It's going to rain, and you can avoid it, but your world is already wet;

Fate is going to be scattered, you can save it, but your happiness has changed. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

It's not that you don't cherish it, it's just that at a certain stage, your immature self doesn't know how to cherish it.

Maybe I gave you the best of myself, but not what you wanted.

It's like a quote I read before: I just want a banana, but you think you love me so much and give me a cart of apples. But I just want a banana.

What a terrible thing it would be to live in college if you didn't know how to play with the computer.

As a freshman, I really didn't know how to play the computer, and even basic typing was a problem.

Luckily, there were computer lessons. Actually, the real benefit I gained in computer class was that I developed a good habit of typing without looking at the keyboard.

The computer teacher said that this is very important, and that you must learn to use your senses to deduce the position of the keys.

I did it, slowly extrapolating with my feelings, tapping it. It was a slow learner, but in the end it was successful. It laid the foundation for me to be able to play the computer piano in the future......

Well, once I learned to play a little bit of the computer, I would go to the school Internet café and play single-player games online.

Sometimes when I'm very engaged, Gan just calls, and I don't want to talk much. As a result, lying is rampant. It seems that play is still in my nature!

After a long time, Gan was very unhappy, and I often played games online. Well, in order for her to be happy, I will go less......

We talk every day, until the wee hours of the morning, and I don't ask to hang up first, unless something happens. Because, I'm afraid she's not happy.

I was very unconfident at the time, and of course I am now, but I was extremely unconfident at that time. How can you not be confident? Afraid to answer the phone in a place with many people. For example, in the dining hall, or in the car. Because I don't like people to hear me talk on the phone, and I'm afraid of other people's strange eyes.

So when I get a call from Gan in the dining hall or in the car, I always make an excuse to convince Gan that I haven't had time to talk to her at that time, so that she can hang up.

Weakness is a disease. When you are too sick, you hurt those who love you.

If you talk too much, you will have nothing to talk about. Sometimes, even she doesn't know what to talk about. Indeed, we talk so much every day, as if we want to finish all the things we can talk about, and then leave an empty space to be quiet.

So, when there was nothing to talk about, she would call me to talk about my past.

So, she was the first to snoop into my secrets. She knows me more than my uncle and aunt know about me. If I have 100 percent secrets, then she already knows 80 percent of my secrets.

Sometimes, I am afraid that she will be bored, and I will deliberately tease her, saying that I have seen a beautiful woman.

Then she would be jealous: "Go, go to them!

But I didn't know at the time that if I was jealous too much, there would be a "chemical reaction", which would slowly corrode the relationship between the two.

I forgot which time period, Pan Chen from "Happy Girl" came to our college to sing!

Although I didn't know who Pan Chen was at the time, I was excited when I heard that he was a star!

It was night, and I was chatting with Gan on the phone while going to see Pan Chen. Probably attracted by the atmosphere of the scene, I didn't listen too carefully to Gan's words.

Moreover, I also told Gan that Pan Chen is so beautiful!

Then, she said coldly, "Then you can continue to watch!"

I know, she's not happy. So, I forced myself to leave the scene and go back to the dormitory, continue to talk to Gan, and said that I was wrong......

If I hadn't taken a picture at the time, I think I would have taken a lot of photos with my phone and posted them on the Internet.

Time went on, and my birthday was approaching.

She asked me what I wanted as a gift, and I said like a child, "I want a toy car." The remote-controlled kind. ”

She said, "Okay, I'll pick the time to buy it." ”

On the night of my birthday, she said she bought it, but it was the kind that looked like a two- or three-year-old kid playing.

I thought, am I so naïve? So I said no...... She decided to give the toys to her children.

I was a little unhappy because she didn't know me well enough. But how could I be angry? She was so careful to pick out a gift for me. Moreover, it is a shame for a big boy to ask his girlfriend to pay for a toy car! Is such a person a boy? How can he be angry?

I changed the subject and continued to talk happily with her, forgetting about the unhappiness.

Finally, there was a chat that went a little deeper......

At that time, it was cold, and I was chatting with her in the bed. It's also because it's cold, so it's easier to get sleepy. She's ready to sleep......

She said wait, she had to unwrap her clothes......

Hey, why? It's always tempting me......

Chat, chat, talked about buying underwear, and then talked about the color of underwear. And then, light blue!whew, my favorite color!!I always let out a perverted laugh......

She would smile a little and say, "Pervert!"

I'll confess, "Yes, I'm a pervert, but I'm a pervert with taste." It's not just random color, it's all special people. ”

She laughed: "I'm dizzy!"

In fact, in front of her, I never thought of having an image.

After that, she and I often took "biology classes". The so-called "biology class" is to understand the physiology of men and women.

She taught me a lot, for example, that milk is only available after a woman has given birth to a baby, and that it is a natural food for babies. She told me this very seriously. Indeed, until then, I really don't know.

Also, she let me know that as a boyfriend, I must know when my girlfriend's aunt is coming. What should the boyfriend do when he comes. It's really another world!

And what did she know from me? huh...... Haven't written yet.

Fast forward time, it's winter vacation, and I've passed Shenzhen.

Still calling every day, so, the family understands and knows Gan's name.?

As for the family's opinion, I asked me to take her home for the New Year.

Gan and I are not mentally prepared for this.

It's almost the Chinese New Year, and my extended family just made an appointment for a big reunion. Therefore, many relatives have returned to their hometowns. It's very lively!

In such an atmosphere, don't say that I don't dare to take Gan home, and Gan doesn't dare to go home with me.

It's the Chinese New Year, I spent it in Shenzhen, and I didn't go back to my hometown until the fourth day of the Lunar New Year. Gan knows.

So, on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, when I was still in the car, she kept in touch with me and asked me where I was.

That day, it was a bit cold. I only wore two clothes, a sweater as a base and an overcoat as the outer cover for me.

After getting off at the station, it was already afternoon. Gan said she was waiting for me at the Yuxing Department Store, not far from the new station.

I thought the coat was so ugly! and I didn't have anything else to spare, so I put on a sweater. Ah, uncle, aunt scolded me so uncomfortable! But, bear with me! Because, I love demeanor, not temperature.

Hurry, call a motorcycle, get on, go!

Whirring, the wind was so strong, my body was shaking. Look, love demeanor, right?!Afraid of the cold?!

When I arrived at my destination, I gave the money and quickly walked to the door of Yuxing Department Store. What about people?

Suddenly, someone on the left nudged me, and I looked over to see that it was her. Gan, who smiled a little shyly......

I smiled shyly too......

I thought it would be just me and her, after all, it was my first date with her.

However, almost all the other pigs in the pig's house came. Actually, I'm a little embarrassed. Because, I don't know all the other pigs. Only a few of them know a little. My quiet personality keeps me from moving well...... I'm uncomfortable in front of strangers.

After waiting for everyone, we went shopping. Gan also gave me a pair of socks, gray and black hand socks.

I put it on right away, and I felt very comfortable. But now that I look at it, I hate those socks so much. Because of the socks, I didn't really touch Gan.

Gan and I walked and walked, always a little embarrassed. Later, I took her right hand with my left hand, and it felt good, the first time I held a girl's hand!

We went for a headshot, and that was my first headshot.

The pig's house was filmed together, so I and Gan took it together.?

Draw the curtain, a space for two people, and finally have a space where there is only me and her.

She looked at me, her head bowed shyly. I gently grabbed her chin with my thumb and forefinger and slowly lifted it up. Actually, I've watched a lot of this picture on TV, but I haven't practiced it myself. Finally, I can do the same.

Then, it stands to reason that she should kiss her on the lips gently. But I ......

Immediately turned her face away and pointed at my face with her finger, meaning to ask her to kiss my face.

She lowered her head shyly again and said, "Don't!"

Since I wasn't going to force it, I took pictures. Think of something a little more elegant, like me dancing with her.

Time passed quickly, and my family called to urge me to go home, because night was approaching. If you don't go home, there will be no shuttle back.

When the photo came out, I took a copy. She sent me.

When I said goodbye to her, I hugged her on the side of the street where many people lived. It was also the first time I had hugged a girl. Still, there were too many clothes and too thick, and I couldn't even feel her temperature.

After turning to say goodbye, I drifted away. I really don't know, it could be the last time I'll see her.

When I got home, my family had finished eating. To avoid embarrassment, I lied and said I had already eaten.

After that, he starved for a night. In the New Year, I was starving, hey!

Luckily, Yougan chatted with me.

Yes, "biology class" again.

"I just heard a channel about health that said there was a case of a man who had a normal length of only five centimeters," she said. ”

I was so surprised: "No?!" Although, I don't know how long five centimeters is. Phew, I'm not sensitive to numbers.

She continued: "Yes, I'm also surprised! The experts inside said that the normal length of a man is generally more than 13 centimeters. ”

Hmm, 13 centimeters? I thought about it, how long is 13 centimeters? So, I found a 20-centimeter ruler and compared it. Think about my good Chinese brother again, huh? wouldn't it?!

Gan asked, "What are you doing?"

I said I'm looking for something......

On the other hand, I secretly took off my pants and measured it with a ruler, just 13 centimeters......

Gan seemed to know something, and said with a smile, "You won't be in ...... Hee-hee-hee!"

I replied honestly, "Yes, just 13 centimeters." Quack quack ......"

Yes, with her, I can talk like this without disguise. Because, naturally, I like it......

In a few days, she was going to work in Foshan. Want to see me.

However, due to some family factors, I did not send her. So, she was so sad.

Time jumps twice, I'm about to start school, but I'm going to visit my family.

I went to my aunt Lian's to get ready for my rich cousin's wedding.

While staying with Aunt Lian, I finally met my four sisters. In the past, I just saw her photos and thought she looked like a sister of the three families. When we really met, it tasted a little different.

The four sisters said that I was such a beautiful boy! I know it's true, so I'm very happy!

So, I took a small family photo.

Aunt Lien has a daughter and a son. I think it's my cousin and cousin.

Cousin Hong and Cousin Ming, both in size and weight, are a bit shocking.

However, both siblings are quite cute.

I really don't understand, every time I talk to Gan on the phone, my cousin Hong will stare at me as if she were staring at a prisoner. will add one more sentence: "Pick up a girl again?!"

I'll just dodge talking on the phone a little bit......

I don't sleep at night, even my aunt's room is not much, so I sleep with my three sisters.

When Gan found out, he said, "Won't it?!"

I said, "It's normal, my sister and I are like that." ”

It was clear that she was jealous. Then he asked me, "Like, if I slept with my brother, would you think it would be normal?"

I don't know how to answer, but if that were the case, I'd be a little jealous.

I can only lie to her and say that I have changed rooms......

Time continues to jump, and school has started.

The chat is still so frequent, but I'm used to it.

In math class, I couldn't listen to it, and occasionally I thought about it and hummed a few melodies. It feels pretty good. So, try to write down the melody. I thought of some lyrics, and then put the melody on and memorized it.

I thought I would forget it soon, but I was able to write it down. So, the first song I wrote in my life, "Heart of Love", was born!

When I sang it to Gan, she said it was a feeling she liked.

I had a great time and went on to write the second one......

However, the scared ones still came......

I sometimes talk to her, but all she talks about is a man in her factory. When she talked about the man, she seemed to be so happy. Seriously, I'm jealous. But I didn't let her know......

But after talking a few times, she even told me happily about the man's shaved head. That feeling is not like being in love, but like a friend. In my heart, I was already sad. But I still didn't let her know......

Sometimes when I sing to her, she doesn't listen to her anymore, but laughs and laughs with others. My heart has begun to break......

Until one day, she said to me, "The man was drunk and knelt down and begged me to be his girlfriend." You told me to break up with you. ”

I asked lightly, "Are you moved?"

"A little bit," she said. ”

Because of these words, my heart collapsed all at once! Why? Why should I be moved?

I remembered the chat I had with her earlier.

She told me to say the words "I love you" to her. I really said it. Not at its most affectionate, though.

I asked her, "Do you love me?"

She replied to me coquettishly: "I love you!"

At that moment, I was really moved to tears. Because for the first time, a girl said she loved me, and I felt so happy. It's just that she didn't believe that I was in tears......

In the same way, when she said that she was a little moved by the man's confession, I also cried......

So, they broke up......

It's that easy......

Perhaps, it's all because he's too young......

Dreams, still waiting.

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