Slashing has become my latest job, once again being toyed with by characters.

I will be like starting a business, "Don't bother me, I want to kill, I don't have time to play with you", and I will be like work, "I haven't finished killing today, I can't go out to play." ”

Shit!

I've been looking forward to the beauty of the slaughter, just as I am looking forward to the consummation of the success of the business. The character skips the content directly, just like the fear of bad things happening, and likewise skips the specifics directly to the situation after the bad things happen.

It's a kind of play, and I can't resist it.

I'm imagining what a person should be in after the killing. What am I doing? Do I want to imitate? Can I do it by imitating the state of the person who has done it?

Character, you're too powerful, no matter how much I overestimate you, it's not overestimated.

I still find it unbelievable that it's not me who is thinking, but the characters who are thinking. It's all a subtle illusion, and the reason why I think I'm that thinking itself is because of continuity.

What I was thinking ten seconds ago, I remember. The goal I set a few months ago, I remember. I remember what I've been doing for the past few years. But this is just a memory, and there is no evidence that it is all real.

This continuity makes me think that I am the one who thinks, that I am the character, that I can easily control the character, even if sometimes I can't help but do stupid things.

But I'm just aware of it, and the characters have nothing to do with me.

And this continuity makes time seem unquestionable. The point is that these things are uncertain, and I take them as real.

I'm still looking forward to plumping out the characters, and I still hope that one day I can make the characters stand at the top. Damn, this is a coward, used to being toyed with by the character, and suddenly getting himself out of the role is simply at a loss.

After so many chapters of killing, he has no progress at all.

will still carry out cool fantasies, and still hope that the characters will make this or that move, and then get the worship of everyone. Even, sometimes you don't need everyone at all, and it's enough to feel that you adore yourself.

I am still acting according to my inner morality, it seems that it is what I think is morality, and it seems that I am not bound by others, but in fact morality itself comes from the public, and I am basically living in prison.

Set a boundary for yourself and then force yourself not to cross it. That's right, maybe there's a nice name for it, self-discipline. But after all, it's a distortion, and it's a man-made bullshit thing after all. Society needs stability, empire needs to grow, and everyone needs to comply with something.

Unfortunately, these are not true after all.

There are too many beautiful things, and the attractive factors that make the character become positive, benevolent and friendly, self-disciplined and strong, are all longed for and pursued by the character. I just want to kill these together, artificially distorted good, artificially distorted admiration, is fundamentally strengthening the attributes of the character.

Am I going to be a bad person, a bastard with no morals?

Don't know, maybe I'll do it if the terrain asks for it.

Damn, I'm thinking about what happens after the slaughter is over, fuck off!

Right now, right now, I'm being manipulated by characters. Can't you see it? Can't you feel it? I'm really a brave man? Pull it down, I'm a coward, I'm a loser!

Knowing that he could not go further in his career, and knowing that he would never be able to stand at the true peak of the empire, he came up with such a trick, hoping to elevate his status again by negating his entire life.

That's the truth, and even though I made sense of what I killed, and though I really couldn't confirm the truth of everything, deep down I just used these things as tools, as tools to get me to the top in another realm.

Quite simply, I want to get more by slashing, and that's it, that's my state. A loser knows that he can't turn over in the public field, so he takes another path to prove that he is not a loser!

Looking down on others is not because of a genuine hatred of self-definition, nor is it full of hatred for falsehood, but simply because it is a character attribute. I have to look down on others in order to show that I am on the path of slashing, in order to make myself think that I am a brave man who is moving towards truth.

Looking forward to when it will end? Can it be funnier again? I didn't TM start at all!

How many times, how many times have I admitted that I didn't start at all? Look, what's the use? I'm still not moving, and I certainly don't want to move.

The characters were shattered in front of me, as if I had succeeded in slaying the avatars of countless characters, and it seemed that I would soon be able to kill the characters themselves and put an end to it.

It's all liars!

The character is actively killed and actively retreats, creating the illusion that I am moving forward. The avatars of the characters who were slain were all transformed into new self-definitions and consolidated in the shadows, so that the characters were not damaged in the slightest.

Let's see, I'm confused again, isn't it because the previous method is meaningless, but I can't find a way to kill at all, so it's like a lost child standing at the intersection.

What the hell am I doing? How long will it take for me to be deceived by the characters before I start hating? Maybe not at all, maybe I don't have the opportunity to kill in my life, and I don't have the urge to kill.

Willing to be played with by the character, and then feel that the path pointed out by the character does seem to be good, and those goals that are driven by fear and choose do seem to be reassuring. If fear strikes again, it's good to pursue bigger goals.

If you are afraid that you will not have money, then go and earn money. It seems like a very simple way to do it, and it doesn't take much thought at all. But the question is, why is there a fear of not having money? How did this fear come to me?

What is the difference between TM and drug addiction if you are afraid of having no money, and then you are going to earn money? In this way, the character's self-definition is completely driven by fear, and then the character is made up of fear itself. It's just that there are many clothes changed, such as morality, friendship, kindness, etc., which one is not the deepest part of fear?

Afraid of a chaotic world, he forcibly twisted his brain and became the person who is now good. At the very least, behave as good as everybody.

Fearing that he will end up begging on the streets in the future, he desperately grabs something, and then works hard to achieve the goal of controlling the future.

Fear of "selflessness", no role, all the things you love are gone, the things you love are gone, and now this thinking will no longer exist, hobbies, pride, honor, sadness, joy, etc., are all gone.

To commemorate the Grim Reaper is to let fear in, to imagine that you are dead, to imagine that everything you value will be gone. That's right, that's what commemorating the Grim Reaper is about, not about the existence of time.