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Just let it all drift away with the wind.

As for what is left of you after you drift away, it doesn't matter if you will be alive or not.

The character of Yuan Changwen is destined to die, what am I still hesitating about? Add fire and burn the character, this is what I should do.

There is still worry flowing in my heart, very subtle, but also obvious.

Suddenly I felt as if I didn't exist in this world at all, and I couldn't be sure of anything at all. Like, sleeping. How do I know I'm asleep? How do I know that sleep really replenishes energy and relieves fatigue?

A game character, did he really sleep, although he could claim that he was tired before he went to bed, but he was in good spirits after sleeping. But just by doing that, can I be sure I'm really sleeping?

Of course, you don't have to care, you can continue to live in ignorance. But I don't want to, I don't know, I should have an attitude of not knowing. Let me see what happens when you kill the falsehood.

What is false is false, and the character of Yuan Changwen is not real, and he will eventually die and dissipate. Because the unreal doesn't exist, but I don't know why, I always focus my attention on it. But it's just a diversion, and it takes constant attention to survive.

You see, my current ability to slash will make the characters lose a lot. Those people and things in their minds are gradually fading. I don't allow anything to continue to be presumptuous, and I don't trust the twists in my head anymore.

For so many years, I have been constantly exercising my brain, believing that my brain will rust if I don't use it, and believing that my brain is the only thing I can trust. It is precisely this trust that allows the whole life to be manipulated by fear.

Looking back, I was also very smooth. At that time, I rarely thought about it so much, but given my identity, there were few things that scared me. But this is only a superficial phenomenon, and those thoughts that cling to the mind and weigh them with the distortions in the mind will always feel suffocating.

In the past, sometimes I would live according to my heartbeat, and sometimes I wouldn't. However, memory is unreliable, I just remember that I was not harassed by fear, but in fact I have no way of knowing how.

When the sense of unreality hits, I start tossing and turning. At this time, I will find that I think I am light and light, but in fact, the people and things in my mind firmly grasp me. Fortunately, the former self seems to be in a state of surrender, albeit to a low degree, but there will still be good luck with it.

After leaving the Empire, fear grew. Looking back now, that fear is the fear of "no role". Although it manifests itself as a fear of the future, a fear of leaving the familiar environment, a fear of the uprooting of the family, and a fear that you will not be able to practice at all.

But the deepest part is the fear of "selflessness" and the fear of "not having the role of Yuan Changwen".

After being caught by fear, he lost his former idleness and his grace as the first man of the empire. At that time, I did not see the face of fear clearly, but firmly grasped the illusion of "meaning", and always believed that what hard work will be rewarded, and what life is to struggle and so on.

It was a dark time for me, because I was enslaved by fear, I left the empire again, and there was no familiar environment but the fear of the unknown. Thus, always trying to grab something. Often, a small thing that doesn't go well can cause a lot of anger.

Then, I will adjust my breathing again, wanting to return to the elegance of the past. Maybe I didn't realize it, but at that time, even if I adjusted my breathing, even if it was the so-called same, there was a layer of fear still slowly flowing in the depths. It's just that he chose to turn a blind eye.

The so-called luck refers to the fact that I have encountered that state of surrender, and I seem to have stayed in some kind of surrender for a long time. Although I really don't need to worry about anything because of my status, I am in much better shape than my colleagues in the same position.

It's called luck, I know that state, I know that's what life really should be. Although the killing at this moment is very meaningless, it is precisely the knowledge that has stayed in that state of surrender for several years, which makes me unable to accept the attack of fear in its entirety.

From this point of view, those who are enslaved by fear and still believe in the twisted mind, and those who are manipulated by fear but still actively strive for progress, are the real braves. I couldn't bear that fear, so it didn't take long for me to collapse after I left the Empire.

And it just so happened that the words of the teacher and the books of the predecessors happened to appear at that time. So, the vigorous killing action, the kind of suicide that didn't care about anything, began to unfold in my mind.

If there were no smooth sailing in those years, there was no need to worry about anything at all in those years, and the wishes of those years would always be fulfilled. It's not that any wish will be fulfilled, but that the heart-pounding desire will always find the right thing at the right time.

Maybe it's based on your own identity, maybe it's the environment of the platform, or maybe there are many reasons. But to sum it up, this is what you call lucky. If there had not been some degree of surrender in those years, then I would have had to face my fears in the same way that everyone has always used, to be strong.

Over the years, the word "strong" has been preached and encouraged. Seemingly, this is a good quality. But I want to thank myself for not being strong, and I am also grateful for the luck I was able to understand that this method of fighting fear is not the way life should be.

Perhaps, he is destined to be killed.

Perhaps, he is destined to become a legendary being.

Perhaps, I am destined to leave these words so that someone who is in the same situation as me used to be able to refer to them. Or, the last straw that crushed him.

Yuan Changwen smiled, he was really getting more and more arrogant. But when you think about it, it seems that you don't have any reason to be afraid, let alone to be afraid of life.

Looking back now, many of the so-called realizations were already possessed by the former self. It's just that after leaving the empire, fear makes you forget these things, or fear makes you unable to believe these realizations.

There is only one thing that kills me.

The world is not real.

Yuan Changwen found that the discomfort had disappeared. Think about the past, I also stood at a relatively high height, although I was still in ignorance, but I was what people call sunshine and positivity, that is, the so-called kindness and benevolence.

I encourage others, I tell others not to be afraid, and I encourage others to pursue their dreams. All in all, a person full of positive energy.

Perhaps, this is the meaning of life.

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