Money, pathologically tugging at me.

It's not that I'm using the money, it's the money that is using me. Those fears, those entanglements, those worries that are ridiculous to the extreme, are so easy to pull me.

Like, since you're worried about running out of money, you're trying to earn money. This in itself is a fear-driven behavior, not to say anything bad, just untrue.

I save money, no problem, it's just a personal habit. It's like someone likes to use five sheets of paper after, and someone likes to use three sheets of paper. It's not a problem, the point is, I'm being kidnapped with money.

Save money, calculate how much you use, then it should be over. Instead of pulling there all the time, pestering there all the time.

Is this something that can be solved with more money?

It's just a solution to this problem, but in fact, it's not a step forward at all. It just circled around fear, but it didn't kill anything at all.

Not to solve the problem, but to destroy the problem.

Without the role of Yuan Changwen, there would be no problems. Since the characters are just fake, I can completely discard these things. Pulling me emotionally, whether it's fear or worry, is a means to keep me asleep.

If you want to be a better character, maybe you need to solve problems at the problem level, such as trying to earn money when you don't have money. But with regard to slashing, it is only an escape, a futility of letting fear drive and ignoring the source of fear, just struggling with the content of fear.

This fear is coming, and this fear is resolved. That fear comes, resolve that fear. As long as there are characters, as long as there are twists in the mind, then there is never a time to get rid of fear.

Of course, this is just my guess.

Yuan Changwen felt his calmness, and that sense of devouring was slowly weakening, and he didn't know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. However, since the picture elements are presented in this way, it means that it can only be like this at the moment.

That doesn't mean I'm going to stay the same, or that I have to change. No matter what rules I set in advance, it was just my own guess, and I just wanted to approve a framework in advance so that the characters could enter.

What you will do is only known when it happens. Moreover, if I had already finished killing at that time, I would have been able to easily go downstream, and this kind of problem would naturally not be a problem.

Like when to, there is no need to ask at all and there is no need to make any plans.

That inner tension had to be slashed, and it was something that dragged me down. It's obviously not real, I'm not real, that money is a fart.

But in fact, it's as if that money is more important than life. If there was a progress bar where I could easily see how much body I had hurt because of my struggle, maybe it would change that.

However, it is not clear that the madness of human nature cannot be predicted at all. Who knows exactly how the elements of the picture will be presented?

It is clear that money can be arrogant in the head, which is completely baseless and ridiculous. It's all emotions that drive all this. Fear that you don't have money, fear that the image of the character can't be maintained. If I'm the only one in the world, who cares if I have money or not?

In fact, I'm really the only one.

Can I be sure that someone else really exists? No.

All the opinions of other people, the eyes of others, are just "I think". If I really am the only one living on earth, in order not to be lonely, I have created all these other people to behave like me.

In this way, I will still take these other people as real. will take the world as real, then take itself as real, and start to indulge in the whole life.

I don't know, even if it's infinitely distorted, I don't know if anyone else exists.

It's just a compromise to think that infinity is twisted into limitations, and that there is a character walking in this world. In fact, I don't know if that's the case.

That awareness is everything, something I can be sure of, "I exist."

So, is there no one else? I don't know.

None of this is true, "there are others" is not real, and "there are no others" is not true.

Unable to stand on either side of the duality, no matter which side is false, no matter how reasonable it is, no matter how many people agree, it cannot change this fact. I also retain a lot of positions, hold on to them with strong emotions, grasp these distortions.

keeps making up stories, and constantly makes the character of Yuan Changwen show various images in the story. Characters need to interact, whether they step on others or become a victim of drama, as long as someone can interact with the character, then it is a very good state.

This is the role of Yuan Changwen replenishing energy, anytime, anywhere, at any time, without any restrictions on the venue and environment, and even in the toilet. I'm dragged along by this shit, pulled by this unreal thing, and I think it's okay.

There's no reason for me to sit down and rest, even if I don't have any weight at the moment, even if my mind is much less distorted at the moment. However, I'm still not done, and I don't think I've gotten rid of the falsehood.

Look, there are still so many things arrogant in my head, I actually feel that there is nothing to kill? The false power is so terrifying that I can't resist at all.

But on the other hand, there is no such thing as the inexplicable force, the power that makes me fall into falsehood and makes me sleep, and it does not exist in itself. Everything is just a representation of the elements of the picture, is there anything else that qualifies for existence besides that awareness?

So, there is not a single me at all, and there is not a single me who has been deceived and misled, and there is no one who has been bound. It's just presented like that, it's that simple.

I'm scared, it seems that no character image can be damaged in any way, no matter what the content is, the character's attributes can't be killed anyway.

Obviously ready, obviously can be thrown away, but he is always on the verge of fear. Reason has no meaning of existence, it is only a kind of obstacle. Only madness is the best companion.

The judgment of thinking is not worth mentioning, let alone using thinking to guess what is going with the flow, which is simply absurd to the extreme. Let what should happen, cut off the tension in your heart, that's just a distortion in your head.

Stories, too many stories. Those distortions that seem to be full of reason are there to pretend, as if they are the only truth in the world. It's hilarious, when is prejudice also qualified to feign truth there?

It's not over yet, and I can't even confirm if it's going to start. The teacher always emphasized the "first step", and I always wanted to make sure that I had taken the first step.

But how can I be sure? I can only guess and see if I fit the teacher's map. It's ridiculous, I don't know, I don't know, why do I have to confirm it?

And, can I really confirm it?