Since that day, Su Shi'an has been living with his mother.

He has lived himself like a hedgehog, and every time he is attacked by Isse, he will fight back with ten times more ferocity. After scaring all the creditors, no one dared to bully them easily.

The scale of my mother's store began to expand gradually, and it was indispensable to buy, sell, and decorate the storefront, all of which had to come into contact with other businesses. Each time, Su Sai Ann would accompany his mother.

A pair of orphans and widows, even if they don't have those overt and secret grudges, they will definitely suffer a lot of stumbling in society. But while everyone was waiting to see the joke, they still came over again and again. The torrent of sin did not crush them, but forged them new armor.

After all, it was a big case that was once a sensation, and in the following years, the media occasionally followed up and reported on the criminals and the victims' families. At first, as long as it was a report about the Su family, no matter how fragmentary the news was, it would cause another wave of scolding, as if they should not continue to live, and only by committing suicide with the main culprit could they be regarded as worthy of the public.

But as time goes by, the interest of the masses will always shift. Su's mother's optimism and strength made her a little more "strong woman". After all, not any woman can survive in such a desperate situation. At this time, more people finally began to reflect, in fact, as family members, they are not too much at fault, and they have been scolded for so many years for so many years, even if it is to atone for the main crime, it should be over.

In contrast, the sacrificial widow gradually made everyone sympathize with them to disgust. For so long, she did almost nothing, just crying softly and weakly all day. And when a reporter came to her door and wanted to interview her son, who was also one of the parties, she would yell like crazy and kick all visitors out of the house.

If a person's grief is seen for too long, it will inevitably be offensive. Although out of sympathetic inertia, no one has publicly criticized her, but the help of the "well-wishers" around her has become less and less.

……

In front of his mother, Su Shi'an still plays the role of a good son. All those life-fighting conflicts in the backyard were put underground.

There, he still experiences the most authentic cruelty of this world. Each time, his clothes were soaked with blood. And his eyes are also reflected in the blur of life and death day and night.

Is life at home stable now? It's a lot more stable than it was back then.

However, there is no real stability in life. The stability you are thinking about is just that some people give up everything in exchange for a corner of peace for you.

My mother knows more or less about these things. But now that she understands that her son is unwilling to let her get involved, she can only pretend not to know. It's nothing more than a few dreamy nights, she looked at the few bloody clothes pressed at the bottom of the cabinet, and she could always feel the pain.

……

As the son of a criminal, if you are weak, others will bully you at every turn, but if you accept this identity calmly, they will fear that you are the same outlaw.

People, they are so bullying the weak and afraid of the hard.

Finally, one day, Su Shi'an returned home early. After a long silence, he uttered these words.

"I want to see my dad. ”

The mother's action of washing the dishes suddenly froze.

……

For many years, Su Shi'an is no longer the child who studied in the nursery department, and now he is a teenager. He seemed to have matured a lot, whether it was his face or mind, or that bloodthirsty cruelty, he had far surpassed his peers.

After sitting down in the chair arranged by the jailer, he remained silent. There were no waves in his eyes, no joy or sorrow that father and son should have when they were reunited.

After a long time, my father was finally brought up. He described him as emaciated, skinny, and with deeply sunken cheeks. The eyes that were originally clear also became dull at this time.

After taking their seats, neither father nor son spoke. They looked at each other seriously for a long time, as if they didn't know each other anymore.

Over the years, they have all changed completely.

But that's not the change they wanted. Instead, the edges and corners of the once proud have been smoothed out by society, and now they look like two flesh-and-blood people face each other, but in fact, they have become two skeletons wrapped in clothes.

"Shi'an...... I didn't expect you to be willing to come to see Dad. Finally, it was Father Su who spoke first. As he spoke, his throat choked, and two lines of tears flowed down.

Su Shi'an silently crossed his hands, and his answer was also decent:

"You are my father, even if the whole world spits on you, I will still be on your side. ”

Smiling self-deprecatingly, he lowered his gaze slightly, "And I'm starting to understand you a little now." ”

Some people do make you think it's better for him to die.

These words, in front of the jailer, he will not say too clearly. But in his demeanor, there is a clear contempt for life.

Father Su saw his eyes, which were the ...... he was most familiar with For a long time, I had the same look. But that's why he knows the dangers involved!

"Shi'an, my father gave you this name, just to hope that you can be safe for the rest of your life......" Su's father tried to persuade him, "You must be a down-to-earth person, don't let me worry about your mother anymore!"

"But because of you, I can't live forever. Su Shi'an lightly hooked the corners of his lips, his eyes were indifferent, and his words were full of mockery.

Father Su hung his head in frustration, pain and guilt had filled his heart.

After a while, Su Shi'an leaned forward again: "Can you tell me why you want to go on this road." ”

I don't know if the son is too mature, or the father is too depressed, now they don't look like father and son, but like two people who talk to each other on an equal footing.

After a moment of hesitation, Su's father finally sighed, moistened his chapped lips, and told his son about the dark past.

……

Back then, he was still working on the construction site, and although life was hard, he lived on his own and was always steadfast.

Until that year, thinking that his son was about to go to school, he wanted to earn more money, so he worked hard. Every time he was so tired that he couldn't hold on, he thought about the innocent faces of his wife and children, as if he had inexhaustible motivation.

At the end of the year, the boss naturally owed all the workers their hard-earned money on the grounds that "business is not easy this year and the income is not good".

These workers have beaten and made trouble, but they are just a group of insignificant workers, and some methods have methods to stifle their voices for successful bosses.

A year's hard work has come to naught, and the workers are angry and anxious every day, feeling that they have no face to go back to see their families. The smell of gunpowder fills the construction site all day long.

That night, a group of people drank too much wine, and Su's father took advantage of the strength of the wine to suggest that everyone go to rob the money bank with their faces covered. According to him, in retrospect, even he didn't know why he said that.

This kind of thing of robbing a money bank, a group of people have only seen it in the news before, and they always feel why they have to do this kind of business that requires prison when they have a good life. Until recently, they were owed wages and had no way to petition, so they suddenly felt that sometimes people are forced into a desperate situation. When a person is forced to the point where he can't live, what is he afraid of?

In anger and despair, the proposal to rob the money bank was unanimously approved.

Since then, they have embarked on the path of crime.

Money robbery has always been a big case, and they are just a group of ordinary workers, although they did rob a lot of money at first, but then they were frantically pursued by the fast catch.

In the process of escaping, Su's father also learned intermittently through reports that his companions had been arrested one by one and convicted one after another. He turned out to be the one who escaped the longest.

Because of this, he was also defined by the county government as the most dangerous wanted criminal. In the streets and alleys, you can see his portrait everywhere.

At that time, the only thing that Su's father was happy about was that it was a city far away from his wife and children, and neither of them read much newspapers. Maybe they thought that they were working hard to make money on the construction site and would come back to reunite with them soon.

The longer he lingered, the more he didn't want to go to jail. If you do go to jail, it's all over......!

In order to survive, he is forced to become more and more ferocious. In the past, he was an honest man who didn't even dare to kill chickens, but in his career of resisting arrest and fleeing, he killed and injured several catchers with his bare hands. Seeing their bloody corpses, he went from initial fear and guilt to numbness.

Because he knows very well that if they don't die, they will die themselves.

After so many years of civilized life, he knew for the first time that he could become as ferocious as a beast.

"What I originally wanted was to use that fast catcher son to escape from the country first, then hide outside for a few years, and then come back when the storm slowly subsided...... When I was arrested, my mind was full of what to do with your mother, what should you do......"

"I really didn't expect that this case would become so big later, that you and your mother would not be able to live well for so many years...... I'm not a good husband, I'm not a good father, I'm sorry for you...... I'm sorry you guys......"

In the end, Father Su couldn't cry. Looking back on that experience, he felt like he was a ghost. You can make it again when the money is gone, but once you are impulsive, you pay the price for life!

In his narrative, Su Shi'an looked at him in silence.

Who would have thought that the criminal, who was evaluated as "extremely vicious" by the outside world, was just a person forced by life.

Now, he's no longer that vicious criminal, he's just a sad father.

Su Shi'an's gaze, after the initial slight turmoil, resettled into a pool of stagnant water.

What happened to his father made him see the reality of this society more clearly.

There are only three kinds of people in this world, one is a bad person, one is a bad person who becomes a good person after being oppressed, and the last one is a good person who has been bullied all his life.

If that's the case, why continue to be good people?

He chooses to be a villain, as long as he is bad enough and thorough enough, no one will dare to bully him anymore......

"Shi'an...... It's all your father who has affected you, are you still willing to forgive your father?" At this time, Su's father was still in tears. He looked at the overly mature son in front of him, thinking of the years he owed him, and this sentence was actually asked carefully.

After a long time, Su Shi'an sighed.

"I told you, you're my father. ”

This sentence is worth a thousand words.

I can forgive you because you are my dad and I will not hate you no matter what you do. However, I will never forgive that boss......

Listening to his son's words, Su's father suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, and the wrinkles on his face seemed to have stretched a lot at this moment.

"By the way......" Then, Su's father looked left and right with some panic, "Why don't you see your mother?"

After his father committed a serious crime, his mother was indeed disappointed in him, and it was clear that she wanted to completely dissociate herself from this husband. That's why when she brought it up to see her father, her mother showed such an embarrassed look.

Maybe she was resentful, she complained about her husband's confusion, and put their family in such an unbearable situation.

At the beginning of the case, Su Shi'an also complained about his father. But as he grew older, as others inflicted more and more hatred on him, he became more and more able to understand his father.

If there is such a group of people who circle around them all day long, then even the best people will definitely be forced to commit crimes......

In front of the prison, the picture of his mother letting go of his hand and turning away flashed in his mind, but Su Shi'an couldn't see any emotional changes on his face, he smiled skillfully, and comforted as if nothing happened:

"It's okay, my mother went out to work. You also know that our family needs money more now than in the past, and she has to carry the family alone. ”

Such a statement seems to have temporarily won the trust of Su's father, and this also made him feel even more guilty about his wife and children.

"Alas, I'm the most sorry thing in my life...... It's to arrest the fast family. After being silent for a long time, Father Su exhaled heavily, "You also have to remember that this is what we owe to others! If you have the opportunity, I hope you can visit them more...... If there's something you need to help with, give it a little more. ...... for me Try to make amends. ”

Su Shi'an's face changed suddenly. After maintaining a long period of silence, it finally collapsed like melting frost.

"What you're most sorry for is not Guan Kuai's family, it's me and my mother! Have you ever thought about compensating us?"

Father Su didn't speak again, he just buried his head deeply, his face full of the deepest sorrow.

Yes, it was his own misfortune that affected his son, and he was the person who should not have opened this mouth the most! But after being imprisoned, Guan Kuai's face always flashed in front of his eyes.

It should be the one who deals with him the most, he really wants to persuade himself to put down the butcher knife, and he has also promised that he will try to make his sentence lighter. But in the end, he killed him with his own hands and destroyed his family.

I have no chance to make amends for these sins. Maybe because Shi'an is his son and the closest person to him, he subconsciously chose to sacrifice him and choose to let him face the wind and waves alone.

(End of chapter)