Chapter 770: The First Step 170
Anything else you haven't figured out?
Why is that discomfort still in my heart?
The character of Yuan Changwen does not really exist, so I just feel that the character is uncomfortable, and the character is thinking about why it is uncomfortable. Another thing is that if you remove time, then the character just remembers everything at the moment.
It is impossible to determine whether the character has experienced childhood, it is entirely possible that the character of Yuan Changwen is just a clone, and then has the memory of the ontology, so he thinks that he is the ontology. But in fact, the character simply doesn't experience what he remembers.
All the worries, all the sorrows, come from memory. I remember doing it, I regret it a little, I worry a little, I don't know if what I did in the past can make the future better.
My memory tells me that the character of Yuan Changwen used to be very good, so how do I know that these things are real? If my memories are not real, then I should not be affected by these memories.
I can't say for sure what happened to me. So, when I talk to others, I talk about the glory of the past, the travel to various places, and the great experience of all of them, all of which become ethereal. How do I know I've actually experienced this?
If I'm not sure, why do I assume these are my own experiences, and use these memories as a character show-off?
Why do you always see the walls of your mind, instead of simply acknowledging that you exist at the moment, is it because it makes the characters uncomfortable?
It should be, isn't the character made up of these memories? The way of thinking comes from the memory in his head, and the memory from his head when he brags, and the things he shows off can only show off what he has done. Which of these things is not memory?
I can only perceive the characters at this moment, and everything else is not the pull of memory?
Why can't you identify the role of the moment? There is no memory, there is no past, it is what it is now, why can't it be done?
Yuan Changwen found that he was really too naïve. Every time I encounter a problem, I think that if I solve it, I will touch the truth. But in fact, the next thing I realized was that I had more questions.
Really, I am going further and further down the path of madness. First I didn't believe in the distortion in my head, and now I have to fire at my memory, and then what? What else can be killed?
Everyone is trying to avoid losing their memories and taking pictures during the tour so that they don't forget in the future. All anniversaries should be photographed to prevent them from being forgotten in the future. All kinds of important things must be remembered, otherwise there is nothing to remember in the future.
And I, on my own initiative, began to discard these memories. Or, not to discard, but to become distrustful of one's own memories and not to take those memories as one of the attributes of the character.
I was still saying before that I didn't recognize the real existence of the character, but now it seems that it is still a killing. It seems that it is impossible to directly disapprove of the real existence of the character, and then the killing ends in an instant.
The so-called psychological analysis is to analyze these memories, analyze the character's past experience, and analyze the character's story. But who knows that these things are real? Who can be sure that time passes linearly?
Got stuck, got stuck again, and then couldn't see the problem at all.
To tell the truth, the dualistic world is false, the characters are also false, that awareness is everything, what else is there to say, and what is there to kill?
What is holding me back, and what is it that keeps the character so gripped that he can resist even a slash?
There is nothing to resist the killing, as long as I see it, then it will eventually dissipate. Because the unreal doesn't exist, those things that are false are only because of the characters' beliefs, so the false becomes real. Since it does not exist, then under my gaze, the falsehood will surely dissipate.
So, finding the problem is the key.
How strange is this feeling, but I really don't know if the memory in my head is real. It's just that if you affirm that the memories in your head are real, it can facilitate the character's life.
Labeling allows the character to understand things very well, without caring about what the thing is.
Memories and the linear passage of time also make it easy for the character to deal with it, and you can ignore the authenticity of the character.
Everything is artificially distorted, and then the characters can continue to discuss, enrich, argue, and so on on top of the distortion, but no one will discuss this basic assumption. Once time doesn't exist, then all the discussion becomes.
In this way, how can other people's roles show off? how can other people's roles maintain their own existence? how can the knowledge in other people's minds be told? how can other people's analysis of industry dynamics, their attention to current affairs, and their understanding of the latest developments in various countries around the world be told?
Therefore, what can be chatted is fake content. Once you touch on the real topic, there is little to talk about, only thinking and killing. In other words, there is no point in chatting with people other than enriching the character's attributes.
Of course, for those who have already touched the real thing, it shouldn't matter. But for me, what can I talk about? The story of the character of Yuan Changwen? The memory of the character of Yuan Changwen? Or what kind of shit honor or something?
Memory is not reliable, on the one hand, you can't remember everything. On the other hand, even if I remember everything, what I am facing at the moment is only something called memory, and I can't judge whether my memory is accurate or not.
Sure enough, you need to be honest, if it was your former self, you wouldn't agree with this at all, let alone think about it. Is there a brain disease? Inaccurate memory? Isn't this extreme?
Once honest to the point of cruelty, then I have to admit that I can't be sure of the accuracy of my memory at all. This is not an extreme, nor is it a bull's horn, it is an honest answer.
I can't be sure.
Yuan Changwen imagined that if he told his mother this question, then the answer in exchange should be, "That's right, I can't be sure, but what's the meaning of this?"
Deflect the subject by whether it makes sense or not, and honesty to cruelty means that there is no excuse without justification, and what cannot be determined is what cannot be determined. Eventually, you will find that everything about you is a lie.
Isn't it a lie to assume that all assumptions are true? Isn't it a lie to always assume that you know when you don't know?
Then, ignore these assumptions and start learning everything that is based on assumptions. I don't really understand why I didn't even doubt it, even if I didn't touch the truth and understood that my mind was distorted, I could reach a state where I was not afraid of life.
Is it more important to be a top student, get into a good university, and find a good job than not being afraid of life? Or is it because everyone doesn't know this, they think that they are in a good state and never think that being afraid of life is an adverse reaction.
Because, everybody's like that.