During the days of Hong Yanwu's captivity, there was a time when the curtains that had been sewn together were opened, revealing a gap. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

Through that light, he could see the branches of the trees in the garden downstairs. He likes nothing more than to see the "visitors" on the branches, sometimes a few sparrows, sometimes a magpie.

At one point, two squirrels climbed up the branches, their tails fluffy and fluffy, and they chased each other, squeaking, and seemed to communicate with each other. Then, a squirrel took the fruit from the tree and shared it with another......

Although he couldn't tell the difference between male and female, and he couldn't understand the language of squirrels, he was sure that they were a family. But just as he was in his trance, suddenly a woman's hand reached out in front of him and tightened the curtains.

The woman came to bring him porridge, but she happened to discover his secret that she couldn't take her eyes off it. Without the slightest delay, she immediately sewed the curtains with a needle and thread to make them airtight, and in order to punish him, she took the porridge away.

He didn't care, he lost his appetite anyway. But he still cried, and just by chance, he destroyed the only remaining connection between him and the outside world.

After crying, he realized that he was homesick.

He should have relatives too, everyone has them, right? But what about his relatives?

Forgetting the past is tantamount to betraying oneself. He tried desperately to recall, but the memories of the distant ones were very vague.

In the dark, many past events are gathered like water, and the bits and pieces of life gradually become pictures. But all that comes to mind is so scattered and incredible, both familiar and strange.

For a while, it was he who sat on the roof and looked at the stars. For a moment, it was he who was holding a broken fan and desperately fanning the smoke from the coal stove. After a while, it was he who punched and kicked and rode his bicycle across Sijiu City. After a while, he was handcuffed and escorted into a prison van under the strict security of the armed police. After a while, it was he who knocked over the table with a big fight. After a while, he was generously spending time in the restaurant with a banknote in hand......

There is only one picture that is very impressive.

In the east courtyard of the Furuli Kannon Temple, a little girl less than six years old sat on the high steps under the door.

She was wearing a small blue plain padded jacket, and her two pigtails were blown back by the wind. She also put one hand on her white forehead to block out the sun that was about to fall. Even in winter, she would sit on this high staircase every day, looking at the distant intersection with her big round black eyes, waiting for him to come home from school.

The girl is familiar. Who is she?

Yes, it's his sister, it's his only sister!

He remembered. I remembered the intimacy with my sister and the attachment my sister had to him.

When he appeared in the alley after school, his sister would call the third brother in a tender voice, jump and run over, and then take his dirty hand and run into the house together. My sister's white and tender little hands are clear and full of warm flesh.

In my impression, my sister's immature voice was heard.

"Third brother, third brother, third brother......"

"Third brother, you eat. The younger sister stretched out her little hand and forced a piece of candy into his mouth.

"Third brother, I'm afraid, don't ......" my sister ran to dodge, while he carried the hanging ghost (local language, referring to the larva larva of the national acacia moth), and chased like a dog and a rabbit in the yard.

"Third brother, it's so sweet. My sister bit the big red dates he had just picked and smiled, and the dates he picked were all in his vest.

"Third brother, does it hurt? I wiped some 'two hundred and two' for you, and it was so good that it was wiped quickly. The younger sister applied the red potion to his chest, and he grinned in pain when his bare spine was scratched by the jujube tree.

"Third brother, you are amazing. The younger sister looked at him adoringly. He just avenged his sister and beat the "son" who bullied her in the alley. Although he also has dark eyes at the corners of his eyes, he looks like a black-eyed chicken that has been plucked......

"Dad, don't hit the third brother...... I threw the orange peel of Aunt Bian's ......" my sister sobbed with tears in her eyes, covering up his mistakes......

There was a warmth in his heart, so comfortable that it seemed to melt his whole being.

He remembered that he did have relatives. And it's not just my sister, but also my parents and brothers.

But when his father's sickly and thin face appeared in his mind, he suddenly felt a pinprick in his heart.

He immediately remembered that it was because of his father's report that he fell into the hands of the police and was sent to labor camp.

In the unprecedented ten years, the family composition of the "Black Five Category" has brought too many disasters to the Hong family. But just when the "movement" was coming to an end, Hong Yanwu was arrested by the police because he beat up his son who was an official. Originally, he planned to go home to see his mother and fly away, but he didn't expect that his father, who had always been timid and scared, chose to report to the police station for fear that his family would be implicated. As a result, Hong Yanwu, who fled over the wall in a hurry, was surrounded by the police and workers' militia brought by his father. This moment was the last meeting between their father and son.

Hong Yanwu still remembers the scene at that time.

As soon as he jumped off the wall, he fell into an ambush. A dozen or so workers' militiamen who appeared out of nowhere swarmed him up and instantly pinned him to the ground. Then a policeman came and handcuffed him, and then, in front of his father, the militiamen did not hesitate to pick him up and twist him away.

He looked back with resentment. At the base of the wall, his father, who "killed his relatives in righteousness", was still standing in place, his eyes full of sorrow.

"I don't have a father! I jumped out of a crack in the rock!"

He suddenly jumped to his feet and shouted, almost breaking free from the hands of the militiamen. And the shouts echoed throughout the alley.

Under the street lamp, my father shed tears on his clothes, and he bent down painfully, covering his chest with his hands and squatting down.

He couldn't stop shouting, he also cried, and even wanted to go back to help his father, but he resented his father's ruthlessness.

Just when he hesitated, there was no more chance, and several policemen pressed his head together and forced him into the motorcycle sidecar.

Soon, the police station sentenced him to three years of labor re-education and sent him to Chadian. During the labor camp, he wanted to see him every day and night, but his family never came to see him. When he couldn't help but write a letter of reception to his family, he unexpectedly heard someone talking behind his back.

"It's weird, his damn dad sent him, and he still wants to meet him?"

"It's like, even his mother has to listen to his dad, and it's good to write letters. What a fool. ”

These words immediately turned his longing for his family into a deeper resentment towards his father. He stubbornly tore up the letter, believing that it must be as others said, that it was all because of his father's obstruction that no relatives came to see him.

During the Tangshan earthquake, Chadian was also affected by the earthquake. At this time, because of his active rescue and meritorious service, the labor re-education period was shortened to one year. After being released from re-education through labor, he did not return home out of hatred for his father, but chose to wander outside for two years. When he re-entered the house, he was surprised to learn that his father had just died.

The mother said that his father suffered from a leg ailment shortly after his RTL and had been bedridden. Because his father needed to be cared for at all times, and the family's money had to be used to buy medicine first, the family could not visit him. The mother also said that the father, who was suffering from the disease, walked by reading his name. When my father was dying, I was most worried that he would go the wrong way.

Looking at the portrait of his father, he was stunned. All the resentment in my heart suddenly disappeared, but it turned into even more regret......

The peristalsis of his stomach suddenly woke Hong Yanwu up from the past, and his stomach rumbled again. To be more comfortable, he found a pillow to put on his stomach. He has experience with this, and it would be good if he was hungry.

At this moment, what he misses most is not abalone and lobster and other delicacies from the mountains and seas, but sliced soup, fried gnocchi, boiled gnocchi, fried noodles, these ordinary meals that his mother used to cook before her death.

My mother's cooking method is very traditional, she always eats according to the season, and she never spoils things and eats deliciously. Lichun baked spring cakes, and celebrated birthdays to make lo mein. Scrambled eggs with toon in short spring, Yuqian noodles grilled, boiled blue in summer, salted eggplant, baked paste, stewed noodles with lentils, paste paste in cool autumn, dried fruits, vegetarian roasted eggplant, fried green and white snake, warm cypress mixed with cabbage in winter, roasted green onions with sea rice, boiled cabbage with meatballs, and white meat with sauerkraut. New Year's rice noodle meat, croquettes, meat skin jelly, mustard dun, fried chirp, eight-treasure rice......

In these imaginations, Hong Yanwu seemed to see his mother busy in the small kitchen again. He was just half-confused, and re-entered the memory.

As soon as a person is planted in a labor camp, it is considered to be a bubble of. Sensei said that it is difficult to find a serious public job, even if you let the street arrange a temporary worker.

After moving home, he quickly became discouraged because he hit a wall again and again because of his job search, and he only used fighting and drinking to vent his depression every day, and became a frequent visitor to the detention center. The eldest brother and the second brother don't have a good color for him, and they tell him all day long to abide by the law and not be willing to fall. Although he understood their kindness, it made him see once again that he was different from others, and not only in the eyes of outsiders.

His mother was so anxious that she shed tears for him to avoid trouble. His mother's money bought him wine and meat, and she wanted to keep him at home with good food. But he couldn't stay at home as usual, and he still wanted to go out every day. When his mother really couldn't stop him, he could only stuff the money and food stamps in his hands, and repeatedly advised, "Eat well, eat well, drink less, don't fight, come back early." ”

And whenever he gets drunk and comes home late at night, his mother stays up all night waiting for him. It wasn't until she helped him undress and wipe his face and put him to bed that his mother could go to sleep with confidence. In the haze of drunkenness, he only remembered his mother's tired, angry and distressed face. The mother always looked at him helplessly, and sighed deeply, "Alas, what's the use of raising a son......"

He has indeed become the greatest burden to his mother. In order to provide for his food and drink, his mother has to rely on pasted cardboard boxes to supplement the family every day after work. Sometimes, because my mother stayed up late, she would keep rubbing the corners of her eyes with her hands under the light, and something shining would fall in her eyes. But even if he saw it, he was indifferent, and he never asked. He doesn't do anything at home, and he has long been accustomed to his mother's dirty work, and even his mother's dirty clothes have to be washed.

In his heartless and chaotic days, his mother has always had no regrets about this kind of hard work. In fact, my mother's request is very simple, I just want the whole family to reunite and live in peace. But even such a small request, he could not meet her. Soon after, he was formally arrested for injuring someone while drunk.

When two police officers handcuffed him from his home and escorted him out of the house, he saw his mother's confused and distressed eyes. Until this time, she still didn't believe that her son would become a criminal again after such a painful lesson.

The mother burst into tears, did not wipe them, did not cry, but let the tears soak through her clothes. The breeze ruffled her hair, and he realized for the first time that his mother had gray hair.

Mother was not easy, her red and swollen fingers and haggard face were extremely dazzling at that moment.

Full of shame, he could only bow his head and walk silently past his mother. Then, in the midst of the chatter among the neighbors, he boarded the police jeep that came especially for him. When the red police lights sounded and the screeching sounded, the car drove him quickly to the Xuanwu Branch.

Later, he learned that just as the police car left, his mother chased him out of the house. And she looked at the army-green jeep in the distance, both physically and mentally beyond the limit of what she could bear. Amid the exclamations of the neighbors, she collapsed limply holding on to the courtyard door.

My mother died in the hospital. When he was in prison, he was shocked to hear the news of his mother's death, and he couldn't help but hit the wall of the cell with his head until his roommate called the prison guards, and he was bleeding profusely. That night, he stood alone in front of the moonlight outside the iron window for the night, and no one interfered. Everyone thought he was mentally abnormal and stimulated. At daybreak, he was ill with a fever of forty degrees.

After his mother's funeral, the eldest brother and the second brother took their younger sister to the detention center to give him a bed. In the interview room, through the iron window, the siblings met.

The eldest brother has always had a bad temper, and as soon as he saw him, he immediately threw his luggage on the iron fence in front of him.

"Bastard! You're a scourge! You'd better not come out for the rest of your life!"

The second brother's eyes were bloodshot, and in front of the prison guards, he also pointed at his nose and scolded.

"You're not human! You're angry Mom! We won't have you in our family in the future!"

Among several relatives, only his sister couldn't bear to blame him, but she stood aside pitifully, crackling and shedding tears. She also carried a net bag in her hand, which was the tomatoes he liked to eat.

And in his clenched fists, his nails were already digging deep into his palms.

He couldn't tell the truth at all. Can he explain to them that he didn't want to fight at all, that the other party had to do it?

Not to mention, even he thinks he's a bastard.

He knows very well that his mother has been working hard to continue to pay for this family under the fear of many years of political movements, the blow of her husband's death, the grinding of hard life, and the torment of bumpy fate. And when she finally found out that no matter how much she paid, she couldn't avoid her son from going astray, she inevitably felt an extreme disappointment.

Yes, it was entirely because of him, the mother's mental strength was exhausted, her spirit was broken, her muscles and bones were fried, and her blood was boiled dry.

He was the culprit responsible for his mother's death......

Hong Yanwu felt that his neck was wet, and when he woke up, he found that his face was indeed full of tears, and his pillow was also wet.

He wiped away his tears and stared at the hollow darkness for a moment before turning over and closing his eyes. He really didn't want to reminisce about the past, but he didn't expect that as soon as he closed his eyes, his brain involuntarily became active again.

That's how people are, and painful things are always clearest. The worst thing is that the more painful a person is, the more he remembers the things that worry about him, and the more he wants to forget things, the more clearly they will appear......

During his imprisonment, no one in the family saw him except for his sister.

After being released from prison, he went straight home.

But what he didn't expect was that the second brother didn't let him in by holding the door, and his face was full of disgust and disgust, as if he was a plague god. Thanks to the sister-in-law and his sister who spoke well for him, he reluctantly pulled the second brother open and let him in, and made a bed for him in the kitchen.

Unexpectedly, the eldest brother also got angry when he came home from work, saying that he didn't recognize him, the younger brother who was angry with his mother. Only then did he know that the two elder brothers' complaints and complaints against him were irreconcilable. They will never forget that their mother died of overwork and heartbreak because of him.

The eldest brother completely ignored the dissuasion of the sister-in-law and sister, and beckoned the second brother to smash the bed for him, and even threw his luggage on the street. In the end, the two brothers threw him a hundred yuan and told him to quickly roll up the cover and leave, leaving to fend for himself.

Not counting these, the thing that hurt his self-esteem the most was that when many neighbors were watching, the two brothers actually scolded him in public for disobedience.

Is he a disobedient? Is this the words of his brothers, or the words of his deceased mother?

Isn't it tantamount to revealing the secret of his mother's death because of him?

He was ashamed of himself, as if he had been stripped naked, and he couldn't help but have a conflict that wanted to destroy everything.

If you really want to make a move, it's not him who ties the two brothers together. But he ...... No.

He was truly ashamed of his deceased parents!

In the end, he didn't make any noise or noise, but silently picked up the money from the ground and chose to leave.

Before leaving, the eldest brother put down the cruel words again, "From now on, you have nothing to do with us and this family." Never come back. ”

His heart was full of bitterness. In the contemptuous eyes of the neighbors, in the sobbing cries of his sister, he left silently, completely becoming a lost dog.

But without a home, where can he go?

There is simply nowhere to go.

At this time, society is making a "strike hard" campaign. The "buddies" he knew, except for those who "stuck to the wall" (black words, shot) and those who "ran away", the rest went into the "circle". Now there is only a bunch of "cubs" outside, half-mixed and blind. Even if he is "ruined", he can't go to those little characters and fool around with the broken people he has supported.

Filled with a whole bottle of Erguotou, he wandered aimlessly and like a walking corpse on the street. He bumped into many pedestrians, and everywhere he went, he would be scolded by others.

Some people often say the word "sense of loss", and this is what he feels at this time, like falling from a very high mountain, and the feeling of not falling in mid-air.

Originally, he didn't expect the two brothers to be so enthusiastic about him, he just hoped that they could remember the brotherhood, give him a small bed, and take care of a meal. But the eldest brother and the second brother seemed to be afraid of getting into the evil smell of him, and on the day of the family reunion, they gave him such a big gift as losing his personality and sweeping the floor.

No, not even a home. He had nothing but the experience of going to prison. When people get to this point, they really want to find a crack in the ground to get into.

I don't know how far he walked, until it was dark, he looked up into the distance, and suddenly saw high-rise buildings in the distance.

At this moment, he suddenly felt that the world would always be so unequal. The "ten-year movement" has long passed, and he is no longer a "son of a bitch". But fate still doomed him to not be a human being and a normal person all his life. In a blink of an eye, he also remembered once again the truth that he learned in his career as a master - if you can't be an adult, you should be a wolf and a bad wolf, but you must not be a cow or a horse, a pig or a sheep.

Well, since he can't be a man, then he will be a wolf. He had to survive, yes, survive!

The unwillingness and rebellion of nature made him rather challenge fate.

The end of the road made only a trace of warmth in his heart replaced by resentment.

Under the reflection of the street lamp, a vicious wolf was born again. His face was hideous, his eyes were red, and his eyes burned with arrogance and indignation. His only thought is to retaliate for the unfair encounter with unfair means. If during the "movement" his illegal behavior was still passive and ignorant, this time, he became a professional criminal purely actively, insanely, and without scruples.

However, when a person intentionally commits a crime, it is often not easy to be punished by the law. Because he has a plan, is prepared, and even has an umbrella. And once a person is so bad that others can't feel it, and even gets praise for it, then he is a human being.

Many years later, he surprised everyone and became a celebrity. Moreover, when Xinjing Group won the bid for the renovation project of Caishikou Street, because Furuli was also included in the scope of demolition, he got the opportunity to retaliate.

He relied on the connections of the Demolition and Relocation Office and the Land Bureau, and used forged documents to sue his two brothers for embezzlement of their parents' estate. After winning the lawsuit, he not only legally took possession of most of his parents' real estate rights, but also used forced demolition to drive out the eldest brother and the second brother's entire family. And after this incident, the three brothers completely dissolved their kinship through the law. At this time, his only relative is his best sister. But he never thought that even this only remaining family affection would not last long.

Two years later, the Land Bureau and the Mining Bureau were merged to form the Land and Resources Bureau. Gao Ming got into big trouble because of bribing the new officials of the Land Bureau. As a result, the case stirred up conflicts of interest at the top, and the "big guys" were reluctant to help in order to clear up. Gao Ming was in a hurry, and actually put most of the responsibility on him, and he realized the disadvantages of being a legal person at this time.

In order not to be a victim, he was really anxious and had to do everything to save himself. After using all his skills, he finally found a way. Director Xiao of the 19th Division of the Municipal Bureau (later the Economic Crime Investigation Corps) was his sister's classmate and pursued his sister back then. So, under the banner of his sister, he secretly came to the door and begged Director Xiao to let him go.

To his surprise, Director Xiao unexpectedly agreed to help dredge it. is just a condition, in addition to the benefit fee of 20 million, he also wants his sister, who is married and has children, to sleep with him for one night. When he heard it, he changed color, but Director Xiao said bluntly that his feelings for his sister have not changed so far, and it has become the most unforgettable regret in his heart, so this article is absolutely not negotiable.

After he went back, he didn't close his eyes all night, smoked three boxes of cigarettes, and lost a lot of weight.

At first, he wanted to break the can, and planned to simply kill Gao Ming and Director Xiao, and break the net. But as he gradually calmed down, he realized that the good days had passed for a long time, and he was no longer the outlaw of the past.

Next, he thought that it would be better to simply run away. But most of the company's funds are bet on the project, how much can he take away?

Thinking about it, he really felt sorry for this family business. So, while his brother-in-law was taking the child back to his hometown, he quietly touched his sister's door.

What is money? Money is a bastard who degenerates, buries inhumanity, and loses his mind. Money made him stupid, he didn't know how to cherish, and he lost his normal emotions. He loves money too much, so on the balance between his sister and money, he eventually fell to money.

In order for his sister to agree to this disgusting request, he knelt straight in front of her.

My sister was stunned by his earth-shattering kneeling, and even more dizzy on the spot by this once-in-a-lifetime persecution scene. When she sobered up, the first thing she said was to ask in despair, "Are you still my third brother?"

He knocked his head on the ground, not daring to look up.

"People, why is your heart so bad! People, how can you be so good at cheating people! People, you have no shame, no conscience! No matter how good you are to him, it will be useless for you to jump into the fire pit in the end! People, you have no conscience......

My sister muttered words that could only be said when her heart was broken, and she turned from sobbing to howling, and from crying to smirking. I talked all night, cried all night, laughed all night.

He didn't interrupt his sister, but he couldn't get on his knees. And slammed his head on the ground, and with a single blow, blood stained the ground.

My sister was eventually forced to agree.

A few days later, when he sent his sister to the hotel where Director Xiao had booked a room. When she parted in the lobby, her sister's face was only indifferent.

With despair and exhaustion, she told him that she had nothing more to worry about. After this incident, she was no longer able to help him. It's sad to meet, and it's better not to see each other from now on, and don't contact again.

His sister's whispering voice was unusually calm and soft, and it made his heart itch and tingle. He couldn't help but shudder as he watched his sister's back disappear into the elevator in the lobby.

The case was eventually covered up, and he saved everything. But my sister has changed her phone number since that day and can no longer be contacted. He was dumbfounded.

And it doesn't end there. What he didn't expect was that Director Xiao continued to harass and entangle his sister after that, and was finally discovered by his brother-in-law. The brother-in-law soon divorced his sister and took the child with him. And the sister who was deeply hit went insane and fell to her death.

The last time he saw his sister in the morgue was a smashed corpse......

Hong Yanwu suddenly woke up from his trance. His lips trembled and tears flowed down his face.

He was deeply amazed by all the memories he had. He's a sinner through and through!

It has been said that people who have not cried in the middle of the night are not enough to talk about life. What about his life? How can he speak to others?

People, do not let down your loved ones at any time. Otherwise he will regret it for the rest of his life, unless he is not human at all.