It was 3:40 a.m. Phnom Penh time and I had insomnia......

I don't know why, I've tried so hard to sleep, but I just can't fall asleep. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

Insomnia, for me, generally only occurs in four situations.

The first is that the sleeping routine is reversed day and night, the second is that the mood is very happy or very sad, the third is that the body is not feeling well, and the fourth is disturbed by others.

I thought about it, and it seemed that none of these four situations had arisen. So why do I have insomnia......?

Well, then keep chasing the dream.

I called home the night before and got the bad news: my aunt's sister, my aunt, had gone to another world.

At that time, the image that flashed in my mind was when I was in elementary school, my aunt always praised me for being well-behaved and gave me a lot of red envelopes. Auntie's kind smile is still clear in my mind.

Unexpectedly, the disease quietly devoured her life......

I haven't seen her in a long time. In this way, it becomes a permanent ......

However, my aunt had left a month earlier. My aunt had endured her sadness in the phone calls she had talked to me every week for the previous month, without letting me notice it.

Actually, it was quite strange to talk to my aunt on the phone the previous month, it was completely different from before, it always seemed like something was hidden, but I didn't know what it was. If asked, there will be no answer. Moreover, the time to chat on the phone is very short. That's what I don't get used to......

The night before that day, my aunt and I seemed to feel a little better talking on the phone, maybe after a month, the mood was a little calmer. That's why I started telling me the news that my aunt is gone.

My aunt's impression in my heart is good, but all the time I spent with my aunt when we met and spent time together may not be enough for three days. In other words, my aunt and I usually have a short meeting because of some banquets, and the number of times is not much. Therefore, my heart does not have the sadness in my aunt's heart.

If Auntie told me the news that Auntie was gone when she was very sad, then I would be very upset. Because I don't want my aunt to be sad.

But my aunt took care of me, and she was already very sad the month before that time, but she had to endure her sadness and pretend that nothing had happened to her and talked to me on the phone for a few minutes. Those few minutes were a short time for me, but they were a long time for my aunt who was holding back her sadness. She just didn't want the sadness to infect me......

The night before, my aunt's mood was peaceful, so when I heard the news that my aunt was gone, I felt very sorry, but I didn't feel strongly sad.

The aunt is so good, but God did not let her live to be over eighty years old. May she live well in another world......

It was 4:36 a.m. Phnom Penh time, so I'd better get some sleep...... Good night......

Time goes on.

It was a grey morning......

Insomnia didn't fall asleep until more than four o'clock in the morning, resulting in oversleeping in the morning and being more than 20 minutes late, and being scolded by Sister Lina.

If you want to blame, blame yourself for inexplicable insomnia. Moreover, I just ran into the muzzle of Sister Lina's gun, which was particularly angry recently. This, at all, is the rhythm of looking for death!

Whew, that's it. If it's your own fault, you'll be punished.

Luckily, I can do most of what she asks me to do. So he was sent out with a car to pull goods...... Perhaps, this is the only way to get the credit off.

I have only slept for more than two hours, and my mental outlook is certainly not much better. Maybe because of this, unhappy things continue to find me.

In the process of riding in the car, I suddenly saw Gan's screen name in the comments. That screen name has been so profound that it is like seeing the five-star red flag of the motherland in a foreign country. So, I'll check out what she commented right away......

Then, the sentence "Then it is over." Never Footprint!" filled my eyes with a striking eye......

Looking at what she commented, it turned out to be a log that I didn't think she would see. That big exclamation mark was like a sharp sword in my chest. It turns out that it can still be so painful......

It stands to reason that she shouldn't see it. However, Aries is not logical for her......

Yes, I didn't expect her to see that journal I wrote about emotions, and I didn't expect her to be so angry to leave one last comment.

If she hadn't seen it, or if she had read it and left no trace and stopped entering my mind, then I could have gone on normally.

I'm so selfish, I only care about my feelings......

I don't know what kind of mood she was in when she read that journal, she only seemed to see the words that I could no longer be friends with her and didn't want her to continue to enter my spiritual world, but I didn't see the most important sentence in that journal: Although I still don't understand what love is, I think she is the only girl who has ever loved me with all her heart.

My immaturity lies in the fact that my feelings are only in words, not in action. That's why there's so much sentimentality.

Whew, Heaven, please tell me, why is this happening?

Originally, as long as she ignored me again, then I could concentrate on chasing my dreams. But at that time, there was a gap in my heart again. Wasn't it a long time ago? How could it have been a final stop at that time?

Perhaps, I am just practicing myself. Wouldn't it be nice to write an emotional journal for no reason, and bury it in your heart?

However, if I am like that, it will not be me. I wrote it to see the will of God, and I didn't expect that the will of God really liked me and her as if I were separated......

Perhaps, there was some agreement in the previous life......

If she reads that journal and then silently stops entering my psyche, then I think she's really mature. However, she angrily left a sentence like "never", so she was like a child.

The little Aries child has a straightforward personality, happy is happy, angry is angry......

It was the first time since I met her that I felt like a child.

It's changed, and the world has changed again. My heart has changed again......

It wasn't gray that morning, it was me gray.

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