Yuan Changwen couldn't help but shed a tear, he didn't expect that he would still have tears at such a time, he thought that he would not be in this tearful but tearless situation again.

These "original thoughts" are just distortions in the mind, and they don't count. Surprise is normal, and it is always rare to be expected.

I just thought of a possibility, since I feel that the world is real at the moment, then the trance I feel does not directly indicate that the world is false. It's all the same feeling, whether it feels real or it feels false, and it doesn't say anything.

Is it true that a sense of falsehood is falsehood?

It's just that theoretically, this dualistic world, this limited universe, is indeed unreal.

Perhaps, the difference is that there is no "I" feeling, and no character feels the existence of a "non-role".

Never in a moment like this, I felt annoyed that I saw the reality of the world. When I saw the tree and the flower, I felt uncomfortable because it was too real.

I kept asking myself, why is it still so real? Why is it still the same as before?

Then, you will find that this self-questioning is problematic in itself. Because what the characters do does not affect the truth, whether the characters are righteous or evil, it does not affect the truth. Moreover, there is no evidence that only good people can cultivate to the truth.

And when this kind of thinking is born, the behavior of the character is no longer important, and the fear hidden in it will also be discovered. I still want the character to be successful, and I still want the character to stand at a different height, which is different from other roles.

I've been doing this all my life, trying to distinguish my role from other roles. "What kind of person am I?", the phrase is repeated over and over again to distinguish between roles. Once you distinguish it, you can gain the approval of others, because only by recognizing its authenticity can you make a good distinction.

Is there a big difference between each character?

They are all characters shrouded in fear, some people may be full of spirituality, some people are full of money, but is there a difference? Or is this difference important in the face of reality?

I don't have time to pay attention to other people and think about how they are doing. My slash isn't over yet, maybe not even at all.

The world is not real, and I don't know how to proceed. Is there anything to remember? Is there anything to be reluctant to? Nothing is real, and the real does not appear in this false world at all.

What does it mean to slash and break through the dream in this well-planned dream? And I, what am I doing?

Yuan Changwen found that he didn't know what was going on at all. It seems that he felt unreal, so he left the empire and discarded the title of the family and the first person in the empire, and then began to kill himself.

However, I had no idea how far I was going. The only thing I felt unbelievable was the sense of relaxation, so relaxed that I couldn't help but want to dance, so relaxed that I was already free from the world.

But now, that sense of ease has become a memory, and I can't be sure of the correctness of the memory. So, I don't know if I've ever experienced that lightness.

What is the use of this act of removing time other than to make trouble in life? But the idea of "whether it is useful" is itself based on falsehood. We assume that if something is useful for life, then we will think about it and strive for it.

However, the assumption that "useful for life" is based on the assumption that "life is real". Moreover, the idea of judging "whether it is useful or not" also comes from a distortion in the mind.

Deeper, there is fear. Maybe it's not pure fear, maybe it's worry, or sorrow, so that "whether it's useful or not" becomes a subconscious judgment.

When I was a student, it was useful to read books, study and do homework, but it was useless to play games and watch TV.

After work, it is useful to study and work overtime, and those flashy fantasies are useless.

I don't want to go on and give examples, and I don't want to think about these issues anymore. Every time I try to find a metaphor, I have to think about it in my head. I already feel the deeper meaning of these things, so why bother thinking about metaphors or examples in order to express them more clearly?

A feeling of discomfort from the inside out permeated his whole body, and Yuan Changwen felt that every cell of his body seemed to be full of sadness. It is as if the whole person is collapsing, but because of his strong will and positive thinking, he is hindering the smooth development of this collapse.

And this obstacle, just a delay and just a delay, makes the collapse extremely uncomfortable. It's not pain or madness, it's just uncomfortable, as if you're in the darkness of a swamp.

It doesn't hurt like a knife cut, it doesn't hurt like a burn, and it's not the madness of smashing a table and breaking a window. Neither hysterical anger nor the cry of loss of something beloved.

Yuan Changwen was in the depths of the lake, feeling the depression and sadness that he couldn't describe and didn't need to describe. The invention of vocabulary seems to make it possible to communicate better, but it is only limited to the superficial communication of words.

Is the sorrow I understand the same as the sorrow you understand? Is what we want to express the same state? Is our judgment of sorrow the same standard?

Yuan Changwen was still uncomfortable, from hand to foot, it seemed that this discomfort was closer to him than the lake.

I should go crazy, is it because years of education have made me lose the ability to go crazy? It seems that I always have to think rationally and always restrain my emotions, this is the shit I have studied for so many years.

Even the so-called catharsis is nothing more than keeping the catharsis in a controllable state. Always want to be in control, always think it's bad to vent your emotions. Think about it, if there is a person who is wanton and cathartic, how will I feel about the other person?

And the thousand-year-old tradition has been emphasizing that what city, what joy and anger are invisible, what Mount Tai collapses and the face does not change color, and so on. I'm so stupid to believe it!

This is not at all to blame for any education or tradition, it can only show one's own stupidity. The absurdity of these things, if you think honestly, I don't even think about them.

Like, I have more important things to think about: What is it?job?future?house?money?relationships?role attributes?

Litter!

I can't believe that I used to think about this bullshit. Oh yes, it's more about your own practice.

You say, should the character of Yuan Changwen be damned?