"For Whose Satisfaction" -

It's hard for me to be a happy version of myself. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

I love freedom, and I will give myself a free world. In this free world, I would allow myself to travel with my inner feelings. However, I also have requirements for myself, and while I have freedom, I must also "contribute" to freedom.

The so-called "contribution" is the nourishment that my spiritual world needs, that is, to make progress on the spiritual level. For example, writing songs, singing, writing, drawing, dancing, and other actions that can make the soul feel truly happy.

Freedom is rare, and "contribution" is not easy to give. It doesn't feel like a call will come out anytime and anywhere.

My "three-minute heat" brought me a lot of fresh joy, but it also made me give up halfway.

I've wanted to change it many times, but in the process of changing it, I find that it's very unfamiliar.

How I wish I had been a person of perseverance, but character interrupted my hope. Or, I can change my personality to become persistent. However, there are gains and losses. Who's to say that when I become persistent, I won't become someone I don't like?

Although I am not satisfied with myself, I like my truest self, what about the "three-minute heat"? I just haven't touched the "sun" of life.

As the spiritual world becomes more and more in contact with the real world, the nutrients that the heart needs become more and more scarce. I need to "contribute" more to my spiritual world, but the factors of the real world will continue to destroy my hopes.

Accumulated again and again, the spiritual world has become very empty. If the world of the mind does not turn well, my mind will be very depressed, and my whole person will be listless.

The real-world factors that hinder the rotation of the spiritual world are mostly the love between people. Family, friendship, love, favor, etc. These feelings are very important! That's why there will be entanglements.

When the spiritual world needs nourishment, there will be the traction of love around you, which will make you temporarily give up the help of your heart because of love. In other words, for the sake of love, indirectly hurt yourself and sit idly by and ignore yourself.

The greater the hope of love, the more afraid he will be. When the spiritual world is extremely lacking in nutrients, doing something that overloads one's soul often results in disappointment and guilt.

Sometimes, in order to settle for love, he even became the person he once hated. However, if you ignore your feelings and look for "nutrition" for your heart, you will find that you will become the person you once hated the most!

Therefore, it is more difficult for me to be a self that satisfies others!

Life is not long, live, for whose satisfaction?

"Piece Language" -

The sky is blue and clear.

"Auntie, is Uncle your first love?"

"Yes. Auntie smiled.

"So is Uncle's first love you?"

"Yes, it was your uncle who wrote to chase me before. After that, your uncle went to Hainan and met a young man named Li Hezhen and wanted to soak in someone's house. As for me, ignore your uncle, he will soak if he wants. I'll wait for him to get married, and I'll start over again. I don't make noise, I know what is mine is mine, not mine, and it won't be mine. It's like, I put a lot of money into growing vegetables, and growing vegetables naturally hopes to have a big harvest. But it's impossible to do everything, even if there is no big harvest, it doesn't matter, the price of vegetables is mediocre, as long as there is production, you can also earn a few hundred yuan a day......" Auntie's words are all the wisdom she has only studied in elementary school and has been groping for her own heart.

After listening to this, I suddenly wanted to know if my aunt was a beautiful woman when she was young? What would happen if I traveled back to my aunt's youth? I felt that I had something to write about.

I envy my uncles and aunts, who can go from first love to a lifetime! I feel so happy to be their crystallization!

Listening to Auntie talk about how Uncle spent his heart when he was young, Uncle was smirking beside him. I think it's so warm, it's so warm and funny.

I wish I could say these funny things to my children in the future, your mother used to ......

The sky is gray and gloomy.

"The Words of the Year" -

The memories of the years have turned into bits and pieces of broken words, and they are beautiful.

"Auntie, how did Uncle write a letter to chase you, and what is the general content of the letter?"

"It's been so long that I can't remember it. At that time, when your uncle wrote to chase me, I was only nineteen years old. ”

"Did Uncle say he liked you or something?"

Auntie smiled.

"I remember that your uncle mentioned in the letter that after reading the letter, whether you accept it or not, you must burn the letter. ”

"Why did you burn the letter?"

"Because we were very conservative in our old days, if the letter was found, there would be a lot of girls talking about it. Your uncle loves face!"

"And then, how do you respond?"

"I wrote back to him in the living room, and your little uncle saw it and said 'this dead girl'!" the aunt described with laughter.

"Why does my little uncle say that about you?"

"Because I'm replying in the living room, how can I be so blatant?"

I just understood a little bit in a daze, oh...... I see.

"So, Auntie, did you like Uncle at that time?"

"Yes, I like your uncle. ”

"Then what do you like about Uncle?" I felt as if I was interviewing.

"Well, I don't know what I like about your uncle. Your uncle and I are usually noisy when we meet. You also know that your uncle always rarely laughs, and often gives people a feeling of indifference. I really don't know what I like about your uncle. Auntie replied naturally.

Perhaps, liking someone is so natural. I don't know what I like, but I just like it.

"How did Uncle get up with you later?" I continued with the family-style awkward interview.

"Well, first of all, your aunt and I used to be chased, but I don't like it. Later, after your uncle wrote to me, they were not together. Until then, my family needed money because of the land. And at that time, your grandfather asked someone to bring gift money to the matchmaker, wanting me to be with your uncle. Everything was just right, just what I wanted. Your uncle originally wrote to chase me, and I like your uncle too. And just like that, we were together. "Auntie seems to be talking to me about the plot of the TV series.

"Wouldn't it?!such fate?!" I can't believe that fate in the TV series would appear so cleverly on my parents.

Perhaps, fate is so wonderful. Or, I boldly imagined that the fate of my uncle and aunt would have appeared to pave the way for the fate of me and my future partner? Otherwise, how would I have the opportunity to come to this world? Huhu, I like to think too much.

"Uh-huh, Auntie, then how did Uncle marry you later?"

"After I was with your uncle, your uncle went to Hainan to work. It was during that time that he met that female intellectual!Your uncle is so sweet, I still want to make other girls!" Auntie really "never forgets" that female intellectual, haha!

Go on......

Later, the activity of going to the mountains and going to the countryside ended, and the female intellectuals returned to Maoming. Your uncle is still working in Hainan. Fortunately, this is the case, otherwise your uncle might be with that female intellectual! Of course, that female intellectual's family has only one daughter, so the person who marries her in the end must be rich. Your uncle may not be with her because he doesn't want to get involved!" "When Auntie talks about that female intellectual, she always has a very special weird and funny expression.

"After that, when your uncle came back to his hometown from Hainan for the New Year, he rode me to Gaozhou on a bicycle, more than ten kilometers away. After the Chinese New Year, he went to Hainan to work again. After a while, he told me to go to Hainan. At the time, I was twenty-three years old. So, I went to Hainan to look for him. After that, there will be your big sister. Auntie was still smiling.

"Huh, so you're married?" I was really speechless to myself......

"Isn't that a marriage?!" the aunt replied forcefully.

I smiled and nodded.

Auntie continued: "I really didn't expect that after marrying your uncle, he would be so good to me. It's up to me to do anything, he does whatever I tell him to do, and never loses his temper with me. I really can't see that your uncle's person who doesn't have much smile on his face would be so considerate to me. ”

I thought to myself: Uncle is really my idol! Deep love is not on the surface, but in the depths of the heart, I love my lover tightly.

At the end of the conversation, Auntie suddenly remembered something, and said with a laugh: "In addition to asking me to burn the letter I read in the letter, your uncle also had this sentence at the end, which is also your wish, my hope." ”

A good phrase "Your wishes, my hopes." "Uncle is powerful! Uncle is mighty!

Watching the picture of Auntie continuing to make Uncle laugh with these topics, I am so happy!

The passage of time conveys the beauty to my heart.

Looking at the sky, what about my fate, what about my marriage, what about my deep love?

I'm waiting for you to say what you want, to light up my hope.

Broken language, the language of the year.