Some happiness, maybe just seems to be happy.

It's like the song "You're Not Really Happy" that Mayday sings: you're not really happy, your smile is just the protective color you wear......

The time went to the beginning of September 2018, and Ziyu was full moon.

Actually, I didn't want to drink at the time because my family's financial situation was terrible......

I was unemployed for half a year at the time, and my family's income depended on Xiaoshi, but Xiaoshi had already resigned. My aunt is in her sixties, and she can't do much work in the vegetable field, and she can't get much money in exchange, and I don't want her to work so hard in the vegetable field so often......

In general, the economic pressure is high.

However, Auntie doesn't care about these.

Ziyu is her first grandson, and she is also the first grandson under the grandfather and grandmother of the Liu family! With such an important existence, how could she give up the full moon wine for Ziyu to celebrate because of financial pressure?

She looked forward to it day and night, and finally looked forward to my growing up, looking forward to getting married, and finally looking forward to the birth of my child. These 20 years of hope are long enough......

Ah Gong is gone, and he has not been able to see his male grandson go to college or even get married, nor can he wait for his first grandson to appear......

Uncle is also gone, and it is rare to wait until his only son gets married, but he can't wait for his first grandson to appear......

Too many regrets, too many to tell......

In Auntie's heart, she felt that only by giving Ziyu a full moon wine could she barely make up for those uncontrollable regrets......

Therefore, Ziyu's full moon wine is still on the table.

If you don't have money, you can borrow money to put it, and the key wine process is handled by the two sisters.

I'm still like a kid who doesn't know anything, and although I'm married, my shoulders aren't broad enough, my experience isn't enough, and my responsibilities aren't quite enough.

I always wanted my wedding and the full moon wine for my children to be held with the money I earned, but God willed, the wedding did not show up because of my uncle's health reasons, and Ziyu's arrival happened to be at the trough when I was unemployed due to illness. So, I was embarrassed and helpless......

Life is so funny, or perhaps, life is like this. You always want to wait until all the conditions are met before you do what you want to do, however, what you want to do often comes faster than you think, so fast that you are unprepared, it comes to the door by itself, and almost all the conditions need to be created by yourself, there is no satisfaction.

In other words, one's own strength cannot catch up with one's desires.

Therefore, on the day of the full moon wine in Ziyu, I was very busy......

Busy burning incense and worshiping God, praying for God to bless Ziyu with healthy growth, busy learning how to greet guests with aunts, busy becoming "like the real head of the family"......

I'm busy with my movements, I'm busy with my words, I'm busy with my mood, I'm busy with my smiles......

Unfortunately, I didn't have much joy in my busy schedule.

At that time, I watched a funny movie "Bear for Love" starring Ah Niu.

The actor at the beginning of the scene, to be honest, hit my heart! That kind of psychological drama is really rich and real.

There is a line in the movie that I agree with very much: My son's full moon wine, what does it matter to them?

Still, a movie is a movie, and reality is reality.

The sophisticated mode of human affection is not something that I can easily delete if I want to. Because, that's like a bug.

There were so many familiar and unfamiliar faces that I tried to smile, try to say polite things that I didn't like, and try to play a different me.

I couldn't learn the etiquette of greeting guests all at once, and I was so tired...... I don't like it at all......

In front of their smiles, I am an actor.

But think about it, how many people in this world are not actors?

In the end, although my happiness is not obvious, my sub-language is indeed full moon, and there is still a special joy in my heart.

I think Ziyu is a gift from God.

Because, her arrival has brought happiness to my family!

Grandma finally became a "grandmother", aunt finally became a "grandmother", and my sisters finally became "aunts", which is a great joy for our Liu family!

Although I haven't been able to make a career yet, and even the worst of my grandchildren, I'm the first to start a family and become a father. I have my weaknesses, but I also have my radiance.

Perhaps, sometimes I envy others for their successful careers, and maybe, others also envy me for starting a family?

Well, it is worth it to put a full moon wine for Ziyu after all!

Because, the sub-language is worth it!

There is no money to earn anymore, and the debts owed can be paid off through hard work, but the meaning of the full moon in Ziyu is only once in a lifetime.

Well, I should have worked harder to grow up and really support this family! Now that God has made me a family and have a daughter before I am quite ready to start a family, then I have to make myself worthy of all this!

Everyone's unhappiness is self-inflicted.

In the same way, everyone's happiness is self-inflicted.

If you really want to be happy, do it yourself!

Like, I was unhappy and happy after writing this article.

Well, your happiness, you're worth finding.

Although, the above sentence is like nonsense......