Yuan Changwen had no idea what he was supposed to do.

That's right, I'm not done yet, so go ahead.

However, there is nothing to say at all, and I feel that I can kill myself has been killed.

However, the reality clearly says that he still has something to kill, so he has not finished it.

So, what are you still grasping for? What else do you think is true? Perhaps, saying "I exist" can't kill the whole of the character, and you still need your own efforts.

Find the unreal, illuminate it, and slash.

I'm anxious because I'm still scared of life. Tsk, sure enough, after the epiphany, there is still a way to move on, otherwise it is just a dream. You can say it with your mouth, you can say any word or truth with your mouth.

But has there been a change in real life? That's the key point, "don't be afraid of life," these five words are all said. However, the person who can speak does not mean that he is not afraid of life.

I had to be very careful not to let "slash character" become a new self-definition and become, my role is "slash character" or something.

keeps confronting reality, obviously it has happened, but the characters still don't care, fantasizing about it or weaving fear. Characters cannot survive in the present moment, because then all self-definitions of the past and the future will disappear.

That's how I am at the moment, so it's good to admit it. But the character won't admit it, forcing me to think about the past or the future, forcing me to set a character to exist and shine in the past or future.

It's really annoying to be played with by the characters!

Forcing me to be afraid of life, forcing me to believe those distorted views and opinions, I still think it's okay?

These things are in my head, and they are going around and around. Haven't you had enough? Is it really so humble that even being deceived is a joy?

Why work hard for the character? Why not tear off the disgusting character and discard those false self-definitions?

Because I'm a coward.

In an instant, Yuan Changwen's previous ease completely disappeared and was completely gone. His heart was full of unwillingness and hatred, but he was too timid to kill. Just like the younger brother facing the eldest brother, even if it is just a phone call from the eldest brother, he will subconsciously stand up or laugh.

Life doesn't need me to understand anything at all, and something doesn't mean anything to make sense for me. I've learned so much that the only thing I need to understand now is, "What I understood before was shit." ”

Life doesn't teach me anything, anything I claim to have learned from life, it's a distortion. To claim to understand something from an incident is also a distortion.

For example, my ex-girlfriend was in love with vanity, and finally one day I couldn't stand it anymore, and when I broke up, I found that I only had 100,000 yuan left in my savings. So I said to myself, this incident has taught me how wrong it is to find a girlfriend who loves vanity.

However, later, due to his own pain, he threw out all the 100,000 yuan, and as a result, he earned 700,000 yuan in two years, and nearly 10 million yuan in five years. Then, I found a girlfriend who was more fond of vanity to satisfy my vanity.

Who knows what the reason is? Everything happens for a reason, but I don't necessarily know that reason. Not to mention any kind of God who is merciful, everything is like love. If it's just love, then it's just a limiting element.

I always like to summarize the rules from things, I always like to find meaning in events, I refuse to admit that life is meaningless, and I refuse to believe that the character is not me at all. Whenever it happens, I have to judge and express my opinion.

Aren't you tired?

How did I concoct an almost infinite meaning in my limited cognition?

Like the report of every empire, you can always hear different words, and you can always see some of the most historical initiatives. Think about it, how many of the best in history have you seen?

Why do you want to kill? I can't figure it out in my head, and in fact, I don't understand why I want to kill it. It doesn't matter, you don't need to understand the reason at all to get to this point.

Only the character will like the reason, like the analysis, like to weigh the benefits, because this can make the character more fleshed out. When I identify with the self-definition of those interests, I recognize the existence of roles.

Wrong!

Did I start killing because I was running away from life? Am I unwilling to bear the responsibilities of the empire and the burden of my family, so I chose to kill them?

At that time, my emotions were very wrong, and I suffered setbacks one after another, not only in my cultivation, but also in my family, money, and so on. Earlier, it was difficult for me to get angry, and I taught my disciples to talk eloquently.

And in the face of various setbacks, I was held by fear and did not dare to move. Even though he knew that this was only temporary, with the title of the first person in the empire, no matter how great the difficulty was, there was only a limit. In other words, no matter how great the difficulty is, it is only an obstacle to the family's rise, and it will not become the cause of the family's decline.

At that time, I completely lost my former demeanor, elegance, indifference, etc., and became irritable, although I disguised myself well. Later, I decided to find the truth, or rather, I decided to kill all the unreal.

In the beginning, I just followed the teacher's teachings. But now, I see the falsehood with my own eyes, I feel the manipulation of the characters over me, and I realize that I am powerless to resist self-definition. No one could dissuade me from stopping, and I didn't want to.

When I was just relaxed, I thought about stopping, after all, I felt almost the same as I had come now, and I didn't necessarily have to reach the top of the mountain. As a result, it didn't take long for that sense of ease to disappear.

I haven't gotten rid of the role yet, which means I'm still being distracted by the role. Even if it's easy, it's only short-lived. Even if this ease is extended and extended through practice, it still hasn't gotten rid of the role after all.

Killing the character is the fundamental solution.

Everything I thought was real wasn't real, but I just didn't let go. It's maddening! It feels like the line has been drawn between "I exist" on one side and everything else on the other. However, I still haven't done it.

Not only is it not completed, but it contributes to the fullness of the character in many cases. For example, fantasies are cool, such as always willing to express opinions, such as always like to point out others. Although it's in the field that I'm good at, it's still a plump role.

Fortunately, he left the family, otherwise according to his state, he might destroy the family. Moreover, if you don't pay attention to the trivial matters of the family with your own eyes, you probably can't do it.

I don't regret the current state at all, if I were God and wanted to advance a certain character to this state, everything would be perfect now.

I can't think of anything that needs to change.