In the early winter dusk, the orange-red sunlight shines through the ventilation windows in the corridor and the iron fence at the top of the door of Room 403, quietly shining on the two girls hugging each other, and the two of them have the same soft black hair, reflecting a soft luster in the sunset.

"Uh...... Don't laugh at me, okay, although I am wearing such a skin, don't you know what is in my bones? I will never have any super friendship feelings with a man, let alone get married!" Xiao Nan smiled wryly. "From the moment I transformed, I had the consciousness of celibacy for the rest of my life. ”

"That's good, if you don't marry, I won't marry, it's still ...... two of us together" Xiao Ting put her head on Xiao Nan's shoulder, and said softly to Xiao Nan's ear, a soft breath gently blew the soft silk in Xiao Nan's ear, feeling a little itchy.

"Xiaoting, you are different from me! You are originally a girl...... Besides, your parents won't tolerate us being together, they will definitely ......"

"I know......" Xiao Ting still hugged Xiao Nan tightly, changed her posture and put her chin on Xiao Nan's shoulder, and said lightly: "Then drag it out, while we are still young, how can we delay it for another six or seven years, and when it really can't be delayed anymore, I will find a man who looks quite pleasing to the eye and marry me, so that my parents will have nothing to say......"

Xiaoting's tone was so relaxed, as if she was talking about someone else's future. But to Xiao Nan's ears, her words were like a hammer hitting her heart.

"Wake up, Xiao Ting! You can't treat your life so lightly!" Xiao Nan was a little angry, she grabbed Xiao Ting's shoulders and glared at Xiao Ting's eyes viciously with her own eyes, and said very harshly: "This is your life, and it is the most beautiful and precious life of a girl, once the time has passed, you will never come back! Could it be that I fought so hard to end up like this, just to let you marry a man you don't like at all when you are no longer young, and then spend the rest of your long life with him?

"Then you say, what should my life look like?" Xiaoting asked rhetorically.

Xiao Nan was speechless for a while. "Anyway...... Anyway, it shouldn't be what you just said......"

"Xiao Nan, from the moment you decided to sacrifice yourself to heal me, everything was already doomed. Hearts are made of flesh, and I can't forget our past, just as you can't forget that you were a boy. I can't leave you alone and fall in love and marry by myself. ”

"But, what's the point of you guarding me!" Xiao Nan suddenly grabbed Xiao Ting's hands and pressed them on his chest. "This is me now, with the same body as you, that boy named Cheng Xiaonan no longer exists!"

What Xiao Ting's hand touched was a soft and elastic mass of undulations, just like her own, but the size was slightly ...... It's a little smaller.

"Got it?" Xiao Nan said.

"I don't care......" Xiaoting smiled, still insisting on her own attitude. "As long as I know who you are, I don't care about the future or anything......

"You're stupid!" Xiao Nan felt that he was about to run out of words.

"You're stupid! Why didn't you run away quietly when I was lying in the hospital? Why didn't you run away quietly when my parents kicked you out of the ward and threw the bouquet of flowers you gave you through the window? Aren't you stupid when you cling to a paralyzed person who is unconscious below the thoracic spine and is likely to be unable to take care of himself for the rest of his life?"

"That's different!"

"Why is it different?"

"What were you like then...... If I had escaped then, my conscience would have been condemned for the rest of my life, but I'm different, I'm not alive and well now, I should eat, I should sleep, I should play, nothing will affect me, except that my body has changed, everything else is no different from before, and you don't have to carry anything for me......"

"You lie!" Xiao Ting stared at Xiao Nan's eyes tightly: "What do you feel in your heart, don't you know me?" Everything hidden in your heart has long been exposed from your eyes, who do you think you can hide?"

"Perhaps...... Maybe it'll be fine after a while, maybe ......" Because Xiao Nan was afraid that Xiao Ting would see through her true thoughts, her eyes squinted to the side and tried not to look at Xiao Ting. "Maybe it's just that I'm not used to my new identity, maybe I'll be fine after a while......"

"Hmph, then let me ask you, if you adapt to the identity of a girl, will you get married?" Xiao Ting's words always pointed to the point, this sentence blocked Xiao Nan for a long time and couldn't speak, she had to twist her face to the side, not daring to look at Xiao Ting's forced eyes.

"Okay...... Xiao Nan, the two of us have been together for so long, what are you thinking in your heart, how can you hide it from me? I know you are thinking about me, you always put yourself in an inconsequential position......" Xiao Ting's tone gradually softened, she stretched out her hands to hold Xiao Nan's cheeks, turned Xiao Nan's face and forced her to look at her, for a long time, sighed softly, and said, "Remember? You said that you would give me freedom and let me find my new sky...... What I want to say is that my heart has always been free, my freedom does not need to be given by anyone at all, and if I don't like you, nothing can stop me from disappearing from you, and the reason why I want to stay with you is my free will and emotional choice, because you are very important to me. ”

"But......" Xiao Nan just wanted to speak, but was lightly blocked by a finger raised by Xiao Ting.

"Don't be, don't talk now, is it okay to listen to me?" Xiao Ting hugged the back of Xiao Nan's head, let the foreheads of the two people gently press together, and continued to say softly: " I know that your heart is very messed up now, you can't figure out whether you are a boy or a girl, you don't know what your future life will be like, your heart is both confused and helpless, you are now the most in need of someone to accompany you, you need to have someone who understands you and loves you, and can face all kinds of troubles with you, until one day, you can really face your identity and clarify the path of life you want to take in the future...... When that day comes, I will also be like you, give you freedom, let you find a new sky of your own, and I, you don't have to worry, Qiao Yuting is such an excellent girl, don't worry about finding a good man's ......" Xiao Ting easily opened Xiao Nan's neck, and the two looked at each other's eyes. "Until then, let me stay by your side, Xiao Nan, this time, let me guard you, just like you guard me in the hospital......"

Maybe it's because the girl's emotions are more delicate and sensitive, Xiao Ting's words made Xiao Nan's heart ripple, only to feel that the vision in front of her was instantly covered with a layer of fog, her lips moved, but she couldn't say a word again. The only thing Xiao Nan can do now is to hold Xiao Ting in her arms again, let the bodies of the two people snuggle tightly together, and feel each other's body temperature and heartbeat.

Well, since Xiaoting has already decided so, then what else do I have to say, as long as she is happy now...... As for the future, let's go to hell, it's a big deal, when I really encounter something in the future, I just try my best to take everything on myself......

Xiao Nan blinked her eyes vigorously, and the tears that had just come out stuck to her long, curled eyelashes like dewdrops in the grass in the morning. In her clear pupils, the originally melancholy eyes gradually became gentle, even with a hint of pampering.

People are like this, when they encounter some things, they always look ahead, weigh the pros and cons, and hesitate to make up their minds, so their steps are always bound in place, and they can't advance or retreat. Someone always has to push it from the side, and when you stumble and have to take a step, you find that it is not a terrible thing to take a step, so you continue to move forward, and then you will find that the road under your feet is still the one that you have hesitated for a long time......

Just like Xiao Nan now, she has been wandering in the emotional entanglement with Xiao Ting for a while in the past, and her heart is always entangled, one second she just made up her mind to let go, and the next second she couldn't bear it, so she wanted to continue to maintain the relationship between the two, but she was immediately defeated by various realistic considerations...... The repeated entanglement brought Xiao Nan endless pain but couldn't extricate himself.

In fact, the reason why people suffer is only because they are too attached. Xiao Nan loves Xiao Ting, and is reluctant to suffer from gains and losses in this relationship, which is precisely because of Xiao Nan's dedication to love; but it is also because she loves Xiao Ting and loves her, so she hopes that she will be happy, and she is worried that she will not be able to bring her real happiness because of her transformation, so she wants to push Xiao Ting to a man who can give her happiness, isn't this also Xiao Nan's persistence in love? She is persistent because of love, and she is painful because of persistence.

And Xiao Ting's words just now finally forcibly pushed Xiao Nan to take a step on the road of choice, and just one step left behind those painful entanglements and hesitations that made her unbearable. For Xiao Nan, since he has taken this step, there is no reason to turn back.

"Since Xiaoting has chosen this path, let her like it, no matter what she will encounter in the future, even if it is an abyss, no matter how fierce it is, no matter how fierce it is, no matter how fierce it is, I will not regret it, and I will not resent it. I will keep going and face everything I will face alone......" Xiao Nan thought so in her heart, however, just like being able to guess Xiao Nan's thoughts, Xiao Ting gently pushed Xiao Nan away, looked directly into Xiao Nan's eyes with clear eyes, and said to her very seriously: "Now I want you to promise me one thing." ”

"What's the matter?" Xiao Nan asked.

"In the future, if you encounter something very important about the two of us, you can't make your own decisions anymore, no matter what happens in the future, let's face it together, okay?"

Xiao Nan thought for a moment and nodded lightly: "Okay, I can promise you, but you also have to promise me one thing at the same time." ”

"Oh, tell me?"

"What happens to me in the future...... Unforeseen things, you must be kind to yourself, and you must not let yourself suffer a little grievance, okay?"

Xiao Nan felt Xiao Ting's body in her arms tremble obviously, she looked at Xiao Nan with a puzzled, even slightly frightened expression, and asked with some worry: "Xiao Nan, you scared me, what do you mean by this? What is it...... The unforeseen?"

"The unforeseen is ...... I don't know what to expect...... Okay, you promise me, please......" Xiao Nan pouted. Xiao Nan looked several years younger on the surface, and she was a few centimeters lower than Xiao Ting, but she now looked more like a coquettish sister in her sister's arms.

Seeing her like this, Xiaoting felt angry and funny, and the little worry just now was also diluted a lot in the sneer. She pinched Xiao Nan's nose dotingly and said, "Badass...... Well, I promised you......"

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This chapter is a continuation of the previous and the next, that is, those tangled things will not be there for a long time in the future, and the plot flow will be the theme in the future.

After a week of rest, the author began to renew today, during this time I read some novels, enriched myself, and most importantly, I found back the original, the feeling of writing novels purely for the joy of writing, no clicks, no recommendation votes, just to leave a transformation novel that can still be read, I will continue to write until the end of the book, and then push it down from the beginning, write a second time with a big change. The first draft that you see now should be considered my draft.