That feeling came again, obviously feeling that there was nothing to kill, and even feeling that I just had to sit there and let the distortion in my head dissipate.

It's a pity that the emotional pull will not be discussed with me at all, and you can come and go as soon as you want.

Didn't I realize that the character of Yuan Changwen could not control anything at all? What kind of illusion made me believe that the character of Yuan Changwen could exert influence on anything?

The character always tries to control all this, and always believes that the distortion in his mind is the magic weapon to control life, what the hell is Nima! How many times do you have to talk about this issue? Just discard the distortion in your head!

It's that I don't dare to throw it away, I'm always afraid, as if once I discard the distortion in my mind, I will immediately become another existence.

That is, the death of the character.

I have a feeling that if the distortion in my mind is completely discarded, then the character of Yuan Changwen will die. Even, now there is a feeling of pushing, as if something is squeezing the role of Yuan Changwen.

If the role of Yuan Changwen does not leave, new things will not come in. But the departure of the role of Yuan Changwen has actually announced the death of the character, and the new thing is definitely not the character.

And I, on the other hand, firmly grasped the role of Yuan Changwen and did not let go, because once I let go, even this thinking would disappear.

But on the other hand, I hated myself for not letting go, and how ugly the distortion in my mind was. It's a pity, no matter how ugly it is, it's all a constituent element of my character!

Will there be a time to let go?

I always feel like a child, as if I have just been born into this world, and everything is still ignorant. Especially after not believing in the distortion in the mind, how to feel the flow of life becomes a new problem.

There are still many things that have not yet begun, how can it be that the character dies?

I've been slashing, I've always wanted the character's death. But now, it seems that as long as you let go, the character will fall into the abyss and never appear again. Unfortunately, I didn't dare to let go.

It's really scary.

But I don't know what I'm afraid of.

Is this what it feels like to "I don't know"?

Damn it!

I'm still trying to compare the map given by the teacher, as if it's in the late stage of the kill or in the early stage of the kill? Is there something wrong with my brain? What is the point of this comparison? How do I know where I am? Or rather, how do I know that the teacher's map is accurate?

Whose means are these things that are trying to control? Can't you still see that all this is a trick of the characters? Why do you want to believe the characters? Why do you try to comfort the characters?

I know that it's because thinking belongs to the role that I don't want to disappear. But I have to say it a few times, I just feel that there is a thought here, I am that awareness!

That awareness is everything, so whether it's the body or the mind or the trees and steel and so on, it's all "non-awareness," that is, it's all unreal, it's non-existent.

Why should I care so much about something false? Even if the thought itself is false, there is no reason to cling to falsehood. I'm just aware of what I'm thinking at the moment, and what memory I have about what I thought about in the previous moment, what evidence is there that these thoughts are me?

The story of Yuan Changwen's character is over, why don't you leave? New residents are already knocking on the door, why are they still holding their brains and not giving way?

What am I still doing? Isn't this what I've always wanted? Isn't this the death of the character I've been pursuing? Why is it that at this time, I have grasped it even tighter?

What's going on?

Why can't characters die?

The character of Yuan Changwen not only deserves to die, but it is better to die immediately. Only in this way will the distortion in my mind dissipate, and only in this way can I enjoy this life.

My life has just begun.

I used to have a car, a house, a wife, and the title of the first person in the empire, but I knew in my heart that my life had no beginning at all. In the past, I could honestly say that I was very happy and happy, or that I had some great teachings for my disciples.

But my life just didn't have a beginning. Firmly controlled by the distortion of the mind, all you can see is the wall of thought. The message that the trees and steel wanted to convey was completely blocked out by the distortion in their heads.

The character of Yuan Changwen is no different from the trees and steel, and there is no difference between him and a piece of. So, I should be able to feel the trees and steel directly, after all, everyone is the same material, and they are all false components of dreams.

The only difference is that the flesh of Yuan Changwen's character has always appeared in the perceived picture. It's like a first-person game, where it appears that there is a person moving, and it appears that there is a person holding some kind of weapon. But in fact, it's just the scenery moving, and then part of the body is there all the time.

How do I know that this is not the case?

All I can be sure of is that I exist, that awareness. And by reasoning, it comes to the conclusion that that awareness is everything. In this way, anything that I am not sure of becomes false in the face of the phrase "that awareness is everything."

Everything is that awareness, and anything that is not that awareness is not real. In this way, the body, the mind, and so on become false, and they all become non-real beings. And what is not real, in fact, does not exist at all.

Then, all the care, all the hard work, all the hard work and efforts will come to naught. In fact, these things are in vain. The character of Yuan Changwen is not real, so why not enjoy it and not be arrogant, but live according to the distortion in your mind?

I also want to end up in this position, and then break the template character to become a custom character, and enjoy this life.

It's a pity that it seems that he has gone too far, far enough to turn back.

The character is supposed to die, but it seems that he can't prevent the character's death, and of course I don't want to. Even though I am afraid, although I am worried about the arrival of new residents, I will eventually let go and let the character die.

Further!

What else is there to hesitate about?

What else is there to think about?

Yuan Changwen found that he couldn't raise his energy at all, and he couldn't keep his anger and let the character die. My heart is as calm as the depths of a lake, but it is full of unknowns.

No one knows what will happen in the depths of the lake.

I'm still falling, can I hit the bottom?

I don't know, even the fact that a new resident knocks on the door about the character's death is just speculation. That feeling haunts me, but how do I know what these feelings are?

Maybe we'll find out what we're going on after we're done.