Chapter 40: Metamorphosis Forty

At that time, August was really a month where everything came together, and the cash flow was not very ideal...... No, it shouldn't be ideal at all!

When I work during the day, I don't have the passion and motivation to work, because I have already handed in my resignation letter and I don't have much sense of belonging. Pen~Fun~Ge www.biquge.info this guy was wrong about you...... Thank you for being wrong......

Because I was not passionate about my work, and the weather was very hot, I was very impetuous. I don't listen to songs after work every day, I don't feel it, and the whole world is boring. I seem to have lost something very important......

During that time, I couldn't find myself, no matter what kind of me I was.

Jobs, relationships, hobbies, all gray......

Needless to say, work is not to be found.

Feelings, alas, do not disturb, is the best gentleness. But she disturbed me and was not gentle with me at all. Luckily, I'm used to it. However, she suddenly became gentle with me again. How can I express my sense of disparity? Whew, I'm not used to it......

There are a lot of hobbies, but none of them suit my mood during that time, and I feel that there is no sustenance. The feeling of no sustenance is so uncomfortable......

I feel inferior on the road, I can't find a specialty, I don't have a specialty. However, I am such a proud person in my bones...... There is no solution to this contradiction.

I like some of the analyses of Sagittarius in the horoscope, I like it, for example, Sagittarius is naturally proud......

Have I ever wondered if it's because it's annoying to have low self-esteem, or if it's disgusting to be proud...... It's all my weakness.

What exactly do I want to make now? Actually, I don't know...... That's how I was in my mind...... Dusty ......

I was thinking that I would understand how I feel now.

No matter what kind of mood you are in, it is a gift from life, I will take it well, and then give life a surprise on a casual day.

Nothing is in vain!

I was going to finish writing my motto and publish it, but I didn't expect that as soon as I finished writing, the lights in the small world came on! I had been pressing the switch for almost an hour!

It seems that God has responded to me. In that case, my current unclear mood is just a God-arranged experience. Well, that's good!

It's messy, and sometimes it's beautiful...... Whether it's the scenery, or the life.

I didn't expect that the world was so big, but the only place that made me feel very quiet and comfortable at that time was the bathroom in that small world......

Should I cry or laugh? If I cry, it's because it's only ...... If you laugh, it's because at least there's ......

The mentality is different, and the day and night of the world are different.

If you are not happy for me, will you let go is actually to have, when a gust of wind blows, the kite flies into the sky......... Listening to "Contentment", the happiness of contentment makes me endure heartache......

That's what it's like to listen to songs......

That night was the night I didn't expect.

I lost it in 2014 because I couldn't protect another buckle that I liked so much at the time, and in the days of losing that button, I felt full of regrets...... From time to time, I will enter the space of that button through this button to reminisce about those memories...... It feels like falling out of love.

The person you like doesn't know how to protect, and then gives it to others, that feeling, in retrospect, I want to slap it......

After losing the buckle in 2014, I tried several times to get it back, but I lost my phone when I was in college, so the possibility of getting it back is very low, and I really can't get it back again and again...... I began to comfort myself that it was meant to be!

Like when I lost her, I tried a lot of closeness, but nothing came of it. Either she was indifferent to me, or I suddenly thought too much and walked away on my own...... Again and again, near and far, far and near, still can't come together again. I can only try to comfort myself, that is also fate!

I know that the buckle may not really come back. However, I just couldn't bear the memories in the buckle, and I went to see those memories that night, and I felt even more reluctant! So, I still stupidly submitted the appeal form for the rebate without the help of relatives and friends. Although the computer also indicated that the probability of passing was extremely low, I was also in the mindset of giving it a try.

Actually, I don't think I'm going to pass it, I'm just doing it to make myself feel more at ease. I always feel that even if I still can't get it back, I really have to work hard to get it......

After that, I went on to do other things. When I saw the news that the appeal had passed, I really couldn't believe it was true! I used to think that if only I could get the buckle back, but unfortunately there was no if......

I have to say, it would be a miracle for me!

So, is it possible for me to get her back to me if I just have one more chance, and if I try bravely, I can ......get her back to me?

Buckle buckle, is buckle. People, they are people. The two cannot be compared.

I really wanted her to come back to me, but there were so many "buts" and "buts" that I still didn't have the courage to fight for the hope that seemed to be there and didn't seem to be.

At that time, I had no confidence in the future, and I didn't know where I would go after that. I was just as scared that she would suddenly want to come back to me, because in twenty days I would go somewhere a little far. In that case, I still can't hold her hand, hold her, accompany her, and even more so take her to play......

Thoughts will hurt people to death. Perhaps, this is what God has arranged if you leave!

When you are very good to get close, you can't get the recognition of your feelings. When there is a sense of recognition, there is no condition to get close. It's been a long time since God joked about it......

After I got the buckle back, although it was a little unfamiliar, the meaning of my liking was still there. In the more than a year since I lost that button, I have allowed my initial buckle to continue to take root and sprout, and finally opened up a lot of fields, which is still good.

Falling out of love is perhaps the easiest way for a boy to grow up. If I hadn't fallen out of love, perhaps, I wouldn't have found a lot, I wouldn't have experienced a lot, I wouldn't have understood a lot...... Although I am still a little childish, I feel that I have really grown.

Finally, listen to a song...... It's called "If You Have Heard of It"......

If you heard about it, would you believe me...... Will you echo the rumors, or do you know I'm still me...... I stumbled and understood a lot, and you are the only one who understands me...... When I think of you thinking of me, my chest is still gentle......

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