Yuan Changwen was very uncomfortable, after so many chapters of killing, it seemed that this discomfort had not stopped. That sense of relaxation also appears from time to time, but fortunately with that sense of ease, otherwise I don't know if I can get to this point.

And when I think about removing time, I realize that my efforts are not real, because I don't know if I have experienced any of those hardships. It's like I don't know if my efforts have created the title of the first person in the empire.

So, what reason do I have to think that I have worked hard, what reason do I have to think that I have experienced all those hardships, and why do I regard what I now call achievements as inviolable?

If I don't think that the achievements of the present come from the suffering of the past, then there is no need for me to cling to the glory of the past and not let go. Because, I don't know if my past exists, and no one can be sure what those memories are going on.

It's just that acknowledging the linear passage of time can make life very easy. Or, in other words, it can allow the character to focus elsewhere. For example, working hard to raise children and so on.

On the other hand, whether the character acknowledges the linear passage of time or not, these things are also predetermined. Although I don't know what the future holds, everything that happens is inevitable.

Strictly speaking, the term "necessarily" is not accurate, because it implies the assumption that time passes linearly. My awareness of the past is just a memory in my head, just because "things can only happen this way", just because "this is the way it is".

This is the case with these perceived images. There is no reason, there is no logic, there is no corresponding explanation, there is no such thing as development and evolution.

It seems that this perceived picture is from an earlier picture element, and it seems that the perceived picture elements have their own evolution. But all of these things are the pictorial elements that are perceived at the moment.

That's all.

Just like the ancient book "Tao Te Ching", I can say that it is an outstanding work of the era of the mother planet, and I can also say that it is a text left by a great person of that era. It can also continue to claim the changes of the times, the evolution of literature, the passage of time, and so on.

But in fact, I only became aware of a pictorial element called the Tao Te Ching at this moment, and I was also only aware of words such as "This is a text thousands of years ago, a classic ancient book" and so on.

What reason do I have to think that these pictorial elements that I perceive at this moment represent the reality of the past? When I perceive at this moment, words such as "The Tao Te Ching was written thousands of years ago" can prove that thousands of years have really passed?

Just like the so-called ancient legends in the game, NPCs will think that these things actually happened in the game. In other words, the background information of a certain plot will naturally assume that these things are real, and we will only click on the "next" button such as "continue".

Think about the expressions of those NPCs, the deep hatred of their own blood, the revenge that began from their ancestors. How do I tell NPCs that these things are unreal?

Will the NPC roar and sarcastically, "Look at my father, look at my father who died at the hands of the enemy, look at the world, I've lived here for so many years, is it all false?"

Emotions, I'm an emotional monster.

In the same way, the word fate seems to emphasize the slow passage of time, extending a thing called fate. Once time is removed, fate in the traditional sense ceases to exist.

And here, I just want to describe the visual elements that I am aware of at this moment, those memories of the past in my mind. Everything that has happened, or rather, is aware of the past in the mind at this moment, is fate.

Even though I don't know if the things in my memories actually happened, I always have to find a word to describe them. The limitations of the text are once again vividly reflected. I have never felt the powerlessness of words like at this moment.

Not only that, but Yuan Changwen didn't understand why he had to describe it, in order to let others understand it better, and to teach better in order for himself to return to the empire.

Those so-called insistences suddenly became illogical. It's as if the empire has been preaching the importance of perseverance. On the other hand, when they have lost their way or suddenly come to their senses, they are emphasizing that they should not insist on what they are insisting on now.

So, looking at these things is nonsense in itself.

For example, when I suddenly graduated from university, I wanted to teach in a remote mountainous area. I couldn't sleep at all, thinking about those poor children, thinking that I could pass on what I had learned to them, and thinking that because of my volunteer teaching, I could broaden the horizons of those poor children.

This kind of heart-pounding makes me wake up laughing even when I fall asleep. Those poor children came to school over the mountains, their snotty noses and dirty clothes, but their eyes flashed with a thirst for knowledge. It's great when you think about it, that's life.

But after I tell my roommates about these thoughts, or after I tell my family. Naturally, the brain starts to step in.

"What's the use of volunteering?"

"Can I increase my resume? Our family doesn't matter, and the experience of volunteering will not turn into a real help at all. Also, when you come back from teaching for a few years, you don't have any work experience, what kind of job are you looking for?"

"You're not a teacher, what are you going to do when you come back? What is the use of this experience for you? When you come back, you see that your classmates have entered the management class, or they have started the so-called career upswing, what do you have?

It's good, even if I overcome these so-called cold water and insist on teaching. Half a year later, I realized that this place was not what I thought it was at all. Despite the good and hopeful, I still want to go home and am unwilling to continue teaching.

Then, at this time, I began to hesitate whether to go home and whether to give up teaching.

Because he is a heroic and brave person in the eyes of others, he has the courage to act according to his inner impulses against fear. So, is it too embarrassing to go back in such a disgraced way, and go home like this in half a year?

This is self-definition, self-definition from beginning to end.

I obviously want to go home, but I don't dare to do it because of various self-definitions.

It's funny to think about, but on the other hand, this kind of entanglement and depression is part of fate in itself. It's not that I can do this and that, but I can only do it myself.

In this way, it seems that these emotions are also unimportant.

Because these things have nothing to do with me, just like the behavior of NPCs in the game, it seems that there are many choices, but in fact there are no choices at all. The collision of self-definition and reality, when the reaction is reflected, everything is just memory. ()

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