Cutting self-definition, it's easy to say. Anyone can say that I am false, that this world is not real, that everything is that awareness.

Anyone can talk about it, and using the "ego" can also explain it quite thoroughly, which sounds super reasonable.

But if someone scolds a fool, the "ego" will instantly start to rebel.

So, did you kill your self-definition, you only need a few words of scolding from others to know?

No, since you know this situation, it is very likely that you will wait for others to abuse you with the attitude of watching a play.

What to do?

Let go of all hope?

It's easy to say, but it's not easy to make people completely hopeless. In the past 20 years, the education I have received has always been to make me brave, strong, and not to give up easily.

It seems that deep down, there will always be a voice telling yourself that everything will be okay and everything will be full of hope. Like the night before dawn, you will see the light after all.

Letting go of all hopes, for Yuan Changwen, it is almost impossible. At any time, he would tell himself that there was hope.

It's human nature to look forward to a better future, isn't it?

It's like the fear of death.

Even the poorest people use their imagination to put themselves in hope. No matter how desperate a person is, there will always be a glimmer of hope in his heart.

Otherwise, the desperate would have committed suicide long ago.

And time is also magical, once a desperate person attempts suicide, then over time, the power of hope will gradually increase.

When Yuan Changwen thought of this, he felt uncomfortable in his heart.

What are you doing?

This question has been asked countless times, and what do you really want, and what do you do right?

Whenever this time, what Yuan Changwen hopes for the most is to have a teacher who can clearly tell him whether he is right or wrong, and can guide him on how to move forward.

However, when the inner discomfort dissipated and he gained temporary clarity, Yuan Changwen thought that all the teachers were delaying the students, and there was no other way to do this than on his own.

It is said that he wants to get rid of the pull of emotions, but since he began to pursue the truth, the alternation of emotions is obviously much faster than before, and even the intensity of emotions seems to have increased a lot.

The only difference is that Yuan Changwen is no longer pulled by emotions and makes up stories, just letting emotions collide in his body.

Who knows if it's the right way to do it?

At this time, a faint feeling of discomfort hit, slowly enveloping Yuan Changwen.

There is hope and there is disappointment, this is two sides of the same coin, and you can never choose only one side of the coin.

Who has ever seen a coin with only one side? I can't even imagine it.

Therefore, letting go of all hope is also the only way to get rid of disappointment.

Yuan Changwen suddenly had some doubts, did he really hate falsehood at the beginning, so he embarked on this path of pursuing truth?

Could it be because he is a loser, so he wants to find another way to prove his success?

"Look, I'm a real person, you're all scum. ”

"This road is more difficult than you can imagine, even if you are the richest man in the world, you are just a child in front of me. ”

"I want to find the truth, I want to be different. ”

"Behold, I have found the truth, and I have escaped the falsehood, and you are still struggling in the falsehood. ”

That's why these thoughts lead to myself, and I can't let go of all hope. Always looking forward to the future and putting the "self" in a position where you can show off infinitely.

Then, you are still deceived by the devil.

This is a fact, and I have to be honest, if I selectively ignore it, then I will not be able to kill this content.

I never thought that honesty was such a difficult thing, that it was too easy to deny, and that demons and "egos" would be happy to help deny it.

Deny "I am that stupid background", deny "life is meaningless", and deny that "everything I have is not important".

So, I'm going to deny what I'm denying.

Don't want to run!

Yuan Changwen suddenly found that the thoughts in his head were slipping away, and he seemed unwilling to focus his thinking on honesty.

Can't run away!

Still want to divert attention?!

Yuan Changwen found that he was really ridiculous, and just now he was fantasizing that he had won the heart of Dr. Keiko.

Oh my God, in order not to be honest, you have worked so hard, and you should be awarded the title of the best model worker.

Bah!

Lao Tzu embarked on this path for the sake of vanity!

I still think in my heart that after the end, I will become a human being, because I have already attained the truth.

That's probably the problem.

Killing the definition of self-weaving, the previous self seems to have been going on painlessly, and has never touched the core content of himself.

It seems that there is no place to step on the next step, but in fact, it is just that I am unwilling to take a step. The next step has always been there, which is to kill the self-definition, the definition that I thought was mine.

Kill Yuan Changwen!

What would happen to someone now who sneered at this path of their own and called themselves stupid?

is obviously angry, and then wants to defend himself in order to prove that he is right, expressing that the other party is wrong and then gaining the recognition and admiration of the other party.

This is the pattern of your own behavior, can't you see it?

Fearful of the future, and then denying those fears, you begin to fantasize about a better future. Or make a choice in fear.

This is your own thinking pattern, can't you see it?

[Yuan Changwen, you should be damned! If it weren't for your existence, how could I still have hope? It is because of your existence that I will bear the pull of emotions!]

Nausea, irritability, and hatred of yourself.

It is he who blocks his awakening, and he who makes himself the source of emotional pulling.

Yuan Changwen himself is a false existence, why can't he be killed?

All the recognitions, all the elements that make up Yuan Changwen as a person, should be killed!

Before, I felt as if I was done and there was nothing to talk about, but now it seems that the situation is the opposite.

Everything that makes Yuan Changwen Yuan Changwen Yuan Changwen needs to be killed.

But who is killing? Yuan Changwen.

Therefore, in the face of the suicide mission, Yuan Changwen will obviously hesitate to dodge, and even keep going around in circles.

Use the way of distraction, the satisfaction of vanity, and the form of negation, to let this suicide mission drag on indefinitely.

If you don't react, then the procrastination is likely to drag you back into your life. It's like getting up in the morning and almost being persuaded to keep trying to earn money.

Huh, the discomfort dissipated, and disappeared without me noticing.

But so what?

Die, Yuan Changwen, you should die!