After thinking about this matter thoroughly, my whole body suddenly relaxed, and the happy mood filled the entire cell, even the other side could feel it.

"Did you see that? Or am I dazzled? He's laughing!"

"yes, and it's a real laugh, not the kind of pretending. ”

"I saw it, that smile was real, why did he smile?"

"Damn, he's really mentally ill! If you want his wife, he's still laughing?!"

Yuan Changwen didn't hear the whisper on the other side, and he was happy, as if the demon had been crushed by himself.

It's a pity, in fact, the demons are more powerful than imagined, otherwise how could billions of humans play with it!

For some reason, a wave of unpleasant sorrow suddenly struck, followed by the pleasure just now.

It seems that not long after the joy came, he was kicked out by sadness, and then firmly occupied Yuan Changwen.

This wave of sorrow came very suddenly and inexplicably.

Even Yuan Changwen himself didn't know why he was sad.

Without the stimulation of external things, why did you suddenly become sad when you were still in a happy state just now?

Yuan Changwen has not yet found the reason, and after the sadness, a large wave of fear ensues.

Like a rear-end collision on a race car, in the blink of an eye, fear crashed into it.

This wave of fear came fiercely, without any tricks, and rushed over in a daze.

Am I doing something wrong?

What truth shouldn't be considered at all?

If it weren't for that, I wouldn't have killed anyone.

Right now, I'm probably sitting in the office and going to work, and then bragging to my colleagues.

Otherwise, my wife is still at home and quarreling with me, but after all, we are husband and wife.

I shouldn't have taken this step at all, it's over, it's all over!

Life is gone, job is gone, wife is gone!

What is the meaning of my life?

Yuan Changwen's eyes were blank, leaning on the steel and iron pillars, his face was full of pain, and he was grabbed by fear and beaten hard.

What is firmly nailed to "I exist", what is not justified and not confrontational, all are gone.

Under this wave of powerful fear, Yuan Changwen didn't remember anything, just trembled in fear.

Then I was pulled by fear, and I began to regret it, and I began to fantasize about whether the situation would be much better if I hadn't done it in the first place.

No matter how uncomfortable it is, it's better than being in a prison cell!

What madness am I TM?!

Why do you want to think about the real thing?!

Why don't you listen to your wife, work hard, and be like everyone else?!

Look at the present, Yuan Changwen, look at yourself!

Sloppy, helpless, without money, like a rat in a prison cell, think of colleagues and friends, they are at work and working to earn money.

It's okay, go sing and drink. When you have something, it's good to be busy.

What if everyone gathers?

Do you still have a face?

Think about the past, I was also an elite, commuting to work in a suit and leather shoes.

The family has a house, a wife and a baby.

It's good now!

Nothing!

The more Yuan Changwen thought about it, the more uncomfortable he became, and all kinds of emotions were amplified by the power of fear, and he actually cried.

"it! I'm crying again!"

"Hey, look, there's crying on the other side. ”

"I was laughing just now, and now I'm crying again?"

"Mentally ill, it's well deserved!"

Yuan Changwen is like a drowning man at the moment, desperately trying to grasp the life-saving straw.

That wave of fear is like the waves of the sea, and this wave is not settled, and the waves rise again.

There seems to be a heater in the body, crashing around, making the whole body temperature gradually rise.

The pores all over the body are inexplicably open, exuding an aura of fear.

The heartbeat is racing, you can clearly hear the heartbeat, and even the blood flow in the rest of the body can be felt.

Just kill yourself!

Who's going to save me?!

Life is meaningless, and one wrong step is lost.

What will I do with the rest of my life?

Is it spent in a mental hospital?

Or will they find out that I am not mentally ill and send me back to prison?

All kinds of thoughts flying, regretting the past, fantasizing about the horror of the future, Yuan Changwen is like a battlefield, wreaked havoc by these things.

After a while, it was finally over, and the wave of fear gradually receded.

Yuan Changwen was able to start thinking again, regain control of his body, and it seemed that everything was over.

Why is this happening?

Is it because you regret the past and worry about the future?

Yuan Changwen found that he couldn't find a reason for this wave of fear.

Regretting the past and worrying about the future are all thoughts that arise from not keeping a firm eye on "I exist" after fear strikes.

No, it's the cause of this wave of fear.

What is the reason for this?

Yuan Changwen didn't know.

Moreover, after this wave of fear left, Yuan Changwen was still in a faint sadness.

It stands to reason that such a strong fear strikes that people can't help but want to commit suicide, and it should be completely new after it is over.

But why are you still in sorrow?

Yuan Changwen later learned that this sadness was not a bad thing, because it was an emotion that naturally arose when it touched the absurdity of the world.

For more than 20 years, I have always wanted to control my life, I have been preparing for life, and I have been working hard.

Now, seeing through the absurdity of life and knowing everything is just the definition of self-weaving.

In the process of fighting with demons, slowly see through the truth, and peel off the so-called truth layer by layer.

In the end, it turned out that there was nothing.

Except for "I exist".

In this way, can you not be sad?

Yuan Changwen doesn't know now, he still thinks that this is the result of the interaction between self-woven definitions and reality, and of course it is actually true.

"Damn! Why did you lose ground just now? Let fear control you again? Damn!"

Yuan Changwen kicked on the steel bar and made a bang.

"Damn, don't try to control me easily next time!"

Yuan Changwen raised his middle finger and yelled at the ceiling.

However, this sorrow has not dissipated.

Yuan Changwen tried to find it, but he did not find the source of his sorrow.

If it had been before, I would have remembered something, or something happened in reality, and then I would have emotions.

Yuan Changwen wanted to follow fear and find the source, but he found nothing.

That sorrow lasted until the final judgment.

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Today is the day of the Final Judgment.

Yuan Changwen stood in the middle, with a series of legal personnel such as judges in front of him, and observers in the back.

When the judge announced that Yuan Changwen must go to a psychiatric hospital for treatment, a burst of crying resounded throughout the court.

It's Mom.

With the words howling and crying, it is no longer possible to describe the pain of my mother.

Heartbreaking, I guess I can get a little closer.

My mother's face was flushed, which was an unhealthy flush caused by crying for too long, which caused the blood to concentrate.

There is no image, as if the world has collapsed, and my mother can't hear the comfort of others when she sits on the ground.

Yuan Changwen stood there, a few small wooden fences in the middle, which were originally easy to jump over, but now they have become like moats.

The two policemen grabbed Yuan Changwen's arm and wanted to go out.

The mother didn't know where the strength came from, and suddenly jumped up and rushed over to grab her son.

Maintain the continuous police, very responsible to block, the policewoman is also kind enough to comfort her mother.

At this time, how can my mother be reasonable?

The only thing she knew was that her son was being put in a mental hospital!

Don't cry and be in bad health, look away, get out!

The old mother cried, pulled, grabbed Yuan Changwen's clothes and didn't let go.

My wife has been supporting my mother, and she is also teary-eyed, and she can't imagine that things will develop to this point.

The mother still grabbed Yuan Changwen's clothes, let the police break her fingers, and did not relax.

The fingers are white because of the force, but they just don't let go.

Once you let go, your son is gone!

O my own son!

How did it come to this?

It's good before!

Why are you crazy?

Mom didn't believe it at all, and incoherently accused, this was a conspiracy.

But because the words were not clear, everyone thought it was gibberish after being too sad, because they couldn't hear it clearly.

Son!

I just got married, I just started my life, how can it be over!

The mother cried, and the wife cried, but it couldn't change the result.

Yuan Changwen was held by two policemen and disappeared into the small door next to him.