Chapter 51: Fever (51)
I've heard that people who think too much are prone to depression......
What should I do? As rich as my imagination, I will be kidnapped by melancholy every minute.
If I had the capital, it would make sense to kidnap me. However, my brother is now very close to "empty".
It's not your goal, but you want to keep an eye on me.
Well, "Mingming" and "Biao" may be in the same group......
Forget it, it's not their fault, if you want to blame it, you can blame yourself for your poor self-control.
If it weren't for poor self-control, how could the imagination run wild like a wild horse and be difficult to tame?
In short, thinking too much is a disease, a mental illness.
Thinking too much made me a person with low self-esteem. Oh no, sometimes arrogant, sometimes narcissistic, sometimes confident, sometimes inferior...... It's just that low self-esteem accounts for the largest proportion.
Now that I am in my hometown, I naturally have many relatives at home, but I almost never take the initiative to go to my relatives' houses to play, I just want to stay at home alone and do whatever I want.
Why don't you go to a relative's house to play?
Because I have low self-esteem, which frightens me and easily puts me in an embarrassing situation, I avoid going to my relatives' house.
Why do you have low self-esteem?
Naturally, it is because of thinking too much, and thinking too much in the direction is more directed towards the rich and the poor.
For me, there are two kinds of rich and poor.
One is whether the external economic ability can satisfy life, while the other is whether the inner spiritual world is rich.
People who are rich but inherently barren are called local tyrants, have you ever seen a local tyrant throw money away, will they feel inferior?
A person who has no money, but is very rich inside, is called a saint, and since he is a saint, why is he inferior?
People who are rich and intrinsically rich are called rich, and the minimum condition for becoming rich is self-confidence and not inferiority.
Well, nowadays, whether it is external or internal, I belong to the "lack". This does not mean that I have to be rich or very rich to meet the external requirements, at least I can have my own financial ability and support a family, but now I don't have ......
So, I have the hidden danger of depression......
I went grocery shopping this morning and saw a very familiar figure......
Clean shawl with short hair, orange t-shirt. Well, coupled with the familiar contours of her face, I thought that after many years, I would meet her again.
No, I'm not sure if she's Di or not.
But, a lot like a lot like that.
The distance between me and her, about 10 meters.
These 10 meters are dreamy and distant 10 meters.
Moreover, I rode by on "Little Lucky", and the feeling of eye confirmation was only a few blinks of an eye.
So, in the end, I don't know if she's Di or not.
It's so familiar.
If she is Di, then the child next to her should be her child, and she will also be a mother.
If she were Di, would I stop and say hello to her?
If she were Di, would she still happily call me "oolong"?
However, even if she was Di, I don't think I would have the courage to stop and say hello to her, and I was full of inferiority complex.
Moreover, the "oolong" is not the original "oolong" anymore...... You've grown taller...... Ha ha......
Besides, where are so many ifs?
I also don't know how to treat my "thinking too much", after all, too sick......
Finally, I really like a song I found when I was a freshman in high school - "Thinking Too Much".
It's that I think too much, you always say this, but you don't, I really feel sorry for me......