In the cramped meeting room, only a dim oil lamp flickered quietly.

Inside and outside the window, it seems that two worlds are separated.

Su Shi'an was silent for a long time, and finally, under the nervous and anxious gaze of Su's father, he slowly sat up straight and sneered helplessly.

"Do I have a choice? Whether I want it or not, I've always been paying your debts. After so many years, you owe people, everyone wants to get it back from me, and now even you yourself have said that you want me to pay off your debt for you. ”

With his hands interlaced between his knees, he looked up at the dim ceiling, "It's okay to pay off the debt, when will it be the end?

Father Su was silent again. The jailer next to him could see his throat rolling, trying to suppress the sobs that were leaking out.

Su Shi'an looked at the thin and vicissitudes of life in front of him, his shoulders were no longer majestic, his eyes no longer had hope, and he was engraved with a kind of loser's brand from head to toe. Looking at it, he suddenly felt a strong sense of pathos.

He is not wrong, and he is not wrong, they are just ordinary ordinary people, they just want to live a good life. So, since no one is wrong, why did they end up like this? Who is it that has pushed them step by step into such a situation?

"Do you really want me to see them?" said Su Shi'an smiled thoughtfully, "I don't promise what I'll do." ”

Hearing the deep meaning of his words, Father Su suddenly became excited, and he leaned forward suddenly, pulling the iron chains connected to his limbs to choke.

"I want you to promise me! In this life, you will never hurt them, otherwise...... Otherwise......"

"Otherwise?" asked Su Shi'an, not to be outdone.

Father Su took a deep breath, and when he lowered his head again, he suddenly looked much older.

"Otherwise, all your sins will be avenged on me. ”

Su Shi'an was suddenly startled, and his heart, which had been indifferent for many years, also became colic again at this moment.

"It is I who have been absent from your growth, and all sins have been caused by me. Father Su wiped a handful of muddy tears and barely supported his emaciated chin with his hands, as if if if he didn't do this, his cheeks would fall directly, "If you really go astray because of my mistakes, then I can't escape the blame! The only thing I can do is to bear the cause and effect of retribution for you!"

With his cruel words, Su Shi'an's fists hanging at his side clenched tighter and tighter, and in his eyes, there was a deep sting.

You're pushing me, using what you know about me to force me ......!

If the retribution is on me, I don't care...... I don't care if it's all gone!, but why do you say that......

In the end, I still have a weakness that I can't let go, which is really sad......

At one end of the wall, the candle flame is still flickering, lighting candle tears, like the tears of two people.

……

After leaving the prison, Su Shi'an did not speak for a long time.

The mother didn't ask too much. She just grabbed his hand tightly and quickened her pace, trying to escape from the place that would suffocate her.

Obviously he has grown up, but his mother still holds him like that, like holding a child who will run away at any time.

"Mother, I want to go out and find a job. Already far from the gloomy building, Su Shian spoke softly.

Mother's body suddenly tensed, and the strength of her grip on his palm suddenly increased, "What's the matter?

"Our family needs money. Su Shilian replied simply.

"I don't want to leave you alone all the time. Now that I'm older, I can replace my dad as the pillar of the family. ”

"But......" Mother didn't know what to say, perhaps it was the premonition of the mother-son connection, which made her always feel that this abrupt proposal was inappropriate.

"But...... Then you must not break the law again......" After hesitating again and again, finally my mother could only plead weakly, "I don't want to see you like your father......"

Over the years, my mother has lived like a frightened bird, and the slightest sound will make her tremble. She was always worried that if she would suddenly come to the door and want to arrest her husband and take her son. Or maybe the angry crowd won't give up, and they'll come to the door to seek revenge...... Such a long-term insecure life has made her spirit almost tense to the limit.

Su Shi'an's heart was like a knife for a while, he clenched his mother's hand again, bowed his head and promised: "Mother, don't worry, I won't break the law." ”

That's right, the family needs money, and he himself needs money, a lot of money. Because what he is about to do must have enough money to support it......

……

When her mother married her father, she was still very young, and Su Shi'an also saw photos of her when she was young, although she could not be said to be a great beauty at that time, she was always an elegant and gentle woman. Like all her peers, she has romantic love fantasies.

But her married life has worn out her beauty day by day, and all her longings have been wiped out. She can only stay in the small grocery store every day and pull the abacus, bargain with customers for every penny of income, and work hard for daily firewood, rice, oil and salt.

Gradually, her hands became rough, her spiritual world became barren, and at the best of years, when other noble ladies used high-end skin care products, she could only watch her face age.

What is the reason for this? because of poverty.

Because of poverty, my father could only get up early and stay late on the construction site. The lower the job, the harder it is, but the less secure it is for survival and economy. So, when he went down the road of crime for a year's wages, he didn't know that perhaps for the wealthy merchants, the same amount was just the cost of bathing their pets.

So, is poverty the original sin?

Relying on that desperate ruthlessness, Su Shi'an tossed and turned on the streets of the market all day long, and there was not a day on his body that he did not hang colors, and blood has become his eternal protective color.

Finally, he carved out a piece of his own turf.

He wandered on the edge of the law, and the little brother around him tried the marginal business again and again, watching a lot of money come in, but his eyes were always empty.

On this day, he walked into the barber shop to get a brand new haircut.

Seeing that his hair was dyed a little bit smoky, and it was permed with a unique texture, with his evil face, sure enough, he was getting closer and closer to the gangsters.

The female clerk who dyed his hair didn't know if she didn't read the newspaper, or if she wasn't so "jealous and hateful", so she said to him halfway: "The young man is very handsome!"

Su Shi'an was slightly stunned, in the overwhelming abuse, it was the first time he had heard such an evaluation.

Re-examining himself in the mirror, this may also be the first time in many years that Su Shi'an has taken a serious look at himself.

This face, by a girl's standards, may indeed be good. In fact, he knows that the main thing is that he has a different temperament, boys of the same age, few of them are soaked from the pool of blood like him, even if they want to pretend to be ruffian, but they are always missing something.

Su Shi'an took a deep breath and casually picked up the hairstyle magazine on the table and flipped through it.

In this world, there are people who hate criminals, and there are people who specifically like criminals. If he wanted to, he could actually get the money faster.

However, he had never thought about it. I always feel that that is no different from selling myself at a low price.

……

After he finally had some savings, he began to implement his plan.

He took the initiative to step into the newspaper office and deal with the media that he had avoided before.

I heard that it was a follow-up report on the "arrest and death case", and sure enough, several reporters expressed their willingness to follow up. Moreover, the interview plan he proposed was absolutely impossible for the newspaper to refuse.

In this way, the reporters were taken by him to the home of Guan Kuai.

After the camera was set up, Su Shi'an behaved politely, holding a large number of silver tickets that he had prepared a long time ago and holding them in front of Mrs. Kwan.

At the same time, he skillfully spoke polite words, he said how difficult it was for his father, how he decided to change his past mistakes in prison, and he said that he had been working since he was a child, saving money, just to earn this compensation, to improve the life of Mrs. Guan's mother and son, and to atone for his father's sins.

In the process of his narration, Mrs. Guan's emotions were a little out of control, and she blurted out interrupting him several times, but Su Shi'an continued to talk nonchalantly.

In the end, he knelt down and kowtowed to Mrs. Guan.

"Auntie, I apologize to you on behalf of my father, I'm sorry!"

"It's our family who owes you, as long as it can make you angry, you can beat or scold it. ”

Mrs. Kwan was finally stimulated to madness, and she hissed and roared:

"You take it! Every penny is stained with my husband's blood, and I will never take your money!"

She picked up the silver ticket from the table and smashed it at Su Shi'an.

Silver tickets flew in the air, and Su Shi'an just endured it silently, without showing a hint of resistance. The reporters on the side also stepped forward with cameras to capture this rare and wonderful picture.

"Auntie, don't get too excited. Next, Su Shi'an stepped forward and hugged Mrs. Guan with a concerned face, "You can scold me as much as you want, just don't be angry." Guan is fast in the sky, and he can't bear to see you in such pain. ”

Mrs. Guan looked at his hypocritical appearance, and became even more angry, and pushed him away: "Shut up, you are not allowed to mention my husband's name! Get out of here! Get out of me immediately!"

Su Shi'an let her vent, and under his deliberate manipulation, this scene was also consciously extended to ensure that the camera had captured her hysterical appearance.

Only then did he stand up dejectedly: "Okay, aunt, take care of your health, I will come again." ”

Even in the last shot, his expression is so "sincere".

When he walked out of the room, the guilt on his face was still completely subdued. He glanced at the reporters and showed a tacit smile.

These reporters accept favors from him, and when they report, they will follow his wishes and be inclined.

For example, is the title "The only son of the main culprit in the case of arresting and dying quickly apologizes, and the victim's family does not forgive?"

……

This is the means of revenge that Su Shi'an finally thought of.

If he could, he really wanted to kill Guan Lin with his own hands. But who made him promise his father?

Luckily, he's now thought of a more interesting way to play.

As long as the heat of the case does not decrease, that family will always live in the shadows. Guan Lin will always be regarded as a son who "killed his father" and must always carry the burden of conscience.

As long as he has money in his hands, he will keep firing this case. Then, they will never want to come out, and can only repeat the nightmare of the year over and over again in the whirlpool of public opinion he concocted.

Although the price of doing this is that he, as one of the parties, will also be put on the execution table again and again, and he will also have to endure social abuse repeatedly, but-

"It doesn't matter, as long as it can make you miserable, it is my greatest satisfaction. ”

"I volunteered to take my life and play with you. ”

He raised his head, looked up at the clear sky, and silently exhaled.

"Father, you asked me to apologize for you, and I did. It's just my way. ”

……

Originally, he also wanted to take the reporter to Guan Linden to shoot again, but the Tiansheng Academy he studied seemed to be heavily managed, and he was stopped by the security guards when he arrived at the gate.

After several unsuccessful attempts, Su Shien gave up on the idea.

Forget it, the future is long, and he can't hide in a turtle shell for the rest of his life.

If you can't torture him for the time being, you can torture his mother more, which is also very good.

……

Su Sai On's territory is still expanding, and gradually it is no longer limited to small fights on the streets, and those gang forces that stand taller have also begun to come into contact with each other.

During this time, Su Shi'an was thinking about attaching himself to one of the largest gangs in this territory. However, there are also many gangsters who also want to be attached to, and the gang's approach is naturally to "hire on the basis of merit", and now they are still in the same consideration period.

After the last contact, it is said that the younger sister of the eldest brother of the gang has a good impression of him, and the younger brothers joked that if they let themselves start with her, they may be able to get on the side of that gang, and they can directly improve them by several grades.

"I didn't think about having children. To this, Su Shi'an just replied like this.

"The world has never given me the slightest kindness. I don't know what kind of environment I want my child to suffer, should I let him go my way again?"

"If you can't protect children, then don't give birth. ”

This is indeed what he is saying. In countless desperate days and nights, he did resent it, why did he give birth to himself, why did he give birth to himself and couldn't protect himself?

So, he didn't want to have offspring. Such a sad bloodline is enough for yourself.

"I don't understand what you're talking about...... the younger brother scratched his hair, "But Brother An, it's just a joke to talk about love, why do you want to have children?"

Su Shi'an turned to the side and puffed out a puff of smoke towards the window, his eyes following the green smoke that dissipated in the distance.

"Since you don't plan to have an ending in the first place, don't play with other people's feelings. ”

(End of chapter)