Between husband and wife, the head of the bed quarrels and the end of the bed closes.

Why do they close at the end of the bed? Isn't it because they quarrel at the end of the bed, and then that one rolls to the end of the bed?

This thing, in the adult world, is a good blending agent.

The root cause is that it will make people empty and lose themselves temporarily.

Without the self, without those woven false definitions, there will naturally be no conflict.

If your significant other is still scolding after this incident, then you can consider a replacement.

"Why don't you sleep yet?"

After his wife came back from the bath, she found that Yuan Changwen was still leaning on the head of the bed, looking serious.

"Still thinking?"

Yuan Changwen: "Hmm. ”

The wife let out a long sigh and said, "I'll go to work tomorrow, so let's go to bed early." Even if you have to think, wouldn't it be better to think when you wake up in good spirits?"

Yuan Changwen nodded: "It's almost there, it's just about thinking, and I haven't sorted it out yet." ”

Wife: "What, you think even thinking isn't real?"

Yuan Changwen thought for a while and said, "I don't know. ”

Wife: "Then you have determined that objective things, such as beds and the like, are false?"

Yuan Changwen: "It's not false, but the scope of 'can't confirm the truth'. ”

Wife: "Are you sure?"

Yuan Changwen: "I'm sure." ”

Wife: "But I don't see anything different about you?

Yuan Changwen: "This is the trouble. I have been sure of this result and trust my reasoning process. But these things have been with me for more than twenty years, and just stopping believing that 'these are real' has made me feel overwhelmed. ”

Wife: "Then go to bed early, I also exercised just now, and I have to go to work tomorrow...... You're not, you're not going to work tomorrow, are you?"

Yuan Changwen smiled bitterly and said, "I have to go to work." ”

The wife was instantly happy, kissed it, and then turned off the light and went to sleep.

Yuan Changwen also lay down and looked at the time, it was almost four o'clock.

…………

Perhaps, tonight is destined not to be able to get a good night's sleep.

When Yuan Changwen woke up again, the five forty-three displayed on his mobile phone was less than six o'clock.

However, waking up is waking up, you can lie in bed or not get up, but you can't trick yourself into falling asleep again.

The sky outside the window was already slightly bright, gray and gray, waiting for the moment of dawn.

Yuan Changwen didn't get up, for fear of affecting his wife's sleep, thinking of everything that happened tonight, his heart was full of guilt.

Guilt?

Why do I feel guilty?

Yuan Changwen was very keen to capture this emotional fluctuation and began to carefully examine the self in his mind.

The definition of weaving is intricate, "My wife followed me, and I couldn't give her too good a material life." We quarreled a lot, and tonight my wife tolerated me, but I didn't understand her properly. ”

The self-definition of these weavings, Yuan Changwen himself doesn't know when they were put into his mind.

What's more, these are all right!

Isn't it bad to empathize, and is it wrong to be considerate of each other?

However, according to the conclusion of my own reasoning, these self-definitions are attached to the background and are all false.

Hey?

Isn't it "unsure of the truth"? How could I say false?

For objective things, it is "impossible to determine the truth". And these added "self" are put in my mind by myself or others, and are used to define me and others.

But these self-woven definitions are increasing and can be changed at any time.

So, they are all false...... Is it?

Yuan Changwen suddenly felt a headache, and for the first time found it so difficult to describe it in words. It seems that every time it is described, the meaning of the words must be redefined, otherwise it will cause ambiguity.

However, the limitations of the written word were discovered very early, and the best example of this is that "it can only be understood but not spoken".

How do you describe an apple in words to someone who has never seen an apple?

This is a very difficult thing to do, let alone use words to describe such an ethereal thing as "Tao".

Yuan Changwen decided to skip here, as long as he understood the meaning, he wouldn't introduce it to others anyway, and he didn't have the opportunity to write it out for others to see.

There is one of the most critical points of this guilt, and if you are not careful, you will miss it.

That is, should we kill this guilt, or should we get rid of the corresponding self-definition?

I've been thinking about what would be left if I got rid of my self-definition of "goodness".

Now, when encountering specific cases, Yuan Changwen finds that this sense of powerlessness is even greater than before.

Eliminate the self-definition of evil, this is quite motivated, and it seems to be indisputable.

But what about "goodness"?

Like tonight, what about my guilt?

If I clear the corresponding self-definition, how will I react if the same situation happens again?

Could it be just an "oh"?

Yuan Changwen felt his scalp tingle, if it was really like that, it was no different from a machine.

Isn't the reason why people are human beings have these emotions?

Moreover, even if all self-definitions are removed, as long as you live in this world, you will still have some self-definitions.

For example, "I am a person who has no self-definition", this is a self-definition in itself!

So, what exactly am I doing?

Yuan Changwen thought about it, there was only one reason, he was tired of struggling with emotions and wanted to see what was real.

However, "wanting to see what is real" is a wish in itself, and it is not fundamentally different from "wanting to buy a house".

So, what exactly am I thinking?

For the first time, Yuan Changwen thought that he was really crazy, and why did he think about these questions?

I want to enlighten myself and persuade myself that there are still many beautiful things in this world, and this family still has a lot of responsibilities to shoulder.

On second thought, these beautiful things are only beautiful because they are not common.

Whether it's a beautiful view or a moving behavior, the root cause is that it's not common.

There is also the responsibility of the family, and when you think about it, you know that it is the self-definition that society puts into your mind.

Yuan Changwen is like a derailed train at this time, and if he wants to get back on the track, he seems to be powerless. But watching the derailment can lead to a wave of fear.

"What's wrong?"

The wife rolled over and muttered words with sleepy eyes.

Don't underestimate a woman's sixth sense, never underestimate it!

Yuan Changwen thought for a while and said, "I'll go to work first, and then you can sleep." ”

"Hmmm......"

Maybe my wife was really sleepy and didn't think about why she went out to work before six o'clock.

Yuan Changwen also wants to be alone and quiet, and it is not convenient to stay at home. I can't sleep anyway, and it's not bad to go out for a walk and breathe fresh air after washing.

…………

Less than six o'clock, Yuan Changwen walked aimlessly on the street.

The street lights have not been turned off, the cleaners are still cleaning, and some small vendors selling breakfast have begun to appear, and some people are running with headphones.

Yuan Changwen found a bench to sit down on in the small garden not far from the bus stop, looking at the elderly people in practice clothes, and gathered together to play Tai Chi.

Will they also think about authenticity?

Are these people real?

I perceive the existence of the big tree, so it can only be existence?

Yuan Changwen suddenly remembered the materialism he accepted when he was in school, what if he accepted idealism at that time?

I believe in science, I believe in Che Lingzi, and I believe in the appearance of the mainland. But I didn't confirm it with my own eyes, all of this came from the teacher's professor, and the people around me thought so.

That is, my worldview is based solely on "believing"?

And those things that are too esoteric, I've been going with the flow as a talking point. The only thing I really care about is the job in front of me, the mortgage, and getting along with my wife.

Why do you suddenly feel that life is ridiculous?

Yuan Changwen looked at the elderly people who were playing Tai Chi, and they seemed to be very peaceful, didn't they think life was ridiculous?

Or did they also hesitate once, but now that they are old, their hearts are dead?

Perhaps, when you reach a certain age, you can find the true meaning of life?

Do you want to be so ridiculous until you are old?

Yuan Changwen himself was taken aback by this thought.

Alas......