Since when did I start paying attention to loneliness? I seem to have forgotten about ......

Loneliness is sometimes terrifying, so terrible that it is as if there is a beast roaring in front of your defenseless self! Sometimes it is so comfortable, so comfortable that it seems that the world is only for you alone, and only you can feel the feelings. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

If you regard "loneliness" as an enemy, then you will get mass happiness, but it is difficult to really break through your inner self and not be truly strong. Why? Because once you are against it, you have to be with others all the time. Otherwise, when you have to face the problem alone, when you accidentally get into trouble and don't have friends by your side, "loneliness" will sneak up on you, bite you hard, and even destroy you.

If you regard "loneliness" as a friend, then you are likely to break through your ability to a level that you can't even imagine, but you will only get happiness for yourself, and not necessarily happiness. Why? Because once you become friends with it, it will train your mindset, stimulate your potential in many casual moments, and make you feel reborn. However, the price may be your happiness. Although it is strong, the mentality of being easily happy has deteriorated......

So, is "loneliness" an enemy or a friend?

I don't know, because that's everyone's choice. A truly powerful person can live in the happiness of the masses or in the solitude of one person. That's what I yearn for......

In the happiness of the public, you can feel the color of the world, which is beautiful. But if you stay in those pleasures for too long, you will become dependent and numb.

In a person's loneliness, you can feel many subtle changes in your heart, which is also beautiful. But staying alone for too long will lead to isolation, and similarly, too long will lead to numbness.

In other words, in the happiness of the public, it is the macro feeling of life. And in a person's loneliness, it is the microcosm of life feelings. Both are equally important, and it's not good to rely too much on one or the other.

I think the best time I can remember was when I was in the second grade of elementary school, where I could live naturally in the joy of the public, or I could be alone in my room doing homework and playing with toys. Anyway, it's just happy. That's why it was the most rewarding year of my academic career.

So when I heard someone laugh at me for being silly as a child, I laughed awkwardly. Whew, when I was a child, I knew life best. Now I seem to be even more stupid......

However, since I got used to loneliness in high school, there are no big ups and downs, at most some small emotions that I think too much. It's inexplicable, but there's a lot of inspiration in it......

Now I'm lonely, occasionally sentimental and lonely, and I'm best at this time to write songs. It's just, it's too lazy......

Loneliness is not scary for me now, what is scary is that I don't think in solitude.

That day, the last day of July 2015, was a bit of a rush. Because I'm going to break through......

That month was a milestone for me. In the wee hours of that morning, I finally managed to get the number of paintings (from 2014 onwards) to 100. Moreover, I had to write three more articles that day, bringing the number of new articles to one hundred and nine, which is the same as the number of articles in the first draft of "The Girls I Like". Similarly, the number of journals written that month would have reached 48, far more than the 35 that were written in March 2014.

I value data so much, it's really not strong enough. It doesn't matter, at least I'm happy. As soon as I'm happy, I'll be motivated to continue to create.

After finishing the painting in the early hours of the morning, it was late, and I had to go on a small trip after dawn. So, "Hurry" really liked me in 2015.

I set the alarm clock for six o'clock that morning, but the alarm clock was always so gentle that I couldn't see whether I was in a dream or in reality. When I woke up, it was almost half past seven. Well, is this the rhythm of the bus?

Forget it, since it's all like this, so be it. Everything is going on as normal, and twenty minutes later, with a sunny smile, let's go!

Oh, no breakfast. Let's eat breakfast first, it's very important! I used to go on a small trip, and I usually didn't eat breakfast, because I was afraid of trouble. As a result, it's all the rhythm of wanting to vomit in the car.

Naturally bought a breakfast to eat, well, not at all in the way the shuttle bus I wanted to take would have left while I was having breakfast. After eating and digesting quietly for a few minutes, the shuttle bus I wanted to take came naturally. Everything is so natural.

Because it is already past eight o'clock, most of the office workers have already gone to work, so the bus is not crowded.

When you arrive at the transfer station, get off the bus. The sun was a little warm, but I loved it. Then I said to myself stupidly in the direction of the bus I wanted to take, "Here it is!"

And then, it's really coming! It's so natural!

It's a person who loves to laugh, isn't it too lucky? But I didn't have a smile on my face at that time, I just smiled in my heart. Perhaps the real meaning should be this--those who love to laugh in their hearts will not be too lucky.

After that, again, we arrived at the transfer station.

I got off the bus, walked around casually for two minutes, and the bus I was going to take came. It's all so natural......

I found a seat on the bus that was facing each other, and I don't usually sit in these seats, but why did I sit this time? because, hehehe, there was a girl in a short skirt sitting opposite me, it was so tempting!

Haha, just kidding, because the bus I took was a sightseeing bus, which had two tiers. I don't like to go to the top floor, so I sit on the ground floor, and the seats on the ground floor are empty only for the seats facing each other. And it just so happened that across from my seat sat such a seductive girl.

But then, someone got on the bus again. Wow! I may not have come out to see the world for too long, and those sister papers are so beautiful that I have no words!

A super temperamental girl paper sat opposite me, and next to me sat a girl paper with a little thick makeup, but it was also beautiful. Wow! I'm so excited! It's been a long time since I've tried to get so close to a beautiful woman! Also, it's very fragrant! The right perfume smell makes that girl paper more attractive! However, these girls seem to like to dye their toenails...... Red...... Pink......

After the girl who was sitting across from me and sitting next to me got out of the car, another beautiful girl came over and sat next to me. Hehehe, hehehe, let me laugh for a while...... Hehehe......

Looking at the female conductor, it was like filming. That look, that action, it's really cool!

I felt it while writing quietly. It's all such a natural thing......

Let it be, and nature may give you nature.

After arriving at the end, I finally found a very quiet and somewhat emotional place to eat, I couldn't imagine that I still couldn't hide, there would still be couples next to me, all kinds of sweetness, all kinds of affection......

That's 10,000 points of lethality for me, but my defense index is only 1,000 points......

Phew, I remember, there will be gains and losses.

Yes, I leisurely went to the beautiful Xichong Beach to play, take pictures and play on the days when others had to go to work......

However, I am on my own......

No matter how beautiful and fun the places I go to, the one to know is that I am on my own.

I take pictures by myself, giggle by myself, walk around by myself, talk by myself...... I'm on my own......

I watched other people take pictures of each other alone, I watched all kinds of flirting and scolding of couples, I watched all kinds of frolicking and playing in happy families alone, and I watched myself in the selfie shot trying to smile all kinds of smiles...... I'm alone......

So many times your envy and jealousy are also the envy and jealousy of others, and you can't see the beauty you have.

The most irresistible thing for me is always the various shows of affection as a couple. After all, it's hard to accept in the first place, let alone have a period of time......

Even if it's hard to accept, there's nothing to resist, everything has a cause and effect, who told me not to know how to cherish it in the first place? This is the punishment......

Fortunately, I also remember that there are losses and gains.

My decision to quit my job at Xidesheng was also influenced by many factors. Even if there is no problem with the family aspect and the personal foundation, it will still be affected by one factor, and that is emotion. If I had been in a relationship at the time, I would not have made the choice to give up my job at Xidesheng. But I have never been able to fall in love, even though I want to...... Perhaps, in the dark, there is still an arrangement.

In general, it can only be like this: when you are single, you live a free life, and when you are in love, you hurt the other half who has been hard to find for several years.

For me, this is called the way of living.

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