Life is in the world, and nine times out of ten, things are unsatisfactory. I have always tried to lose my vitality in an inexplicable moment, just like the chicken blood all over my body suddenly ran out......

The feeling of tiredness and powerlessness, the sluggishness of the eyes, the helplessness of confusion, as if I had already made an appointment to come to a big party......

Well, whether to fight back or surrender is not a serious question, but it is a complex multiple-choice question of psychological torture.

He chose to resist but had no strength, and he chose to abandon his arms and surrender, but he was not reconciled. So what the hell should I do?

Well, when a person has an excuse to escape, strength, luck, and mood can all be used as shields...... So, it's not about what you should do, but what you really want to do......

If you really want to do that, even if you don't have the strength, you can move like a snail little by little, even if you don't have luck, you can make up again and again like a spider that has broken its web, and even if you are not in the mood, you can work hard like an animal that constantly adapts to the environment in order to survive, such as African elephants, zebras, wildebeests, etc., which migrate in the dry season every year......

Do you really want to do that? Do you think enough? How strongly do you think about it? Do you think of a stage as important as survival? If not, why do you blame everything around you that hinders you? It's just that you don't think about it enough, it's all an excuse......

Others can forgive themselves, but do you really feel that you really deserve to be forgiven for being cowardly and evasive like that?

There is a lyric in Mayday's "Stubbornness", which is very close to my heart: If I compromise with myself, if I lie to myself, even if others forgive, I can't forgive.

So, strengthen a heart that is willing to work hard, instead of finding a hundred reasons why you can't work hard. When others respect you, please know how to respect yourself.

When you are tired, you can move on after a while, when you are tired, create some happiness for yourself and continue to get used to it, if you are confused, give yourself a direction, even if you are wrong, change the direction, nothing is in vain anyway.

In this case, let the chicken blood that has flowed out, and fill it with chicken blood again.

Then, keep writing!

Time to go to the morning of May 26, 2017, well, I want to take Xiaoshi to play on the Dapeng Peninsula in Shenzhen, which should be the first time I really take Xiaoshi to play.

Sagittarius likes to play, and Aries likes others to take her to play, so Sagittarius and Aries are a natural pair in the horoscope pairing.

If I can't give her a wedding that she longs for for the time being, then take her to feel the joy of a small trip!

Riding and changing trains along the way, although I was a little tired, the overall feeling was still more happy than bitter.

Maybe it's been too long since I've been to the Dapeng Peninsula to play, so I'm a little lost, and Xiaoshi also teased me: "Do you know Lu Da? Don't take me away." ”

Once upon a time, I came to this unfamiliar Dapeng Peninsula single-handedly to play without trying to lose myself, and now the swelling may lose her? The probability of this occurrence is obviously infinitely close to zero.

After a lunch, I finally searched the route of the Dapeng Peninsula in my memory.

So, naturally, we headed for the first tourist attraction. Well, bayberry pit.

The sky was a little gray that day, and there was no Shenzhen blue that I liked, but it was better than the weather when I first went to Yangmeikeng, and the first time I went to Yangmeikeng was a drizzly weather, and the sea became the feeling of seeing the lake, and it was hazy.

Well, the best way to get to Yangmei Hang is to rent a bicycle and ride along the coastline! After all, it's a few kilometers away.

So, for the first time, I was finally able to ride with Xiao Shi.

I rented a mountain bike, and Xiao Shi rented a smaller lady's car. Well, sure enough, my darling really doesn't have any motor cells.

In fact, she fell and injured herself when she was a child learning to ride a bicycle, so she has a psychological shadow and doesn't dare to ride a bicycle. Even if you ride, you ride slowly and carefully. It's like, when I was a child, I was stuck in my throat by a fish bone when I ate fish, so I had a psychological shadow, and I began to slowly avoid eating fish, and then I was so disgusted by the fishy smell that I didn't like fish anymore. Even if you eat it, you just eat a little bit carefully.

Okay, then I'll ride slowly with my dear.

On the way, when Xiao Shi saw someone taking wedding photos, her heart was infinitely yearning, and she kept staring at the woman in the wedding dress, I could feel how strong her desire to take wedding photos was!

It wasn't a stage of my life that I could control, I was full of uncertainties, I was undecided at every step, and I didn't even know which direction would lead to the future I wanted.

When she saw someone else taking a wedding photo, she would turn her head and say, "Wow! Someone is taking a wedding photo! I really want to take it, when are we going to take it?"

Looking at her extremely yearning eyes, I really wanted to fulfill her wish and give her a positive answer, but although I didn't want to see her disappointed, I really couldn't be sure when I would be able to fulfill her wish in the future......

My heart was so entangled and lost......

I could only try to smile and say, "We'll see." "Is this perfunctory? I don't know, if it's perfunctory, why am I so uncomfortable? If it's not perfunctory, why can't I achieve it sooner?

Fate, I really can't be sure of anything when I happen to be at a confused age when I encounter the big things in my life......

Unexpectedly, these words are completely the abbreviation of my life in the past few years. I'm really not sure of anything......

The road still has to be continued.

We continued to ride forward and saw a small platform that was very photogenic. It's great that there's no one up there! for people like me who don't like to be disturbed.

On the small platform, I helped Xiaoshi take a few silhouettes with feelings, and I like to take silhouettes.

After that, I took a selfie with Xiaoshi. However, our selfies are not the kind of selfies that we take with our phones in our hands, but rather selfies that are similar to those taken by others.

That is, put the phone in a suitable position and turn it to a time-lapse to take pictures. I usually adjust it for 10 seconds because I have to swing.

The effect of the shoot is not bad, if you want long legs, you can have long legs, and if you want a backlit shadow, you can also have a particularly feeling of backlit shadow.

After Xiaoshi saw the photos I took with my mobile phone time-lapse, she also shouted to take a few photos with her mobile phone. Hehe, it seems that my photography skills have been approved by her.

Or, I can also say that I am the boyfriend who can take pictures in other people's houses. Just kidding, I'm just taking pictures, and I'm already a husband, so I'm as tired as those gods in other people's homes.

The trip to Yangmei Pit is mainly to take pictures and take an ordinary trip. I hope that the next time I go, I will meet the blue sky of Shenzhen.

After the trip to Yangmeikeng, I still looked for the hotel I used to stay in. People like me generally choose familiar things because they understand.

Something should happen at the night in the hotel.

However, they are already two in-laws, is there a big difference between what happens and what doesn't?

If not, then go to bed early and wake up early to be healthy.

The next day, I took Xiaoshi to climb the second highest peak in Shenzhen, Qiniang Mountain. As for Wutong Mountain, the highest peak in Shenzhen, Xiaoshi had climbed it with her colleagues before she knew me.

Well, Qiniang Mountain is relatively remote, and the number of people climbing the mountain is not very large, and the overall feeling is very natural.

When I first went to climb Qiniang Mountain, the weather was foggy, and when I looked up at the foot of the mountain, I couldn't see a mountain above it at all. Visibility is about eight meters.

At that time, it seemed that I was the only one who went to climb first, and it was extremely eerie, like watching a horror movie! I didn't know where I got the courage to dare to break in alone, and I deeply felt as if I was isolated from the world. I don't even know if there will be danger around. If a beast suddenly escapes, then hehe......

Fortunately, there was no danger that year, and I climbed to the top of the mountain, although there was fog everywhere, and I couldn't see the scenery below the mountain that I wanted to see, but I was also fortunate to witness the beautiful scenery of the clouds and mist rolling on the top of the mountain like the rolling waves. Sort of, there are gains and losses.

This time, I took the poem to conquer Qiniang Mountain again.

The beginning of the journey was speechless......

There is still a long way to reach the foot of the mountain, and Xiao Shi is attracted by the flowers on the side of the road, and every time she sees a flower, she can't help but go over and take pictures of it for a minute or two. No way, she likes flowers too much.

I had to look back at her every few steps, and then wait for her, oh, are we going to climb the mountain? Because time is pressing, I want to hurry up and climb, after all, I don't know how long it will take two people to climb up. At the same time, I would love to take her up to the glass observation deck and feel how beautiful the scenery is there......

Xiaoshi also knew that I was a little impatient to wait, so she asked me to keep walking, and she said that she would catch up with me.

Okay, I'll just walk slowly, walk a little bit, turn around, huh?

At that time, I was really afraid that I would lose her, and I was afraid that she would be in danger, and when I was about to run back, she suddenly jumped out of a hidden place on the side of the road, and did not forget to take a few more pictures of the flowers on the side of the road.

Oh my God! I ......

When it comes to climbing, I'm one of those people who rarely rests, I like to climb hard to get in the sight I want to see, and then I go down quickly. The reason why I became this kind of person is because I used to go on small trips mostly by bicycle, so I had to do it quickly and then ride home. There are many small trips to the mountains, and I get used to this feeling.

At the same time, I don't like to climb mountains and take breaks often, climb for five minutes, climb for 10 minutes, and rest for 15 minutes. The human body is inert, and the more you rest, the more tired your body becomes. Because when people rest, the fatigue of the body will be relaxed, but after resting for a long time or more, the fatigue of the body will depend on the comfortable feeling when resting, and when starting again, it will feel more tired, so that there is no motivation to climb up.

Of course, it's not possible to keep climbing without taking a break, after all, even machines need to take a break.

Therefore, because of the difference in concepts, Xiaoshi and I had a small conflict in the process of climbing Qiniang Mountain.

Because I just want to try to climb up, after all, I don't get too tired. But, Xiaoshi is not me, she will be tired. But I didn't take into account her feelings.

She was a little angry, well, it's my fault, maybe I hope that my other half likes sports and is not afraid of getting tired or sunburning......

After that, I slowly climbed up with the strength she could adapt......

Luck struck us when we finally climbed to the glass observation deck!

The gray sky broke a hole, and then slowly, there was sunshine, and there was Shenzhen blue, which I like very much!

So, it's crazy to take pictures again! Selfie, she shoots, I shoot, shoot together! Well, I feel very satisfied!

At that time, the most beautiful scenery was presented in front of us, we belonged to the early climber, and the people who climbed the mountain behind us were still a long way away.

Therefore, if you work hard to climb up and climb faster than others, although it will be harder, you will also get the rewards you deserve.

If we climbed to this glass observation deck with the people who were climbing the mountain behind, it would be difficult for us to let go and take pictures, after all, there are many people. It is necessary not only to frame the picture, but also to be careful not to take other people into it as much as possible and affect the quality of the photo.

At that time, we could say that we completely occupied the glass observation deck, and we could shoot as much as we wanted, and posed as we wanted, without any scruples because there was no one around.

It wasn't until we were completely satisfied and climbed a little further up that the climbers climbed to the glass observation deck, but by then, the sky had become cloudy again, and there was no more beautiful Shenzhen blue.

Therefore, the time when we first climbed to the glass observation deck can really be said to have taken advantage of the right time and place. Just two words can be described: perfect!

Finally, we climbed to the top of the mountain, and the wind was so strong and cool.

This time, I also saw the scenery that I didn't see when I first climbed Qiniang Mountain. Whew, it's worth it!

Xiaoshi also said to me happily: "Look, as soon as I accompany you, the weather will get better, how lucky!"

I smiled, "Yes, yes." ”

After taking the scenery into the phone, it felt like the time was almost up, and we started to descend the mountain.

In the process of descending the mountain, we will meet many people who are resting on the way to climb the mountain, and many people will ask us out of breath: "Handsome guys and beauties, how long will it take to climb from here to the top of the mountain?"

Well, in that moment, you will feel proud to answer this question. Because you've already climbed the mountain, and you've gone down the mountain with a lot of gain, they start climbing, and they're so tired that they doubt life.

Xiaoshi took the initiative to answer this question happily, I think, she should be able to understand the happiness of my spiritual world. Although my pace is a bit fast, nothing is in vain.

Overall, Xiaoshi still feels that my way of climbing the mountain is very tiring and I have too little rest. And said that if I still take her to climb the mountain like that in the future, she will not climb. Well, it seems, people always have to change. When I'm alone, I can crawl freely, but with important people around me, I can only take care of her feelings and climb selectively with the intensity she can adapt.

Perhaps, this can be regarded as a kind of growth.

At noon that day, we took the car back to check out, and then set off for the third tourist attraction - Xichong.

When I first went to Xichong, it probably left a very good impression on me because it was not developed for a long time, there were not many people, and the weather was very good.

Well, the sky is blue, the water is clear, the sand is fine and white, very beautiful! This kind of beauty is difficult to see in both Dameisha and Xiaomeisha, after all, both big and small Meisha see more people than the sea. In the same way, this beauty cannot be surpassed even when I go to Cambodia to see the sea there, and even when I go to Bali to see the sea there.

Really, beauty that goes deep into the soul!

However, with the passage of time, as soon as there are more people and commercialization is serious, the beauty of nature will be obscured.

After we took the car to Xichong, we got out of the car, and the contradiction began to be aroused.

Maybe the contradiction has been triggered after climbing Qiniang Mountain, because she is too tired...... And I'm always urging her......

So, she had a dissatisfaction in her heart......

This cannot say which of us is right and who is wrong, it can only be said that we do not know enough, and every contradiction represents a conflict of ideas between us and a lack of depth of mutual understanding.

I'm so anxious just to let her feel the things that I think are good, because it's so beautiful, and I can't wait. However, Xiaoshi's mentality does not belong to me, she is tired, she wants to rest, it's as simple as that. I'm tired and I have to keep going, and I feel hard to accept. Therefore, contradictions are inevitable.

If I add some empathy to that impatience, perhaps, it will feel a lot better. But, at that time, I was more lost......

It's like, you think you're giving, but it's a burden in the hearts of those who feel what you're giving.

Before I even made a procrastination, I fantasized countless times that I would take my significant other to experience the wonderful things I felt on my little trips.

However, when I actually did it, I turned it into a burden, and all of a sudden, my original intention was instantly broken. What I thought was beautiful was changed beyond recognition in an instant.

Was it the original me who was destined to disappear like this? I was silent......

I found a hotel in Xichong, but the price of sitting on the ground was ridiculously expensive, and I could only stay.

After that, Xiaoshi took a nap directly because she was too tired......

Therefore, I learned a lesson, and in the future, I will try not to rush so much when I take Xiaoshi on a small trip, and let her rest if she wants to rest, although there are many beautiful things that I think are too late to see, and I will no longer urge her. I can't see it this time, so I'll see it again next time I have a chance......

After she woke up, I took her to buy a ticket to go in and see the sea, and she said she hadn't seen the sea. I thought she would be happy to be so close to the sea for the first time, but no.

The calmness of her face silently made me feel guilty......

I walked with her to the beach for a while, and then took her on a boat to Lover's Island. But I feel that Lover's Island is so ordinary, and it has no characteristics at all.

She and I just walked around casually and watched other people touch crabs or something......

At that time, Xiao Shi saw a very special animal and pointed it out to me, and I followed the direction she pointed and saw an animal that looked like a sea snake but was not a sea snake.

It is a black serpentine body, with a body about the size of a thumb and a length of about twenty centimeters, as if it has no limbs, and the focus is on its head. It looks a bit like a dragon's head, the eyes are grayish-white, and it has four fangs, two on the top and two on the bottom.

As I stared at it, it looked up at me in the water, as if on guard, its mouth half-open and its four fangs in plain sight, in case I could fight back when I attacked it.

It really looks like a dragon, but I don't know what kind of breed it is, and I don't know if it's poisonous or not. In the end, I ignored it and let it swim away naturally.

The simple Lover's Island tour ended soon after, and the boat returned to the shore, and the sky was getting dark.

Well, go back to the hotel to rest and come back for a new day.

At the roadside stall, I simply had dinner, and after returning to the hotel to finish my work, I ate snacks, played with my mobile phone, and went to sleep when I was sleepy......

The morning of the third day of the tour is also the last day of the trip.

The weather on this day was very good! The blue sky was there, but the sun was too big and the blue was not obvious.

I took the umbrella and Xiaoshi to buy a ticket to go in to see the sea again, this time, I thought I could see the beauty of Xichong that I saw at the beginning, but it has changed, it seems that there are too many people, and I feel that the beauty has deteriorated.

Xiaoshi still has a calm face, and at most she takes a photo of the sea.

I wanted to bring her joy, but ......

With a brief walk, we went back to the hotel to check out, and then took the car back to finish this three-day trip.

Someone once seemed to have told me that being loved is happiness, and loving others is very tiring.

Well, I think it's all relative, if you love just right, you're happy, if you're too restrained, you're tired, and in the same way, if you can't make your lover happy, you're tired, and if you love so much, you're happy.

It is not terrible to have contradictions, but it is terrible to have contradictions and not to solve them. If left unchecked, small contradictions will become big contradictions, and the problem will be very serious.

To resolve the contradictions, we need to change. Change is sometimes painful, but there is always something worth it.

Therefore, it is easy to fall in love, but it is not easy to get married. After entering marriage, it is the real test of whether two people can be together well.

So I'm changing, I'm growing......