Kill yourself?

Yuan Changwen suddenly had this ridiculous idea in his mind, isn't killing the character killing himself? Or is it that he wants to kill the existence of "that killing character"?

So, who will kill the existence of "that killing character"?

It's always the character who thinks, and even if all the self-definition is wiped out, it will still have a new self-definition. Maybe this new self-definition is "not believing in characters", or "flowing along the terrain" or something like that, but it is also a self-definition after all.

In other words, there will always be a role, but this role is completely different from the previous role of Yuan Changwen. Then, the new character doesn't care about the character at all, even if the character is dead, down, seriously injured, etc., he doesn't care.

Then, I will never be able to go to the truth, as long as the character exists, it must be false. But how do I get rid of the character? It's a paradox here, I have the character, then I can't go real. But I'll never be able to abandon the character, so I'll never be able to get to the truth?

No, I am referring to the character of Yuan Changwen, because "I exist" itself is the only truth. The current thinking belongs to the character, which means that the character of Yuan Changwen will never be able to go to the truth.

It makes sense, the characters themselves are fake. Moreover, the false does not exist, it is nothing more than an illusion. Therefore, the only thing the character can do is to commit suicide.

As I knew before, the role has nothing to do with me, so it doesn't matter how the character does it. In this way, there will inevitably be a situation where there is nothing to do. Why do I do those things when the hard work in my head no longer sways me, when fear can't drive me away?

I used to be unable to figure out that I should be better able to expand myself without fear and do whatever I wanted, such as traveling, such as going camping, such as spending three months building a house in the mountains, etc. But now, what the character does has nothing to do with me, it will become idle.

Even the impulse to see the beauty of the world does not exist, what is there to be beautiful, or what is not beautiful? The way the world is not by chance, nor is it some human choice or the like, but the world can only be like this.

Whatever happens, it looks like it's ostensibly caused by someone else's or your own choice. But in fact, everything that happens is bound to happen, and it can only happen that way.

There is no choice.

The character may still choose to believe in hard work, believe in the pinnacle of life, and then spend a lifetime to make the character full. It doesn't matter, it's not about me. Perhaps, the character will like to be afraid, like to be enslaved, and like this kind of life wrapped in the mass mind. It doesn't matter either.

When I know that I have nothing to do with the character, even if the character likes to be afraid, then the end result is fearless. Whenever fear comes, the character no longer shiveres to drive away the fear, but embraces it with joy, as if embracing a long-awaited gift.

At this point, fear is no longer fear.

In the same way, characters can also flow without following the terrain, and Lao Tzu is to do things against the terrain. It's okay, no one will stand in the way. For example, the terrain arranges to travel to the east very smoothly, and the character wants to go to the west, and then it is difficult to buy tickets, eat, meet thieves, touch porcelain, and so on along the way.

However, the character will accept this with joy, because when they decide to do things against the terrain, they already know that they will encounter all kinds of trouble. Just like someone who likes to run wild in a rainstorm, soaking wet, muddy shoes, etc., ordinary people seem to be suffering, but that person must enjoy it.

But how long can this countercurrent last?

I used to know whether I was going against the current or going with the current, so I had no other way but to persevere, except to follow the self-definition in my mind. But now, after being able to see the flow and the backflow, how long can that sense of interest in the reverse current be maintained?

I know that there is home in front of me, a warm hot bath, but I deliberately run in the storm, how long can I run? an hour, five hours, a day, there will always be a time to get tired, there will always be a time to be tired.

Then, at this time, you will naturally choose to go with the flow of life, don't worry about yourself, and everything will go with the flow. It's like swimming in a river, if you go against the current for a long time, you will naturally choose to drift down the river.

However, the paradox is that the so-called "shun" is not necessarily what I understand as "shun". Anything that the character understands is a limitation and a distortion, what the character thinks is good is not necessarily good, and what the character thinks is not necessarily good.

After killing the character, he will inevitably become a puppet without thoughts, so that he will not distinguish between good and bad at all, and will just flow according to the terrain. In other words, the distinction between good and bad is not at all weighed by the previous self-definitions.

I don't know, I'm not done yet, these are just speculations.

After killing the character, will you become desireless? Obviously not, and will also choose to eat instead of eat. It's impossible to sit there motionless, like a marble statue. Maybe the inner thoughts become very simple, maybe there are not so many distractions and delusions, but after all, there are still preferences and preferences.

If the character exists, it must be false. So, since you have a character, you must still have some preferences. If there is no preference, it is still the same sentence, why choose to eat instead of eating.

All my life, I thought that the "true" state should be kindness, compassion, not complaining, always with a peaceful smile. But in fact, there is nothing between the character and the real thing. That is, the character may be abusive, angry, and even a brutal murderer.

This does not negate "real", or that a real being does not necessarily have a good character.

I slash the character, discard the character, and come to the real. Of course, this statement is a bit inappropriate, as if in addition to the role of Yuan Changwen, there is another one that I can walk around at will. Strictly speaking, I return to the state of "I exist", at this time there is no me, only "I exist".

When I become "I exist", I come to the real world, and what the character wants to do at this time has no effect at all. Characters can complain, they can lie, they can gossip, they can swear, but it doesn't affect the authenticity of "I exist".

It's just that when I make it clear that the character has nothing to do with me, how long can this emotional character last? How long can the character's abuse last when I know that the character and the whole world don't exist? Maybe the character will complain, and he will abuse, but I do these things with a "fun" mentality.

How long can this "fun" mentality last? Eventually, it will still be idle and then flow down the terrain.