Sometimes, thoughts can be very messy because of a negation. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Denial isn't actually a problem, the problem is that I doubt myself because of this denial. Although there is a philosophical term for "self-denial".

The path I took was chosen after spending a long time struggling with my mind. It was completely in line with my own psychology and mentality at the time, as well as the pattern of growing up. But how can I mess up because of a denial?

Doubting oneself is an insult to one's own soul. I swore to take this path, but I was so easily shaken by an external factor. How ironic is this to myself......

Perhaps, the mood is easy to get lost. Whether it's happy or sad.

Ever since I started to wonder if I was on the wrong path, my body was extremely tired, as if I was completely unmotivated. Even his mental state was slumped, as if he had lost his soul. It seemed that my body and mind were extremely despised and I doubted myself, and this should not have ......

I finally stayed up late at night, and I came across some words on the Internet that inspired me. I realized how ridiculous I was. For example, when I was riding a bicycle on the main road, and when I rode quickly to a certain section of the road by myself, someone on the side of the road didn't know that I was racing, and when they saw that I was riding so fast, they advised me not to ride so fast, and safety first!

Therefore, what others see and understand is only what others see and understand, not necessarily what others see and understand.

I've always been immersed in my own world, which wasn't formed later. It was a pattern of happiness that I was used to as a child.

When I was a kid, I liked to play with toys alone and then be a director myself, arranging storylines for the toys. Actually, when I was a kid, I was more imaginative than I am now. In short, most of my time I am very immersed in my own world, because it also allows me to grow. It's just that this growth is introverted and focuses on inner improvement. Compared to extroverted growth, there is a lack of expansion. Each is good in its own way, and there is no absolute good.

If I love to be immersed in my own world so much, why should I be skeptical?

Because I've changed, I'm a little self-deluded now that I'm immersed in my own world. It all stems from being in a relationship.

Falling in love, for the first time, broke my self-absorbed inner world and made me more and more uncomfortable with being alone. I sometimes struggle as to whether that relationship has made me better or has made me more decadent. Anyway, at least I'm still growing.

Now I long for someone to accompany me, but I can't come when I can't. So uncomfortable, so inferior, so cranky.

Even so, growth cannot be stopped, but it must continue. I can only control my emotions and try not to let them hinder my growth, no matter what way I do.

God knows what I gave and endured for my growth.

Don't doubt yourself casually, if you even doubt the path you have chosen with your heart, then what beauty is there to look forward to and believe in?

The road, all the time, keep going.

I forgot when I began to believe in the saying that the first day of the new year is a microcosm of the new year. In other words, what you do on the first day of the new year will be linked to what you do on the first day of the new year for the whole year.

Although there is an element of superstition, I also keep 50% of my belief in it.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year in 2015, I mainly went on a small trip, but it was in a hurry. Ride a bicycle for 60 kilometers round trip, set off at dawn and rush home in the evening. The overall feeling is that I am in a hurry, but in the end there is still a harvest.

So, from the first day of work, I lived almost a rushed life. No matter how I'm going to go, there's going to be one thing I'm going to have to do in a hurry. However, after doing it, I will feel a little breakthrough.

Well, I was in a hurry for the first few days at work! I was so busy that I didn't even have time to eat!

Because there was a problem with the network, I invited the master of the network company to check it, so I had to take advantage of the meal time to ride "Shining" back to the accommodation and open the door for the master.

Who knows, the first time I didn't get it right, I have to get it the second time.

I didn't have a stomach for lunch that day, and I didn't even have a ten-minute nap, so I had to hurry to work again.

And the work at that time was too coincidental to ask me to rush the goods! Who could have predicted that several machine tools would break down in one day and cause production delays? In order to produce normally, normal machine tools would have to work faster! I rushed with an empty stomach and full of passion! It was so strong!

So what did I end up with?

Well, in fact, there is a prelude to making an appointment with the master to help me check the network line problem.

I was supposed to call their company, and then a man answered.

"Hello, I'm a user of where and where. I want to ask, why can't I even go online these days?" I asked politely.

"Yes, why? I want to know why, I want to know why? We just got all the network problems right, and you called and said you couldn't get online! Why do you say?" he replied to me.

"I just made this call, and someone from your company called me before and asked if I could access the Internet, and I said that sometimes I can, sometimes I can't. After listening to that phone call, I couldn't get on the Internet once in a few days. "I speak for myself.

"Okay then, when are you free, I'll ask the master to come over and take a look at it for you!" his tone was still a little stiff.

I said that I had no time to work overtime at night, and when I got off work, they also got off work. So I prepared to make an appointment at noon the next day, and the master would come to help me see it in the evening.

Then, it hangs.

At noon the next day, I called to make an appointment.

The one who listened to the phone was still the man. But. When he found out that it was me, he was already much more polite than the day before. I don't know why?

In the evening, a little master came to help me watch. It turned out that the network cable was aging. It needs to be changed, but he doesn't have the key. So, it needs to be until noon the next day.

This little master is very talkative, and he is very responsible, and the service attitude is very good.

I said a lot of thank you to him. He said it was good that I didn't scold him. Because he was just scolded by a bad-tempered user before coming to me, but the network cable was not installed by him, and he was scolded in vain, and he felt so wronged.

I politely sent him off anyway and rushed to work myself.

By noon that day, as soon as I got off work, he called me. We left the phone.

In a hurry, I rushed back. Busy, he quickly helped me pull the new network cable. Moreover, his smile never left his face.

He said that the midday hours were very busy, and several users were scheduled for that time.

I said that he worked so hard, and praised him for being so patient.

Finally, send him off with a smile. I suddenly thought, I'm so lucky! Half of the luck factor is natural, and half of it is my temper. So many people asked him out, but I was the first person he looked for. Perhaps, as he said, I have a good temper.

Although I didn't eat, I still hurriedly soaked noodles and ate them.

Rhinitis is a sorrow, I just pour seasoning, but it will cause my nose to sneeze and runny nose, very uncomfortable!

Hurry to finish eating, hurry to work.

When I was about to walk into the workshop, I felt that my nose was runny again, uncomfortable, and I wiped it with my hand, it was red. Sure enough, there was a nosebleed! It is estimated that it should be a fire from eating instant noodles.

The situation was very chaotic, and after hastily solving the nosebleed problem, I hurriedly continued to rush the goods.

In a hurry, I was already trying my best to catch up! However, the powerful "beast" said that I was so slow, so they kept urging me to hurry.

I was so hungry and physically exhausted, and I was already in a trance. They push me so hard, it makes me so irritable! I hate being bound by this rush feeling!

If people's food and clothing problems are not satisfied, it is easy to think crankily, and their willpower is relatively weak. So, I started complaining while rushing.

However, after dinner, my mood was slightly more normal.

I started to say to myself, don't you want to grow? Isn't God helping you grow now? You know that you are weak, and if you want to grow up quickly, you have to hurry up. Heaven wants you to keep catching up, doesn't it just want you to grow up quickly? In that case, why should you complain?

Thinking about it, my mind is balanced.

After that, the goods were successfully finished before the end of work. The Beast squad leader even allowed me to leave work early. Others, they have to go to work.

So, sometimes luck is really in your own hands.

After getting off work, on a long stretch of road out of the door of the company, I took a look at WeChat.

I saw the dynamics of my class president's shoes in college, and the dynamics are her current life status, which is full of positive energy.

She was the best I had ever seen in my school days, and she was the most like a class leader. She always brings a lot of positive energy. In my eyes, her optimism is like a little sun, often shining brightly.

When I think of my optimism, it's a bit like moonlight, relying on the sun's light and reflecting a dim light. Unpredictable and fickle.

I often post some quirky moods and pictures to the button space to delight myself, a bit of grandstanding. Shoes said not long ago that if she could do it all over again, she wouldn't choose my current path.

Yes, she's an extrovert and I'm an introvert. One is the sun and the other is the moon. One is day and the other is night. One is group fun, and the other is solo fun. One is the blue sky and white clouds, and the other is a little starlight...... I don't know which one is better, but I think the one that suits you is the best.

As the shoes say, everyone has their own ambitions. In the same way, if I could do it all over again, and I had the ability to choose, I would still choose my path. Why? Because that's the path I chose.

With a little bit of starlight, I can more or less still be able to romantize my lonely heart. Rattle......

While taking a shower, I looked curiously at my armpits. Well, it's a bit of a junior high school student's level!

Suck hard, ahh......h

Isn't that faint "fragrance" the legendary masculinity?

Ha ha......

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