I think the distortions in my brain are useful because they do happen.

That's it?

However, the useful part is also only the visual element that is perceived at the moment. In other words, if someone modifies my memory to make me think that apples are inedible, and puts all kinds of previous news about eating apples into my head, I believe that eating apples will be poisoned?!

"Look, that's how realistic society is. ”

"Obviously, such a simple junior high school physics. ”

"There are so many reports, can't you see them?"

"I was like that before, useful, and everybody. ”

I always overlook the key point that "there is something wrong with the brain", it's like eating with half a bowl, you can't say half a bowl can't eat, right? But why trust a brain that is already in trouble?

If I'm God, this memory problem with the brain is a clear hint that don't trust the brain.

I can't write down all the details, there are things I want to remember but can't. However, my choice is based on the cognitive foundation and knowledge reserve of the brain, isn't it nonsense?

Or do I think that the things I can't remember don't affect the outcome of my choices? If so, why is it still the way it is? Or is it decades before I get there?

Perhaps, there is no hope in this life.

It seems that I have never been content to admit that I want to be ordinary. It's like, I want to make money, I want to work hard, and become a standard for a person. As a human being, I have to have a dream, I have to work hard to earn money, and I have to carry something for my family.

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Why not be satisfied with your ordinariness?

Perhaps, ambition is the key to the progress of human civilization. If everyone thinks like I do, will human civilization still have a chance to fly out of its home planet?

I do not know.

But I know that those so-called dreams are nothing but fear, and those goals are all for the sake of achievement. Think about the time, some wishes are really just for fun, that kind of heartbeat, and I don't think about any money, the way back, etc.

It seems that I always don't dare. There are too many voices in my head to dissuade that this path is not right, that road is not good, what to do in the future and so on. Of course, there is nothing wrong with thinking this way, because there is no such thing as free will, so I can only think this way.

However, I didn't always think that "everything is inevitable" or understand that "the words and deeds of the character of Yuan Changwen are all set".

In fact, when I think so, those anxieties and fears tend to decrease a lot. The so-called surrender is to accept one's fate, that is, to see oneself in a certain state.

No matter how the mind plans, all roads are full of flaws. Because the brain itself is flawed, even the perfect plan is just a kind of. In that case, why not throw away your brains?

"Hard work is not necessarily successful, and if you don't work hard, you will definitely not succeed. ”

"What's impossible in this world?"

It's all nonsense in my head, and my brain doesn't belong to me at all, but to this era and to the empire. Because what I have in my head is not what I found at all, but what someone else instilled in me.

Sadly, I was so mentally retarded that I didn't even think about it, and just smiled and accepted all the ideas. Well, not all, those who don't accept the idea have only one effect, which is to prove that they seem to think before putting things in their heads.

That's shit.

Yuan Changwen couldn't believe it, how stupid was he in the past, so that he couldn't even see through such a simple thing?

It's all about fear, it's the fear of that bewitching woman that makes me think, what to hold on to in fear. And the shit in my head became the only thing I could grasp.

I was terrified by the ridiculous imagination. It seems that those imaginations of the future are quite reasonable, and the tool for judging "very reasonable" is still my damaged brain.

So, what exactly is all this doing?

Once the time is removed, I don't know anything at all.

Depend on!

Yuan Changwen only now realized that I didn't know anything other than "I exist", what the meaning of this sentence was. There is no need to think hard about any theoretical loopholes, and there is no need to say some logical words that go around in circles to prove anything.

Removal time, that's enough.

All knowledge, all cognition, all memories are in the past, and they are all picture elements that are perceived in the present moment. Since it is impossible to determine the existence of time, the pictorial elements about the past are simply not trustworthy.

In this case, there is no more, there is nothing. What pictorial elements are not about the past? What can I perceive about the present? Whatever I think is the present, when I am aware of it, it is already in the past.

At the moment, there is only that awareness.

Time does not exist in the first place, and the so-called time is only an illusion produced by the elements of the picture that are perceived at the moment. That misleading, that unbelievable sense of realism, made me feel like time was ticking.

Strictly speaking, it's not about removing time, it's about standing at this moment, and removing those elements of the picture naturally leads to the removal of time. No matter what the pictorial element I perceive, the pictorial element has to happen before I can be aware.

Or rather, my mind is always half a beat slower than that awareness. For example, I'm falling in a lake. When I realize that "I am falling in the lake", in fact, I am already aware that "I am aware that I am falling in the lake". ”

That awareness is the only truth, and how can I possibly grasp it in this false world?

Yuan Changwen fell into the lake, and suddenly thought of a very interesting idea, how do I know that the empire really exists? How do I know that the planet really exists? How do I know that there is really something outside this lake?

When I leave the lake, when I stand on the starship and look at the planet, how can I prove that I really fell into the depths of the lake before?

No, those perceived elements of the picture are not worth mentioning. I don't know where these things come from, even though the graphic elements have always seemed real. Moreover, the switching of picture elements is so smooth that you don't suspect anything at all.

Even, using the word "switch" is itself misleading.

I'll never know if the elements are switching, if they're changing, because I can't know if I'm actually there.

This moment is eternity.

Yuan Changwen slowly opened his hands and let the lake lead him to the depths. It was as if it was not a path to death, but a beautiful and warm home.

I don't know, I shouldn't have known.