Since he was a child, Xi Mengqi has been tanned and is a well-known "tomboy" in the mouth of the villagers! But even though the conditions are so difficult, Xi Mengqi still relied on his own efforts to be admitted to the junior high school and entered the county junior high school ethnic class with the first place in the township. Maybe these children in the city will be put on the parents of happy cheers and feast. In Xi Mengqi's house, his father just sighed, took out the dry tobacco leaves in his pocket and rolled them into paper cigarettes and smoked them, and his mother secretly wiped her tears on the side.

Fortunately, the second sister who works in the hotel and the eldest sister who has married support Xi Mengqi to go to high school, squeeze out money from between her teeth and stuff it to her, and the neighbors will often help her family, Xi Mengqi finally went to the county seat to study in junior high school. Her favorite course in the class is English, and the worst thing she learns is English. Xi Mengqi is very hardworking, as a child from the township, every afternoon after school, their boarders also have a night self-study, Xi Mengqi always controls himself not to eat dinner, secretly eats the dry food brought by the family and hides in the school playground to read. Only at this time, Xi Mengqi will not feel a deep sense of inferiority, nor will she look down at the shabby clothes that her eldest sister wears after the second sister wears them, and the second sister passes them on to her, and only at this time will Xi Mengqi secretly talk to her heart about the dream in her heart.

In this way, the life of junior high school was also spent year after year in bitterness. Xi Mengqi's English scores can be said to have improved by leaps and bounds in the class, and the results of other subjects are not inferior to English scores.

The family has already found a good family for Xi Mengqi, and he is actually the son of the village secretary of a certain village, who runs a big car, and he is a super good person. But what no one expected was that after the high school entrance examination, Xi Mengqi was admitted to the provincial high school with the first place in the class and the third place in the county. This may be changed to the children of people in the city, and it is another great thing to be ecstatic, looking forward to the stars and the moon, but in Xi Mengqi's family, looking at the younger brother who is growing up, the elderly father and mother made a ruthless decision to let Xi Mengqi drop out of school, don't go to high school again, go home and marry obediently, it is useless for girls to have such a high education.

The eldest sister, the second sister and even the elder brother begged their parents hard, but Xi Mengqi's father and mother were like a hard-hearted heart this time, and they refused to let Xi Mengqi go to high school again. Fortunately, in the end, the government came forward, and the county education bureau and the township government came forward in person to Xi Mengqi's home, promising that the tuition fees for high school would be paid by them, and if Xi Mengqi was admitted to a good university in the future, the county government would also issue bonuses, which made sense to Xi Mengqi's parents and let Xi Mengqi go to high school in the provincial capital.

Xi Mengqi's high school is so hard-won, so she cherishes it even more, studying at school from Monday to Friday, and going out to work part-time on weekends to find a job to earn living expenses.

After a lot of hard work, Xi Mengqi finally found a job as a waiter in a bar in the provincial capital, with a good salary, and the boss even took a fancy to Xi Mengqi's hard-working and hard-working, and gave her a bonus, so in high school, Xi Mengqi had a good life, and it was in this small bar that he met Zhao Bo, the boy she wanted to entrust her life.

The encounter between Xi Mengqi and Zhao Bo is also intriguing, at that time, different folk bands often came to the bar to sing, and Xi Mengqi was not surprised. But a few times she actually found a band composed of several boys from her high school school, and occasionally came to this bar to sing, and what impressed him the most was the lead guitarist and lead singer of this band, a slightly chubby boy with long hair and a dark yellow complexion.

In Xi Mengqi's eyes, although this boy is not very literary and artistic, as soon as he sings, he seems to be able to conquer the world, his slightly hoarse voice, his melancholy eyes that can speak, and his moving Adam's apple are deeply attracted to Xi Mengqi. Every time this band came to sing, Xi Mengqi would put down what she was doing, hide on the small table in the corner and listen secretly, while staring intently into the boy's eyes, trying to see the story.

But what she didn't expect was that the "story" also targeted her, when the boy walked off the stage and shook hands with her and wanted to invite her to a beer, Xi Mengqi felt that her heart was in her throat, and she was nervous and speechless, and she just said: "I, I, don't know how to drink, you, let's go and invite someone else." Everyone burst into laughter, Xi Mengqi felt that her face was hot as if she had a hard-boiled egg sticked, and the boy's eyes lit up when he heard her say this, and he would go to the stage again and sing another song.

But after passing this incident, the boy confessed to Xi Mengqi. Xi Mengqi didn't know where she got the courage at that time, so she agreed to the boy's confession without hesitation, and was with him, and it was from that time that she remembered the boy's name, Zhao Bo!

At that time, Zhao Bo said to Xi Mengqi the most was his dream! He longed to carry the guitar in all directions, wander the world, be chic, and find his best life. Xi Mengqi always snuggled in Zhao Bo's arms, thinking about her ideals, learning English well, and seeing the outside world.

Xi Mengqi felt that Zhao Bo's so-called ideal was to waste his youth, as Zhao Bo's girlfriend, she didn't want to let her boyfriend do some illusory things, Xi Mengqi pulled Zhao Bo back to the campus, and began to supervise Zhao Bo's daily life, because she knew that it was not easy to study with peace of mind, she saved money and took Zhao Bo to the barber shop and cut off one of his long hair, which meant that he would temporarily abandon his ideals and return to study.

From that time on, the happiest time for two people was to go to the park together on weekends, find a quiet place, lean on each other, and spend the whole day like that.

The life of high school is like a white horse, and soon the third year of high school is coming, and the family is urging very tightly, and the people within a radius of 100 miles heard that there is a girl with a high school degree in Xi Mengqi's family, and they are very excited, and they are all clamoring to marry back to their own family as a daughter-in-law. Xi Mengqi stubbornly found various reasons to prevaricate her father and mother, and at the same time frantically forced Zhao Bo to study.

The power of love is great, the college entrance examination is over, and the wanderer Zhao Bo did well in the exam, and was barely admitted to a school in China, Northwest University for Nationalities. Xi Mengqi did better in the exam, and was directly admitted to the off-campus Chinese language college of a 985 university in China, at that time, her best score was English, 142 points.

The county government rewarded Xi Mengqi's family with a bonus of 30,000 yuan, blocking the mouths of Xi Mengqi's parents and neighbors, Xi Mengqi successfully came to her ideal outside world, she grew up very quickly, so that everyone around her was unexpected and unimaginable.

After college, Xi Mengqi had her own scholarship and found a tutor job of her own, teaching a little boy English. The family is very wealthy, the boy's father is the director of a demolition management office of the city's urban construction bureau, and his mother is a dance teacher, who is adrift all year round. The salary they gave Xi Mengqi was very high, and the treatment was super good, and the little boy's father was even more enthusiastic about Xi Mengqi, giving Xi Mengqi a feeling warmer than home.

The distance between her and Zhao Bo is just a high-speed train, and their lives are more free, and their lives are slowly getting richer. Zhao Bo often takes Xi Mengqi to watch a movie, play ice skating, listen to concerts, and eat all kinds of snacks, which was a completely unimaginable life before Xi Mengqi, but now it has been realized, Xi Mengqi is very satisfied, but also feels a little confused, with the improvement of life, Xi Mengqi is more aware of the importance of money. In the past, she always thought that money could make ghosts push mills was a joke in the book, but later, she gradually discovered that this sentence was simply an out-and-out philosophy, and having money could really make ghosts grind!

The "director" was very enthusiastic about her, especially when Xi Mengqi entered her senior year, she personally drove Xi Mengqi to her home, prepared some snacks for Xi Mengqi at home from time to time, and constantly raised Xi Mengqi's salary, telling her to buy herself some beautiful clothes and dress herself well.

Zhao Bo was very disgusted with these, and when he was a tutor for Xi Mengqi in his senior year, the two didn't know how many times they quarreled. Xi Mengqi's heart was very sad, although Zhao Bo often promised Xi Mengqi that she only needed to study with peace of mind, and leave these things to him to do when she worked and made money. But Xi Mengqi can't see a little hope in Zhao Bo. The pressure of life in the family is so great, and her parents now like to cry poverty to her, urging her to marry herself off quickly, and the only way to solve all these contradictions is that she can be self-reliant.

Xi Mengqi felt that Zhao Bo didn't understand herself at all, and even only used sweet words and those ethereal oaths to blind her heart, she worked like crazy, in addition to tutoring the English of the "director" child, she also set aside all kinds of free time to find all kinds of jobs. Xi Mengqi made up her mind to go to graduate school, and even thought about going abroad for further study, living a different life, and living a life that didn't worry about money.

In the days when Xi Mengqi had this thought, Zhao Bo finally derailed. Women have always been very keen, although Zhao Bo did not tell Xi Mengqi clearly, but Xi Mengqi could feel that Zhao Bo had betrayed him, and his eyes were very different from before, always dodging.

The grief-stricken Xi Mengqi made up her mind and broke up with Zhao Bo. On the day she said that she broke up, Xi Mengqi almost felt heartbreaking, this boy, after all, was the 1 boy she had and wanted to entrust for life, but in a trance, he abandoned himself like this and followed his lower body.

Xi Mengqi's blow was not ordinary, and she soon fell ill when she was about to graduate, she never thought that the person who came to take care of her was the "director......