There is nothing that cannot be rotted, nothing that is worth grabbing.

Every self-definition needs to be infused with energy in order to survive, and I have always grasped those self-definitions and injected them with energy through words and deeds. And when someone wants to destroy my self-definition, strong emotions are the best umbrella.

Because deep down I know that all this is made up by myself, it is all false, and it is just "what I think" to be true. That's why you need strong emotions to protect.

Truth, meaning eternity, means never cessating to exist. If the distortion in the mind is real, then there is no need for any justification at all.

The distortions in my head are all opinions, and there is no truth at all.

The characters always like to steal concepts, and unconsciously use slashing as another self-definition. With these words, he then fantasized about continuing to teach his disciples and being worshipped.

Does all this have anything to do with me?

The picture elements show that someone worships the character of Yuan Changwen, did I do it?

The picture elements show that someone criticized the character of Yuan Changwen, was it caused by me?

It's just a presentation, it's just that it can just happen like this, there's no why.

When I was a child, I always liked to carry it with adults, and I always liked to ask why. And then those questions, whether it's a profound cosmic problem, or a simple way of dealing with people. As long as you keep asking why, it will eventually cause adults to become angry.

Because adults can't explain it at all, it's also because the truth that adults think and the ideas that adults insist on are just groundless affirmations. I kept asking questions, but I didn't dare to admit that the cognition in my head was distorted, so I had to use strong emotions to cover it up.

"What I said is right", "You are still young and don't understand", "When you grow up, you will naturally understand what I say", "I can't explain it to you", "There is no why, it is like this"......

At this moment, what was originally a rhetoric of annoyance and anger was originally just to protect the distorted emotions in the mind, but it became the final explanation. "There is no why" should not be used to protect the distortion in the mind, but to see that the presentation of the elements of the picture does not make sense.

Whether it's cause and effect, or just thinking that there's an apple here, it's groundless speculation. No one can explain why the elements of the picture are presented the way they are.

What is presented is what is presented, what happens is what happens, and that's it.

It is impossible to find the cause of the events that occurred at this moment, and perhaps the elements of the picture have their own explanations, such as the apple falling to the ground causing the apple to break. When I ask "why did the apple break", maybe the answer was "because the apple fell to the ground".

However, this is merely speculation, mere "I think", mere baseless affirmations based on countless assumptions.

Why did the apple break? No reason, the apple just shattered, and that's how the elements of the picture are presented. It's okay to use the phrase "Apple landed", but it's important to know that it's just an explanation of the picture elements, and it's just speculation based on countless assumptions.

The idea that you want to be at the top of your life, this kind of dream itself comes from fear, not heartbeat. It's very comfortable to imagine after standing at the peak of life, and that's the state you should have.

I believe that you have to go to the top of your life in order to get the comfort that comes after, and that's just self-righteousness. When I move forward with cause and effect, I have already planted the foreshadowing of failure.

It's not just that the causality that I control is not entirety, it's that the causality itself doesn't exist. The presentation of the elements of the picture makes no sense, as if by magic. How can I ask for the presentation of picture elements with what I think is cause and effect?

If you can't control it, why do you always have to control it? If you can't know it, why do you want to catch those who know? Not only that, but the character also secretly changes the concept and treats killing as knowing.

It's as if I know how to kill, but others don't, so I'm very powerful. It was as if I could see the distortion in my head, and others were still believing in the distortion in my head, so I was very good again. It's as if I can slash with a sword, and others can only be controlled by fear, and I'm very powerful.

Shit.

Killing is no different from any other behavior, it is still the words and deeds made by the character, it is still false, and it is still just a performance of the character on the stage.

It's not that you shouldn't be arrogant, isn't there anything wrong with being arrogant, it's just the presentation of the elements of the picture. It's the knowledge that arrogance is only false, the knowledge that the foundation of arrogance does not exist, and the knowledge that arrogance is just one side of the binary opposite, just like hot and cold.

Hot despises cold?

Isn't that funny?

This moment is all, I am omniscient. If only God can be omniscient, then I am God. Not later, not before, just now.

That awareness is everything, and that's what I perceive as an element of the picture. What I don't realize is that it's not represented by the elements at all. And what the elements of the picture present are what I have already perceived. Then I am omniscient and I am God.

It's not about thinking, it's just one of the elements of the picture.

So, who else can guide me, and who else can influence me? Those distortions in my mind are not qualified to exist and will not exist.

I confess that you were not killed. But I have seen you, and by gambling with all this, you are doomed.

Yuan Changwen found that he was not too angry, could he really gamble everything? Can he really kill it? Will it just be a waste of time? Will he not be able to live a normal life for the rest of his life?

I do not know.

Will I stop, will I fight for the top of my life again, will I abandon the killing, and embrace my fear again?

Yuan Changwen felt his calmness, and there didn't seem to be anything out of the ordinary. Before, when I thought that I couldn't kill, that I had to start over, and that I was just wasting time and wasting my life, there would be a panic.

But now, there doesn't seem to be such panic.

Is this a good thing?

I don't know, it's just like that. Until the slaughter is complete, any judgment is nonsense. How do I know if what the teacher says is true? Even if it is true, how can I be sure that my killing is the same as the teacher's route?

If the routes are different, then the teacher's affirmation is just a kind of.

When I was happy because of the teacher's affirmation, I already used the slash as a means to show off my role. I'm happy that I get to think that I can tell others that I'm moving forward...... The "I" in this is all the role of Yuan Changwen.

At this time, will he still kill the character of Yuan Changwen? Maybe, maybe not.

Go ahead, let me keep rotting, I'll be obedient to this rot like a puppy. I'm not the character of Yuan Changwen, so what am I?

What the hell is that awareness?

What is "I exist"?