It's good that feeling of being blocked continues to emerge.

I might have said that it was because I kept moving forward that there was a block. Unfortunately, this is just speculation. What if this block is just going in circles instead of moving forward?

It's like forcibly distorting what you will see a rainbow after the storm, or what you have suffered now will tell with a smile in the future, or what you have suffered is worth it, and you will be grateful for the suffering after all, or something like that.

This comfort is clearly a subjugation to fear, and no one will recognize it. It seems that my own persuasion, those positive words, and those chicken soups are all to resist fear. As everyone knows, this idea of resisting fear itself comes from fear.

No one would think that the best way to kill fear is not to resist it, and let it crash through the body. Then follow the fear and see how it is generated. Then you will find that all the fears come from the distortion of the mind.

Those untested assumptions, those unfounded affirmations, those ideas or ideas that are never in doubt. It's these mental distortions that allow fear to survive.

If I'm not even human, how can I be afraid? If I'm not the character of Yuan Changwen at all, then what does all the fear about this character have to do with me? How can there be such a thing as fear?

I don't think I'm moving forward, or rather, I don't guess if I'm still moving forward and killing. That's right, it's going to take a long way to the top, and I'm not done yet, so it's key to keep going.

However, at this moment, I realized that the role of Yuan Changwen had not been completed, was there any problem?

At this moment, I noticed that the character of Yuan Changwen was blocking again, is there anything wrong?

There is no reason to claim that this blockade is a sign of moving on, nor is there any reason to think that this blockade is going around in circles. Since I don't know anything, why bother pretending to know and then looking for the most plausible explanation?

Even if the character of Yuan Changwen can't be killed in his life, I don't have any problems.

So, this feeling of being blocked, and I think it's a good reason because it's all going to happen that way. It's not because it means anything to feel blocked, and then I agree so much with this self-righteous "meaning" that I declare it a good thing.

The sense of ease that I felt before was gone, but it didn't matter. Trying to force that sense of ease is a fear in itself. If I don't have fear, why should I force that sense of lightness, if I think, "It's a bad thing not to have that sense of ease," that leads me to want to keep that sense of lightness.

And this distinction between good and bad is a fear in itself. There's nothing bad if there's no fear, and I'm not afraid of life, so I'm not worried about anything happening.

Although I don't like certain situations, I don't worry about bad things happening, and I don't do anything to keep them from happening. I don't believe in the distortion in my head, and I try my best to make sure that the so-called good things don't slip away.

There is no need.

I don't like things happening, but if they do, it means that it can only happen that way. And, I don't think there's anything bad about this happening.

Just like this feeling of being blocked at this moment, it is indeed a pity to lose that sense of ease, but it is not bad to experience this feeling of being blocked.

I don't understand how my former self struggled with what had happened, and how I was in constant worry. Although he was full of energy at that time and had the title of the first person in the empire, it seems that he was a child now.

A little kid who covered his ears and cried out "I don't listen!

I suddenly remembered that when I used to choose a lady, I always weighed many things. Personality, family, future development, potential, do you get along, etc. If you think about it, aren't these just fears?

I don't understand why there is a contest between love and money, or rather, a conflict between love and reality. If love can compete with money, then it shows that love and money are the same level and level, why should we strive to raise the height of love?

What is considered reality, considering the life of the future baby, I don't understand what this is doing at all. All that can be seen is fear. If there is no love, at least there is this material security, is this kind of fear? If there is no love, at least the other party's character will ensure that the family will not quarrel, is this kind of fear?

Is there any essential difference between valuing character and looking at family background? It's just a distorted trade-off in the mind, why do you always think that valuing character or something is better and more worthy of pride than valuing family background?

Love needs material security, which in itself shows that the word love in this sentence is essentially a transaction.

Why do you think that state of being in love with all fearlessness is hot-headed, that it is a state of unconsciousness, that it is a kind of blindness that you will regret in the future?

Once fear is mixed in, it all becomes chaotic. It seems that no matter how fearful it is, it makes sense. Affair, economy, living environment, material foundation, physical condition, etc., all make sense.

The thing that solves the problem is not the answer, but the assumption that sees the hidden problem and stands at a higher level to destroy the problem directly.

This kind of love mixed with fear, or rather, completely manipulated by fear, is not qualified to be called love in itself. It seems that it is very realistic, the material foundation of the other party, work potential, the physical condition of the parents, etc.

But who would approve of this so-called "very realistic" statement? Who would think of this except for the characters who themselves live in fear? Is it because most people live in fear that this becomes normal and taken for granted?

This kind of love is just a glorified expression of possession and control. So many people want to make a conclusion about love, but they can't do it, because what everyone is talking about is not a thing at all.

This is how I used to be fooled by fear, how I was ridiculed by fear, and I thought it was normal. Rather, it is those who ignore their fears and are identified by themselves as hot-headed, unplanned, courageous and unplanned.

It's because I'm a loser, that's why I found such a big argument, it's nothing more than to prove that my behavior of leaving the empire is right, it's nothing more than to prove that I'm not a loser...... Is it?

Yuan Changwen thought about this problem carefully and found that there might be this possibility. Maybe in the beginning, there will be such a motive to hide, because no one will think that their actions are wrong.

But now, I'm not a human being, and I'm no longer the role of Yuan Changwen, so what role do you want to talk about whether it's successful or not?