The short period of clarity is really comforting.

Perhaps because the fear has just left, this clarity is like a breeze blowing through the heat, so obvious and comfortable. If there was no fear of the previous oppression, this period of clarity might not be so comfortable.

In other words, should I be thankful for fear?

After Yuan Changwen graduated, it seems that there are few times when he is clear and relaxed, and even when he travels, there seems to be a "self" as background noise.

The so-called stunning scenery is simply due to its uncommon appearance. Moreover, Yuan Changwen is always crowded, as if everyone says that this scenery is good, and he must go there.

Body and soul must have one on the way, phew!

Who said that? With my permission?

Why should I agree, but also be afraid of being despised, as if I don't travel in a city for the rest of my life, it is a waste of life.

The world is so big, why don't you go and see it. However, do you think about this idea yourself, or do you look at others walking around the world, envy yourself, and then want others to envy you?

The hesitation is not at all between the fear of quitting and the desire to travel the world, but between the loss of work and the vanity.

Which is stronger than the contempt for losing a job for the sake of vanity?

If you really want to see the world, you won't hesitate at all, and you won't care about other people's eyes. Do you need to hesitate to choose a choice that you like?

On the other hand, the beauty shocks these things, and it is more or less to keep them the same as everyone. Speaking of uncommon, it's hard to notice the corners of the house, and the view is not bad.

The thread at the end of the curtain, the dirt in the flower pot, the swimming of small fish, the texture of chopsticks, the gap in the floor...... Who would dare to say that these things are common on their own?

No one pays attention to these parts, even if they look closely, they are a sight. No one will post these parts on Moments, they will only be despised.

Traveling is relieving and broadens one's horizons from being angry and irritated about a little thing.) Looking at nature, there is always a baptism of freshness and tranquility. ）

[Then why don't you stay there all the time?]

(Everyone has a job, a mortgage, and parents.) ）

[In other words, work is more important than beautiful scenery, and the thing that annoys you is more important than the comfort that travel brings.] In that case, why do you even tout travel so much? Just tout about work, work is more important anyway, money is more important. 】

[Speaking of which, travel still satisfies his vanity and allows him to show off everywhere. If it's really about traveling, then why go back to worrying about work? Isn't that a contradiction?

[It's like everyone is eating, and one day they ate ice cream themselves, why do you want to go back and eat?] I can't think of any other meaning to make such a ridiculous decision than bragging to the person who eats. 】

(Fart!Everyone goes back to work, you want to make money!If you don't make money, where can you have the money to travel?)

[In other words, making money is more important than the comfort of travel.] It's good to admit it directly, why bother to whitewash travel, as if travel is much more important than money, and you care so much about money, why should you dismiss it in words?]

It's because it's easy to have no friends, everyone despises money, and if you worship money, then it's easy to be despised by everyone. So, even if you like money very much, you should pretend that money is not an important thing in life. 】

[If it's really for the scenery, really for the comfort of the scenery, you can wash dishes locally or something.] It's a pity that self-esteem doesn't allow. Hmph, is this kind of self-esteem self-esteem?

Yes, I never seem to dare to admit that I love money, and the more the better.

I obviously think like this, but I don't dare to admit it, let alone express it with actions. You can only show your love for money in jokes.

It seems that friends are more important, but I know that once I have a lot of money, my friends don't have to care about anything.

It seems that love is more important, but I know better than anyone that once the money reaches a certain amount, the so-called love is just an embellishment of parting.

It seems that family affection is more important, but there are too few family properties to compete for, and it is not worth turning over.

When did you have such a pathological emotion for money?

It's normal for a person to love something. But I don't dare to say it, I can only suppress it in my heart, this is pathology.

If you love money, just say it out loud, and match your words with your deeds, right?

Is this what is called the Broken Dan Path?

No longer be wrapped up in social trends, no longer held hostage by the eyes of others. I did this because I wanted to do it, regardless of your moral values.

Thinking of this, Yuan Changwen suddenly felt much more relaxed, as if the shackles on his body had been broken, and there was no concept in this world that could stop me.

However, this is still in the category of "self", I still identify with a certain self-definition, and I still have a sense of belonging.

I am a person who "does not care about social morality, but has my own moral concept and puts it into action".

This is still a self-woven definition, and it also needs to be killed.

Yuan Changwen was unwilling to continue, he finally got a temporary clarity, and he was going to start killing again, and he had to deprive himself of his ease.

The only thing that can comfort me is that the ease is not permanent, but only the feeling of relief after a short period of figuring it out. As long as you kill the definition of self-weaving, then you will be able to be relaxed forever.

(How to know for sure?) I can't be sure, the so-called eternal ease is just speculation.) ）

[Yes, it's speculation, but so what.] Constant ease is just an incidental thing, and I'm not trying to kill my self-definition for the sake of ease. Truth is my own pursuit. 】

[Removing all untruthfulness is what you have to do. Is it true that he is just replacing the messy ideas in his mind with his own moral concepts. It's still unreal, and it still needs to be killed. 】

Further!

God, how many times did this word appear, and how many times did it save Yuan Changwen!

No matter how beautiful the scenery is on the way to the top of the mountain, this word can tell Yuan Changwen that the goal is the top of the mountain, and everything else is a demon.

No matter how the battle went, this word could also remind Yuan Changwen that the war was not over yet, and he should rise up and continue to fight.

Why has no one ever said that the path to enlightenment is such a painful path? Buddha talked about compassion and Jesus talked about love, did he go wrong?

Is this emotional slaughter, this path almost full of negativity, really a path to awakening?

However, these are all unreal, and if we don't get rid of them, how can we grasp the truth?

I'm not wrong, this path is not wrong.

Even if it's wrong, that's right!

Yuan Changwen's sense of lightness disappeared, replaced by a heaviness, somehow heaviness.