'Knock!knock!'

In the quiet hall, the crisp voice of the wooden fish continues to echo, Xiaoyan is wearing a gray monk's robe, wearing a gray monk's hat, her eyes are slightly closed, her left hand is holding a prayer bead, and her right hand is holding *, her petite figure fluctuates slightly with her movements, and she looks so humble under the huge Buddha statue.

Seeing Xiaoyan's appearance, I sighed, stepped over the threshold of the main hall, and walked slowly towards her.

'Boom...!'

Feeling someone behind him, the sound of the wooden fish in Xiaoyan's hand stopped abruptly, turned around, and met my eyes.

'Smack!'

Xiaoyan turned around and found that the person standing behind her was me, and the * in her hand slipped unconsciously and fell to the ground under her.

Seeing Xiaoyan's appearance, my heart tightened for no reason, before Min Ke told me that Xiaoyan had experienced a car accident and was disfigured, although I was mentally prepared, but I was still taken aback, Xiaoyan's entire right cheek, the once beautiful face no longer exists, replaced by a large area of new flesh that has not yet healed, and has new flesh with flesh, because of the scars on her face, her right eye has also been squeezed into a very strange shape, which makes people feel intimidated when they look at it.

As soon as the sound of the wooden fish on Xiaoyan's side stopped, several monks next to him also stopped their movements, and looked at us curiously, I looked at the monks around me, and sighed: "Go out, I'll talk to you, okay!"

Xiao Yan heard my words, thought about it, nodded slightly, got up and made a gesture of invitation to the position of the side hall: "Donor, please here." ”

Hearing Xiaoyan's donor, I felt very uncomfortable, but I still stepped forward and followed Xiaoyan.

In the empty side hall, Xiaoyan was holding a cup of brewed tea in front of me: "Drink tea!"

"Okay!" I held the teacup and stared at Xiaoyan for a while: "Before I came, I had a lot to say to you, but when I got here, I didn't know where to start." ”

Xiaoyan smiled and looked at me with a calm face: "Planting is the cause, reaping the result is the effect, everything is idealistic, I am a monk now, I don't taboo words, you just have something to say." ”

"Min Ke said to me, your face is because of a car accident, isn't it!" I barely squeezed out a smile: "He said that you committed suicide, but I don't believe it, because in my impression, you have always been a very strong girl." ”

"There is no self, there is no one, there is no sentient being, there is no longevity, and the Dharma is like that, that is, the one who is separated from the beloved, I have become a monk, everything is empty in the monks, just a pair of skins, and it is not hindered. Xiaoyan fiddled with the tea set in her hand and opened her mouth very freely.

"How did you learn now, you can't even talk well, what's the matter, you've only been here for more than a month, and you've been brainwashed!" I was a little angry when I saw Xiaoyan talking slowly.

"Amitabha, donor, Buddha is pure, you can not be pious, but you can't lie. Xiao Yan paused for a moment and compared a Buddha's hand: "There are gods three feet above your head." ”

"I don't believe in gods and Buddhas, and I don't want to listen to your teachings, Min Yan, I came here today to take you away, I said a long time ago, I will be responsible for you. I put down the teacup in my hand and said seriously: "Come back with me, I swear, after I go back this time, I won't let others hurt you again, if you don't want to go back to Anyang, then go to Guangzhou to accompany Min Ke, although I can't afford to buy a house in Guangzhou, but I can still help you rent a small shop, sell clothes, accessories or something." ”

"Since you can find me here, then you should also know that there is no Min Yan in the world, only Shi Minghui in front of you, I am now a monk, please don't make fun of me. Xiaoyan looked at me and finally showed a smile: "I chose to practice here, not to escape from the earthly life, but I really like this kind of day when I listen to the masters preach the Dharma every day, quiet, leisurely, comfortable, and fulfilling!"

"You're full, but have you ever thought about others, even if you don't have to worry about me, then have you thought about it, what should Min Ke do?"

"From love to worry, from love to fear, if you are away from the lover, worry-free and fearless, I have escaped into the empty door, the fate comes and goes, the fate disperses and gathers, from the moment I lose my hair, I and Min Ke's sister and brother relationship, it has already dissipated, everything is the law of cause, all are the cause and harmony, the fate arises, the fate is not yet, nothing more. Speaking of Min Ke, although Xiao Yan's tone was resolute, a fleeting worry still flashed in her eyes, and then looked at me: "If possible, Min Ke will bother you to take care of it more." ”

Seeing that Xiaoyan had a trace of nostalgia for Min Ke, I seemed to grasp a life-saving straw: "Xiaoyan, since you can't let go of Min Ke, why don't you go back and take care of him yourself?" I know what you're worried about, don't worry, I have already cleaned up Bai Song and Li Xuele, who bullied you at the beginning, and your face, I will pay to send you to plastic surgery, and you will definitely recover......

"Donor!" Before I could finish speaking, Xiao Yan interrupted my words, and then shook her head slightly: "I said, my cultivation here is my own choice, I will enter the empty door, that is, I can see through, please don't say more, all the bad karma I created in the past was born from beginningless greed and foolishness, born from body, speech and mind, everything I repent now, if you are really me, don't disturb my cultivation anymore, okay?"

I looked at Xiaoyan and shrugged my shoulders: "But you are a red dust person after all, and you are also dyed with red dust." ”

"Man is in the midst of thorns, not moving or thorning, this is true of Buddhism, and so is it in the world. ”

In the face of Xiaoyan's always flat tone, I even seemed powerless with anger, as if I punched the cotton, before coming to Lingmei Temple, I thought that Xiaoyan chose to become a monk because of desperation, and I also planned to take her back to Anyang, but now it seems that Xiaoyan is determined to stay here, seeing Xiaoyan as if she was brainwashed, I still didn't give up and said: "Okay, since I can't persuade you, then I'll let Min Ke come and talk to you!"

"The years are free, and they will eventually be indifferent, and after a long time, he will forget me, if you bring him, it will only increase the troubles, I will be troubled, he will also be troubled, what do you say?" After Xiaoyan asked me, she smiled: "Min Ke is still a child, his heart is very immature, speaking of which, you are one of the few friends I had before I became a monk, Han Fei, just do me a favor and fulfill me, okay?"

"I don't understand, what's so good about this broken temple, it's so attractive to you!"

"Isn't the Buddha bad?" Xiao Yan saw that I was a little angry, and smiled: "There are dozens of temples and thousands of monks in this Putuo Mountain, if the Buddha is not good, how can so many people choose to accompany the Buddha?" Han Fei, you don't want me to lose my hair, because I have regrets in my heart and feel ashamed of me, and I choose to stay here, it really has nothing to do with those past events, just because I see it, and I really like this life now, it has nothing to do with you, if there is anything to do with it, that is, those past events, can make me muster up the courage to lose my hair, if you come to Putuo Mountain this time, it is really for my good, then I hope you know that only by staying here can I be truly happy. ”

After listening to Xiaoyan's words, I was silent for a long time, and then sighed deeply: "Maybe our meeting was really a mistake, if you hadn't met me, you wouldn't have ended up like this." ”

"Han Fei, do you believe in cause and effect?" Xiao Yan asked me abruptly, and then continued: "I don't know if you believe it or not, but I believe that if I hadn't met you at the beginning, then Min Ke may still be addicted to gambling in Zhouping County until now, if it develops until now, I really don't know what he will become, I know you, although I have experienced some bad things, but Min may return to the right path, which makes me very happy, from this point of view, our meeting is also good, isn't it?" Everything in the world has always had cause and effect, everything we have experienced is the calamity of our life, and it is also the tribulation that we should experience, now looking back, we met from strangers, you not only helped my brother arrange his studies, but also found a job for me, all of this is really good, but I am not satisfied, so I have planted evil consequences, and I have also got evil causes, Han Fei, my business, don't blame yourself, they have nothing to do with you. ”

"You don't have to enlighten me, no matter what you say, it was all because of it, I don't expect you to forgive me, but I can see you put down the past, and I am satisfied. When the words fell, I looked at Xiaoyan seriously: "I'm asking you a question now, you must have thought about it well, and then answer me, you plan to stay here and become a monk, is it really what you really think in your heart?"

Hearing this, Xiao Yan nodded without hesitation: "Yes." ”

"Okay, now that you've decided, I won't force it. Seeing that Xiaoyan didn't have the slightest intention of going with me, I stood up a little decadently: "I thought that this time I would definitely be able to bring you back, but I didn't expect you to be so persistent." ”

"I'll send you!" Xiaoyan didn't answer my question, and stood up with a light stroke of her sleeve.

Lingmei Temple, outside the mountain gate.

"This string of prayer beads, I've been wearing it for a month, if you have the chance, you can help me give it to Tangtang, but don't say that I gave it to me, Tangtang is a very sad little girl, if you know that I am a monk, I will definitely not be able to accept it, now I think about it, Tangtang is really a girl who is very good at taking care of people, but she can't take care of herself, except for Min Ke, the person I can't rest assured of is her!"

I took the rosary in Xiaoyan's hand and nodded: "When you don't want to stay here, or if you want to go back to see everyone, feel free to find me." ”

Xiao Yan heard the sound and nodded very elegantly: "This has gone through the years, joys and sorrows, and the vicissitudes of life in an instant, Xiao Ni can only always accompany the ancient Buddha and green lanterns, pray for the peace of the king, eliminate disasters and solve karma, the impermanence of the world is permanent, and I hope that the donor will have a variety of good fruits. ”

“…… Let's go!" Hearing Xiaoyan's words, I felt a little uncomfortable inexplicably, and after waving my hand casually, I turned around and walked towards the way down the mountain.

……

On the mountain road, remembering what Xiaoyan had just said, I lit a cigarette a little depressed, looked at the large wildflowers on the side of the road, and suddenly felt a little dazed.

It's time to bloom the flowers, and the dust is over, how much do you know......