Memory is innocent, it doesn't know what's good and what's bad, it just doesn't treat everyone equally.

Because what is happy and sad will only be the beating heart.

I never blame my memory, it's what it is, whether my heart is happy or sad......

On the morning of April 12, 2017, I made an appointment for a car and prepared to go to Xinyi's Traditional Chinese Medicine Hospital. The driver was the middle-aged man who picked me up and my uncle home in Gaozhou. Well, call him "Driver Ho".

Auntie had already prepared all the luggage needed for hospitalization, and I helped my uncle slowly down from the upstairs.

I don't know what kind of variables I will experience when I go to the hospital this time. In my heart, I was very worried.

When we were ready, we set off for the hospital that I didn't have any good feelings about in my heart.

Hopefully, Uncle can go home healthy after pumping fluid in the hospital. At the very least, go home......

After arriving at the hospital, I unloaded my luggage and paid the money, and my aunt and I took the luggage while helping my uncle to take the elevator to the fifth floor.

I didn't dare to let go of my hand because Uncle was very tired. I'm afraid that as soon as I let go, he will not be able to stand on his feet and fall.

When I went up to the fifth floor, my aunt was going to find the attending doctor who had taken the hydrops for my uncle before. And I, just looked at Uncle quietly.

Uncle is becoming less and less like the Uncle I remember, he is getting thinner and thinner, his hands and feet are skinny, and he is so tired and tired when he breathes......

The night before I came to the hospital, my aunt cut my uncle's hair, and then said to me with a smile: "Jin Long, you see how beautiful I am after I cut your uncle's hair! ”

Uncle was so happy that he sat upright and faced me, and I clicked the photo button. Well, how long has it been since I've taken a good picture of my uncle?

Uncle asked me to show him the photos I took, and I showed them to him with a smile: "Look, it's really beautiful!"

Uncle smiled again, but my heart was trying to control my emotions in case the tears in my eyes suddenly burst the embankment......

Uncle sat on a stool in the hospital and felt dizzy, tired, and wanted to lie down. So, I immediately took out the quilt from the duffel bag and put it on the stool, and then asked Uncle to lie down, half cushioned and half covered.

Some of the patient's family members would look at us in various ways, and that was when my mindset began to change.

Before, I couldn't stand the strange way people looked at me. At that time, I learned to adapt, to accept these tests that God had assigned to me......

Just look at it, I just hope Uncle is healthy.

After about ten minutes, the aunt did not find the attending doctor, but found the director.

Because the beds in the ward were full, I had to sleep in the extra bed in the hallway. An extra bed is better than sleeping on a stool.

After helping Uncle Sleep in the extra bed, I went to help Uncle go through the admission procedures.

After I finished the process, I came back to see my uncle, and my aunt went to eat lunch and pack.

After that, a nurse wanted to give Uncle an injection, and Uncle said that he didn't need to be vaccinated at that time, and he would get dizzy. After all, Uncle felt it when he was hospitalized in Gaozhou.

However, the nurse's attitude was very cold, saying that it would not work if she didn't fight.

Auntie is not there, and I am not sure if these injections really have to be taken, because Auntie has asked the doctor if Uncle's condition is stable, there is no need for those injections.

I really want to stop the nurse from giving my uncle those injections, but I'm not sure, so confused!

It didn't take long for the nurse to finish the injection.

When the uncle said that he didn't want to get those injections and the nurse said coldly that he couldn't do it, I felt that the hospital was very cold! Also, when life came to the brink of fragility, even freedom would become almost in name only......

My heart was full of mixed feelings, and my heart hurt when I saw my uncle shaking his head and saying not to get injections...... I hate it again......

I feel sorry for my uncle, I hate myself so much......

The sense of helplessness and powerlessness was crushing me at that time every second.

After that, Uncle didn't feel dizzy, but because of those injections, he began to dizzy again......

I really wanted to hit someone!

When I think of the nurse's coldness, I feel an indescribable hatred!

But who told us that we were sick and needed to go to the hospital?

Health, in the hospital, not only represents real wealth, but also represents a person's dignity.

So, cherish your health.

Looking at the patients in the ward and the patients in the corridor, there are young and old, all interpreting the process of birth, old age, sickness and death.

Hospitals are the entrance to the world and the exit to the world. Death is like an old friend, passing by you from time to time, and suddenly he wants to take you to be chic, so he will take you directly to be chic without saying a word.

So, work hard to live healthily, don't let him think of you so quickly, and then take you to chic.

When my aunt came back from lunch, I didn't really have any appetite and didn't want to eat at all. However, my aunt said that I must eat it. If you don't take care of yourself, how can you take care of your uncle?

Well, yes. It seems that my aunt is much stronger than me......

Because of Auntie's good popularity, there was a ward with three beds vacant in the afternoon, and we could choose one.

There were three beds in that ward, we chose the middle bed, the bed by the door was chosen by an uncle, and the bed by the balcony was temporarily empty.

It is better to sleep in a bed in a ward than in an extra bed, and the important thing is to have a bathroom.

After entering the ward, my uncle's condition was a little better, and my heart was better.

After dinner that night, my aunt took care of my uncle, and I wanted to go out for a walk.

I walked the road I used to walk in high school, listened to the music on my mobile phone, and sighed about the changes in the past few years.

If...... If...... I know, there are no ifs.

I just got down and said to myself, if everything was the way it was......

I remembered a song by Jay Chou, singing: I cried, and my emotions were fragmented......

That night, for the second time in my life, I was showering and sleeping in the hospital.

And what is this compared to the days and nights when Auntie takes care of Uncle?

The next day.

The bed on the balcony had a sick person to sleep. The patient is an aunt, and she is brought by an uncle, who is supposed to be the aunt's husband.

At that time, the aunt was sent in in a hurry, and then the uncle hurriedly went to pay the bill.

Auntie's mood didn't seem to be stable, as if she wanted to leave the hospital bed, but she moved awkwardly.

When the uncle came back after paying the fee and saw her struggling to get out of bed, his temper suddenly came: "What do you want to do?

It was so loud that the people in the hallway outside thought something was going on inside, and I watched in bewilderment.

Auntie whimpered a little: "I ...... No...... See...... Doctor, I'm going to ...... Go home. ”

The uncle put his aunt's hands and feet on the bed with all his might, and scolded loudly: "What kind of nerves are you?! Return! Return! Return! If you are sick and not cured, how can you go back? Let me tell you, don't make trouble! If you make trouble again, I will ignore you! Believe it or not, I will leave immediately?!"

The attitude is so bad that it is hard for me to imagine that this uncle is the husband of the aunt.

Auntie watched it very badly, so she asked the uncle softly: "Eh, uncle, do you have something to say, why are you so fierce to Auntie?"

The uncle was still emotional: "Who told her to be disobedient? She has a cerebral infarction, and she can't move the left half of her body, and she needs treatment! But she just doesn't listen! Then scold!"

The aunt whispered to the aunt, "Auntie, then you have to be obedient, if you are sick, you have to be cured......

There was a stalemate, and the atmosphere eased down.

After that, the doctor rounds the ward.

The aunt was a little uncooperative, and the uncle lost his temper again: "What do you want?! If you don't cooperate with the doctor, how can you cure the disease?!"

Auntie felt so uncomfortable, but she could only endure it......

After that, the aunt often said itchy, and the uncle began to annoy: "Where is it itchy again?!"

Auntie will still whisper: "Uncle, don't be so fierce to Auntie." Women are going to hurt. If she's itchy, you can help her scratch it. That's what husband and wife are all about. ”

The uncle seemed to agree with what Auntie said, so his attitude towards Auntie really changed for the better.

That's why my aunt has a good reputation.

The uncle who was in the bed by the door, his son and daughter-in-law took turns taking care of him. He was too tall so hospitalized and I forgot what it was.

Grandma also had a good chat with them, and sometimes when Auntie and I needed to go out, we could ask them to help take care of Uncle.

Similarly, when the family members of the patients in the other two beds are not present, my aunt and I will also help take care of the patients.

Because of the proximity of the situation, everyone met because they wanted to be cured, and every family had a scripture that was difficult to read, so it was easier for them to talk about common topics.

Uncle did an operation to pump fluid in the lungs, and a tube was inserted into the lungs behind the back, and I knew that Uncle was in pain......

Looking at the several wounds left by the intubation on the back of my uncle, I felt pain. It hurts to look at it......

Day 3.

The uncle's son and daughter who were leaning on the balcony bed came to see the aunt, and I thought their attitude should be relatively gentle. But, no.

Her son, knowing that she did not cooperate with the doctor's treatment, also complained and spoke to his aunt as if he were reprimanding a child.

Her daughter has a slightly better attitude than her son, but there will also be a lot of complaints.

I thought to myself, my aunt doesn't look like a fierce person, why don't her sons and daughters have a harmonious attitude towards her?

Who knows? Every family has its own atmosphere. At least, her son and daughter still cared about her, otherwise why would they take a day off to come and see her? Her husband also loved her, but he didn't control his emotions well, otherwise he really didn't care about her.

At noon that day, my aunt took me out of the corridor and told me, "A doctor actually said in front of me and your uncle that if you don't have major surgery, don't occupy a bed and leave it for patients in need." Moreover, he also told about Uncle's deteriorating condition. Originally, I have been hiding from your uncle since he was in Gaozhou and did not let him know about his condition, just so that your uncle should not be so scared and be optimistic. Who knew that the doctor actually told your uncle about your uncle's deteriorating condition in front of you. You say, 'Do such doctors have medical ethics?'

I was so scared that Uncle Ah would be cranky, because Uncle was quiet all morning, so my eyes were wet. At the same time, I have a kind of anger and still want to hit someone!

I asked my aunt, "Which doctor is it?"

The aunt pointed to a male doctor with a flat head, who was still smiling and joking with his colleagues.

Looking at his smile, I felt more and more that he was ugly, and I wanted to go over and punch him hard!

However, the aunt said: "Wait a day or two, wait for your third uncle and fourth uncle and your brother-in-law to come over, and then settle accounts with him! Such a doctor who has no medical ethics, I will go to the general office of the hospital to complain about him!"

Auntie is originally a very gentle person who will not be easily impulsive. Because of the shit doctor's words, Auntie couldn't suppress her anger at once.

Those few words are not simple words. Rather, it is a spell that may speed up Uncle's countdown at any time!

Because of this incident, Auntie asked to be transferred to the ward, and she didn't want the bullshit doctor to treat Uncle.

So, we moved to another room with a more harmonious environment.

In this room, near the bed on the balcony, there was a ninety-year-old man who could not move his whole body except his mouth. It was his daughter-in-law who took care of him. It seems that his daughter-in-law may be in her sixties and seventies.

Maybe it's fate, the ward where Auntie took Uncle into the hospital to draw fluid in the lungs is this ward.

Therefore, the aunt also greeted the old man naturally. Although the old man can't see, he can hear familiar sounds, so he responds with the sound of "ah~".

Also, the attending doctor who helped Uncle Ao drain the fluid in the lungs was in charge of this ward. In this case, Auntie is more at ease.

In this room, I still do what I can.

Feed Uncle Porridge, pour water for Uncle to take medicine, help Uncle go to the toilet, take Uncle to take a bath, and help Uncle massage his swollen and somewhat fat feet.

When I slept at night, my aunt and I took turns keeping vigil.

Lying on my stomach next to my uncle, as long as my uncle needs to get up and go to the toilet, I will wake up with a light touch.

The tiredness of taking care of people is no less than the tiredness of work. Auntie must be tired of taking care of Uncle for so many days and nights......

But Auntie, I never said that taking care of Uncle was tiring. She would only tell me that with me taking care of your uncle, you would be relieved......

Loving someone is to be proven by deeds.

Auntie, I have loved my uncle all my life, from first love, to husband and wife, to old age.

Uncle, you have to be healthy, don't let your aunt love so hard......

Day 4.

When I went to high school, I used to go to the hair salon where I used to cut my hair, and the hair salon was located in a relatively secluded little corner, near No. 1 Middle School.

The proprietress who cuts her hair is still the same proprietress as she is, and I'm already a person who comes out to work.

What I didn't expect was that she recognized me at first sight. Actually, remember me. It feels like it is a small blessing to be remembered naturally.

She washed my hair and asked me about the vegetable patch. It's been so long, and I still remember it so clearly.

Well, there is a more special existence.

Sometimes, the uncle in that ward would come over to say hello to Auntie, care about Uncle's physical condition, and hope that Uncle would recover soon. And when the aunt passed by the ward, she would also go in to greet the uncle and aunt and chat twice.

I feel that Auntie's good popularity comes from her kind and friendly heart. This is a blessing that belongs to the aunt herself, not born.

Perhaps, my natural good luck is all because of my aunt......

Otherwise, how would I have survived to this day?

Day 5.

In fact, in today's society, family members can get together on two occasions.

One is a happy occasion and the other is a sad occasion.

My sisters and brothers-in-law also came over, as well as my little nephew, to visit my uncle together.

When the sisters saw the uncle lying on the hospital bed, their first reaction was so sad that they cried, and then they said hello......

The brothers-in-law also reported one by one.

Auntie kept wiping her tears on the side......

The little nephew Yu is still young, and he doesn't know what the hospital ward is like. His smile represents the sadness and sadness that he can't see the world, and he is still innocent.

Think about it, how good it is to be innocent and not sad.

After that, the eldest aunt and the third and fourth uncles also came.

The third uncle sighed: "Big guy, how could you do this?"

The aunt sat next to Uncle Ah and grabbed Uncle's hand: "Ah Jia, I'm here." ”

The fourth uncle wiped his tears and didn't speak.

After that, talk to that bullshit doctor.

Doctor bullshit calmly showed up at the end of the hallway we had agreed upon, not feeling like he had done anything wrong.

The third uncle asked, "Why do you want to tell the patient's condition in front of the patient? If something happens to my eldest brother, can you be responsible?"

Sister: "My dad always thought it was just hydrops, and as long as he finished pumping the hydrops, he would be fine." Then after you told my dad about his deteriorating condition in front of him, he was very emotionally unstable!"

Bullshit Doctor: "Patients have the right to know. ”

Sister: "Yes, but you have to discuss it with the patient's family first!"

Bullshit Doctor: "I don't think I'm doing anything wrong, treating patients is about letting patients understand their condition." ”

Later, when it comes to beds, he says that if you don't have major surgery, you shouldn't occupy a bed.

Third uncle: "Is the hospital run by your family?"

Sister: "Can't we afford to pay for a bed?"

Bullshit doctor: "The bed is meant to be for patients in need, and you occupy the bed and don't do major surgery, isn't that a waste of bed?"

After that, there was another debate.

Near the end, the eldest brother-in-law grabbed his white coat and said fiercely: "If you were in my hometown, I would definitely kill you!"

After saying that, he shook it.

The bullshit doctor still tried to calm down: "I don't believe you beat me to death!"

After that, let him go.

What Auntie really wants is for him to recognize his mistake and then sincerely apologize. However, he didn't.

In the course of the argument, he said that there are some things that he did wrong, but what do you think of me?!

In other words, he didn't have the concept of "apology" in his mind.

Auntie reported to the director, and the director also severely criticized the bullshit doctor. However, the director still hopes that Auntie will not go to the general office of the hospital to complain about him, after all, he is still young, it is not easy to get a doctor, and he can treat more people. If he complains, he may not be able to become a doctor, his future may be ruined, and he will have fewer patients he can treat.

Auntie calmed down and thought about it, too, yes, it's all wrong, and he won't apologize if he doesn't apologize. Even if he apologizes, Uncle's body will not come back immediately. It is better to let him treat more patients in need.

Therefore, the aunt did not complain about him.

Relatives come in a hurry, and they will return appropriately. After all, the lives of relatives go on......

I've always had the idea of taking a family photo. Because, it was the most homogeneous time, and my sister and brother-in-law were there.

Uncle can sleep on the bed, Aunt is next to Uncle, and then the sister and brother-in-law stand next to the bed in turn, and you can take a family photo.

However, Uncle felt very tired at the time and wanted to sleep, so he said that he would shoot next time. Auntie also followed Uncle's meaning, indicating that she was discharged from the hospital, and she would happily shoot in the future.

I felt very disappointed because it was a great opportunity.

Because, I'm so scared that I won't have a chance again......

We went to eat together at the restaurant where my aunt and I often went to pack meals, and we went to the second floor to open a big table.

Eat and talk.

After eating, we asked the boss to take a few group photos for us, and I sat in the middle with my little nephew in my arms, and then my sister and brother-in-law stood on the ground in pairs.

Because Xiaoshi hasn't married me yet, I didn't let her come back. Although, she wants to come back......

It would be nice if it was Uncle and Aunt sitting in the middle......

In the end, the sisters and brothers-in-law also continued to go back to their respective lives. Only the second sister stayed for a few days, because she had to go to Dacheng to find a special doctor to see a doctor.

Another day passed, and the second sister packed the porridge and came back to Uncle.

The second sister said to me: "The proprietress asked me if I was the sister of the beautiful boy, and I said yes." Then she asked if you have a girlfriend? I replied that he already had a girlfriend. I think she might have wanted to introduce you to the girl in the store, if you don't have a girlfriend. ”

I said hehe.

Well, the store I often go to pack does have a beautiful woman who is in good shape, slightly shorter than me. The lady seemed to like to talk to me, after all, I was so polite, although I was not tall or rich......

Another day passed, and the bag containing the hydropulmonary fluid was no longer hydrated, proving that it had been emptied. So, we plan to take Uncle back home.

Please ask the attending doctor to help my uncle remove the tube, I went to go through the discharge procedures, and my aunt and the second sister packed their luggage.

After the preparations were almost made, I asked the driver He to pick us up and enter Dacheng. It feels like the driver has contracted the round-trip journey from our home to the hospital.

It's nice to be home!

Uncle, we're home......

That day, my cousin Yan also returned to his hometown.

So that night, my cousin Yan and my second sister, as well as me, went to the field to pick yellow eels and catch betta fish, reminiscing about the taste of childhood......

In more than an hour of reminiscing about my childhood, I had the illusion of being immersed in that wonderful joy. I thought I was really still the same child, and my uncle and aunt were still the same aunts and uncles of the year......

It's like going back in time, as if we're going back in time......

However, like a dream, it is like smoke.

No matter how beautiful the happiness is, it will still wake up and drift away when facing reality......