What's going on inside?

Who led me down this path?

If all thinking and behavior are attributes of the role, if all words and deeds come from the self-definition in the mind, then the accumulation of so many years is pushing this step.

Anything that happens, is a preparation for this step. But who's in control of what is happening? Any slight change in anything over the years would have changed dramatically in the roles that have been played out now.

Could it be that the character just started by chance, in a series of accidental collisions, to start this suicidal thinking?

What is chance, and what is necessity?

Suddenly, it felt as if these two words were describing something.

If it means by chance, in the future, the probability of something happening is very small. Necessity, on the other hand, means that there is a high probability that something will happen in the future. These two terms, then, are misleading. Since it's all probability, the word "inevitably" seems to mean 100% probability, which is obviously absurd.

If an accident describes something that happened in the past, it is "accidental". And other things that happened in the past are "inevitable". Well, that's.

How can it be an accident that everything has already happened? Is it just because something happens very few times that even if it happens, I consider it "accidental"?

Isn't what has already happened "inevitable"?

What is the basis for judging the magnitude of probability? It is the cognition and knowledge reserve in my head, and the false self-definition makes me think that I know the world and the universe by myself. As a result, some things are judged to be small probability events and some are high probability events.

Taking it a step further, it seems very unexpected to directly judge something as inevitable that it does not happen. But the fact that I judged something to be accidental is a distortion in itself. "Oops, this kind of thing is just so accidental, it's just an accident. ”

This kind of statement is completely based on the information reserve in my head. If I don't have any summary of the whole universe, if I don't think I have the laws of mastery, then these things happen, it just happens.

Something happens too few times, or the factors required for something to happen are too rare, so it happens by chance.

So, once we have all the information, even a series of information about atoms, electrons, quarks, and so on, will this kind of complete and omniscient mastery think that this kind of accident is actually inevitable?

What happens is inevitable, so what doesn't happen and what will happen in the future?

I don't know, all affirmative sentences about the future are assumptions and speculations, which may happen according to our cognition, but more often than not, they are beyond our cognition. If most of the things are under our control, who is anxious? Who is afraid?

The character wants to be in control, but the meaning of control is to show off. "You see, when I was very good, I was completely different from what everyone else was. What is the present, and what do I think will be in the future? ”

The use of the word "I feel" is nothing more than modesty, in fact, to show off the attributes of the character, "Look, how humble I am, you don't have to argue about anything." ”

The so-called "I think" is basically "Don't disagree with me, Lao Tzu is very powerful, so what I think the future will be, basically what the future will be." ”

And the three words "basically" are just leaving a way back for themselves. Even if the future doesn't happen as it was said, in order to maintain the powerful attributes of this character, desperately look for other words that were said at the beginning. You see, I have not heard much of the words "I have said what I have said"?

Oh, my God!

How many more are distorted in my mind? Now I can see necessity and chance, and how many more are there that I didn't even notice? Perceptions based on false self-definitions allow me to divide the world into fragments, inducing me to grasp at certain fragments and show off with recklessness.

As I understand it, the world is as it is. And where did my understanding come from? With so many years of shit, those memories, experiences, cognitions, and information reserves?

Why do I blame the world for dividing the world? Why do I curse the incompleteness of the world when I am dividing the world?

Ridiculous!

There has never been a time when I felt that my eyes were so rubbish, my understanding so disgusting, and my opinions stenched like this.

Well, it's this hatred of self-definition that keeps me going.

This kind of view, that kind of concept, such a summary, and that kind of cognition are all false. Telling others this and that, and accepting disciples, I am completely delaying others.

Everyone lives with a mask, and everyone thinks that there is a "true self" under the mask, but in fact, there is still a mask under the mask. The character will not let me kill so easily, there is no "true self" at all, and all the masks are blocking the "no self".

Those most basic kindness and virtues also belong to the pattern of the mask, and they are also the attributes of the character.

What is really true?

Those views, those understandings of the world, those recognitions of laws, the "you don't understand this" that I once despised makes me feel disgusting when I think about it now. It seems that if I can explain how certain things work, it will seem that this character is very powerful. If you know a little bit of history, it's like a lot of history.

And these self-definitions do not tolerate any denigration. If someone denies my honor, he will be greeted with anger. I have done this kind of thing many times, and I have defended the role of Yuan Changwen many times, even if I obviously lose, I have to find a way back on the other hand.

What is the use of knowledge?

Tsk, I'm actually on the opposite side of knowledge? Unfortunately, I'm not crazy. Every time I feel angry, it seems that something is blocking the anger and then quickly shifting emotions, is it a mechanism for the character to automatically prevent him from going crazy?

Just like just now, the hatred had already risen, and I felt like I was about to lose control, and before I could let go, I was transferred to the hatred.

There are too many opinions, life should be like this and shouldn't be like that, this thing should be like this, you as my wife should be like this, that thing will happen like this...... Noisy!

"Ahh

Yuan Changwen roared, as if he was venting his dissatisfaction, as if he wanted to fight but no one responded.

Those self-definitions quietly hid aside, so that Yuan Changwen could not find an enemy to attack. It's obviously false, but you still control my life, you don't deserve it!

This roar startled Lao Zhang.

Click!

Pulling the bolt, the surrounding warriors immediately raised their guns and entered the battle state.

Yuan Changwen looked at each other coldly and looked at each other one by one.

Hum!

The spiritual power exploded in an instant, like a light wave expanding outward, and all the surrounding warriors died.