I'm still holding on to what I call life.

What's there to hold onto? What's not worth letting go? The unreal doesn't exist, don't I know that?

I should have slammed the crystal ball in my hand to the ground so that it shattered so that it could never be recovered.

Yuan Changwen sat by the lake, clutching the dirt in his hands, imagining that it was his life, and then waved it away.

It is necessary to move forward, I am not done yet, further.

If I don't know if memories are real, why should I follow them? Even if memories are real, they're just a piece of twisted shit, so what's there to follow?

Framed in the limited cognition in my mind, imagining the future, and biased towards the role of Yuan Changwen, this is my view of the future. And, of course, the fear of skipping the middle process and going straight to the end.

It's just a twist, why can you manipulate me so recklessly?

Didn't I know these things? Didn't they already know many chapters ago?

Damn it!

Am I not moving forward, or am I slowly slashing?

I don't know, I don't know at all. Perhaps, there will be no way out of this road in this life, and from now on, no one will remember the role of Yuan Changwen. I don't have friends, my family doesn't know which star to get, and I'm alone here to think about the truth.

Then, die.

There are no rules, I have to be fruitful if I try so hard to kill. Isn't it possible that there are no results, no benefits, just a waste of time?

Perhaps, something happened suddenly and I died, and I never needed to be killed again, which is also very possible.

Nobody says that a story has to have a happy ending, it's just that I think this way, and if a story doesn't fit that philosophy, then I think it's rubbish.

Again, if reality doesn't fit my self-definition, then I think there's something wrong with it. However, reality is not like a story, which can be spit on by me. The strength of reality makes me unable to rise to the slightest sense of resistance, and even if I resist, it is just climbing up according to the rules of reality.

I never thought about destroying the Empire.

As long as I have self-definition in my head for a day, then I will not have peace for a day. Because what I see is not the outside world at all, but the self-definition in my head.

Wrong!

I use the label "self-definition" to protect, and every time I talk about something specific, I use the word "self-definition" to refer to it, which does not hurt the root of the character at all. It's like using the word "table" to avoid finding yourself unaware that you don't even know what it is.

I am always reluctant to ruin my current life, and it seems that the reason is that I don't want to make my family sad. But I know that it's just that I'm afraid, and I'm afraid that I'm going to ruin my life with my own hands, and I'm overwhelmed.

It's just that I'm at a loss and don't know what to do, just imagining the life after ruining my life, which is completely beyond the cognition in the character's mind, and I can't imagine it at all, because there is no information that can be referenced.

The character wants to be in control, even if I'm here alone now, but the character knows that at least tomorrow there won't be anything unusual, and he will be here to kill the character all the time. But if I ruin my life now, then no one knows what will happen next, and that's where the fear comes from.

The character does not exist, the fear of "selflessness", all the character attributes are based on the current life, once the current life is destroyed, then the character does not know what to do with it at all. Chances are, the character will be built from scratch and a whole new character will be formed quickly.

The character doesn't care about the character itself at all, and it can't see itself, but an instinct to survive makes it infinite fullness, so as to stay away from the reality of "selflessness".

Is family real?

The character of Yuan Changwen is not real, and the family has no reason to be real at all. How do I know that my family is not an illusion? How do I know that my family is not an artificial intelligence that can make the same expressions as a human being?

How do I know that this is true in their hearts, and not just a program?

Besides, the family I saw had nothing to do with the family itself, it was all virtual data in my head. It's all my family, and I can only talk to my own imagination.

In other words, I set my own "I must protect my family", "I must treat my family as the softness of my heart", "I must be filial", and so on, and then I matched the imaginary data of my family, so I formed the family attributes of the character.

Even if my mother was really standing in front of me, what I saw and talked to was still the virtual data in my head.

It seems that there is indeed an old mother there, who did say these things and did these things, and it seems that it is not my imagination at all, but there is really an old mother.

It's an elaborate hoax.

It seems that if there is no real mother who is nagging there, how can I be aware of my mother's nagging? It seems that there is an object that is real there to be perceived by me.

However, apart from the phrase "I am aware", I am not sure of the truth of what I am aware of.

The character will always choose the simplest and easiest to understand theory, and only in this way can it be convenient for the character to understand the world, and will he appear to be more knowledgeable, rather than ignorant except "I exist".

If you can't be sure, why should you grasp these concerns and concerns for your family and take them as real?

All limitations are unreal, all false, and all non-existent.

These concerns and concerns for the family, define the role of Yuan Changwen, and something must be done that meets these definitions. Otherwise, uncomfortable emotions will arise. For example, working overtime and not being able to go home for Chinese New Year's Eve, such as leaving home for a career.

does not agree with this self-definition, does not recognize that he must care and care for his family, and does not recognize the true existence of Yuan Changwen's character. After all, I'm not real, so what else is there to say?

Really, the character of Yuan Changwen is not real, why do you want to grab the bullshit stuff that defines other characters?

I'm not real, so what I believe is even less real. Why do you have to discuss other self-definitions in detail, just cut it off!

Since I am not real, then my opinion, my opinion, my persistence, my philosophy, my cognition, my family, my life...... Damn, everything I know is wrong.

Yuan Changwen found that he had walked back again. I really didn't expect that the teacher's words when he was dying were still guiding me. Or rather, I was still being guided, even though I thought I was killing in my own way, in fact, I didn't escape the frame.

No one can escape this framework, and if you want to kill, you have to discard the character. And to discard a character means to discard everything. After all, everything is the foundation that makes up a character.

It's a very relaxing realization.