There is no outside world.

For so many years, I have believed that there is a world out there, and that I, as a human being, walk in the vastness of the world outside. Compared to the grandeur of the world, I am only a small human being.

But in fact, it's just the opposite. The vastness of the world is not at all one-ten-thousandth of mine, and it is I who contain the whole world, not the world that contains me.

When I believe that there is a world out there, all kinds of fears naturally arise. Who knows what will happen? I am like a flat boat floating in the vast ocean, the wind and the rain, and only by working hard can I gain a firm foothold and have the opportunity to realize my so-called dream.

But in fact, I was just a drop of seawater, and I didn't understand why I was afraid of the vastness of the ocean. The so-called fear comes from the distortion of the mind, and it is also the glue that constructs the character of Yuan Changwen.

Without fear, I wouldn't struggle to maintain a certain character attribute, and I wouldn't cling to a certain self-definition. One will be like this, one will be that way, one will be righteous, one will be evil, one will have a strong sense of responsibility, and one will regard life as child's play.

Even life is not respected, and death is no longer something to be talked about.

Why do I believe there is a world out there?

Is it because the world is too exciting, or is it because the world is too unpredictable to be considered false?

Yuan Changwen was stuck, not because he was stuck as he was before, but because he wanted to figure out the trance caused by "there is no world outside".

Theoretically, we understand that "there is no world outside", but that kind of trance is the real feeling that "there is no world outside". And at this moment, what Yuan Changwen wants to do is to continue to produce that trance and grasp that trance.

It's a pity that no matter how attentive Yuan Changwen is, repeating "there is no world outside" countless times, he can't continue to have that trance.

Blocking this series is the role of Yuan Changwen.

But how do I know that the trance keeps happening and the killing is over?

I don't know, it's not that I can or can't feel in a trance, it's just that I don't know. I'm just the false thinking of the character of Yuan Changwen, how can I know or deduce the future development?

There is no way, all inferences are distorted, they are all limitations from the mind. And this limitation is just to present what the character wants, even if it is fear, it is what the character wants. Because only in this way can the authenticity of the character be constantly recognized.

And in this well-planned dream, seeing through the dream is undoubtedly difficult and meaningless. Over the years, my education has been all about a real world with a real person, never thinking that there is no world at all, and I have never thought that there is no me at all.

As if objective materialism is a matter of course, even if idealism is just an embellishment in the long river of history, it is all the efforts made by human beings to understand the world.

I never thought about whether there was a world.

I wonder how a school that promotes idealism should teach the curriculum.

Nothing is taken for granted, nothing is obvious, and all knowledge is just the most plausible explanation. No matter how much it is whitewashed, no matter how practical it is, no matter how much it contributes to a better life, it cannot be denied that this knowledge is merely speculation.

"Eggs and eggs", this word is used in life, and it is definitely a good helper. On the other hand, it is also the best interpretation of the slashing falsehood. I killed the false, not for a better life, nor did I expect how the role of Yuan Changwen would be extraordinary after the killing.

It's just that I hate falsehood and no longer want to be manipulated by falsehood, that's all.

However, in the process of killing, the characters will gradually deviate from this original intention in order to survive. It seems that after "not being afraid of life", I should stop and make good use of the character of Yuan Changwen to play well in the world.

Instead of being here, the mind is constantly slashing, the falsehood is constantly being destroyed, and the distortion in the mind is constantly burned. This kind of behavior, "but not eggs", will not have money and will not have any superpowers, and even, even the conversation will not become funny.

I didn't know what the future would hold, and at the moment, that trance had dissipated. I wasn't even sure if I had experienced this kind of trance before. Even if I'm pretty sure, who knows if this is actually happening?

So, why do I continue to hold on to that trance, and why do I think that this trance, which can lead me to the end of the killing?

Perhaps, after the slaughter is over, that trance will naturally become regular and a part of life. I didn't need to chase that trance, and I kept chanting the garbage mantra "there's no world out there" in order to get the trance.

Is the Buddha name "Amitabha" the same reason for such nonsense?

There is a place called Western Elysium, there is a place called heaven, and after death, Amitabha Buddha will come to guide you, and there will be angels to lead, and then you will live eternally in that world full of compassion and kindness.

If there really is an angel, or an Amitabha Buddha standing in front of me, then I will not be happy at all, because it means that the character is still there, it means that all this is still false.

The only difference may be that the content of the dream has changed.

Unfortunately, unreal is unreal, no matter how kind or compassionate or full of sweet love is, nothing can change the existence of these things as false. And the non-existence of the unreal, that is, even if you stand in heaven and watch the angels dance, these things still do not exist.

There is not a single me, not a true angel. Everything in heaven is the same level of falsehood as everything in the world.

That trance-like feeling dissipates, so let's dissipate.

The reason why I don't think it can be dissipated is because I think this trance can lead me to the end of the kill. In other words, I think this trance-like feeling is the real feeling that "there is no world out there".

However, it's all "I think", and even if that "I think" seems correct at some level, it doesn't change that these are just speculations.

Moreover, my beliefs are based on the correctness of memory and the recognition of the linear passage of time. Once these two assumptions are removed, it will be ridiculous for me to continue to grasp the driving force of that trance.

Maybe it's almost enough, maybe I can catch that trance by concentrating, maybe I can regain that trance by reciting the trash mantra "there's no world out there" a hundred more times.

However, it's all maybe.

Why not acknowledge the state of the moment?